Really i just have a hard time tryna tell u what i mean

Even when im with my i don’t feel right... i feel the same way keep it up king ✨🖤

This song is a reimagining of "My Heroine" by Silverstein. 
Featuring @killingartmusic
Produced by @jolst
Remixed by @carlby
Engineered, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS (Written by Silverstein/ Shane Told)
The drugs begin to peak
A smile of joy arrives in me
But sedation changes to panic and nausea
And breath starts to shorten
And heartbeats pound softer
You won't try to save me
You just want to hurt me
And leave me desperate
You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?
You're my heroine
You won't leave me alone
Chisel my heart out of stone
I give in every time
You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?
You're my heroine

(Killing Art)
Heroine
Poisoning my veins
You’re the reason
That I’m going insane 

I get like this every single time
Fiending for your love like every night
Am I gonna overdose and waste my life
I’d feel less pain with a fucking knife

Like you tore my heart again
You’re just like heroine

Listen on Spotify!

Heroine w/ Killing Art (Prod. Jolst)

target ft. polar

fuck everything its startin 2 bore me
I just been feeling outta energy
I know that its sad they all watching me
kill myself on a motherfuckin big screen
hold my breath like its almost over 
ill feel better when im 6 feet lower

don't talk to me
just leave me be 
ion need breathe 
I just need to sleep
I just need to sleep
just need 2 gut u from me
just need 2 gut me you'll see
just need to cut through from me
just need to gut me you'll see

don't u dare act like you're falling from me
don't u dare act like ur gonna leave me
I just need u 2 promise that you'll never leave me
I just really needed it but everyone deceive me
I think I finally found someone who can hold me
I think I finally found someone who can show me
but im still worried imma die by my lonely
but im still worried imma die by my lonely
but im still worried imma die by my lonely

don't talk to me
just leave me be 
ion need breathe 
I just need to sleep
I just need to sleep
just need 2 gut u from me
just need 2 gut me you'll see
just need to cut through from me
just need to gut me you'll see

drawing blood from a stone [+lil biscuit]

prod by jakeygotit https://www.youtube.com/user/MRtoadsworth1
Vocals & mix by @joshuasageart

Track # 5/10

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Merch

Psychopath

prod @proxensx , @prodhxlcyon , & @joshuasageart

Track # 2/10

Entrance

Vocals & mix by: @JoshuaSageArt
Prod by: @sserae & shigitoriii

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Track # 9/10

Spotify

Living

think sum wrong wit me >.< 


I don't want my heart back it aint what i need
Tryna stay off my phone this shit feel like a disease
And i hate it when i'm home baby i feel lonely
Even when im with my friends I don't feel right
Think somethings wrong with me
Me me me me me
Ooo whoa
Me me me me me
Yeah yeah
Me me me me me
Ooo whoa 
Yeah yeah
Think somethings wrong with me
I cant love myself enough
I been trying for forever but forevers getting tough
Tough tough tough
Yeah yeah Ooo 

Yeah I dont 
Feel okay when im by myself
And you wont
Change a thing i been trying for forever but forevers getting tough
Okay this feeling isnt that new
I dont like my body so i fill it up with tattoos
She like oh my god jai youre so damn mean
Really i just have a hard time tryna tell you what i mean
We just did a show last night that shit was packed out
I just met this hoe a bit ago and now her ass out
They keep tryna steal some swag from me
And you can try your hardest but this fabric isnt cheap omg
Dont think i need what i want
Dont think. i want what i need
I think im starting to go numb
Keep on waiting for her texts 
And in twiddling my thumbs wtf 
Cant keep her eyes off me
I been high for seven days i been high all weak yeah
Play it cool
You couldnt walk a mile in my shoes I bet you wouldnt move

I don't want my heart back it aint what i need
Tryna stay off my phone this shit feel like a disease
And i hate it when i'm home baby i feel lonely
Even when im with my friends I don't feel right
Think somethings wrong with me
Me me me me me
Ooo whoa
Me me me me me
Yeah yeah
Me me me me me
Ooo whoa 
Yeah yeah
Think somethings wrong with me
I cant love myself enough
I been trying for forever but forevers getting tough
Tough tough tough
Yeah yeah Ooo

DISEASE

DISEASE [p. methboiswag+kacie free]

@greenwood2000

prod. miercoles

(Lukas)

Thought you'd be dead by 16
im glad you're not
your still around
even if you
feel your body rot
most days...
I know when it gets hard for you
heartbreak...
ill always be a part of you

this wont drag me down
I cant pretend
to shut you out
thats wrong

she knows my true intentions
everyday with her is like heaven
if you had to die
I would kill myself
its the only way
nothing else would help
right the wrongs that I made for us
doesn't change the fact that you're gone

(Greenwood)

Loose ends
I’m closing in
I focus on the things
I try and tell her
Hoping I remember
The way that it felt last year

Deep inside I know it won’t get better
In the forest in the shelter,
Never wanted it to end here

Further on than I could ever be (if it’s all there)
Wish that I was anyone but me (know you don’t care)
Lights to guide you home and finally (in your cold hair)
Know it hurts, just something I could feel

So much to turn against
I’m choking on the things I try to tell her
Hoping I remember the way that it felt last year

irreplaceable (feat. Greenwood)

[verse 1]

Im afraid when you hear about the here and now
Im so lonely on my own, now you found out 
Centuries are the worst with a one count 
No friends they died out and now I’ve slowed down 
Finding out that my victories were useless
(They’re so useless)
Seeing people that I loved die, that’s just cruelness
(That’s just cruelness)
Wishing that I wasn’t here to be forced witness
(No witness)
This wish that I made honestly is just foolish

[chorus]

I hear whispers around me telling me I cannot die 
(Oh why) 
Cuz I’m scared that nothing comes after life
(Don’t fight) 
But what’s the point if I’m still terrified 
(Hold tight) 
So why should I ever go towards the light

[verse 2]

[ZBee]

Don’t let your fear go now
I swear everything will be fine somehow 
I don’t wanna go but I feel forced out 
Cuz every time I feel everything is so loud, no

[open verse]



[chorus]

I hear whispers around me telling me I cannot die 
(Oh why) 
Cuz I’m scared nothing comes after life
(Don’t fight) 
But what’s the point if I’m still terrified 
(Hold tight) 
So why should I ever go towards the light

[outro]

Don’t let your fear go now
I swear everything will be fine somehow 
I don’t wanna go but I feel forced out 
Cuz every time I feel everything is so loud, no

that many years must be lonely (unnecessarybeats)

lyrics//

been stuck on my meds
been up in my head
been saying oh well
it is what it is
but i got no patience 
i got no time
cant get out of bed
cant get out my mind

i been so sick of them saying
it all will get better
cuz lately im breaking
i still got the sweater
you left me in vegas
i gave you that box of ur shit
to replace it

i wrote you that letter
i guess that you hated it
its been way too long for the year that i dated
if you get the time couod you dog ear the pages im
trying my hardest but trying dont won’t make it

remember the days 
ask how im doing im going to waste
ask me to smile i dont have the strength
to lift up the corners and lips on my face

embracing the past is a waste of my time
youre taking me back to a simplier life
and you know im sorry
i stepped outta line
forgot all the blessings infected with lies

the city dont feel the same
cuz you in another place
so why do beat me until i feel broken
i been down this road and i know that its hopeless
i know where its going
im going, gone


cant pick up these pieces im just a man
and you take it for weakness and who i am
im just a figjting a demon to find a plan
weight is heavy
but lucky to have some fans

i was in love with you but
prophesy wasent true
now
autumn reminds me of june
and heartache reminds me of you

the city dont feel the same
cuz you in another place
so why do beat me until i feel broken
i been down this road and i know that its hopeless
i know where its going
im going, gone

it didn’t take too long to get attached 
it was only your words and the way you laughed
but also the beauty that you had
i wish that you knew that you had that
lemme get back on track
one day i started to hold you too fast
and then you said
that you feel like you are trapped
well i guess that i gotta sit here and be sad
wake up make eggs in the pan,
holding on by one single strand
gotta get over it make me a plan
no more games
no game boy advanced
gotta get over it
i already said that but i really meant it
i still got your sweater on
i’ll put it to flame in ashes

ily thank u for listening

going going, gone w/ brecken

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ALL PLATS

b side from resize frame (unreleased / scrapped[?] decks proj)
prod @fleshgolem
enjoi

lyrics:
baby i been sick for so damn long
gather my wits with something strong
and i know the risk i’m taking on
but if we don’t miss it, something’s wrong
so wrong

covered the bases i missed on the road
always forgot how to feel so at home
never invited to be one of those
now i been poppin and playing these shows (like)
i know the ins and the outs of your soul
bury me, baby, i won’t let it go
starving surroundings will leave me alone if
self preservation applies to be hostess

if its the end of me
just say its heavenly
i swear i meant it
feel what you’re saying
despite resenting these
apologetic pleas
i’m staring back at
you, feeling ancient

baby i been sick for so damn long
gather my wits with something strong
and i know the risk i’m taking on
but if we don’t miss it, something’s wrong
so wrong

incarnate freestyle [flesh]

chillrique (enrique iglesias - escape cover) *tomcbumpz + kayboogzz*

im so sick of lyin on the floor
you're all i think of when i fuck anymore
the tree fell on my skin
oh the flesh feels good
every fuckin word i say
i'm always misunderstood
i'm afraid of contemplation i don't trust my brain
you say every day we spend together feels the fuckin same
you hate when i help you
i'm feelin insane
oh let me forget you
erase my pain

am i worth it to you
do you care for me still
if i let you go, would you crawl through my window sill
it's a lotta love that you aint got to feel yet
bet if i said what you say you would fuckin hate that
and if i called you by your name well cut my fate slack
oh and things aint been the same, you cover up bleedin veins
i just wish that you could trust me 'nuff to let me know your pain

you caught a break from me, but you gotta say what you mean
cause i can't let it go on when i'm feelin this way
aren't you sick of me yet, don't you know who i am
im the thought that you wished never crossed your mind
and i'm the feeling you wish you could forget when you were nine
aint it lonely when you know me to my brain stem
fucking sick individual won't you take him 
(take his life from him, he doesn't deserve that shit)

sick (secre x ryankelly)

songs originally on clv that got taken down

DISEASE [p. methboiswag+kacie free]

love jai

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