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new midwest emo track w/ @salemavenue :)
produced by @nevrfall
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
[decks]
college has ruined me, my mind is cloudy
wake up each morning im drowsy
feel like nobody’s around me
i just wanted to be happy
living this life is so tiring
nothing in this town inspires me
im not alive just to die,
see through my eyes,
and maybe you’ll find that

i might just fly away for a while
im sober in the candlelight, but sleeping in denial
i’d do anything to see you smile
this dream is a nightmare, im always falling down

this dream is a nightmare, im always falling down

[salem avenue]
i’m always falling down
pick me up and lift me off the ground
i act like it’s all over now
but really i just fill my head with doubt
and where would i go anyways?
when i don’t wanna ever make a sound 
maybe i’ll just fade away
find myself another in this ghost town 

yeah it goes down
pick me up 
i don’t wanna feel alone now
it’s so cold out 
i feel blue now 
pick me up
i don't wanna feel alone now
like they do

[decks]
(living this life is so tiring)
(nothing in this town inspires me)
(im not alive just to die)
(see through my eyes and maybe you'll find that)

i might just fly away for a while
im sober in the candlelight, but sleeping in denial
i’d do anything to see you smile
this dream is a nightmare, im always falling down

this dream is a nightmare, im always falling down

sober in the candlelight (feat. salem avenue) [p. nevrfall]

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sober in the candlelight (feat. salem avenue) [nevrfall]

She don't wann' feel how low
I guess she killed my soul
Yeah
She don't wann' feel how low
I guess she wait yeah
I guess she killed my soul

She don't wann' feel how low
I guess she killed my soul
I don't wann' feel no more
All black rims on the four-door
I'm in hell I know
Eyes rolled back 'til the sun up
I'll never sell my soul
I already know how it goes
She don't wann' feel how low
I guess she killed my soul
I don't wann' feel no more
All black rims on the four-door
I'm in hell I know
Eyes rolled back 'til the sun up
I'll never sell my soul
I already know how it goes

But I'm gonn' see it through
I told the devil it was really great to meet you
Shawty never let nobody in couldn't ever reach you
I like to pretend I'm strong and that my heart unbreakable
But lately I've been lettin' people throw it against the wall
I just let things go
You a mess I know
We got no rest 'til the sun up
I'm off an X I know
I'm off to hell I go
Eyes rolled back 'til the sun up
She wanna feel how low

She don't wann' feel how low
I guess she killed my soul
Yeah
She don't wann' feel how low
I guess she wait yeah
I guess she killed my soul

She don't wann' feel how low
I guess she killed my soul
I don't wann' feel no more
All black rims on the four-door
I'm in hell I know
Eyes rolled back 'til the sun up
I'll never sell my soul
I already know how it goes

I'll never sell my soul
Already know how it goes
Walkin' on a tightrope
And it's gettin' so old
All this pressure piles up
Had to turn my heart cold
I can see the fake love
With my fuckin' eyes closed
I'm in hell I know
In a downward spiral
Livin' in a cyclone
Think I'm goin' psycho
You just fucked me up
I just want someone to make me feel like I'm enough
I just want someone to make me feel like I'm in love

She wanna feel my soul
She wanna kill my soul
I don't wann' feel no more
All black rims on the four-door
I'm off to hell I know
Eyes rolled back 'til the sun up
I never sell my soul

'til the sun up w/ hamilton (p. lil biscuit)

swerve w/ sendflowrs & strgurrl

if we died, would our ghosts fw each other?

this city is a monster

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this city is a monster (feat. hamilton) [p. stay woozy]

https://youtu.be/_Di4TK4ieLA?si=m05Fyt5AP4pWSbYp

music video

down 4 ever w/ kennedyxoxo (prod. noahmadethiss) video in description*

i wanna write your favorite song

w/ https://soundcloud.com/vito2300
prod: https://soundcloud.com/jolst

this shit keeps breaking my heart
i can't sleep at all
i wanna write your favorite song
i wanna hear you talk 
just fuck it all 
just cut me off
and i'd do anything 
come close,
don't let me breathe
i need you next to me
hands cold till you make me freeze

vito: 
cuts deep but i'm not afraid of it
your touch for a long time was my form of payment
but i couldn't find the words
after all you're not shit
now i been feeling sick to my stomach,
you left me nauseous
don't call me back 
you'll be better off
need someone to tell me i'm good enough
carry that shit and believe it
look at the way i've been treated 
it's black white like old cartoons 
it's not fair that i lost you
and it's not fair that i'm still here 
and you've got somebody beside you

i wanna give it all up 
i've been thinking heavy
if it hurts it's not love
i don't understand 
cause i'm so used to leaking my blood
hate the way it is
but i can't ever get enough of you
i got myself into a mess
don't think you want me too
didn't mean a thing 
you were here in my room
c'mon cut me through 
rip through a vein or two 
want you to make a move

cut me off (w/ vito) (prod. jolst)

produced by: @remghost
mixed & mastered by me 

lyrics:

on this bed i feel lonely
please baby just call me
my phone forever is on loud
but i can’t help but feel like
you just do not want me 
eventually i know you will 
on this night will you miss me?
i stare up at the sky
and pray i’m forever filled
with love, validations so hard when the person
u want don’t want u around 
u want don’t want u around 
that u want don’t want u around 

hands pressed to my head
i fucked up again
i can’t believe i just never learn
but the human function 
of learning love is 
so hard to understand
so i’ll just wait my turn 
i’ll just wait my turn 
like the rest of these punks
i over appreciate
these very pills that fuck me up
she don’t know what love means
baby u should look it up
i feel my hands sweating
heart stops
when i’m talking to you 

on this bed i felt lonely
and she didn’t call me 
so my phone on silent now ): 
i just couldn’t shake the feeling
that she did not like me
for once, guess i’m right, right now
and the sky looks the same
as it did before u took my heart
and just stomped it out 
i’ll just stop fuckin trying
and give you a smile
if i ever see you around .. 

i just pray i see u around 
i really hope i see you around

see u around (remghost)

<33 luv yall w/ all my heart :) tysm for 30K on nites !!!

pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head

cold
blowing im smoking on thrax n been stuck in my home
2 days a week i been barely breathing, im sleeping in smoke
i been outside n still been stuck on the road
oh~
baby i am not making it home

(bad bitch like maleficent
im smoking this evergreen, its heavensent
im sipping on heavenly
this everclear shit no good 4 me and i'll throw it up by like 2 or 3
honestly know u dead 2 me but still fill u up like its calories)

live life in a hurry
my baby so worried
pushing in a benz, we cruisin 90 in a 30
uh, double cup i fill it up like shit was dirty
I COULDN'T THINK OF A LINE HERE LMFAOOOOO

pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head
pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head

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dead (heyylotus & warheart)

[thank you for riding with SEMTEX, mr cook. 
we hope you enjoy your time with us. 
in the event of an emergency please try to remain calm. we will do everything we can to resolve the issue and keep you safe.

approaching depth of 1000 metres.]

its been, it’s been
it’s been a rough few months since i was sober
i had everything i wanted now it’s over 
these metal walls keep me safe 
from the slaughter
“home” is what i call her 
i got the guts to run away now i’m cornered

so i finally packed my bags like i told her
now i’m inside this iron lung in this water 
and im sinkin in this ship with my trauma
close my eyes and i ignore her 
at this entrance of this cave i think i saw her 

ima show everybody back home
that i’m not a waste of flesh blood and bones 
ima get some pictures get out n go home
finally safe from the sight of her name on my phone
in this dark blue wasteland cold and alone 
nobody but myself and a radio 
i’ll probably never surface here yeah i know
maybe i shouldn’t have got in this 3x3 coffin

[approaching depth of 3000 metres]

it’s been a rough few months since i was sober
i had everything i wanted now it’s over 
these metal walls keep me safe 
from the slaughter
“home” is what i call her 
i got the guts to run away now i’m cornered

so i finally packed my bags like i told her
now i’m inside this iron lung in this water 
and im sinkin in this ship with my trauma
close my eyes and i ignore her 
at this entrance of this cave i think i saw her 

[approaching depth of 5000 metres]

it’s a long way down (jolst)

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my coat at anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(it’s not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
i’ll stay here if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before? 

(oh, for real?) 

my bad, i guess not but- 
do you wanna go
we can smoke at mine
if you don’t smoke
i got some beers n we can pass time
i don’t give a fuck about what’s going on 
as long you’re here watching always sunny
til bout quarter past 5 

and hey there 
“hey u :)” 
im fucked up
turned blue 
yeah im too slumped
how bout u 
like oh god !!!!
you’re too cool 

dont walk out 
leave me 
im cut up 
bleeding 
so just stay
these sun rays 
they make me 
feel okay 

all of the things 
that i could now say to you
i don’t know whether to laugh or cry
do you even feel at least half of this?
or will you just sit with your friends and all laugh at this- 
FUCK

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my at coat anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
but i’ll stay here
if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before?
oh, for real?

pale (pekarot x jolst)

Только Она Знает

Go follow my man <3
https://soundcloud.com/fuckhamz

Hammy:
I just wanna know
do you still think of me?
when you're all alone
i hope you still remember me
i don't wanna go
my heart is on your driveway
sitting all alone
they never care what i say x2

never care what i say
driving on the highway
driving on the freeway
you can have it your way
i don't really care girl
look at me and stare girl
i just wanna die now
smokin till i die now
diving on the highway
driving on the freeway
i just wanna see you
hope you want me too
i can't ever think straight
tell em that i feel great
even though i'm lyin
always fucking lying
remember what we had
now i can't stop crying
i just popped an oxy
now i think i'm flying
i just hit the ground
now i'm really dying

Yung Van:
I still have your number in my phone
Sometimes I drive by your home
I think of all the good times
I think we had some good times
I miss waking up to texts
I hate calling you my ex
I should have known this would happen
I should have known this would happen 

I've been driving all night
I'm just tryna feel right
When I think of you though
I don't want to die alone
Thinking bout you all the time
Wish that you weren't getting high
I don't think I'm feeling fine x2
Ive been driving all day
I'm just tryna feel okay
I know I can't run away
Girl you meant the world to me
Think of what we used to be
Wish it was just you and me
Guess we just weren't meant to be
I thought we were meant to be
I just wanna die now
I just wanna cry
I thought you were mine babe
I thought we were fine
Called you every night girl
Cause I thought you cared
Called you every night girl
I was always there
I wish I could walk away from all this pain
I feel like I was cut
I thought you were the one

Wish i was enough x4

FOLLOW HAMMY

i'm not depressed, i just miss you w/Hammy (Prod. Tec)

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ＣＬＯＳＥ　ＹＯＵＲ　ＥＹＥＳ　＆　ＴＡＫＥ　ＩＴ　
ＡＬＬ　ＩＮ

ＭＡＹ　ＴＨＩＳ　ＢＲＩＮＧ　ＹＯＵ　ＰＥＡＣＥ

//ごめんなさい//

@wakeuphammy
@notmorgn

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nevermind (feat. hammy)(prod. by notmorgn)

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from the bottom of my cold heart
you know I loved you
put you in my past life
that's what the drugs do 
acid on a cold night
fucking freezing
oh my god
I'm so high 
think I'm peaking

I'm going the distance
just gotta stay consistent 
they would never listen
but now they treat me different 
it's because I'm glo'd up 
gave it all my focus
you gotta work your hardest 
if you want people to notice

no days off I'm never sleeping
writing songs in my head 
while I'm dreaming
all my life I'm stuck
searching for a meaning 
wish I gave a fuck 
I can't find a reason

I can't find a reason 
bitch I'm smoking trees 
and I'm so clueless 
does she love me 
or she leaving 
oh that's perfect 
that's exactly what I needed 
a broken heart 
my soul is dark 
I feel defeated

a broken heart 
my soul is dark 
I feel defeated x4

a broken heart
I'm rolling hard
in the night 
and I'm looking at the stars
took my life
and she ripped it all apart 
I put it back
but you can see the scars

you can see the scars 
all the pain inside my eyes 
I'm just another kid
that's tortured by his mind 
thought of getting out 
like 1000 fucking times
I can barely breathe 
but I just say I'm fine

I just say I'm fine 
anxiety inside 
makes it hard to sleep at night 
smoking get me right 
gets me out head
you talking shit to me 
but I'm in your bitches bed
in between her legs

I be going stupid 
I'm ruthless
go behind my back 
I'll leave you toothless
leave you looking useless 
like bro what are you doing 
your whole life a lie
say you winning but you losing

from the bottom of my cold heart
you know I loved you
put you in my past life
that's what the drugs do 
acid on a cold night
I'm fucking freezing
oh my god 
I'm so high 
I think I'm peaking

this city is a monster (feat. hamilton) [p. stay woozy]

love jai

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