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Emotional Distress 𖤐 - 2

Machine Gun Kelly - papercuts (slowed + reverb)

Die Young

Die Young (feat. 347aidan)

Need U

Need U (feat. Scorey)

a song about the time i spend wishing i was just like everyone else

/

i wish that i could feel
breeze blowing on my skin
i wish that i could heal
but the knife goes further in
hopeful tone of voice, but you still dont believe this
make a deal with god cuz you really need this
silence in the night, you dont wanna feel this
im onto you

dont tell me where it hurts because i dont wanna know
if you see the river can you tell me how it flows?
am i doomed to do this all again?
no, i dont wanna see this, i want it to end

just push me to shore, before they pull me down
oh is there something more? or will i just drown
again, again, i dont have a defense
im cut from the cloth of the sky, heavensent
just push me to shore, before they pull me down
(pull me down, pull me down, pull me down, pull me down)

the skys too bright at night and the moons too red
3:30 on the clock when i go to bed
ill prove that im invincible right here on this ledge
i know ill grow my wings when i fall off of the edge
i hear sweet melodies
youll never make me take my medley
of whites, of reds, of blues, of blacks,
of poison, this is an attack

just push me to shore, before they pull me down
oh is there something more? or will i just drown

just push me to shore, before they pull me down
oh is there something more? or will i just drown
again, again, i dont have a defense
im cut from the cloth of the sky, heavensent
just push me to shore, before they pull me down
(pull me down, pull me down, pull me down, pull me down)

I shave my legs and my arms
Hoping one day I'll be part
Of everything that you take for granted, see 
I'll punch my mirror again
And cut my wrists with the shards
I'm floating, don't want to sink in the granite sea 
Falling apart at the seams
I'm not doing this for me
It drips, it signals a crack to bring a flood 
If it's just like what you think
I'll die alone at nineteen
In a hospital covered in my own blood

Is that so crazy?  God I swear
Just to hear the things I hear
If it is, that still doesn't mean you get to drag me by my hair 
Out of the dream I breathe and wear
If it's fake I still don't care
Because I'd rather be a god of nothing than have this cloudy stare 
I'm not so crazy, can't you see
I don't care about what you think
Either way I guess it's destiny if I breathe or sink 
Can you please not look at me?
Because I am scared of what you'll see
Because I could look like a god or just a girl who scared to breathe

just push me gently to shore, just push me gently to shore

just push me to shore, just push me to shore
the tide will take me home, as it has done before

just push me to shore, before they pull me down
oh is there something more? or will i just drown
just push me to shore, before they pull me down
oh is there something more? or will i just drown
or will i just drown

pushed to shore

Empty Promises

LYRICS:
[Intro: Juice WRLD]
Mm, watching this weak a*s, fake a*s Fast and Furious
Oh-oh (yeah)
Oh-oh
Uh

[Hook: Juice WRLD]
Fill my lungs with ganja (ganja)
When they fill my brain with drama (drama)
From my past, I have all this trauma (trauma)
Getting cash, hope the racks solve my problems
But it don't work, uh, no, it won't work out (work out, yes)
But it don't work, no, it won't work out (yes)
Yeah, it don't work, now the pain's worse (pain's worse)
Yeah, it's gon' hurt (gon' hurt)
Hope it all works out (all works out)

[Verse 1: Speedz]
Um, lost again, the pain is in
It's feeling like it never ends
Fill my lungs up to air out my problems
But know that ain't no solution 'gon solve 'em
Smoke all the problems away and make it feel better
Feels like there's no end to battling so I know it's forever
My vision's blurry, cloudy
Fog on the windshield
Scars from the past no I haven't been healed
Smile on my face when I need to
I put this b*tch in her place 'cause I need to
You ain't perfect, nor am I
Got a purpose, getting high
But I won't let this break me
Even though they hate me
Suffer on the inside
That's just how it's been lately
'Cause, um
I'm trapped in my head too much
I'm trapped in my head

[Hook: Juice WRLD]
Fill my lungs with ganja (ganja)
When they fill my brain with drama (drama)
From my past, I have all this trauma (trauma)
Getting cash, hope the racks solve my problems
But it don't work, uh, no, it won't work out (work out, yes)
But it don't work, no, it won't work out (yes)
Yeah, it don't work, now the pain's worse (pain's worse)
Yeah, it's gon' hurt (gon' hurt)
Hope it all works out (all works out)

[Verse 2: Juice WRLD]
Broken machine, no, it won't work (won't work)
But I get cash, so she gon' twerk (yeah)
Heartbreak Hotel (yeah), leave a ho hurt (oh, yeah)
'Cause I been hurt (yeah), had a hole first (oh, yeah)
In my chest, it made my life lifeless
Like God, how could this happen?
Losing my traction (losing my traction)
Uhm, I'm stuck in my head too much (much)
I'm stuck in my head, uhm (head, uhm)
I'm trapped and I can't run (I'm trapped in my-)
In my head, uhm

[Hook: Juice WRLD]
Fill my lungs with ganja (ganja)
When they fill my brain with drama (drama)
From my past, I have all this trauma (trauma)
Getting cash, hope the racks solve my problems
But it don't work, uh, no, it won't work out (work out, yes)
But it don't work, no, it won't work out (yes)
Yeah, it don't work, now the pain's worse (pain's worse)
Yeah, it's gon' hurt (gon' hurt)
Hope it all works out (all works out)

Juice WRLD - In My Head [Remix](ft. Speedz)

a song about mania and delusions

backing vocals by jackalsclaw

/

i fell into a pit
dont know how to get back up again
mud on my face, scrapes on my chin
this feeling wont stop festering
i scratch away my skin
cause i want to know whats under it
my muscles ache, im suffering
i just want to feel comforted

if its my fault, then tell me so
i dont want to do this alone

im a princess, im a bard
im a priestess from afar
i am anything i want when
i tell it to you

i wanna look away
but i just cant seem to close my eyes
your voice is near but phantomized
is it all real or fantasized?

and yet it feels so real
when will it come to fruition?
all i feel is suspicious
of all the opposition

if you dont care, why wont you leave?
did you just want (did you just want, did you just want)
to see me bleed? (to see me bleed?)

im a princess, im a bard
im a priestess from afar
i am anything i want when
i tell it to you

(did you just want)
(to see me bleed)
(to see me bleed)

temperance

a song about my roots and the childhood i lost

/

veered into a ditch
theres no coming back from that
hard to find my way
visions in and out of black
is there nothing to look forward to at home?
is there really nothing, nowhere i could go?

im just so imperfect
how was i made from scraps of you?
and my childhoods fading
im just grasping at scraps of youth
i swear im really trying to see the light in this
i wake up not to silence, but to a deafening hiss
the choir is getting louder, they tell me i should quit
they tell me that if im not dead, then im not doing shit
(how was i made)
im just so imperfect
how was i made from scraps of you?
and my childhoods fading
im just grasping at scraps
your words are falling flat, youre fading in the mix
its so hard to forget about this feeling that ive sinned
i think about the time that, he brushed against my skin
and even when he tried to push, the issue didnt fit
(how was i made)

save your breath for another day
save excuses, please
you gave me all that youve got
but now its starting to rot
i cant take it

its not enough, not enough, not enough,
its not enough, not enough, not enough

how was i made from scraps of you?
how was i made from scraps of you?
i didnt get to be,
the girl i wanted to be
how was i made from scraps of you?
how was i made from scraps of you?
its not my fault

scraps of you

a song about the things i wish i could have done

produced, mixed, mastered by phixel
verse by saoirse dream
backing vocals by jackalsclaw

/

[NOTE: english translations will appear in brackets next to catalan lyrics. im still learning the language so im really really sorry for my bad pronunciation and grammar]

(phixel)
em fa mal  [it hurts]
tan malament  [so badly]
com puc escoltar  [how do i hear]
digue'm per què  [tell me why]

no et puc veure  [i cant see you]
a través de l'aire negre  [through this smog]
caurà neu ardent  [fiery snow will fall]
t'enterraré, a la cendra  [i will bury you, in ashes]

et llegiré la ment com un llibre  [i will read your mind like a notebook]
però no ho vull escoltar  [though i dont want to hear it]
encara no ho sé, per què estimes  [i still dont know why you love me]
em desgastaré, afectat  [i will wither away, afflicted]

(saoirse dream)
I still fall asleep in your clothes
Try to struggle out of your rope
Buy into release I’ve imagined
Cling tight to the arms of your ghost
I light matches that I can’t put out
So I burn down bushes outside of your house
And you just watch me
You laugh
Like “what the fuck is wrong with cat?”
You know that I can’t answer that

(phixel)
et llegiré la ment com un llibre  [i will read your mind like a notebook]
però no ho vull escoltar  [though i dont want to hear it]
encara no ho sé, per què estimes  [i still dont know why you love me]
em desgastaré, afectat  [i will wither away, afflicted]

a la cendra, a la cendra, a la cendra  [in ashes, in ashes, in ashes]

[jackalsclaw:]
(i went, i cast you in the fire, i watched you burn, i didnt cry)
(ill tell you everything alright, to get your memory out my mind)

notebook

ALL PLATFORMS!!!

notebook w/ saoirse dream

a song about an event i wish i could forget

/

sorry eyes
look like mine
stay still please
its killing me
i dont wanna have to do this
but i fear that i wont last
am i part of the conclusion
or will i be left in the past

just forget about it
just forget

ill just forget it happened
happier ever after
i dont care, its just all
in the air, somersault
im a wolf in sheeps clothing
just tell me im getting closer

look at me
dont you see
im so tired
lost whats mine
cant you see my eyes are empty
cant you see ive got nothing left
theres something boiling deep within me
but you mightve just put it to rest

just forget about it
just forget

ill just forget it happened
happier ever after
i dont care, its just all
in the air, somersault
im a wolf in sheeps clothing
just tell me im getting closer

something forgotten

a song about hurting myself and a call that affirmed my worst fear

/

sorry god
think i did it again
but im flawed
i dont know why you expect
oh so much
from a girl who’s in a panic
i dont want
you to just tell me im manic

please dont tell me what im missing, this is hell
they won’t let me shave because i’ll cut myself
if you look at me, i might just slit my throat
i still dont know why im in the hospital

its too much
why do i even try
i dont know
sorry if im always crying
im just so
wrapped up in my aching head
im thinking bout
every single time i said

please dont tell me what im missing, this is hell
they won’t let me shave because i’ll cut myself
if you look at me, i might just slit my throat
i still dont know why im in the hospital


oh please dont leave me by myself
ill rot forever in this cell/hell
please dont tell me what im missing, this is hell
they won’t let me shave because i’ll cut myself

please dont tell me what im missing, this is hell
they won’t let me shave because i’ll cut myself
if you look at me, i might just slit my throat
i still dont know why im in the hospital

hospital song

co. produced by Kb & Nico Baran

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Juice Wrld - Yellow (Prod. Max Chris)

Amalgam

1st Degree Murder

Bilateral

expressing my feelings. this music shit just documents my life atp. enjoy.

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put a ring (on it)

Juice WRLD - Oxycodone (beatsbymat remix)

Death Race For Love

Empty

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