Such a banger..... w’s all day man  ✨✨✨

“Baby girl you’re the meanest
Can’t even give me a real reason huh
That’s why you leaving
Baby please tell me why you leaving now
I need closure
I’m at war with myself 
Can you tell me what’s wrong with me I need some help”
🔥🔥🔥

I'll waste my time if it's wasted on you
I don't wanna sink alone
And your not mine but you're so damn fine
Why does it feel right when it's so wrong
I'm stuck inside my head again
Think I need my medicine
Ashing on your windowsill
I'm hardly making any sense
Saying things I never meant
And you're so filled up with regret
Tell me what the fuck is next
Cause your someone I can't forget

Ooo
Ooo
Guess I gotta let you go
But tell me why the fuck is it always my fault
They always break my heart
And I never know the cause
I can't handle new scars
So I'm always running far

I'm always running from
Those things you say you want
Picking up again
I got a brand new scar
Got a brand new heart
Come and take it all
Leave me hurt again its probably all my fault
It's always all my fault
I fucking hate those songs
I'm losing everything i'm breaking
I don't want you gone
Tell me anything that I can do to make it stop
I been waiting here alone for fucking way too long
So tell me all about how you been waiting for it
I wanted innocent love you wanna leave me damaged
So tell me all about how you been waiting for it
I wanted innocent love you wanna leave me damaged

Ooo
Ooo
Guess I gotta let you go
But tell me why the fuck is it always my fault
They always break my heart
And I never know the cause
I cant handle new scars
So i'm always running far
Don't know what I need but I know what I want yeah yeah
Still feel empty nothings enough gotta get it all I know

ALWAYS MY FAULT

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ALWAYS MY FAULT w/ ghoul_001 [lilbiscuit]

nevermadeithome:

I don't even know what's happening 
your words come down like avalanche 
and I swear your tears hurt me more than you know 
and I'll be on my walk again covered in snow

I'm just a fuck up
for some reason you still find love in me
i guess its tough love
because I'm trying to figure out what you see in me 

I'm still waiting 
waiting waiting waiting 

I'm still waiting 
waiting waiting waiting 

areuhappy w me? cuz i kinda hate myself 
I cant communicate the right way, what I'm tryna say 
what I'm tryna say yeah
what I'm tryna say yeah
what I'm tryna say yeah
what I'm what I'm tryna say


sendflowrs:

can’t you hear what I'm tryna say
i buy a gem i fell in love with the finer things
and you won’t ever see my face at the pearly gates
love, it’s a funny thing
so I'm smokin on that gas till it go away 

like can you go away, no
I cannot hear a thing, woah
all this noise my darlin 
I don’t think ur listening, no
that song it curses me 
and I can hear you whistling, woah
swear that she’s a god at this
but I won’t ever say a thing, no

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are you, happy? w/ sendflowrs (irby & jolst)

target ft. polar

produced by killedmyself

completely non profit

lyrics

smoking on a fat stack
think i had a heart attack
tryna make my mind blank
all my blunts are fully packed
she just made my back snap
she just made my soul black
i just spent a fat rack
its okay ill make it back

in a week maybe two
look at my face i gone blue
im smoking on hazy now
bitch im smoking u
what u gonna do
i put u in a mood
im just fucking rude
aint nun to do with u

smoking on a fat stack
think i had a heart attack
tryna make my mind blank
all my blunts are fully packed
she just made my back snap
she just made my soul black
i just blew a fat rack
its okay ill make it back

its an all black fit with the silver chains on top of it
metal in my face i feel this jewelry pierce my fucking skin
i dont get what the hell the fucking problem is
i cant love myself despite when im hearing all these compliments

im just doing what i do
wanna see what i can do before im 22
maybe have a house with a pool and a view
i can just kick back smoking bongs on the roof
i can just kick back getting plays getting views
see my name not my face in the news
i dont need no girl on my waist or a boo
and i like being alone i dont need u too

smoking on a fat stack
think i had a heart attack
tryna make my mind blank
all my blunts are fully packed
she just made my back snap
she just made my soul black
i just blew a fat rack
its okay ill make it back


heart attack 110 (killedmyself)

fuck everything its startin 2 bore me
I just been feeling outta energy
I know that its sad they all watching me
kill myself on a motherfuckin big screen
hold my breath like its almost over 
ill feel better when im 6 feet lower

don't talk to me
just leave me be 
ion need breathe 
I just need to sleep
I just need to sleep
just need 2 gut u from me
just need 2 gut me you'll see
just need to cut through from me
just need to gut me you'll see

don't u dare act like you're falling from me
don't u dare act like ur gonna leave me
I just need u 2 promise that you'll never leave me
I just really needed it but everyone deceive me
I think I finally found someone who can hold me
I think I finally found someone who can show me
but im still worried imma die by my lonely
but im still worried imma die by my lonely
but im still worried imma die by my lonely

don't talk to me
just leave me be 
ion need breathe 
I just need to sleep
I just need to sleep
just need 2 gut u from me
just need 2 gut me you'll see
just need to cut through from me
just need to gut me you'll see

drawing blood from a stone [+lil biscuit]

prod by jakeygotit https://www.youtube.com/user/MRtoadsworth1
Vocals & mix by @joshuasageart

Track # 5/10

www.joshuasageart.com

Merch

Psychopath

prod @proxensx , @prodhxlcyon , & @joshuasageart

Track # 2/10

Entrance

Vocals & mix by: @JoshuaSageArt
Prod by: @sserae & shigitoriii

https://www.instagram.com/ihateraesomuch/
https://www.instagram.com/shigitoriii/

www.joshuasageart.com

Track # 9/10

Living

I'm feeling happier alone than i did with you
Don't bother hitting my phone when you realize it was all true
You're turning into somebody that ill never like
Two wrongs don't make a right and thats the reason why you left i know

I'm at war myself self self self self
Throw a white flag in the air
I know that life isn't fair
Its getting harder to care when they all stop and stare
While i'm at war wit myself

Oh and i fell in love wit her body
Lately i don't trust nobody yeah
I know you're not down to ride for me ah
And its still as real is it gets
I break her back while she breaking my heart
Lipstick left on my cheek from her kiss
Aimbot
Yeah you already know i don't miss
Back shots
Yeah i'm boutta fuck up her ribs
I don't even gotta say nun thats real rizz
Oh i'm tryna blow thru a hundred thats real shit
Who you know do it like this
You're not the one that i miss
Even if i did it wouldn't mean shit oh
Babygirl you're the meanest
Cant even give me a real reason oh
As to why you leaving baby please tell me why you leaving oh
I need closure i'm at war wit myself
Can you tell me whats wrong wit me i need some help

Self self self self
I'm at war wit myself self self self self
Throw a white flag in the air
I know that life isn't fair
Its getting harder to care when they all stop and stare while im at war wit myself
Self self self self
Oh i'm at war with myself
Self self self self
Ooo i'm at war wit myself
Self self self self
Oh yeah i'm at war wit myself

Oh and i fell in love wit her body
Lately i don't trust nobody yeah
I know you're not down to ride for me oh
And its still as real is it gets
I break her back while she breaking my heart
Lipstick left on my cheek from her kiss

nowim@warwitmyself

nowim@warwitmyself [p.methboiswag]

hold the applause
produced by @prodbybrody
featuring @sewerperson
mixed by nine to 5 and sewerperson

lyrics:
both:
so won't you hold the applause
cause its all that i got
i know its not a lot, but it feeds me the strength that i would need to move on

nine to 5:
I did all the things that i said i would
Try to push me to the side but you never could no
I’m breaking through the walls it’s competitive
Now im taking to the bottle like a sedative woah

After all of this time and i still get it wrong
I won’t tell you what you wanted hear no more
Yeah you played me a game tryna get up the score
But i aint finished yet i’m still coming for more

So won’t you hold the applause
Cuz its all that i got
You tore it apart
It was doomed from the start
Fallin for your mirage 

Falling from nothing
But oh its so exciting
To go
To these places i aint been before
You took hold my body sunk it into the floor

going insane, my body is sore
i feel a lot different than i did before
seasons have changed, i'm closing these doors
i'm burning these bridges can't take anymore
so take all i am, i'll do what i can
but nothing will satisfy you in the end
but i understand, it's all gone as planned
you fucked up my head but i'll take what i can

sewerperson:
Seventeen nights in the grip of cold hands
Baby i try do u right while u just doing what u can
Wails heard thru the night from somewhere deep inside the branch
Toss out a flare we can light up the world
Ash floats thru the air as this fire unfurls
Tell me how this shit compare to a night better spent
Watch The banshee touch down on to the charring grasslands

Won’t you hold the applause
Cause its all that I got
I know its not a lot but it feeds me the strength I would need to move on
With her taste on my tongue
And my hand on my heart
I cant be what u need but I swear on my life I will be what u want
With the grace of a wisp
She comes right around and attaches to my hip
She whispers are u scared and I said maybe just a bit
U know I cant lie when u look at me like this
When u look me in my eyes
I know u could see into my soul into my mind
U know I know I could never get away with lying
That’s why its the truth that without u id rather die

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nine to 5 - hold the applause ft. sewerperson (prod. brody)

original version of later released: residential. - woods ( https://soundcloud.com/user-411557229/snap-santana )

not home. - woods (killedmyself)

came a long way, thank u all for being here <3

lyrics

whats wrong baby
well you dont seem to love my lies
well i’d love to 
i'd love to just take your side

blind spot, she hit the blind spot
coulnt, couldnt dodge couldnt watch out
i been covering my room in sage
remiscing all these days

when you’d make my heart stop baby
now just heavy heart drops
its ok, its ok baby

drugs learn ya lessons
but they aren’t always tied to things that aren’t right
yeah we like to live, always friction
but im not tryna burn the forest every night

if she dont see the love, we wont be friends
baby, taking off the top like this is the end
but thats just not the point yeah thats just the thing
maybe its the sum, maybe its the sun 
maybe we just run

can you see the doves can you see them flying away
i’ve seen past this dark i’m not tryna hide away
not today, im just tryna find a way
but i hope u 
i hope u can too

i really want you but i cant say the same
i care about u but its not the fucking same
baby i know its been lonely at night
baby i know its lonely at night

thru my eyes

open up ur eyes girl
we cant stay the same our whole life
but i don't wanna lie girl
i can't always be by your side

wish upon forever 
forevers to vast
i cant look at life the same after all my past
i mean we could live forever 
but it probably won't last
use too much
use too much logic ima pass

plenty signs 
do i really need to give u a timeline
i'm heading out to sea 
coz i've been rejected and dissected 
but i don't mind, i don't mind
ima find a way

jetlag 
i got a jet lagged mind 
its just another setback 
could u just see thru my eyes 
just sometimes

nowim@warwitmyself [p.methboiswag]

love jai

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