Cozmo's Air

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This is a mixtape/ep/collection/whatever ofmy own personal brand of bedroom music. If you had to label me with a genera I guess it would be folk punk. I'm sarcastic, mean spirited, and self serious please take everything I say with a grain of salt. These songs are often explicit had poorly recorded. but with any hope you'll find some kind of meaning in them

Singing In The Acid Rain (duet with my friend)

Paint Pictures

I told myself to let it be, that some day all things die
But it ain't fair to stop repairs when all it takes is time
So I'll admit my fuck-ups, I'm ashamed of all my wrongs
I tried to save our friendship and, well, then I wrote this song
'cause she said, "no."

I've been the worst to deal with, I'd manipulate and use
Poured out the care she gave me and filled back up on cheap booze
So I packed up all I'd broken, left my home to make it right
But she kept the blame in mind and the "I'm sorry" out of sight
and she said,
"No, fuck you, you ruined my life don't talk to me"
She said.

Now heads or tails, it won't lay flat if both sides took a pounding
Kept her scars up on display and my side facing down
I thought, "perhaps she cares enough to hide what I can't handle"
Like when a bloody scene came on and dad would change the channel

But that's just wishful thinkin', she said
"No, fuck you, you ruined my life don't talk to me
No, fuck you, no, no, no, no..."

Well I'm not here to beg, no I whipped this up to say,
You have every right to hate me and I'll miss you every day
But if it means you're happy, well I'll gladly take the blame
Just make sure I got everything, 'cause, doll, after today I'll tell ya

I'm not your problem, I'm just your excuse
Made your own choices, your drugs and tattoos
And I'm not at fault, but I'd be there for you
I know I fucked up, so I'll pay my dues
And nothing more

And she said
"No, fuck you, you ruined my life don't talk to me."

I'm not your problem, I'm just your excuse
and nothing more
So no, fuck you,
'Cause some are still worth melting for.

Take A Jacket, Spare Your Change

Netflix Never Made Me Watch a RomCom

© 2016 Zachary S. Valladon
Recorded in 2016 by Derek Frazier
Additional writing on "Home Again" by Omar Lopez & Jonas Lee.

Home Again

with apologies and policies we try
to mend what we have made, to keep alive
our deadliest assumptions crystalize
for we built these cityscapes on ice.
 
now i've made my way to solid ground;
and i am but a stranger in this town.
i don't see why i should stick around:
they'll crucify me upside-down.
 
but how seldom does a man lay down his life?
how selfish is the need to satisfy?
you'll never truly live until you die.
so let your heart belong to christ.
 
there's no reason you should be unsure
don't you see this place is so absurd?
and hell is just a place where people burn
their future to keep the present warm.
 
i am a speck,
you are a treasure.
i'm dying just to be
something that's of use.

something thats of use

Sparrow flies south for winter And I'd like to follow
The snows are coming The cold winds are rising
The lakes are freezing and the cattle is dying and 
We aren't ready 
The policemen guard the door of the food stores
And politician keep a watchful eye
At least that's what if feels like
We havent eaten in a hundred days
and I cant feel my fingers 
This season makes me feel so alone
And my old friends are dying
Holding onto the past they all crash
One by one by one

Stay warm

Sparrow flies south for winter But the flock gets broken up in the storm
And know what they feeling
Anguish of separation 
fear and pain and helplessness as they watch
Their friends all fall
things fall apart
I watch the world around me burst at the seams
And all I can do is stand and smoke as stare at awe to the scene 
I barrel down the alley in fear of cops that aren't chasing me
I just hoped and prayed that maybe they were 
I could take a few down with me ending my pain while going out in a blazer of glory

Run fast 

Sparrow flies north for springtime 
The snows are melting 
April rains are coming
The police man still stand guard
And the politicians still keep a watchful eye on me
But everythings not as hopeless as they seem
We lost one too many this year
And we don't have too many more to lose
Even if we've made an awful mistake I pray that you all make it to next winter


Stay Warm - rough recording

Nov9

Haven't written anything in a while, but ya never know. 

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Take A Jacket, Spare Your Change

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