Preorder: https://curlrecordings.bandcamp.com/album/i-hate-it-here
More info: https://bit.ly/3bdZcCQ

The desire for transcendence affects us all. Led by pain and dissatisfaction, the struggles of being alive can only really be overcome in death. Author and writer Steph Kretowicz’s psychedelic audio narrative wanders through a layered and multi-dimensional notion of existence as suffering.

Ben Babbitt and felicita’s unsettling musical compositions lead this sonic trip through the atemporal influence of trauma and experience on a life, at a point where personal and cultural histories collide. Dispersed across London, Poland and Los Angeles, “I hate it here” dissolves time and location into the people and memories of the past that shape a person in the present. It touches on folk traditions throughout eras, and religious and spiritual practices across regions in a sometimes poignant, sometimes absurd tribute to the routines and rituals designed to fathom the unfathomable.

Steph Kretowicz with Ben Babbitt & felicita, 'I hate it here' (2021). Excerpt. Courtesy CURL x AQNB.

Mix by kayla reagan master by hector vega

Royal Blue Walls

Mimosa

lyrics: https://genius.com/albums/Heartstopmiami/Meow-2
this is the Shamu Calamità deluxe mixtape 'meow 2' which is also the sequel to my first mixtape meow. im putting this up on soundcloud as its own seperate thing,, enjoy: the cutest mixtape ever made, #meow2

'i0n feel like r0llin up' vid out now: https://youtu.be/3juIiGg4iyQ?feature=shared

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#TL
............01 tall betty prod miami
...........02 vibe check prod wstdyth
..........03 parentz prod feardorian & zion
.........04 fuck prod miami
........05 next week prod leo reimer 
.......06 i0n feel like r0lling up prod freger
........07 miami prod feardorian
.........08 girlh00d prod dep4rted 
..........09 zkinny betty prod tgwog & litothedon
...........10 an0ther 2 w/ dedenem prod wizardpem
............11 em0ti0n 2 prod bbyazul & inci0
.............12 i'ma wait till it'z a pr0blem
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shoutout 2 everyone that made this happen. and shoutout to whoever is listening. love yall
- miami

meow 2 (full tape) [MV IN DESC]

THIS IS WHAT I WANTED TO SAY

lyrics:
i sent you a message two weeks ago
you didn't reply
it feels like i'm 16 again
but i'm not petty about it this time
i think about what happened a lot
more than i want to
i think about what i did
what i said
what i didn't say
what i should've said
what i should've done
i get lost easily
you were the voice in my head i went to when i needed someone to talk to
you were that person for me in real life
you were the only one that got it
the only one who called me 'her'
i felt like you saw me
i hope you did
i keep holding onto the idea that somehow
someday
we'll cross paths
and you'll get to meet me
properly meet me
and i'll get to apologise to your face
it won't happen
i don't need it to
but it would be nice
it would be nice to apologise
it would be nice to explain myself
it would be nice to get closure
that's all it is
it's not about love
it's not about friendship
it's not about forgiveness
it's about closure
it's whatever
i don't want to bother you anymore
i don't need you to say something to know what you think
we all need to move on some day
i just wish i did before you

CLOSURE

The 1

XO TOUR LLIF3

I DID THIS FOR US

Demo from like march I cant finish this

Let em get jealous watching us
All alone naked sparks
And when they close ill take u home
Cuz I know who u are
When we walk the line
Head on my shoulder cuz we know its hard
Couldnt change my mind
Im forever dancing in ur heart
And I get jealous watching us
All alone in the dark
Dont need to sell my soul just to know who u are
They want what we got
Ohhhh
Couldnt change my mind
Im forever dancing in your heart

In the dark (demo)

'Point A'
SoundCloud only.

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This one’s for U . . .
		. . . but U gotta look into my eyes first . . . 

I want you to be mad you didn’t think of it
I want you to want to keep the plastic
I want you to extract the acapella
I want you to feel like you can grasp it

I want that Poplife walk right talk nice
I want that first-class New York to Japan flight
I use my God-given name more than the one you call me
I didn’t have a choice， you didn’t earn the right

I’m in six figures of debt to multiple parties
I don’t regret anything more than making Johnny johnny
I can’t wait no more， cut the room in half — 
Girls to the front， boys to the back！ 

I split myself in two，  accidentally gave it all to U
Get your phones out， I like how it looks from the back
Get your phones out， I like how it looks from the back

I split myself in two，  I didn’t mean to give it all to U
Get your phones out， I like how it looks from the back
Get your phones out， I like how it looks from the back

I . . . O . . . U！ 

I split myself in two，  accidentally gave it all to U
Get your phones out， I like how it looks from the back
Get your phones out， I like how it looks from the back

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Written and recorded in Chicago IL， San Francisco CA， Los Angeles CA， Brooklyn NY， Queens NY.

CLOSURE

PIPEDRAIN

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