I’ve seen the world too many times now
And i long for next ones to meet them again with you
As your divinity 
And if i go down on my knees i will always ask for you
And if only get my own crown 
I only make you my throne
You were my crown while i ruled as your deity 
this whole time
Not knowing where i was pulling you deeper in
Under the spell i was not aware of having in my veins
Keep dreaming of me 
That’s what i do to you every time we met in 
other lifetimes
Made you dream of me and left
Where i was meant to love and give it to you
I became the deity
Where i was sacrificing to avoid selfishness 
I became your loss
The whole world of every blossom bloomed and flourished for you
And all my orchids bloom for you to show me a bolted door
Maybe i’ll be blaming your locked doors on 
heavens i shared the heavenly daylights 
While hell was your guest since day one on here
Maybe it was a dream for you and a lesson on my share
But it won’t change the place you stand forever 
Where your soul belongs and it’s near my 
doorstep 
And no one will know till we die
It won’t alter it or part ways to take you on 
different road
You’ll be still where i left to avoid all the dirt 
fogging our love
For a boat that shuddered to death till water 
swirled through our decks if we sailed it further away
You won’t move
For once you chose a deity
On earth
You would never forestall

Divinity

Dreary and wearisome days with monochrome eyes
You’re sadder than the moon
Cause got nothing to lose when nothing works our way
We said maybe under a better sky that blue doesn’t belong to our faces and emotions that
We’re just fooling ourselves on false hopes and Gods
Wishing on the impossible
While sky wears grey all the time, so we shall be born
Under a better sky that wears blue itself
And so on i swore on the ground you dreamed your whole childhood on
That i never unloved you
And you never will be unloved by my heart
No matter how deeper i bury my feelings and memories and obviate them into oblivion till i’m bereft and preempted by them

Vesper

Sitting and watching and asking myself asunder
When did it become like this
When did my life choose this conceiveless fair
Then you remember why
You fell and that’s the price of it all 
Snow beneath its softness suffering
But i’d go through it again
I prefer it to any other enemy i encountered upon
I’d taste its poison again and fall softly and adore
Cause it tastes sweet when you touch other 
people’s lives with the gulf between their hands and austere hearts
See you at your worst but still got love for you as a citizen of eden with its diminished plane destined to crash in your heart
I wish i could meet you thousands of times for more
And for the first time and remember you over and over again and leave you instead of years i met my enemies
And all the moon is dented for
Is my heart for the scars it held asunder this time
I felt my mind being split and tried to match it fit with a thought that
Will they ask about us?
How did all end?
Or they’ll never will
Cause when you keep floating with no end down the river
Nobody notices you until there’s an end
No one reads that book until they turn their pages
That’s the story with us
No ending clear knowing how far is hell
Not much of asking either
As far as death that leaves us homesick
Or down looking with lanterns for us till the world is ajar
There will be no sign of us
Just a floating ship
Nothing is certain in life
Except for you and me ending up together in each life we live and emerging a morning warning of travelers perishing in snow
Yet you said
“I wanna find you in thousands of more lives upon us
And i know i’d fall for you in all of them
And in all of them it looks impossible
And i’d fight gladly in all of them to get to you”
So now when i lay gracefully in my grave
I still want my cold perished body to remember you
Giving its pieces to its soil
While its soil was the soul that half was you and half the thought of you
Just the way it gave its every piece to your whole world
Hell is not a place you get used to
I know no matter on what life floats on
What types of waves wind brings to us
You’ll just remain the same after each hit
And we know no matter how much it turns in years
We just remain the same
Even if we’re asunder


Asunder

Poems In Apricity

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