𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝓲𝓼 𝓼𝓸 𝓶𝓾𝓬𝓱 𝓫𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓲'𝓶 𝓷𝓾𝓶𝓫

@caspywaspy this turned out fckin incredible ilysm bro

- lyrics -
tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

i got so much to say
but there's no point to mention it
i love to just decay
a void marks where my presence is
am i even around?
am i making a sound?
i smoke
and then i choke
and then i fold
im going deep into the ground

tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

tape my fucking mouth and blow it shut
mixing different drinks with teeth and blood
nothing can erase the shit ive done

isolating myself in a wooden hut
listening to birds singing when im up
forget about the things that got me fucked

i can't keep people close
cuz of the wounds i hold
some new and some old
but none of them close
why do i keep drowning feelings
and not search healing in all of the people i know

tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb
tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

all plats

somber w/ casperrr [prod. santana]

prod. sunshowers

i cant see any how else
no way! :')
people tell me how else
how else?! ;(
to breathe, to live, to see,
my friend died last week.
i dont want no one, else
stay away!, stay away!,
theres something thats been off today..
im changing up my day-to-day,
in hope and search for better days.
i cant see any how else
no way.. !
people tell me how else

i know this isn't, and i know youre kidding
you took!,-
damn near everything i had to barely call myself
i cant stand myself! <3
drowning in myself! < / 3
I DONT NEED NO HELP!
thats what i told myse-e-elf. . ...

ǝslǝ ʍoɥ ǝɯ llǝʇ ǝsɐǝld
ǝslǝ ʍoɥ ʎuɐ ǝǝs ʇuɐɔ ᴉ
to get out of this mess,
to get out of my head,
i think i just need rest..

i cant see any how else
...
people tell me how else
...
to breathe, to live, to see,
my friend died last week. .

yh, yh,
get away, GET AWAY,
I really fucking h*te this place!
im changing up my day today,
and i know it wont change anything at all♡..
i try, i guess, but who am i?
fuck all the complications,
read the text, now my heart's racing!
hideaway, hideaway, yh :c
its time to question everything, yh!! ;c
dont turn back now,
you can slow down,
smoke that roach now,
blow that smoke out,
to clear my mind drought,
set the sun out..

i cant see any how else
no way! :')
people tell me how else
how else! ;(
to breathe, to live, to see,
my friend died last week.
i dont want no one, else
stay away, stay away,
theres something thats been off today
im changing up my day-to-day,
in hope and search for better days
no, way..

last week

produced by pneuma

lyrics:
lock myself inside, ain’t seen the sun it’s been like 5 days
her fingers run across my skin, but soon there’ll be a heartbreak
smoking on a chemical that’ll fry and leave my mind hazed
oh, i'd hate to try and change your mind’s state

can't keep losing track of time and staying in my room
but it's hard to have a life, when i keep getting consumed
keep creating beats, soon my lyrics are my doom
hoping for a change, it’ll come when they write me off presumed

i can’t find no peace, hoped this shit would finally get better
lie and crack a smile, tell ‘em that i’m better than ever
lying to myself so much, the truth is far from real
it's hard to have a life, when i come back to the steel

sit inside my room dialed into my phone
think about how much i've changed, how far i've come to grow
found a peaceful mind through the pain that i show
hard to ever tell if they’re friend or if they're foe
think that they’d be better off with a bullet through my dome
sucks to think these thoughts when her touch feels like my home

lock myself inside, ain’t seen the sun it’s been like 5 days
her fingers run across my skin, but soon there’ll be a heartbreak
smoking on a chemical that’ll fry and leave my mind hazed
oh, i'd hate to try and change your mind’s state

but you can’t shape or change my mind babe
i’m too far on the edge, i’ll let the wind decide my damned fate
pebbles start to fall as the ground begins to break
oh, grief is all you have, but my life you could’ve saved

spotify

touch

produced by grasior
enjoy

lyrics -
you said it was goodbye
while laying in my light
you looked so beautiful 
but we reached the end
the birds are chirping
maybe this is grace

i dont wanna see a better way
until you seal your fate
i dont wanna lose again
tore me out displayed

i dont wanna feel my heartbeat when i think of you
feel deepleted hatred built inside of who 

i-i-ive lost so many friends for you
ive got nothing more to lose
back and fourth in my mind you choose
and the hatred slwoly drew 

im an addict 
only voice that i heard brought madness
your wasted
everything on your sleeve has faded

you said it was goodbye
while laying in my light
you looked so beautiful 
but we reached the end
the birds are chirping
maybe this is grace

grace

check out evergardens music..
evergarden - https://soundcloud.com/evergardens

also check out aceys beats on YT - https://www.youtube.com/@prodacey

lyrics-
what was it like to fall out of love with me
was it as easy as you thought it would be
i saw the changes in your eyes
guess it's not easy to hide, that you wanted to leave
i see your pictures online
there's now none of you and i
oh it seems
like it was all just a dream
pretend you don't know me anymore
you just left, walked out the door
oh please
why'd you do this to me


our ship sailed 
we left feelings stranded

you take everything i have
time i wasted, wont get back 
don't move on
i wont withstand 
back to strangers? just like that?


guess it was never meant to be
we were too young, no guarantee 

i don't know why we even tried

two worlds collide

seen it coming, not surprised

what was it like to fall out of love with me
was it as easy as you thought it would be

strangers again (ft. evergarden) (acey)

prod by stezzyxl 
enjoy^\^

lyrics:
cover all my face with hair all over my eyes
i’m not confident, i bet u cannot recognize 
i’m invisible to everybody’s naked eyes
i don’t know what i’m doing here and i don’t know why
and tears fall like the rain in the night sky
her voice lingers in head like a lullaby
i’ll try to get over u when the time is right
but i’m not ready, so i’ll hold onto that goodbye 

i don’t know what i should say
i don’t know what i should do
i gotta reroute 
i gotta avoid that avenue
(x4)

ur a liar from ur heart
should’ve known from the start
(x2)

avenue

at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie 
at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie 


grabbin a drink feeling hopeless again
on my face's fallin tears, bottle gripped in my hand
outside i look fine 
but inside im fighting a war all alone on the losing end 
losing end but i can't see the end
losing all i have, losing my head 
i fight them off but they keep coming back
like cancer cells, avoinding treatment

NUN TO DO BUT GET FADED
NOWADAYS IM WALKIN JADED
NO SOLUTION OCCURS IN MY MIND
TO MY PROBLEMS, ILL JUST DIG UP MY GRAVE THEN 
IM BECOMING WHAT I HATED
NO PROCCEDURES, STILL SEDATED
TAKING EVERYTHING I CAN TO EASE UP THE PAIN
AND I DON'T KNO IF ILL MAKE IT   

NUN TO DO BUT GET FADED
NOWADAYS IM WALKIN JADED
NO SOLUTION OCCURS IN MY MIND
TO MY PROBLEMS, ILL JUST DIG UP MY GRAVE THEN 
IM BECOMING WHAT I HATED
NO PROCCEDURES, STILL SEDATED
TAKING EVERYTHING I CAN TO EASE UP THE PAIN
AND I DON'T KNO IF ILL MAKE IT   

at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie

at least i tried (sorrow bringer)

<3
soundcloud.com/eoin-disney

Eoin Disney:
i wish it was the right time
i wish you were right there
i miss you in the nighttime 
i miss you when i'm scared
told her listen to the starlight
as i kiss you from the moon
and when you glisten in the sunlight
you're shaping shadows in my room

Greenwood:
the shades been drawn for so long
i dont know why i've been here
a summer passed without your laugh
i still hear it so clear
i wonder why it happens now
left to figure out
how the pieces of me suffocate in the weeds intact
told you that its good, its getting bad

listening to rover in your attic
sleeping in til 6 i know it after
i had marked the page to save the passage 
something about the pain that doesn't happen
i wonder if your neighbours figured out at all
i wonder if you saved yourself at a cost of what we lost

Eoin Disney:
i wish it was the right time
i wish you were right there
i miss you in the nighttime 
i miss you when i'm scared
told her listen to the starlight
as i kiss you from the moon
and when you glisten in the sunlight
you're shaping shadows in my room

Greenwood:
light we couldn't see but i'm sure that its hitting
i'd be down for a week, i'd be down for a minute
see the scope of your life when its already finished
kinda strange at the end, feeling like the beginning
and i know what you'd say but i'm glad that you didn't
put my life on a shelf for a job and its killing
cause i've been fucking up
i just need to come around
figure out the proper way to hold you but its different now
i just couldn't figure out

time had taken hold of me, bury me
take control like its kerosene 
in my head its invisible, what's that mean on a principle?
when its dark i could speak but i regret it so easily
if you promise to forget i'd tell you just what it means to me
to be out again
fucked up with the sound effects
heard he made it overseas i hope he knows i'm proud of him
happy so we call it that
second summer came to pass, i've been working late
cause no ones waiting for me coming back

cycle through the lens of the moment
i couldn't see what was coming
i tried to fix it when its over 
cause i thought that it wasn't

Eoin Disney:
i wish it was the right time
i wish you were right there
i miss you in the nighttime 
i miss you when i'm scared
told her listen to the starlight
as i kiss you from the moon
and when you glisten in the sunlight
you're shaping shadows in my room

Bloom (w/ Eoin Disney)

im sorry that its been a while
the time had made a heart to mend
find me in another life
i swear id try as hard again

a catalyst in heavy dark
your voice and how the bleeding stops
breath in a cold room to comfort
the surface im under for two years in sunder

fade out, start to forget me
soften the dead leaves of somebody else
brave now, but i know its early
and you couldn't hurt me but try to again

i know its been a long time

silence feels like dying
i dont mind it
i cant find you in colours i had learned to know
olive skin in amber tones, cedarwood in maple grove
eyes low the night before i drove you home
said one day we could have our own
so why am i still here alone?

did you know then it was broken?
thought you cried in the car cause it still felt so far
but instead its just not what you want

fade out, start to forget me
soften the dead leaves of somebody else
brave now, but i know its early
and you couldn't hurt me but try to again

all that it brings
cold in the spring
whats the point of waking up
if not for you again?
i dont know me now
i dont know me now

Mount Hood

then, i saw myself

a collection of songs that you maybe will see yourself in

dedicated to rose and onlyfriend, two people that see in me what i can't always see myself

huge thank you to shizukesa for providing a beautiful verse on revisionist

thank you for listening

revisionist (feat shizukesa) [prod surp]

i dont really like where youre pulling me now
i thought id do better, but youre barely proud
i dont really like that youre not calming me down
ive got nowhere to run now
nowhere to go now

you thought its best for me
but i dont need anything but you now
i did whats best for me 
and honestly i need you right here in my house
cant let this run on much further
further ill fall down
dont know how much i can cope fore' i hit you and fall back down

on the pavement 
on the pavement

touch

pneuma

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