produced by kenkamon (me)

enjoy, and thank you ♡

lyrics: 
high as the empire state
afraid where I go out of frustration
guess I'll go tear out
someone somewhere 

i lost all until
i doubt myself
fear the sunlight
go somewhere
tell them to go away
until I live alone
fear made me run but
i'll learn later on

lot of people think they know what's next for me
lot of people think they know what's best for me
lot of people think they know that's the best of me
pain or drugs I don't need therapy
pray tell when you have notes on everything
question all doors thats a step for me
spaced out exposes everything 

bridge, burns it all up in my mental
shit won't just go away
questioning all What's the point?
pestering all what's the point of view?
but I stayed some time ago
i should've question about what you know
less time I talk I should go home and sulk
write down her notes
and I check on my phone
ain't no one home 

but I knock another day out
shoulda gone home but I won't do it twice
i want to see me go into another light
until I know there's another side
i know what to do but no description 
fear the store I don't need prescriptions
keep my face and keep my Discretion
fear grows in offered aggression


if I'm coming back here 
just cut off my ears
ignoring again
i don't need to explain 
just to let go of friends
but they don't want to hear
ignoring what I said
i will never win
see the toll I hold
when it's not my plan
yes, I know descent
and I don't need to explain
sipping down my friends
just to slow me again
ignore my fate
and I'll never win
i thought I made my way back here 
it's the shit I said last year
and for what, to hold top here
and don't leave me to die here
spend too much time here
seems like you lurk in my dreams when I left you
see my plans didn't work out
even though I was free
once you said it
pissed off it didn't work out guess I shouldn't know once you planned it 


High as the empire state state st- st- st- sta-

Can't fuck this up now
Can't fuck this up now
Can't fuck this up now 
bend, break all sound

(you don't understand you don't know how it feels, truth is we really do know how it feels
maybe we don't experience the same thing, but down to the basics, to the rotten core, there is something that we share and to not allow us to get that chance can distort so many)

can't fuck up

produced by me

lyrics:
you couldn’t tell the truth if you wanted to
i focus on the past, i guess that’s why i lose
but if it’s truly meant, ima give it time
cause in the end that’s what i always do

we’ve built these bridges up just to burn them down
i suffer in your silence, but it feels so loud
i give my everything to try and make you proud
but then another wave comes crashing down

tell me why you do this for?
i’m face first in the dirt what are you waiting for?
you moved on, i guess we’re history
now i’ve only got the absence that you left behind for me
i’m growing so tired of this
you caused the scars upon my wrist
while he’s in between your hips now

oh
while he’s in between your hips now
oh
while he’s in between your hips now

you couldn’t tell the truth if you wanted to
i focus on the past, i know that’s why i lose
it isn’t truly meant, you love to waste my time
don’t try to make me happy with another lie

i’m tired of this chip that’s on my shoulder
i’ve accepted that it’s over
he’s the one you want
i can tell by how you vaunt
but girl we’ve got some chemistry
i don’t know what’s gotten into me
you’re fogging up my reasoning
but now the truth sits clear with me

oh
oh
oh

we’ve built these bridges up just to burn them down
i suffer in your silence, but it feels so loud
i give my everything to try and make you proud
but then another wave comes crashing down

dirt

spotify

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

i'd be hard pressed to find
a single ounce of peace of mind
i always miss the exit signs
we push and pull and we feel alive

you kept me safe and you killed my sorrow
you eased my pain, but i don't want my heart broke
i wanna stay until i'm feeling better
'cause you are the fire and i'm just an ember

but she radiates her soul
she wears her heart atop her sleeve
i think her eyes have got a hold
on my entire reality
and she's got eyes that could deceive
so i'm still waiting patiently
i never thought that i would see
the soothing of my sanity

but i'm not the one that you need
i've got flaws that you cannot see
i don't think you really know me
i'm a fraud in sheep's clothing

if you must die, i'll envy even the earth that wraps your body

got the whole gangy on dis song <33

dudley got his first cover art awwww

holy shit that girl hurt me but hey it results in good music :P

lil message to the homies in this (scroll down 4 lyrics):
had such a fun new year's weekend with u all, and i rly enjoyed the time we spent tg. take a sec to read the lil letters i wrote u :) luv u guys

@kryst3n holy shit i alr known u for literal YEARS thats insane. it's hard to believe we were like 14 when we first played brawlhalla and now we literally linked twice and got super close. had so much fun chillin wit u and makin this song. our voices together is such a beautiful thing and i wanna make sm more with u. thanks for bein a rly good friend despite how shitty i cld be sometimes. ly bro, cheers to more memories <333 cheesy OUT.

@claudesdiary no clue where to even start with u. i. always. looked. up. to. you. best cousin ever to say the least. i always felt like that annoying lil brother to you, but i hope you see through that. i know im out of control a lot and say sum rly out of pocket stuff, but the fact u love me for being myself and keeping me company means the absolute world. words cannot describe how much of an impact u had on my life, would not be makin music if it wasn't for u cuzzo, and tbh i feel a lot less alone when we hang at family gatherings. so thankful for every moment we spend together fr, u been my boy since day 0 jay ilysm < 3

@assperrr I FUCKIN LUV U SWOOZ. i cant make this shit up bro, some of the things u say got me laughin for so long i gotta mute my mic on calls, n when we linked i was DEAD. never change, u got a rly good vibe and can positively affect the ppl around u. hope we can continue to get closer cuz u honestly one of my closest homies in the community. keep doin yo thing, lets make more music soon and link again much luv dawg

if u aint swooz jesse or jay WHY DID U READ THIS SHIT OMG

lyrics:

all my bones are so dismantled
all these feelings i can’t handle
make these plans you always cancel
just my soul; it’s all i gambled

i would give more just to share the same feelings
no you can’t feel it, no you can’t feel it
i’m so far gone you’re the only one to heal me
no you can’t hear me, no you can’t hear me

break my bones and ur pulling away
i could hardly hold on to anything
you say now
so pull me close
and say were not done
ive been tryna write songs but its hard
when the cats got ur tongue
hit my head on the wall 
till im banged up and bruised
make a song cuz its easier
than talking to you (about it)

you’re stabbing my back when i never would
it’s easy to say that i never could
lead you on, lead you on
theres nothing left
you can’t prove me wrong

i would give more just to share the same feelings
no you can’t feel it, no you can’t feel it
i’m so far gone you’re the only one to heal me
no you can’t hear me, no you can’t hear me

all plats

lead u on w/ kryst3n [prod. king theta x claude x asperr]

produced by me

lyrics:
can’t accept that you’ll never change
‘cause all your texts have faded
you make this feel so estrange
you make me feel so jaded
you and i are not the same
i’ll slowly kill our flame
but i won’t be the one to blame
‘cause

my blood is dripping down from your lip
ain’t got a lot to give
amongst the edge, i’m scared i’ll slip
across my skin she pressed a shiv
but, i’m just a fragile minded kid
she told me get a grip
don’t blame me for the shit you did
when he’s got you by his hip

it’s been two weeks since i crossed your mind
but now you’re dead to me
deep into your lies i’ll find
that we're just enemies
you do it for the social life
all the guys and likes
i’ll build up till the time is right

blame

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

bleed out 
separated from all the tension
 seek doubt
disregarded their good intentions
sleep now 
you inflated all my distortions
breathe out
i won't let you say something morbid

we could argue all we want, but we both know we're splitting hairs
seems like nowadays we're stuck indulging and nobody cares
 addicted to convenience while these corporations take a share 
take on my perspective and then we'll see how you really fare

i've been misshapen 
beaten down and hated
 i don't deserve this
 light keeps on fading
 i've been wasting myself tryna pick up the mess
 all the feelings i harbored, they won't lay to rest
 so i thought of your face, now i can't go to bed
 i still have your t-shirt, it's the one that you said
 would look better on me, but despite your regret
 i think you looked lovely, now i can't decompress

i could never put you into words 'cause i feared
 that it wouldn't be good enough
 i think it's clear
 the dependency issues that i've displayed here
 and it's frightening i haven't loved no one in years

this shit is making me sick 
but i'm tapped the fuck in
 steady zoning out in front of my monitor like a kid
 now you can't take no offense
 but are you that fucking dense?
 my brain is growing pretty tired
 from all of your shitty friends

-----

newton's flaming laser sword

produced by youji

lyrics:
fell into your arms
there is no ending
there is no
self control
there is no ending
there is no x3

give me time
i’m on my own
i’ll let you down just like before

i felt the world
come crashing down
then you told me, “don’t make a sound”
there’s not a soul
in the wind that blows
was it ever really worth it?

time

insta ::: xhundro
insta ::: itsfitz
insta ::: losinglucid

fate

fate w/ losinglucid & it's fitz

produced, writing, and vocals by mix
co-released by nisshoku ♡︎

love from mix and sleepy <3

enjoy..

she asked me "whats that on my face" its just a smirk i had
i say "nothing just a smile babe" while we're hand in hand
i could be like forever, sittin next to you
she says "im never gonna leave you ever" ill stick to you like glue

and oh shes so sweet, shes like a bunch of beautiful flowers
like some beautiful flowers
like some beautiful flowers
like some beautiful flowers

and i dont want to ruin what i have with her
cause she is, every single thing
to me
everything to me
she's everything to me

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i can't speak, i can't think
i can't breathe anymore

i go to sleep, lifes a mess, maybe it'll fix with some rest
but there's nothing i can do, i just can't keep up with you
all these thoughts in my mind, why can't i stop thinking all the time?
now im doubting yet again, i think this might be the end..

is she even real?
am i even real?
whats wrong with me?
make it stop, why won't it stop?
please make it stop
please, sto-


ohhhhhh i see now 
ohhhhhh i see now
(1 2 3) ohhhhhh i see now 
ohhhhhh i see now (1 2 3)

i see what's wrong now, woah
just find love some how, oh no
im trying to fight it, just let me breathe
but i just don't know how, to live in peace

1... 2... 3 i need you near me..
1... 2... 3 escape reality..
i don't know who i am, without her
but still, i'll always lend hand just like before

I CAN'T EVEN LOVE NO MORE, I THINK I GAVE UP
YOU LEFT ME CRAWING IN THE MUD, IN THIS GRAVE YOU DUG
AND EVERYTIME I TRY TO START A NEW, I JUST THINK OF YOU
SO GET THE HELL OUTTA MY MIND, MAN I HATE YOU

theres this place i wanted to go, hope you go with me too
surrounded by flowers in a field, and the sky is blue
i thought that i hated you, i thought that i despised you
but now i know that ain't true.... i started to hate me too

I STARTED TO HATE ME TOO
I STARTED TO HATE ME TOO
I MESSED UP IN LIFE I THINK IM SCREWED
I ONLY WAS ALIVE FOR YOU

YEA I STARTED TO HATE ME TOO
SOME HORRIBLE SHIT YOU PUT ME THROUGH
THEN YOU HIT ME UP OUTTA THE BLUE
SO MAYBE I STILL LOVE YOU

Y-O-O-O-O
Y-O-O-O-O
Y-O-O-O-O
YOUUUUUUU
O
Y-O-O-O-O
Y-O-O-O-O
Y-O-O-O-O
LOVE YOUUUUUUU..

<3

mix - you

featuring @b_murph
produced by michael harrison, ayoley, & autrioly

Preaching away
When you’re eastbound it’s rare to see snow and gray ends of the road
Hang up the feeling I’ve grown
And let it seep through the ghost

If I could reach you, I would send as many signs to take control
It’s not convenient, what I’m seeking is like nothing to your
Soul

My body’s peeling away, can’t call it day
Becoming stuck as a shadow of my old self
Locked in this window pane

You can’t
Describe
My body
No lines
Act out
No eyes
You might as well call me a prototype
Hanging down from your ceiling, you’re losing life
Artificial, I’m bugging to open eyes
Make it make sense, I’m dealing a poltergeist

You couldn’t shake me out if you wanted
Because I’m out of a home
All I’m seeing is chrome
But when it’s time to cave it in, my legs go slow
-
(@b_murph)
Cannot look the other way, 'cause then I'm staring at my ghost
Why are we all the way out here, I thought you knew which way to go
And if I look you in the eyes does that mean that I am a part of you?
I see my poltergeist, it's standing right beside you

So let's runaway
I know another place
Where we can hide, and watch the stars, and list all our mistakes
So why don't you just stay
I know I'm bout to go
My time is up and all I want is you to hold me close

And say how you love me, even if it ain't true
'Cause as the light leaves my eyes all I wanna see is you
And now I feel my body getting colder
As a ghost I'll watch over your shoulder
-
You couldn’t shake me out if you wanted
Because I’m out of a home
All I’m seeing is chrome
But when it’s time to cave it in, my legs go slow

Carve out a pitch to all the others getting out of hand
Cold sweats on the beach, my comforts in the sand
Place a bet over me, and argue till our ends meet
Ends meet

I can't deny
That I didn't say goodbye

prototype (ft. b murph)

[LYRICS]
i wanna fall fast asleep 
i think i’ve fallen in deep 
the walls are starting to speak 
my life means nothin to me 
shit faced everyday fuck a weekend 
cant wait for the day that im leaving 
i’ve been living all the shit that im singing 
burnt out i don’t know what im thinking 

don’t wanna remember the end of the night
i was so fucked up i thought i would die 
i guess there’s a reason why im still alive
but i feel like there’s something missing inside
baby im so alone
i party with ghosts
you’ll never see them and you’ll never know
but that’s how it goes
when you’re diagnosed 
i need a drink i need a dose 
so what if i fuck up my life 
so what if im fallin behind 
i don’t think i wanna live 
i couldn’t do this again 
oh no please don’t leave me in here
(im prayin prayin)
sitting in silence 
my tongue i bite it
i been out wilding
getting lit till im dying 
i’m dying

i wanna fall fast asleep 
i think i’ve fallen in deep 
the walls are starting to speak 
my life means nothin to me 
shit faced everyday fuck a weekend 
cant wait for the day that im leaving 
i’ve been living all the shit that im singing 
burnt out i don’t know what im thinking 

thank u to @nokerbforever for mastering this song and thank you to everyone who sticks around to listen :3
this song is about my struggles with alcoholism so its a bit personal but hope u enjoy!

blame

pneuma

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