jaydes - veins ( extended )

@anjiwdoves on ig
i played the guitar on dis 2

lyrics: 
u planted seeds in my mind. it led to me wasting time. and almost losing my mind. i said i hate you alex. hate you alex. hate you alex. hate you alex. i cant believe i let u play ur tricks on me. u led me wrong and fed me lies that i believed. oh tell me i cant believe that i still think abt u. i get high and cant control what i do. i thought u knew but u aint got a clue. knew from the start that i was leaving u blue. i hate u alex and everything u do.

alexandria

Untitled6 (NO MONOLOGUE)

@copics @i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

look thru the window
do you see me outside?
do you see me outside?
i know you cant go
no matter how hard i try
no matter how hard i try

baby as long as you know i love you
i hope you dont think its weird
i'll go head n disappear
baby as long as you know i love you
baby as long as you know i trust you

window with crayon

@torturedskin

Lyrics:
i thought'd i feel worse by the morning
you told me i'm nothing and i'm not important
this anxiety's tearing me, all of this torment
and i thought i was special to you
i thought i was, thought i was the one

you say that i'm pretty, inside i feel numb
you think that i'm ugly
your lies i succumb to

when i get stuck up in my bed
i hear your voices in my head
can't play pretend, i put that pistol to my head
and lay to rest

(you say im nothing at all)
You say im nothing at all
at all
I still have your picture hanging up on my wall
You know I love it
but you're gone now I gotta stop it
but in the end it amounts to nothing
it all amounts to nothing
you're craving my touch still 
what you did was wrong
feels like im climbing a mountain at the end I fall
you know I loved you from the start 
but you never loved me to begin with

you say i'm nothing at all / lucille

front door

 
Lyrics:
think I might try things to make me better
If you and I loved each other once 
it'll make me feel better inside
maybe I should try to love again

you can make things better its up to decide
if you want to take my hand and fly through the heavenly sky 
I hope it'll be better this time

for you and I 
I swear you can cry in my arms this time
maybe it'll be better again  
maybe I should try love again

getting better

campus crush @kiheir

I use sound as a way to express my healing process, accept reality, and find beauty in life's unpredictability. In its raw and unfiltered form, sound serves as a powerful medium for conveying the complex emotions I experience while navigating life's chaos and uncertainty. By embracing disharmony and unexpected shifts in my music, I am not only accepting reality as it is, but also transforming it into something meaningful and intimate for me. This creates a space where vulnerability and acceptance coexist, allowing me to find love and beauty in the imperfect and even the disturbing.

getting better

i wanna go to pluto