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misplaced flora [now at https://soundcloud.com/phixel]

prod. @fortuneswan
mixed/mastered by me
editors notes: i fucking love this song so much, i made it all in one night the same night i got the beat back from fortuneswan and im so proud of it tysm fortuneswan this beat is amazing

lyrics:
i know u like it like that
u love to talk all that trash
but you cant even come to bat
thats just so fake
you love to hit me on the text
and act like u dont rock with that
until i run and bring it back
right in ur face (aaaah)

i dont need someone to believe in
scavenger, im finding shit that u know im keeping
ok im pretty grim, lets get to reaping
rotating thru the seasons, i hate the shit im feeling
i feel just like a deity
dark matter running through my veins (my veins)
i wish i had the decency
to acknowledge the end of my days
i dont need someone to believe in
scavenger, im finding shit that u know im keeping
ok im pretty grim, lets get to reaping
rotating thru the seasons, i hate the shit im feeling

im in my bag, ur in ur buick
i make big claims with receipts to prove it
i look like a model, you look fuckin ruined
bitch i smell like roses, you smell like fuckin sewage
moving slow down the highway (slow down, slow down)
so the memory can get saved (get saved)
and i know u aint like mae (u aint like mae)
can you jus give a little leeway

i know u like it like that
u love to talk all that trash
but you cant even come to bat
thats just so fake
you love to hit me on the text
and act like u dont rock with that
until i run and bring it back
right in ur face (aaaah)

i dont need someone to believe in
scavenger, im finding shit that u know im keeping
ok im pretty grim, lets get to reaping
rotating thru the seasons, i hate the shit im feeling
i feel just like a deity
dark matter running through my veins (my veins)
i wish i had the decency
to acknowledge the end of my days
i dont need someone to believe in
scavenger, im finding shit that u know im keeping
ok im pretty grim, lets get to reaping
rotating thru the seasons, i hate the shit im feeling

darkmatterdeity [p. fortuneswan]

prod. me
mixed/mastered by me
editors notes: i made this beat after listening to 'u mean even less to me now' by lieu for the first time, and i remastered the beat and put vocals on it just recently :) my microphone broke literally RIGHT AS i was finished recording the first verse, it was originally meant to have a second verse but i couldnt record it in time before i broke my snowball :(

lyrics:
going to bed hungry
waking up sad and lonely
longing for death, i'm starving
all that i want is mercy
yeah i'm just stuck in my bets
and yet i dont give a shit
yeah i just do this for kick
you know i'm stuck up in my-

im stuck up in my ways
dont ever wanna change
dont make me get out of bed
im making worlds in my head
and i jus dont give a shit
you dont wanna be my friend
you just wanna see my end
youre jus so fucking fake
hope you drown in the lake
for everybodys sake

i get ignorance from apprentices
im in chrysalis, metamorphosis
and if you persist i might slit your wrist
oh so vigorous, sour citrus

going to bed hungry
waking up sad and lonely
longing for death, i'm starving
all that i want is mercy
yeah i'm just stuck in my bets
and yet i dont give a shit
yeah i just do this for kick
you know i'm stuck up in my-

im stuck up in my ways
dont ever wanna change
dont make me get out of bed
im making worlds in my head
and i jus dont give a shit
you dont wanna be my friend
you just wanna see my end
youre jus so fucking fake
hope you drown in the lake
for everybodys sake

stuck in my ways

prod. me
mixed/mastered by me
editors notes: this song used to be a 52 blue mondays clone called 'eye' but i decided to put the lyrics for eye on a less ... clone wannabe sounding beat :)

lyrics:
i just dont know whats going on
all these words are swooping down and pecking, oh my god
paintings look at me with bad intent
unreality, its just so hard to comprehend

its all an abstraction
a piece of the world, just a miniscule fraction
i can't take the factions
we're just so divided, dont start the subtraction

knives in my eyes
and in my back that you left in me
you took my life
can't take that back, i won't rest in peace
trudge across the earth with an open wound
blood dripping down, i'll miss that soon
knives in my eyes
and in my back that you left in me

paint a hundred thousand paintings of what you suspect
is inside my mind, and it won't be right
write a hundred thousand books about what to perfect
how to follow the light, how to keep things tight
and you're hurting my head like my brains in a blender
im feeling the rain, cause im under the weather
and i know i'll get back at you soon
yea i know i'll get back at you soon

aaaaaaaah
aaaaaaaah
i just dont know whats going on
all these words are swooping down and pecking, oh my god
paintings look at me with bad intent
unreality, its just so hard to-

and when i do it hurts my head
and when i do it hurts
and when i do it hurts my head
and when i do it hurts

knives in my eyes
and in my back that you left in me
you took my life
can't take that back, i won't rest in peace
trudge across the earth with an open wound
blood dripping down, i'll miss that soon
knives in my eyes
and in my back that you left in-

(knives in my back you left in me, in me)

knifeback

prod. me
mixed/mastered by me
featuring verse from funeral
editors notes: im the first ethical glitchcore artist. almost everything in this is my sound design except for the 808 and some of the little fills which im very proud of :D funeral fucking KILLED this verse too holy shit thank u 2 funeral

lyrics:
[phixel]
dont u even try to talk me
you just lie, cant u just fuckin be honest please
acting up but irl youre not gon come for me
knives in my back and glass shards in my feet (glass shards in my)
dont u even try to talk- talk- 
you just lie, cant u just fuckin be honest please
acting up but irl youre not gon come for me
knives in my back and glass shards in my feet

[funeral]
glass shards in my eyes yeah
i'm ok it feels fine yeah
i ain't felt this alive yeah
i was you, i'd rather die yeah

hush, go to sleep
i would think twice
bout thinking bout twice
before you come talking to me

big benz, ima die or i ride
big guns, i make him unalive
no friends, you a loner inside  
no friends, you a loner inside

bitch ima demon

[phixel]
dont u even try to talk me
you just lie, cant u just fuckin be honest please
acting up but irl youre not gon come for me
knives in my back and glass shards in my feet (glass shards in my)
dont u even try to talk- talk- 
you just lie, cant u just fuckin be honest please
acting up but irl youre not gon come for me
knives in my back and glass shards in my feet

misplaced flora

glass

bandcamp!!!!

glass w/ funeral

prod. me
mixed/mastered by me
editors notes: theres not much to say about this one except oh yeah baby. phixel ambient album outro this is so cool

lyrics:
there arent any lol

wound

prod. suyuki + phixel
verse by nari
mixed/mastered by me
editors notes: last one for a while
what a song i love this :D thank u to su and nari for helping make this, made the first half in a goop house challenge (5/21/21) and i wanted to add that second section later ^^

[phixel]
feel like a cow laying down in the grass
no care in the world cuz its all in the past
and i know i got troubles but they will all pass
but for now i wont stress like a cow in the grass

i saw you and it was like a dream
i swear to god id give u everything
i swear to god id give u everything ive got to give

[nari]
im falling in love with the idea of being happy again
im feeling so dead inside i hope i pray i hope this night wont end
my body is in a million pieces , pick up the pieces of my heart
it feels like ive been pulling demons , pulling demons out my scars

[phixel]
feel like a cow laying down in the grass
no care in the world cuz its all in the past
and i know i got troubles but they will all pass
but for now i wont stress like a cow in the grass

i saw you and it was like a dream
i swear to god id give u everything
i swear to god id give u everything ive got to give

// SECOND SECTION //
aaaah
speak no longer, no longer
my child
i am here, ill take your pain
no need to worry any longer
im like glass
oooh

cow in the grass

cow in the grass w/ suyuki + iris day

prod. @holidaykiss
mixed/mastered by me
editors note: i love this song robyn made such a good beat and i put some cool vocoder on my vox we are hit makers,,,, this is a happy song which is good because i rarely make them

lyrics:
they said 'who the fuck do you think you are'
i said 'im someone who will go real far'
i'm a bad ass bitch, i dont know when to quit
i'mma give it my all and get jiggy with it
they said 'who the fuck do you think you are'
i said 'im someone who will go real far'
i'm a bad ass bitch, i dont know when to quit
i'mma give it my all and get jiggy with it

i keep these bitches on payroll
thats on the ice in my blueberry faygo
and i try my best to just stay cool
dont wanna do up your face with some staples
i cant ever keep shit PG huh
these motherfuckers want to be me huh
call him scotty way he beam me up
maserati riding, freaky huh

they said who the fuck do you think you are
i said oh oh
they said who the fuck do you think you are
ah ah ah

they said 'who the fuck do you think you are'
i said 'im someone who will go real far'
i'm a bad ass bitch, i dont know when to quit
i'mma give it my all and get jiggy with it
they said 'who the fuck do you think you are'
i said 'im someone who will go real far'
i'm a bad ass bitch, i dont know when to quit
i'mma give it my all and get jiggy with it

they said who the fuck do you think you are
i said oh oh
they said who the fuck do you think you are
ah ah ah

who u r [p. holidaykiss]

prod. me
mixed/mastered by me
editors notes: i made all of the basses/808s in this myself which im very proud of, also polyphonic bass go screeeeeee ;)
lyrics:
if youre the cream into my coffee imma start drinking it black
you took a whole year of my life and i will never get it back
you know your concentrations low, you could never stay on track
i can cut you no more slack, now you gotta take the flak
if youre the sunshine on my valley then i guess its gonna rain
you dont reply to any texts, my heart is heavy, feel the pain
you know youve lost all of the evidence thats backing up your claim
you think im the one to blame

i been on the low
i been trying to stay incognito
if youre trying to make contact please dont
i do good by myself
i dont need any help
i been good cant you tell

i been on the low
i been trying to stay incognito
if youre trying to make contact please dont
i do good by myself
i dont need any help

*DROPPY DROP*

i been on the low
i been trying to stay incognito
if youre trying to make contact please dont
i do good by myself
i dont need any help

*DROPPY DROP 2*

i-i-i-i-i been on the lo-lo-lo
been tryna stay-st-
incog-cog-nito-o-o
b-been tryna make con-con-tac-co
please dont
i-ive been good by-by self-self
d-dont need any hel-el-el-elp 
i-i-i-i-i been on the lo-lo-lo
been tryna stay-st-
incog-cog-nito-o-o
b-been tryna make con-con-tac-co
please dont
i-ive been good by-by self-self
d-dont need any hel-el-el-elp

incognito

prod. phixel
mixed/mastered by phixel
featuring vocals from : @left-at-london
editors notes: very very VERY cool song featuring a very very VERY cool person named nat. its nat left at london she is on the song thats so cool right 
this was sparked after nat expressed interest in hearing 'who u r' a couple days early, so i sent her the link, and then like a week or two after the song was released i suggested the idea of us making a song together, and she said that would be cool . i sent her a rough version of this beat and she got to work immediately, and eventually after a while this song was finished. beat inspired by kmoes remix of rental

lyrics:
[phixel]
youre so stubborn
i said what i said
you cant get in my bed
am i that stuck in your head
couldve choked
on all the lies i was fed
god i was so misled
if only i had just fled
i had those childishly fresh eyes
and you were trying to be my type
you got me crying out my eyes
you ruined those childishly fresh eyes
i had those childishly fresh eyes
and you were trying to be my type
you got me crying out my eyes
you ruined those childishly fresh eyes

[left at london]
I suppose
We should all
have a toast
to celebrate
Why we’re gathered
Had I been
someone else
who could talk
much less
it wouldn’t have mattered
I know I wronged you (ay)
You know you wronged me too?
I’d like to think you’ve changed
But I don’t have that faith in you
& if you think the same,
Then why the fuck are you listening?
Why the fuck are you listening?
Why the fuck are you listening?

[phixel]
youre so stubborn
i said what i said
you cant get in my bed
am i that stuck in your head
couldve choked
on all the lies i was fed
god i was so misled
if only i had just fled
i had those childishly fresh eyes
and you were trying to be my type
you got me crying out my eyes
you ruined those childishly fresh eyes
i had those childishly fresh eyes
and you were trying to be my type
you got me crying out my eyes
you ruined those childishly fresh eyes

childish w/ left at london

prod. me
mixed/mastered by me + jedwill
soprano vox lead : rosesleeves
verses : rosesleeves + jedwill + button maker
editors notes: this beat had a lot of renovation done to it over a while, i made almost all of these sounds myself including that cool bass :) the melody was mainly inspired by a segment in an old melodic fuckery thing i found on newgrounds i dont remember the name of, and the ending epic pad section was inspired by fka by underscores and i think the riser into it may sample it as well

lyrics:
[phixel]
ouch you're intruding, dont make me lose it
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're confusing, you're so elusive
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're intruding, dont make me lose it
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're confusing, you're so elusive
wish i could erase you from my headspace

[rosesleeves]
i’m so damn gone babe
take a pill to the brain
can’t help feeling lost i
guess i was made this way
it always feels the same
can’t make it go away
it-it-it hurts so bad
and i can’t make it change

[phixel]
ouch you're intruding, dont make me lose it
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're confusing, you're so elusive
wish i could erase you from my headspace

[jedwill]
Ah

You know that I miss you when I call you lately
I can never talk, I’m confusing, hate me
Why do I avoid your time
Just like I avoid your eyes
But did you catch that you just might miss it
I think about you a lot but I’ve been distant
I’m sorry guess it’s just my loss
You’re precious I should count your cost
I’ve waited long
It’s all so soft
My heart was locked
You make me calm

[button maker]
Ooh I'm lost in my own headspace
(Can't help but feel like I'm losing control) 
Ooh, Always last in the race
(I've waited so many, so many lifetimes)
And I know it may never be my time
(It's so confusing, like, headache inducing)
Ooh,  even though it's always the same
(I wouldn't have it any other way)

[phixel]
ouch you're intruding, dont make me lose it
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're confusing, you're so elusive
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're intruding, dont make me lose it
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're confusing, you're so elusive
wish i could erase you from my headspace

[rosesleeves]
i’m so damn gone babe
take a pill to the brain
can’t help feeling lost i
guess i was made this way
it always feels the same
can’t make it go away
it-it-it hurts so bad
and i can’t make it change

[phixel]
ouch you're intruding, dont make me lose it
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're confusing, you're so elusive
wish i could erase you from my headspace

headspace w/ rosesleeves + jedwill + button maker

prod. phixel
lead guitar sample : dynastic
mixed/mastered by phixel

editors notes: this one has a LOT of lunamatic inspiration, specifically from their song on the ballsgiving collective album which i love so much :0 this uses a guitar sample that dynastic originally sent as a wip song in the gendergrind server, but she let me use it for this which is good and cool
theres a lot of other cool factoids about this song too;
1.) this song has my favorite lyrics on the album, my favorite lines are capitalized below
2.) i recorded this when my snowball was broken, so i used a shitty karaoke microphone from 2015 to record this, which kinda worked apparently
3.) mosts sounds in this besides the main guitar sample was made by me, i didnt use a lot of outside kits for this
ok thats it enjoy this song

lyrics:
i am just so inconsolable
lying thru your teeth to all your friends, they gullible
and i wish you werent so horrible
you are never ever welcome thru my door at all
YOU ARE DOING NOTHING WITH UR LIFE!!!
OVERSHARING TRAUMA ON TWITTER LIKE ALL THE TIME
whens the last time that you went outside
its the perfect day to get up to some real crime

think outside the trap box, start to get some clarity
this isnt a matchbox, this is a mercedes
rig the place with cherry bombs, blow this joint to hades
be the sweet n be the sour, be the lemonade see
think outside the trap box, start to get some clarity
this isnt a matchbox, this is a mercedes
rig the place with cherry bombs, blow this joint to hades
be the sweet n be the sour, be the lemonade see

arent you tired of making beep boops on your spare time?
makin hyperpop "music" that barely even rhymes
arent u tired of making that bird app your whole life?
tellin kids to get some bands but u dont have a dime!!!
TAKE THAT CHAIN EMOJI OUT UR NAME, UR FAR FROM EVIL
U POST FEMBOY PICS WITH CAPTIONS LIKE 'MY GOD I NEED HIM'
AND UR WONDERING WHY UR STILL SINGLE?
TALKIN HUMBLE BUT U STARVE FOR DRAMA, YEA UR SEE-THROUGH

think outside the trap box, start to get some clarity
this isnt a matchbox, this is a mercedes
rig the place with cherry bombs, blow this joint to hades
be the sweet n be the sour, be the lemonade see
think outside the trap box, start to get some clarity
this isnt a matchbox, this is a mercedes
rig the place with cherry bombs, blow this joint to hades
be the sweet n be the sour, be the lemonade see

theres a whole world out there
and its ready to destroy but u dont even care
its a whole world out there 
but u just dont seem to wanna get up out your chair

think outside the trap box, start to get some clarity
this isnt a matchbox, this is a mercedes
rig the place with cherry bombs, blow this joint to hades
be the sweet n be the sour, be the lemonade see
think outside the trap box, start to get some clarity
this isnt a matchbox, this is a mercedes
rig the place with cherry bombs, blow this joint to hades
be the sweet n be the sour, be the lemonade see
*various vocal glitches im not gonna transcribe lol i just slapped portal on it*

lemonade

prod. me
mixed/mastered by me
editors notes: this was VERY VERY fun to produce, holidaykiss and boxkitty made some of the melody presets used in this song so thank them so much this wouldnt have been possible without both of them :D i think this is the only song on the project that doesnt have fast dist on the master

lyrics:
its a game of hide and seek
you're the seeker, but you're always peeking
no one ever invited me
im a sleeper, never the best public speaker
been so many years without a good day
guess that's just my luck, dont know what to say
im losing my mind, think i'll catch a blade
there's no sunny days, only hurricanes

and i think that we all could do way better
we're all score-setters, right down to the letter
yeah i think that we'd all rather be somewhere better
like stuck in the cold with no sweater
and it's all your fault, but its also my fault
we're faulty for certain, we got faulty circuits
when we break and we fall, and we hit the asphalt
know we're faulty for certain, we got faulty circuits
and i think that we all could do way better
we're all score-setters, right down to the letter
yeah i think that we'd all rather be somewhere better
like stuck in the cold with no sweater

feels like there's a snowstorm inside my brain
left me to the hounds, i feel so betrayed
why does someone always rain on my parade?
there's no sunny days, only hurricanes
you got a brain denser than cobalt
and a high that rivals a pole vault
you're a bit dumb by default
couldn't get fazed by a thunderbolt
more simple than a barrel vault
couldn't succeed in a somersault
got a personality like rotten malt
with methanol

and i think that we all could do way better
we're all score-setters, right down to the letter
yeah i think that we'd all rather be somewhere better
like stuck in the cold with no sweater
and it's all your fault, but it's also my fault
we're faulty for certain, we got faulty circuits
when we break and we fall, and we hit the asphalt
know we're faulty for certain, we got faulty circuits
and i think that we all could do way better
we're all score-setters, right down to the letter
yeah i think that we'd all rather be somewhere better
like stuck in the cold with no sweater

(and i think that we all could do way better
we're all score-setters, right down to the letter
yeah i think that we'd all rather be somewhere better
like stuck in the cold with no sweater)

faulty circuitry

prod. cmten
mixed/mastered by me
verses by kid cole + iris day
editors notes: this song came around after me and cmten did a beat trade, he sent me this beat in return for a beat of mine :) thank u to iris bestie and cole bestie for doing verses on this ily both

lyrics:
[phixel]
i dont care ab the rhetoric
i been lost in the sauce, in my element
ur so aaaaaa irrelevant
talking shit before ur dead
thats hella mint
yea i hope u fucks get buried in obscurity
up n poppin now but not much in futurity
u shld know ur place in this world
the way u dnt just makes my skin boil

deities, deities
im a false god dnt pray to me
feel me feel me
can u open ur eyes 2 the real me
can u feel the breeze thru the trees
pls tell me u hear me
i been missing a blue sky terribly
n the worlds gone to tyranny
aint always been fortunate
always in the wrong place n at the wrong time
just cant ever seem to stay in line
paint a portrait of all of my insecurities that make me cry
paint a bloodied sky

[kid cole]
I hate when rappers go mothafuckin’ hollywood 
Think I’m doing better, like i’m mothafuckin’ dollywood 
Dopamine levels are falling up and down
And I really wanna kill myself, see my smile to a frown
Cmten on the beat and Phixel on the open
Pop a couple rounds and your skull is fucking broken
You be talking down and I’m thinking that you love me
(Wait HOLD ON BRO)
Are you tryna be my groupie?

[iris day]
its a rat race , why'd u look @ me w/ dat face
i didnt mean 2 make u sad in the first place
i didnt mean 2 flash back 2 our first date
another teenage affair out in cyberspace
i hope u fucking know i wish u fucking rotted
everything u gave to her b4 i was forgotten
all those little things u said u never fucking wanted
all the stupid shit u said i told me i was toxic

[phixel]
deities, deities
im a false god dnt pray to me
feel me feel me
can u open ur eyes 2 the real me
can u feel the breeze thru the trees
pls tell me u hear me
i been missing a blue sky terribly
n the worlds gone to tyranny
aint always been fortunate
always in the wrong place n at the wrong time
just cant ever seem to stay in line
paint a portrait of all of my insecurities that make me cry
paint a bloodied sky

portraits w/ kid cole + iris day [p. cmten]

prod. me
mixed/mastered by me
editors notes: these lyrics r kinda manic but i feel like this energy is needed once in a while . this song was originally supposed to be a two-parter with another song, but i decided to put this on the album instead. also listen to those screeches with the bass in the beginning i love those holy fuck :O inspired by hearse by wells + funeral, the riser samples fka by underscores

lyrics;
You’re talking that trash on the side, now you try to appeal to me, get out my face
Acting so strong in the digiverse, all of a sudden you got way too much on your plate
Aren’t you so tired of asking for mercy?
Striking a punch, I deliver a flurry
Feel the spice, but this isn’t no curry
That’s the feel of deaths unsubtle flirting


I don’t know what you’re on about
But I know that you left a bad taste in my mouth
I feel like a goddess, just look at my bodice
And see I’m not messing around
Such disrespect, now you begging for me?
I’m way past your level, don’t even say please
You’re practically moribund, ask where that girl is from,
But she’s already with me

YEAAAAA TRIED TO TALK BACK
NOW UR MORIBUND, MORIBUND
I FEEL LIKE I CAN KILL GOD
YEAAAAA UR A PURE ESSENCE OF
BOREDOM, BOREDOM
ID RATHER TELL U TO STOP
I CANT TAKE THE TENSION
UR STUCK IN SUSPENSION
I JUST WONT ALLOW U
TO TAKE MY POWER
YEAAAAA TRIED TO TALK BACK
NOW UR MORIBUND, MORIBUND
I FEEL LIKE I CAN KILL GOD

You’re so irrelevant, it makes me sad, and so out of the picture I’m cutting you
Hope you know I could wake up and bury you deep in the snow if I wanted to
I can feel you losing hope
Can’t disappear in the flow
There’s no boat here to row
And it’s high time to drown in this ocean real slow

I don’t know what you’re on about
But I know that you left a bad taste in my mouth
I feel like a goddess, just look at my bodice
And see I’m not messing around
Such disrespect, now you begging for me?
I’m way past your level, don’t even say please
You’re practically moribund, ask where that girl is from,
But she’s already with me

YEAAAAA TRIED TO TALK BACK
NOW UR MORIBUND, MORIBUND
I FEEL LIKE I CAN KILL GOD
YEAAAAA UR A PURE ESSENCE OF
BOREDOM, BOREDOM
ID RATHER TELL U TO STOP
I CANT TAKE THE TENSION
UR STUCK IN SUSPENSION
I JUST WONT ALLOW U
TO TAKE MY POWER
YEAAAAA TRIED TO TALK BACK
NOW UR MORIBUND, MORIBUND
I FEEL LIKE I CAN KILL GOD

moribund

hi! i transferred my account url to https://soundcloud.com/phixel in february of 2024!

misplaced flora [now at https://soundcloud.com/phixel]

wrong account!