produced by thersx and luffy

lyrics:
lets take it slow babe
ill do a couple lines, while she sippin rosé
i see your doing better
ive always just been a halfway
a fuckin mistake
another kid to push around who digs his own grave

the voices talkin, bass is bumpin
junked out, im feelin nothin
crack a smile, my blood is pourin
i took a pill, then crushed the other
i cry for help, i guess im muffled
down in luck, ill fuckin crumble
pain wont stop, ill take another
i pick my skin, there's something under

but you're never impressed
i give my all love
im tired of being so stressed
but fuck my health ima mess
i wont rest till my death is washing over me
washing over me

but now im seeing clearly
addicted to your feeling
and i can't write no songs
when all my thoughts lead straight to envy
i try to fucking run but there's this feeling i cant hide
im fighting with temptation put my life up on the line
i put my life up on the-

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rosé

produced by stezzyxl

lyrics:
i miss you i fear
i know something ain’t right
let’s just sit by the ocean
and gaze at the sky
while we whisper emotions
to get through the night
to get through the night

let’s just rewrite this over
and start from the start
and we break up to make up
but we’ve made it this far

and it seems in october we fell for each other
no we fell for each other
no we fell for each other
i just think ‘bout us

seasons they come and they go in a distance
but time can heal all wounds it’s our decision
im breaking down, you pick me up
without you im nothing
our home is now abandoned but these visions still haunt me

home

@x1fern
@navyxower
@northshoremusic
@kuriositylol
@emptychest

War w/ 1fern, NAVYXOWER, The North Shore, kuriosity & emptychest [+ sogimura]

produced by me

lyrics:
can’t accept that you’ll never change
‘cause all your texts have faded
you make this feel so estrange
you make me feel so jaded
you and i are not the same
i’ll slowly kill our flame
but i won’t be the one to blame
‘cause

my blood is dripping down from your lip
ain’t got a lot to give
amongst the edge, i’m scared i’ll slip
across my skin she pressed a shiv
but, i’m just a fragile minded kid
she told me get a grip
don’t blame me for the shit you did
when he’s got you by his hip

it’s been two weeks since i crossed your mind
but now you’re dead to me
deep into your lies i’ll find
that we're just enemies
you do it for the social life
all the guys and likes
i’ll build up till the time is right

blame

ft. @decksmusic
prod. @jolst

~lyrics~

(wish)
age 16, straight addicted 
was stil on beats, nowadays i done switched it 
alcohol n medication, bet that i mixed it 
if i had a way out, i swear to god id'a picked it 
years later,  really aint shit changed
i might be off of the drugs but they still rotted my brain
still a loser, everyone thinks im lame 
and my head still hurts, like a tumor in the brain 

yea i dont really talk about me 
but i talk bout my problems, thats all u need 
no face, so when im gone u can let go 
i was just a voice, that you would hear in your headphones

said she got scars on her arms and they look like me 
and i remember all the times that she cried to me 
and all the things that you want are what i tried to be 
just say i did good, please lie to me 

years later,  really aint shit changed
i might be off of the drugs but they still rotted my brain
still a loser, everyone thinks im lame 
head hurts, its like a tumor in the brain 

(decks)
years late, im a half shelled mutt
im a nuisance, pick up the blood where i scuffed
i can battle but life’s always tough
i been down but its never enough

i’ve been fighting back to where i stayed
years later im a man without a face

pissed off and its polarizing
the people u lose due to shitty timing
and loss is a cruel thing, i know
but the problem is under what i show

(wish)
age 16, straight addicted 
was stil on beats, nowadays i done switched it 
alcohol n medication, bet that i mixed it 
if i had a way out, i swear to god id'a picked it 
years later,  really aint shit changed
i might be off of the drugs but they still rotted my brain
still a loser, everyone thinks im lame 
and my head still hurts, like a tumor in the brain

sixteen w/ decks

Lyrics:

(Serotonin, pump it through my blood
An addiction, one hell of a drug
Tired of feeling so down in the mud
Eyes of tears are starting to flood x2)

Don't know how it is 
To live and be dissociative
Not sure where i am half the time
Memory from memory, they intertwine 

Cant stay stuck in this cage forever
Want to be free and let it wonder
Tired of feeling so down in the mud
Lay me on the ground and let me rot

You're no fun
(Dissociative games under the sun)
There's no room
(To forget everything under the moon)

Never thought i'd be the person to rant in a song
Kinda therapeutic though it might be wrong
Can't keep it in my chest feel like it's exploding
The words flow out my mouth, larynx is imploding

(Serotonin, pump it through my blood
An addiction, one hell of a drug
Tired of feeling so down in the mud
Eyes of tears are starting to flood)

(Serotonin, pump it through my blood
An addiction, one hell of a drug
Tired of feeling so down in the mud
Lay me on the ground and let me rot)

You're no fun
(Dissociative games under the sun)
There's no room
(To forget everything under the moon)


Never thought i'd be the person to rant in a song
Kinda therapeutic though it might be wrong
Can't keep it in my chest feel like it's exploding
The words flow out my mouth, larynx is imploding

Minds in a blur but i'm still writing songs how
I'll Never let shit faze me or bring me way down
Wont let my mind define me, i'm much more than that
Now enough about me, let's go way back

You're no fun
(Dissociative games under the sun)
There's no room
(To forget everything under the moon)

(“it's.. it's weird because in a way i know that i'm living and im real but..but i..i feel so..so fake like…like im..im watching the world from..from somebody else's eyes, like its not actually me..? I don't know, maybe i'm crazy”)

Writing a song might be a sign it's getting bad
But i'm tired of pretending like i'm just really sad
The truth of the matter is i'm in my own head
Maybe I should stop singing and go to bed..

Never thought i'd be the person to rant in a song
Kinda therapeutic though it might be wrong
Can't keep it in my chest feel like it's exploding
The words flow out my mouth, larynx is imploding

D!ssociative D!sorder (p. whymillyy)

produced by me

lyrics:
revolving in a loop, no i don’t know which way to go
and i haven’t seen a face within a week, i’m at my low
but my screen, it takes me to a place, that feels just like my home
so don’t say you feel the same, when you’re the one that dug my hole

i’m transforming into someone you don’t want
so why’s your presence always seem to haunt me
maybe it’s the way you always talked
i’ll, put my phone on dnd and keep it locked
i continue lying to myself, i know you’ll never change
you make it hard to face the truth when our convos slowly fade
you make the blade pierce through my skin, the only way i feel escape
oh you should be ashamed, no you’re not in my range

BUILDING UP A BLOCK FOR YOU, IT ALWAYS SEEMS TO FALL
I KEEP PACING 'ROUND MY ROOM, I'M JUST HOPING THAT YOU'LL CALL
BUT THE SILENCE IS MY ENEMY, I'M VENTING TO MY WALL
WHILE MY THOUGHTS CONTINUE RAPIDLY, I'M HOPING THAT THEY'LL
stop

zero to a hundred i can change real quick
don’t drag my name throughout the mud
we’re not friends lil’ bi-
I SHOULDA CUT YOU OFF, BUT YOUR DISTANCE DID
AND NO I DO NOT HAVE THE TIME, I'LL REMAIN OFF THE GRID

roots

Don’t notice them, things aren’t what they seem 
So much I’m judged, I just wanna please 
Almost everyone, but I know that’s a dream 
And yes I’m almost done, don’t wanna cause a scene 

Eyes pierce 
Through my soul
I think
I’m never alone
Dancing of the evil spirits
Only those hurt choose to hear it 
Freezing breathes of those who’re grieving 
Crowds of dead loathe and screaming 
Crazy hair from recent stares 
That turned into those ugly glares 
Cannot be me it’s not fair 
Just let me be, you shouldn’t care 

Friends, I’m not sure if I have those now 
Whispers hurting, yeah they’re getting loud
Maybe one day when my body’s found 
I’ll stop hearing that horrid sound 
Just let me go
I don’t want to be known 
I just want to go home
So I can just be whole 

Don’t notice them, things aren’t what they seem 
So much I’m judged, I just wanna please 
Almost everyone, but I know that’s a dream 
And yes I’m almost done, don’t wanna cause a scene

ominous figures (michael harrison)

hate me freestyle

produced by deadends and melon

baby come n find me
right in the fields
tfinking about her
witha cup of tee
hope youll find me
before us dissapear

baby yeah thats fair enouf
she said she canttt love me nowwww
im wandering i canttt move on (im a warrior)
you must be my querencia
im watchin over you from afar
no i donet wanna hurt you so much : (
i dont even know who you are
tho you became essential
to me

querencia

prod. splashgvng
post production by MVØ  and skrwd


I'm stuck inside, 
I fight the war that’s in my mind. 
I don’t like the things I find
all the problems intertwine
Its eating me alive 
Thought I found a proper vice
It just buys me extra time
I’m overthinking
It’s got me sinking
Only getting deeper
I still try to reach her
Hear it in her voice, always knew she was a keeper


it’s been a couple weeks since I stopped drinking
Feels like the ship I’m on is sinking 
Wish I could overcome overthinking

Lock myself in the bedroom 
The static from the tv got my head full
Drowning in my feelings 
Staring at myself from the ceiling 
I just wanna go outside 
I just wanna feel alive
Rushing in like a fool
shouldn’t come as a surprise
Told myself I needed time
No need to romanticize
All the awful things I tell myself that make me wanna hide

Feel so disconnected
Going through the motions 
When will the cycle end?
Feel so disconnected

roots

pneuma

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