boogies 6

love jai

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w @heylog
produced by sleepwater
lyrics:

i don't think that i feel it
my stomach can't heal it
my heart i warn you
surround me i turn blue
you doubt me you flew
you drowning in sloot
my heart break in 2
im ready to die
cos i left ur side
i kick back and cry
this where i resite
i laugh at myself
its good for my health (oh no)
whats that on my the shelf (oh no)
i think its yourself (oh no)

ash blonde hair i need you now
carve my life thru the fields im a tree in the ground
i can't feel my fucking heart so why does it go pound pound pound
i sense you wanna dart, so why
 dont u wannaa stay, now

i can sense the fear ik our loves linear now
feeling like a tree thats never gonna grow; help
beat me black and blue with all the words you spew pal
you could save him now but i don't think he wants you now

heylog:

your pretty little words are meshed and i don't feel them
i'm to the point where i just lost every feeling
i still wouldn't feel a thing if i had a million friends
i'm getting closer everyday to ending it
the sun falls and creeps through my window
it's blinding me, now orange is painted on my walls
the same colour i saw when i fell in love
when i see it again i just can't get enough
can someone end my life, i don't wanna be here at all..
i'm past the part where i care at all
that's when i know shits getting bad
and i wonder how long this'll last

tree w/heylog

original song is by SALES
i just wanted to try a remix of it. hope yall like it <3

Lyrics

Verse 1
Know you spent your whole life
Trynna get here its a big year
I aint tryta interfere 
Girl you need encouragement

U know id be living out there too
 if I could go
Im still trynna get a day job
Ill be good though

U aint gotta sweat it
Keep editing your papers
I’ll still be your love struck boy
Four years later

Checking in when I can
Visiting your moms house
Look inside your room 
Even though I know your gone now

Verse 2
Updates please update me
I still wanna be there when the 
boat starts sailing
Send me all those pictures and paragraphs too
And text book selfies inside the classroom

I aint swimming but im holding my breath
Im not feeling too bad 
But I aint feeling the best

I get worried knowing that u the 
prettiest on the campus
If u wanna break all I can do is let it happen

Happen ya its happening
U really gone
Now I miss my little rockstar

Chorus
I miss your love on midsummer nights
Still dream that color only found in your eyes
Dont let me go dont let me drown
I need your touch I need it now

small town to university (Pope Is A Rockstar)

feel like a joke x_x

lyrics:


Gimme the quick revive cause my hearts done
When love is the focal point u bun the outcome
Im surprised to see at this function
Cause last time we were close u left my soul numb

To be honest
She lied for five months for the profit
I was lost for a while but now im on it
How are u I only ask to be the bigger man
What is life if we only live to live again
In ur head im sure ur only seeing static
How u treated me was lessons bout neglecting
So my partner knows I dont need to be managed
How u treated me left wounds more than a bandage could solve

I heal these wounds with plenty of alcohol
And now im sure I wouldn’t miss u at all on me
Until I think about the nights u were all on me
Oh my god
Alone at 3am in my bed I just miss you
The ghost of u can hit hard
If it weren’t for these drugs Id be gone
I hate that This drink give me courage to push on

Red leaves Fall fast
Us two Won’t last
Friction and Kickback
Good things Will Turn bad
No one had checked on me at my lowest point
So I developed on my own that’s why im to the point yea
Bedbug bites were on my thighs and back oh its bad
Plus people tried to put a price right on top my head

To be honest
She lied for five months for the profit
I was lost for a while but now im on it
How are u I only ask to be the bigger man
What is life if we only live to live again
In ur head im sure ur only seeing static
How u treated me was lessons bout neglecting
So my partner knows I dont need to be managed
How u treated me left wounds more than a bandage could solve

tbh (eric godlow)

w @heylog
produced by sleepwater and leftquiet

lyrics:
ive been to heaven hell and she wanted it
she wanna ham my neck till im on it
switching positions i feel like im in night time
i don't feel the sun no more i dont like sunshine
quicker my heart declines
more that i find myself
shut my windows and blinds
more that i hate myself
i dislike everything
but dislike you the most
my lifes full of sin
cos i dont know where to go

stood outside im seeing flies
im outside you know my time
wait for this im on a climb
fuck my psyche its pain until i die
gaining more likes am i doing something right
its gone up in spikes have i gone up in my life
maybe you should listen to me once in a while
surely you would be different if you werent in denial
EVERY THOUGHT SHES EVER HAD STARTS TO FUCKING PILE
OH I WISH I NEVER HAD SHES FUCKING VILE
depression getting really bad you can crack a smile
you can barely leave your bed stop acting like a child
how did you get rid of your sweat did you run it off
do something w ur life and make it worthwile

heylog:
she's so psychotic, i knew when i saw
speaking so toxic ur just like ur mom
everything i do she gets really pissed
so why does it feel like it's always my fault
god ur chaotic, quit starting a fight
i ain't one to argue, it's a waste of time
she purposely trying to spark up a flame
and now all of this is getting out of line
oh baby
ur so cold
ur making this easy
give more
oh baby
we're off course
she said she want more she said she want more
innocence
don't exist
she'll find ways to get your head
she's offended again
exaggerate things i say
oh my dear
you're in fear
block it out with a few beers
everyone she's ever cursed is in a pile
everyone she's ever hurt calls her vile
and everyone she's done the worst gets away
am i the only one who's learned from her pain
now the whole place burnt down
and i can see it in her eyes she's happy
i hope you know u look like a clown
cus only you would act a little trashy

𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘺 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨

pile w/heylog

songs from the year that i like but nvr dropped
punching bag album dec 28
thank u for this year beyond grateful & excited for whats to come
love, jai<3

CRASH DUMMY

produced by chalyre <3 

lyrics:
you make me
incomplete
no escaping
your cold reach

now my throat is sore
from saying your name
i'm not going to go
until you repay
the debt that you owe
its always the same 
for love

let go
of your hold

you say you love me
i would just die
i'll never be worthy
of your divine

you're killing me slowly
but i'll be fine

it's not like i'm better
from seeing the light

careworn

acoustic album this weekend on @plslovejai


ima bird in the sky heading straight to the ground
like i clipped my wing
shes an angel in disguise i dont pay her no mind
cuz they always win
no i dont got a shot fucking with somebody like you
no i dont got a lot but she saying that im type cute
well babygirl im far from it
everytime i get a itch im road running
off to the races and its on to the next one
i cant give you mt heart
and ill take all the blame i dont want no damn apology
it was my fault

and she took a part of me that i wont get back anytime soon 
and i took a piece from her now she only gets drunk alone in her room
its like we're falling straight out of orbit
you stopped calling cause i always ignore it /:
and yea i miss you more than ever but right now its not that important </3

i think about you and the kid we almost had baby
like if we kept where the fuck would we be at baby
i left you all alone to go and get rid of it
honestly my stomach was turning and i was sick of it
looking back now i feel so hideous
i didnt even tell my dad hed be furious 
im sorry from the bottom of my heart 
i couldnt be the one you wanted or let alone needed
baby i been crying to the lord oh i been pleading
begging for forgiveness but i cant give him a reason
and bae you got my heart forever 
i just hope you know i mean it

and she took a part of me that i wont get back anytime soon 
and i took a piece from her now she only gets drunk alone in her room
its like we're falling straight out of orbit
you stopped calling cause i always ignore it /:
and yea i miss you more than ever but right now its not that important </3

shudda cudda wudda //;

read the room 0.0

curated by nisshoku
prod, vocals, mix, & mastering all done by @jylme

support jyl.me here:
www.instagram.com/jyl.me/
www.youtube.com/channel/UCW4ztPErVyQiHwVuMvwT6gA

support nisshoku here:
instagram.com/saikaicollective
youtube.com/@nisshokuwu

lyrics:
im
a kid
youre
a fib
im
a lie
and
the night

jyl.me - disjointed

you can lead a horse to water... (p. penelope red)

Painstorm

some of my most emotional songs out everywhere<3 love u

Runaway

spotify

runaway (feat. jomie & spookybands)

should have 
should have been my body
should have 
should have been my body

ill never get another chance now
and i dont want it, i just want you back now
i cannot deal with all these faces looking at me
i really think it should have been my body

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

i really thought i tried my best
im putting all my scent across your messsages
just to ruin it again
youre my love and all my medicine

whats stopping me
nobody can stop me now
what is happening 
words barely leaving my mouth
but im lost again
gaps of air barely creep out
im asleep again
i dont mean to let you down

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

should have
should have been my body...

body

idgad ab the clout or if they rememeber me

can you?

Abnormal

dog fights

✘ Email: jaidenjefferson23@gmail.com
✘ Twitter: twitter.com/plslovejai
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get away

✘ Email: jaidenjefferson23@gmail.com
✘ Twitter: twitter.com/plslovejai
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(PEOD. @FOOBEATZ)

feb 3, 2017.

✘ Email: jaidenjefferson23@gmail.com
✘ Twitter: twitter.com/plslovejai
✘ Instagram: instagram.com/plslovejai
✘ Snapchat: @JAI845
(PROD. @BRUFERRBEATZ)

uh huh

prod. @l1lbiscuit x @gualabeatz

lyrics
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hey you
why you mad at me?
i've been falin' backwards runnin' barefoot through the leaves
i could bite my tongue until i really gotta leave
if the issue isn't settled why you settlin' for me?
hey you
whatchu wanna be?
i remember back when i was sleeping with no sheets
back when we were struggling off 89 a week
when the habits i possessed was partially possessing me
when the root of all my problems disappeared inside the green
and i was acting like i gave a fuck but no one fucked with me
when the busses to the 6 were all i had just to be free
i got a passport for that bitch but but now i travel overseas

yeah it's been a couple years but honestly it's all i see
when i close my eyes & reminisce this shit is just a dream
guess i really overcame a lot & now i've come to see
all the work i've put into it paying off by 23
thought i'd never live to tell but now i'm tellin how it be
when you overcome the obstacles & turn into a g
you could a. run for cover are you ready for the heat?
self destruct until i feel like anyone but me
you could be anything that you desire whatchu seek?
i've been plotting on this shit for years since i was seventeen
never felt like i could do it the depression come in sweeps
i put my headphones on & spit some shit until i fall asleep

back in 2017 i plotted out my death 
tied a noose inside my closet drew a target on my chest
if you think this shits a gimmick you can put it to the test
check my browser history for all the answers be my guest
googled "how to kill myself" but every option involved pain
every forum full of isolated kids that feel the same
saying they would end their lives in hopes of ridding all the shame
it's much easier to talk about when no one knows your name 
it's hilarious how motherfuckers profit off an act
you ain't ever put the blade against your skin and that's a fact
you're bewildered by the concept of a struggle so you cap
yeah my eyes are fixed upon you & i'm ready to attack
guess this is a wrap
fuck you & your homies all the shit you do is whack
this ain't no specific diss it's simply a smack
in the face of all these influencers actin like they sad