medicinal

[LYRICS]
i know i’m just a small town boy 
but no i’ll never be your toy
internet and drugs fucking up my mental health
i wish that i could stay but i don’t think you do me well
all the city lights i think they’re making me blind 
i don’t feel right but you love taking your time
and if you wanna make excuses then go do what you want
cause i swear to fucking god you love to ruin my fun
say what you want you know i got no temper 
i’m so fucked up i won’t even remember 
all the text messages that i never sent her
lost in the void that we both entered 

She said will never be forever i said don’t play pretend.
You wanna fuck up my feelings said that we cant be friends.
Ya i've been staring at the clock hoping my time will end.
Ya i’ve been staring at these walls hoping that you’ll repent.
And i’m so sick can’t feel myself.
Ya don’t confuse for someone else.
Hope you stay so close to me.
Can we be friends not enemies.
Time of day ya i'm staring at the window.
Time away wish you could be more loved.
Find away you’ve been acting in my shadow.
Hurting me you really start a fight.

all the city lights i think they’re making me blind 
i don’t feel right but you love taking your time
and if you wanna make excuses then go do what you want
cause i swear to fucking god you love to ruin my fun
say what you want you know i got no temper 
i’m so fucked up i won’t even remember 
all the text messages that i never sent her
lost in the void that we both entered

City Lights w/ Solio [maniksprod x DollategaBeatz]

prod. + written by thms.
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If I decide my fate
Then where do I go from here
(Cause I don't know)

The things you wouldn't believe
I've seen them they're all right here

You hide your tail 
And turn to leave 
Like you always do

Trust me I don't know what you're thinking 
so read between these lines yeah im not faking

and you'll find what I mean
Yeah you'll find you're in between
And I just wanna be here for you

Step in my shoes
Feel how I feel and tell me
What to do and choose

You simply know best
That's what you tell the rest
Now we're fucking like it never really mattered in the end

If I decide my fate
(The fuck should I choose to please you?)

Then where do I go from here
(Cause I don't know)

The things you wouldn't believe
I've seen them they're all right here
(I've seen them, I dont know how you're right here!~)

You hide your tail 
And turn to leave 
Like you always do

pastels

produced by me

lyrics:
you couldn’t tell the truth if you wanted to
i focus on the past, i guess that’s why i lose
but if it’s truly meant, ima give it time
cause in the end that’s what i always do

we’ve built these bridges up just to burn them down
i suffer in your silence, but it feels so loud
i give my everything to try and make you proud
but then another wave comes crashing down

tell me why you do this for?
i’m face first in the dirt what are you waiting for?
you moved on, i guess we’re history
now i’ve only got the absence that you left behind for me
i’m growing so tired of this
you caused the scars upon my wrist
while he’s in between your hips now

oh
while he’s in between your hips now
oh
while he’s in between your hips now

you couldn’t tell the truth if you wanted to
i focus on the past, i know that’s why i lose
it isn’t truly meant, you love to waste my time
don’t try to make me happy with another lie

i’m tired of this chip that’s on my shoulder
i’ve accepted that it’s over
he’s the one you want
i can tell by how you vaunt
but girl we’ve got some chemistry
i don’t know what’s gotten into me
you’re fogging up my reasoning
but now the truth sits clear with me

oh
oh
oh

we’ve built these bridges up just to burn them down
i suffer in your silence, but it feels so loud
i give my everything to try and make you proud
but then another wave comes crashing down

dirt

spotify

Resemblance [prod. past encounters]

thx @777evil & @nokerbforever <3

Life is alway changing, youll find a new perspective
Im sorry that i did this, but that shits not respected
fucked up once we let it go, you fuck up twice and then it shows
That you never changed, and you never will
in me builds the rage, to the point where i could kill
put a bullet in your chest, watch the blood pour out and spill
I trusted you, you gave me nothing, i shouldve known, you were up to something
A second chance, we deserve it all, but people like you, put us all at fault
And theres nothing i could say, you didnt learn your lesson
Forgave you the first time, but i cant do a second

Choices fall, into a sick shape
Reminisce the times we fixate
On our broken souls
Swear i let it go
Every fucking second
But your failure it shows

evilmiku:
i can’t keep up with every single change
you try to make everything bad a game
all of these thoughts you planted in my brain
but i won’t go down from anything you say

NOKERB:
you would always pressure me to get shit done
lately i been wondering if this is all worth it
wasted my time on you, thought it was perfect
it was not, you was treating me so worthless
i wonder how long it all will last.. 
the choices fell!
you was treating me like trash
im on the edge of falling down
baby im about to jump

choices fall ft. evilmiku & NOKERB [prod. saint mike]

produced by me

lyrics:
you can hide behind your lies, i see right through them
i have no clue on where you’re at or what you’re doin’
and i really wonder what your next excuse is
i try to tell you how i feel, but i’m a nuisance

i can try to build us up, but you’ll come crashing it down
cause you don’t want me to succeed, you rub my face in the ground
i’m neck deep within my worries, i swear i could drown
and you swore things would be different, but look where we’re now

you leave me nothing but time, too much space to overthink
i’ll brush it off like i’m fine, up till the moment i cave
deep in my arms, there’s some scars that i covered with ink
but nothing can cover all the grief that you gave

you wanna chill on the weekends, get drunk and have fun
just don’t text me or call me till the sober has won
i’m not here for a vent to, or a shoulder to cry on
i guess you got the last laugh, with my heart that you stomp on

nuisance

prod by pablo worldwide + jolst
mix & master by @silentcxbin

###LYRICS###
life goes on
no time to be sad 
bite my tongue 
fuck that
no time to be mad 
and you always have a issue 
I could see it in your face 
wtf you hating cabin for ?
cause you don’t feel the same ?
have you laid in the grass 
did the Trees feel safe 
do you have some where 
to call home ?
are you feeling grey? 
have you seen the sunshine 
do it even feel the same 
I just sit in a shame 
while my body rot decay

you a lame get up out my face 
Worried bout my payment 
I just hit the bank 
I leveled up like everyday since
hell rain down, pussy boy 
I’m already aimed in 
1v1 when I’m alone 
I’ll leave ya brain dead,

I fuck it up 
could come in clutch 
if you need me
I’m tryna fly down to LA 
for da weekend 
we know he soft 
he not hard 
he act like cement,

He DOA 
I leave his body 
on the pavement 

new AIM 
just to walk up 
an then spray it 
woke up with a vendetta
on my note list 
I hate going out in public 
cause they’ll notice 
why am I so fucking anxious 
can’t hold it

a thermal scope 
on a SIG
Ima hunt for gold
I catch you walking 
in the road
you getting domed
you all alone
bitch I treat that laser 
like my arm
you ain't making it home
you MIA all along

life goes on
no time to be sad 
bite my tongue 
fuck that
no time to be mad 
and you always have a issue 
I could see it in your face 
wtf you hating cabin for ?
cause you don’t feel the same ?
have you laid in the grass 
did the Trees feel safe 
do you have some where 
to call home ?
are you feeling grey? 
have you seen the sunshine 
do it even feel the same 
I just sit in a shame 
while my body rot decay

la vie suit son court

life goes on (pablo worldwide + jolst)

with https://soundcloud.com/arr_eeh and https://soundcloud.com/kanashisadface

I’m passed out, I’m broken on all these dreams
Tell me you’re hoping I’ll break the seams
I can't hear a word you say, over these screams
It’s what I get
It’s what I get, it’s what I get

Feel the rot on the inside
Passing out on a train ride
Fill my veins up with fluoride
Tell you, “I ain’t got shit to hide”

Just to get you to want me
I'd commit every sin
the thought of heaven will haunt me
They’ll never let me in
I’ll paint my nails if you ask me to
Just tell me what shade
I’ll pierce my nose in the hopes you like to see me in pain

I’m passed out, I’m broken on all these dreams
Tell me you’re hoping I’ll break the seams
I’m choking, and hoping I find a way to breathe
It’s what I get, it’s what I get

Feel the rot on the inside
Passing out on a train ride
Fill my veins up with fluoride
Tell you, “I ain’t got shit to hide”

Feel the rot on the inside
Passing out on a train ride
Fill my veins up with fluoride
Tell you, “I ain’t got shit to hide”

I don't have shit to hide from you
but it seems like you could learn a lesson
In telling the truth
And I've been losing my mind
Tryin' to figure out why
You always leave me hangin' out to dry
You always leave me hangin' out to dry
Fill my veins with fluoride

fluoride w/ re: + kanashi (king theta)

thank u for the support. out on all platforms.
lyrics:

we locked eyes for the first time
in a while
you said you can't love
but that's vile
then you're searching for me
in someone else
should i even be here?
man i can't tell

it seems you've broken our promise and i can tell by your eyes
felt the ridges on my arm and said i saw your disguise
how do i cope inside my mind?
i'll disappear from everyone,
social suicide
but if you called me and told me you didn't even mean what you did
i don't think the blade would retract from my skin
please don't look
i swear i'm fine
i'll disappear from everyone, 
social suicide
you're holding on by a thread?
you looked at me as you said it
i didn't know what to do
but now i really regret it

staring wide eyed looking what you forced in
and all the apathy deterred me from your coffin 
feel less manic in the gardens
exhausted my options
cause every single step leads me right back to you

and there's bones in your closet
regrets that are haunting
there's really no difference between me and you
how should i cope?
am i just a character inside your book that you wrote
you threw me away in what felt like a boast
now i'm really struggling staying afloat

it seems you've broken our promise and i can tell by your eyes
felt the ridges on my arm and said i saw your disguise
how do i cope inside my mind?
i'll disappear from everyone,
social suicide
but if you called me and told me you didn't even mean what you did
i don't think the blade would retract from my skin
please don't look
i swear i'm fine
i'll disappear from everyone, 
social suicide

dirt

pneuma

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