Featuring @itsyungvan
Produced by @taurs & @prod5head
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
You can't relive the past tense and it's not fair
Stuck into my old ways like I'm still there
I'm try'na move past this
Grown cold from your absence
But I won't cry I'll just be glad that it happened

No I won't lie you really hurt me
Wounded my pride
Am I deserving
Of all this pain
I long for better days
'Cause I don't wanna feel this way

(yung van)
We weren't perfect
But you got me
And I thought we were steady as a
Steady as a heartbeat
Oh now you've turned into a nightmare
And I can't let you go until I've held you
But you're not here

I miss how things were better than
You didn't need acetaminophen
I know I talk to fast without my ADHD medicine
Some sounds still trigger memories
Like that loud train on Elmer's street
That woke you up at night
After you had fallen fast asleep

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Past Tense w/ yung van (Prod. Taurs & 5head)

Featuring @ihateshinigami
Produced by @horoshavibes
Art by Kat (artstation.com/katieimbro)

LYRICS
I've been living in a dream for far too long
Desperately in need of
Someone to wake me up
Stuck in a state of
Suspended animation
Can't escape this simulation
And it's getting harder just to fake it

Nothing seems to stimulate me
And all the while I'm deteriorating
Feel like everybody hates me
Can't get out of my head
 
I've seen the world for what it is and I'm not convinced
There's gotta be something more to all of this
If ignorance is bliss than I
Am living in a paradise

(Horosha)
If all of this is just a dream
Then what visions will we see
When we wake up
Do I even want to know

(shinigami)
I’ve been living in a dream
Everything feels so far from me
I can’t tell if I’m asleep
I just really need you here next to me

And I just wanna give you the best of me
Butterflies every time that you’re texting me
Sick and tired of turning in my sheets
Lately it’s been really hard to breathe

I can’t take this anymore
Hands to my chest I’m on the floor
Wanna live a good life ‘cause this shit’s short
That’s one thing I know for sure

Suspended Animation w/ shinigami (Prod. Horosha)

ohh 
she think im the one i just told her im not that one
and i luh to drive her crazy i blame it on how i was brought up
i aint have no father in the crib it was jus my momma
hey at least ill treat you proper
and my money long like a doctor
if i give you all my heart baby then you better know i got ya
and i want you to win baby so there aint no point in stoppin ya
she say jai i love you now i wanna jump on top of you
she think im the one i just told her im not that one
she want me to pull up like yeah lets have some fun
and all i said waa good luck baby im not that.. damn

pass me the lighter
pass me the roll up 
im about to smoke a lil bit and get sum higher
you been tryna kill my vibe for a minute
at first i was addicted and im not scared to admit it
but now you tryna
you tryna chew me up and spit me out 
bleh
she start complaining when im pulling out 
what
dont put me down bae jus pick me up
feel like a clown when you call my bluff

how tf can i really tell who i can count on
i know ill be straight ill be good in the long run
i can see you hating on me dunno why you hating on me
go get sum money nigga
go get sum go get sum

u tryna chew me up n spit me out😪 [p. jkjmetasco]

prod. violet x taylor morgan x meta

this seems like the end but its just the start 
and i dont know whos trapped in my heart
i wanna be who i know i cant
fuck who owns this land
and i will never rationalize;
that life isnt what it is online
i say its fine and its a lie to myself
in perfect shape and compatible
but it wont happen in memory or sadness
but dont get too fed up, cause nothing fucking matters
everybody's always gonna be better
i hate everyone and the weather
im tired of pain and im sick of nothing
i dont think that ill end up someone
im climbing, and theres the summit
lifes care, thats all im wanting

sick of nothing

You ask for directions…

Love you all 

All plats soon 

Lyrics:


You ask for directions i say it’s under hand
Five miles in you question I swear we’ve been here again
Brochures I sure have left them back at base camp
But don’t blame at all the sign says no photos taken 


Sign after sign we ain’t getting nowhere 
We’ve been round a hundred times think I’m losing my head
You gotta look on your face that says that you hate me you wanna go home
And we’re going round in circles stuck in the woods with nowhere to go 
I’m in search of someone or any sign of life
Sos I’m calling out I’m in need of advice
Maybe just maybe I might be wrong this time 
I should’ve took a brochure when he asked instead of laughing at the guy

u tryna chew me up n spit me out😪 [p. jkjmetasco]

love jai

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