what a grand musical homage to the overwhelming loss countries have endured in 2021, and it will likely continue into 2021. There is no making sense of it all, but music sure offers a form of feeling it all...strange concordance of light and heaviness in the piano and the  melancholy of the strings. I liked hte heaving of the shoulder around 2m..that section with the brass and winds adding to the strings seemed particularly poignant...loved the flute approaching 3m...seemed to offer an upward gaze. There is always wisdom and thought in your musical ponderings, Phil. Thank you for the repose offered here. And a nod to the optimism that 2021 will bring an end to the loss and grief.

An electronic instrumental composed using the generic synthesisers and sequencers in Garage Band and Logic. No real instruments were used on this one.

© 2023 Dairv Dubbleyew

Chasing the Dream

Official video via this link: 

https://youtu.be/hTVqDsQmymU?si=gREErNDuCOFMVDI2

music & drums performed on Roland Jupiter 80 
Written & produced by Mike Molino, Mastered at @woods_studio
Wolf photo courtesy of michaelsongs visit their YouTube page here: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCaKGeO4yHBqhe2nu9TTFOZA

Ran to the mountain top but still not high or far enough away 
I still could hear them call my name 
Chocking on soda pop it fizzled to my tired and worried brain 
For a moment I forgot their pain 
Love, Used to hold each other when the day was done
Love, Now we duck and cover cause we can’t outrun 
My girl is beautiful sharp mind hot body personality 
She brings to life my wildest dreams 
My mind is hijacked thinking real is fake 
now true and fantasy is on a collision course full steam 
Love, Acting like a stranger but I know you well
Love, Waving to each other from across the cell 
deja vu  I lose my mind just thinking bout you
But then it’s 
Holy smokes when you come around here 
Oh yeah 
Believe in me like I believe in you 
She has a softer side when showcased on the full sized movie screen
But when the lights go down oh no
From far away the hurricane looks like a pillow in the blue 
The silver lining hides the truth 
Love, Used to hold each other when the day was done
Love, Now we duck and cover cause we can’t outrun 
Love, Acting like a stranger but I know you well
Love, waving to each other from across the cell
I used to get real scared just thinking bout it WWIII 
now psychopathic thugs have got nothing on me
But still it’s 
Holy smokes when you come around here

come around here

Wishing All friends on Soundcloud Happy Holidays and a very Merry Christmas  and all good things for the coming New Year. Thank you all for your kind support too!!⛄️⛸️⛄️🎄

Merry Christmas    (Cover)

Space rock prog. This track, "Safe Space", is a collaborative effort conceived and developed by David. k. A. Spencer and cgmaness. 
David Spencer @ on.soundcloud.com/akXnp
cgmaness @ on.soundcloud.com/P8e3u 
Original music (Guitar, bass, flute) cgmaness.  (Guitar, bass synths drums, percussion & co arrangement, production) D. k. A Spencer

Safe Space. (collab) cgmaness

(Free WAV Download available here under '••• More'; and eventually, as part of 'Last Call')

Greetings my SC friends. It’s been a strange few months, and I am excited to be back. But I have a feeling it’s not going to look like it did… at least for the near future. I’m having a hard time organizing my thoughts lately. And while the musical energy is flowing better than ever, my ability to write satisfying liner notes is feeling a little clogged (this will be my 6th attempt at this write-up). 

As much as I regret it, the write-ups may need to stay on hold for a while longer. But first, I wanted to share what happened (in the form of a write-up. Lol). 

For starters, it’s important to mention I’ve been an alcoholic since I was 15 (a 40 year relationship). And although I genuinely loved what a nice beer buzz did for my noisy mind, I also knew what toxic alcoholism looked like (from many examples in my extended family). So I knew I had my work cut out for me, if I wanted to overcome my genetic dependancy. 

Granted, I also have a ‘responsibility’ vein that runs deep. I did my best to prioritize my family and responsibilities first (‘don’t drink til 5:00. Don’t drink if ya have to drive’ kinda stuff), and I considered myself a ‘functioning alcoholic’. Truthfully, I was never ashamed of my drinking. As a teenager, the ability to not give a shit that I found in a beer buzz honestly saved my life. And it allowed me to unplug from the noise for many decades after that.

But I wanted to do better than that, so I started making changes quite a while ago. Here’s a brief summary of how that unfolded:

1. Back in 2006 I concluded my negative headspace was the root of the problem (perspective is huge); so I altered my daily routines, knowing it would take years to undo the lifetime of programming that caused that thinking in the first place. I started consuming info that was positive and hopeful and loving (and avoided negative info like my life depended on it… which it did). And I did that intensively for the next 15 years.

2. But by January of 2023, I realized the beer buzz no longer quieted the noise and ugliness happening in the world (it all went too chaotic too fast). So if the crutch wasn't helpful, it needed to go. That’s when I tried Tai Chi (to give my mind something else to focus on). And it worked brilliantly.

3. Over the next 6 months, thanks to the calmer headspace created by Tai Chi, I cut my drinking tremendously (and for perspective, we’re talking 9-18 Natties daily… down to 3-6 Natties daily). The surprise outcome… the fog in my mind was clearing for the first time, and I was not prepared for sober adult Justin (man is my brain chattery when left to it’s own devices). So at the beginning of August 2023, I decided to take my Social Media break. That was more timely than I could have imagined, because…

4. On August 26th I was given the gift of Pancreatitis (the disease that lets you know ‘Wow, Dude. You drink way too much’). I went to the Emergency room with terrible intestinal pain, and I ended up in the hospital for 5 days. Long story short, I left the hospital sober, and have been that way ever since. And I’m genuinely happy about that… because thankfully, I did a great job preparing for that day.

So in a nutshell... I am back. But the writings may have to wait a while longer (at least until I figure out how my new clearer headspace works). Interestingly, I managed to produce almost an entire album of new music over my break, so I'll put those new songs up on SC over the coming weeks. 

And since I’m just a few songs short of completion, I’ll be releasing a very personal album (symbolizing my adventures with sobriety) very soon. It’s called ‘What Color Is Your Paradox?’, and I hope to have it on Bandcamp in February.

In the meantime, I’m happy to be back. And I look forward to seeing what all of you have been up to over the last few months. :)

 Big hugs from your blatantly open-book friend.
-Justin

Paradox?

Last Call



Lyrics  & Vocal by me                   On piano a very good friend 

Lyrics:

If only I could get one more chance to be
with you again
It would mean so much to me

But now its to late
You are not here
I never get a chance
To se you again...

If only I could get one more chance to say
that i really cared
It would mean so much to me....

If only I could get one more chance to do
the right things for you
It would mean so much to me...

But now its to late
You are not here
I never get a chance
To se you again...
Ohhhhhh.....!

If Only....      (Original)

I feel so lucky that Dave Orestes 1 allowed me to record a rendition of his wonderful song " What Is Rich" ! 

Written by Dave Orestes 1 
https://on.soundcloud.com/JG7gH

Recorded/Mixed: Audacity
Guitar: Cort MR710 LH NS
Mic: Rhode USB Mini
Tam Jennifer: Interpretation, Vocals, Guitar, Mix & Master

Lyrics (Dave Orestes):

What is rich? You're asking me
Rich is so simple, don't you see
It's not what you own but what you do and say
.
What is rich? You're asking me
It's not hard to explain
It's all about what you feel
And not what you touch
Every day
.
Rich is how well you sleep at night and
your thoughts on your own death bed
when you have few regrets
few regrets
.
Rich is passing on
the prospect of hope
so that all have a chance
to prosper and grow
Rich is not how tall 
Your sky scrapers grow
no no no no
.
Or the number of seats
in your stadium row 
It's not how many toys
in the attic you've stowed 
oh no no
that's not it
.
What is rich? You're asking me
Oh it's not hard to explain
It's all about what you feel
Not what you touch every day 
.
Rich is when
All the children are fed
And each of them has 
A warm safe bed
Rich is how 
You care for people 
That, you've never met
.
It's not hard to explain 
It's all about what you feel 
And not what you touch
Every day
.
Doo da doo da doo
Laa la laa la laa
Laa la laa la laa
Laa la laa
La laa la la
.
© Dave Orestes 1, Tam Jennifer Hastings, 2024. All rights reserved.

What Is Rich (with Dave Orestes, 2024)

Thought I'd try something different and create a Lo-Fi synth track, enjoy! 

Late Night Drive

This track is a collaboration with Synline (Tokyo) on.soundcloud.com/bzQWw

Synline shares ... I thought this song would be suitable for the opening of the album. When I asked SeaShea for guitar, he not only contributed his usual electric guitar but also created some tracks with synthesizers. The song, initially incomplete, reached its completion through his efforts. Collaboration has been a fulfilling experience.
Composition and Sampling collage by Synline
Guitars, Synthesizers and arrangement by SeaShea
We hope you enjoy.

'Into the Underworld' Synline=SeaShea

Video;
youtu.be/1-FGq6953PY

Made in #Ableton (February 2024)

Genres;
#Electronic
#EDM
#Experimental

Behind The Mirror

A moment of quiet reflection...  after so much loss over the last few months.

Lost Souls Elegy

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