produced+mixed by @bloodsekai
https://open.spotify.com/album/7FwG0qlX90gXE9PXVjjk4R?si=ZYw0mlMDTG-KVdLK5qyE5w

lyrics

shawty so bad w the cuts on her wrist
i tried so hard but i cant fit in
i hate ur guts but i wont admit it
i wont admit it

i wna kms everyday
sick n fucking tired of the pain
suicidal thoughts every single day
yeah i feel so fucking crazy

ima loser i only got 3 friendz 
your voice repeats in my head
ik that im stuck in the pastt 
for you i wont relapseee

 shawty so bad w the cuts on her wrist
i tried so hard but i cant fit in
i hate ur guts but i wont admit it
i wont admit it

my phone dont get no calls
hate myself and your the causeee
looking like a fag with my clawsss
your the 1 ill 4ever wanttt
if i die your the 1 id haunttt x2
all you do is taunt x2

i wna kms everyday
sick n fucking tired of the pain
suicidal thoughts every single day
yeah i feel so fucking crazy 
shawty so bad w the cuts on her wrist
i tried so hard but i cant fit in
i hate ur guts but i wont admit it
i wont admit it

haunt (p. bloodsekai)

Take some time off go on a trip, live your life.

Last stop before the end

lyrics :

i wanna jump off a bridge
i cant conceal my sadness
they always ask what happened
im at a fucking dead end

i know im gonna die all alone
i never pay attention 
im glued to my phone :3
my dad hates me i am disowned 
to everyone i am unknown

you hate me but i dont know what i did
when im alone i cut my wrists
i wish that i could feel bliss
but i cant
im such a bitch

im in an exisential crisis
why do i exist?
i miss when we would kiss
now im in her blocked list

i wish i wasnt this awkward
im such a fucking coward
when they call me names 
i act like im unbothered
i feel like such a failure!!

i wanna jump off a bridge
i cant conceal my sadness
they always ask what happened
im at a fucking dead end

exisential crisis

melody from lullaby for a deadman written by kevin sherwood, tuff aah riff

it replays when i shut my eyes,
youre the subject that i despise.
will you haunt me till my demise?
i keep uncovering the lies.

ive felt this way for way too long,
dont know where it all went wrong.
i just wanted to be sure,
theres no hope anymore.

it replays when i shut my eyes,
youre the subject that i despise.
will you haunt me till my demise?
i keep uncovering the lies.

it replays when i shut my eyes,
youre the subject that i despise.
will you haunt me till my demise?
i keep uncovering the lies.
it replays when i shut my eyes,
youre the subject that i despise.
will you haunt me till my demise?
i keep uncovering the lies.

smile whilst it lasts

walking through the forest im all alone
running away from what i call home
but im so scared of the dark
im crying so hard as i walk

i hear a loud voice scream but it sounded near
so i dropped my bags and checked everywhere
but theres nothing here im so scared 
im so scared
im so scared!!!

someone help please
im yelling loudly 
im being chased by a shadow
im going crazy
i tripped right over a rock and then he caught me
he carries me into the air i started shouting

please dont hurt me
ill do anything
it stares right into my soul and started laughing
he grabs my throat and squeezes me i started choking
smiling and grinning while im in the air dying

at my rescue 
is a girl
with a light so bright
that i just might turn blind

she picks me up off the ground
and hugs me tight
and for the very first time
i felt alright




















romantic nightmare

ik that been so cruel
you seem to think im some type of fool
you start stab me with your cold words
you start to hurt me like im some fool
tell me why im so cruel
na na 4x
tell me what do you wanna die 
tel me just what you see inside

naerobi
my face melt
like its hot out here

don’t rest my
case yet
im not done right here

oh bitch
you’re brain dead
acting with no fear

i bet you’re brain dead
i bet you’re brain dead

yeah

oh
i bet you’re brain dead
fucking walking around
doing god knows what

a zombie, dead girl

i fucking hate you
im gonna fuck your whole world up
bitch say thank you


i fucking hate you
bitch say thank you
im gonna fuck your whole world up
schizo fake you












when you look me at me gage your eyes out
im i so ugly you hate me
do you love me do you love me now
its so cruel that you dont want to see me
tell me that you really love me
beat me hurt hurt me tell me that love me
ouuuuu
ouuuu
ouuu
ouuu
beat me hurt me tell that you love me
just tell that you really love me
just tell me that you love me
just tell me that you fucking love me
beating that im crazy
tell that fuck 
AHHHHHH
HHHHH
HHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHH
HHHHHHHH
HHHHHHH

tell me how im so cruel /naerobi

i am posted up like a barbie
in two months i'll look like a fine shit
i dont care bout nothing
i dont care bout nothing

okay all my friends are the truest
ostatnio jest zle i wgl 
she want to be at the first place
ale nie może do nas wejść

jakbym miał wybierać co dla mnie znaczysz
nie ja nie mam uczuc musisz mi wybaczyć
always swaggin on these bitches like jestem gwiazda
stop talking shit bout me nie lubie tego za bardzo


idc bout nun

@bloodsekai @yukisasayaki

after hours of reflection, yesterday is always the worst

ft @yukisasayaki instrumental by me @deathsuppressant

everyday's disaster
don't ask me what's the matter
all my dreams are shattered
i can't make new ones even when i sleep

the glass i look through's tinted
my eyes are causing faults
and the concrete i walk on
there's cracks in all the spots
with your arms surrounding me
am i bothering you?
i'm harmful to everyone
yet i can't hurt you

everyday's disaster
don't ask me what's the matter
all my dreams are shattered
i can't make new ones even when i sleep

i cant stop it
ur not jus somebody
everything i could ask for yea u got it
i dont wanna hurt u
yea i said it
but i tend to fuck up yea i regret it

cant take the life out of me 
its constant pathetic fallacy
my fantasy
is all i see
but u shattered all my dreams
cant take it
ur all in my head
i dont care bout my problems
i embrace the dread
i dont care bout ur problems
or maybe i do
i want u to be happy
but im so confused

everyday's disaster
don't ask me what's the matter
all my dreams are shattered
i can't make new ones even when i sleep

bloodsekai + yuki - everyday's disaster

(prescription)
freedom rocks
i could bring my gun to
school and shoot it up
pretty cruel but its all 
fine to me

2nd amendment makes it pretty fuckin easy to end it

(soul)
USA yeah were the great
immigrants runnin the place
taxing every single dime
"ill turn this shit to columbine"
that boy is small hes only nine
the pastor raped and killed his wife
you either get a 9 to 5 or you can commit suicide

freedom rocks, embalming
government staged bombings
"take me to your island"
president i know you like it

(prescription)
trucks with loaded guns 
red white and blue 
put a fucking slug right thru
too much smoke in my lungs if ur not from here then what are u

(soul)
USA yeah were the great
immigrants runnin the place
taxing every single dime
"ill turn this shit to columbine"
that boy is small hes only nine
the pastor raped and killed his wife
you either get a 9 to 5 or you can commit suicide

freedom rocks, embalming
government staged bombings
"take me to your island"
president i know you like it

(prescription)
freedom rocks
i could bring my gun to
school and shoot it up
pretty cruel but its all 
fine to me
trucks with loaded guns 
red white and blue 
put a fucking slug right thru
too much smoke in my lungs if ur not from here then what are u

freedom rocks!! (ft. soulsecret)

Let's go

Taking the medicine
The thoughts that lurk within
Can't take the weight outside
I want this off

I try to scratch it out
Maybe I'm not okay
There is no other way
To get this outside

It all falls down (falls down) 
you have lost your crown
it all falls down

My anorexia
Cannot let it add up
My anorexia
Am I good enough

This internal battle within
She is trying to save you
This internal battle within

Taking the medicine
The thoughts that lurk within
Can't take the weight outside
I want this off

I try to scratch it out
Maybe I'm not okay
There is no other way
To get this outside

cerise (feat. Skyler Reyes of Slugbleed)

and i beat her
i beat her every day
even when the sun is shining
or even when it's raining
forgive me, my dear
my hand rises higher
my hand turns to stone
and it quickly falls

and now that youve left me
i cant find myself
I dont wanna fight
5 years have passed so quickly
i want to get you back quickly
my lies are always so true
i love you

Last stop before the end

Plugg Do it