Name: hide by polar in The Banger Bus
Duration: 2 min 12 s
Description: they stay so obsessed with me they don't ever let up

I be using this shit to workout its so fuckin hype

The Banger Bus

they stay so obsessed with me they don't ever let up

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linden & nevrfall - wait for me in the next life (ft. heylog)

produced by xona 

@heylog

-lyrics-
I wanna run but I can’t deny
feelin dread to our trust and I cry
and I would get everything for you
she loves him but I’m just that fool
I wanted us back, you didn’t want that
I’m pleading with this pain I held
and now I fall back
all on my prozac’s
and I just hope that I get your help

and now I’m washed up all alone
the little essence that you left long ago
the flowers wilt down to my floor
push me down like I’m nothing more

and I don’t wish the best for you
you wanted healing but I was see through
you wanted blood, now you got it on view
many voices telling me on what I knew
there’s reflections that portray all of us 
you’re sick of me and the things that I love 
I won’t forget what it meant for us
these 6 letters that stuck like a drug

stab me again i won't feel a thing
hold me down this some sentencing
taking my bliss, more apologies
i don't like this, just don't talk to me
wasting away i'm never calling you back
i'm stuck with memories i won't forget
with all this weight i carry on my back
you did this to me and i will never forgive

you
oh
i hate 
you
with
every little gut in my body

WALKING UP TO HEAVEN I CANNOT BELIEVE I'M HERE
BUT WHY AM I STILL RUNNING FROM THIS NEVER ENDING FEAR
I'M SHIFTING THROUGH LANES WHILE UR STILL STUCK IN 2ND GEAR
SURPRISING EVERYONE LIKE 2 HEADLIGHTS ON A DEER
WASTING AWAY I'M NEVER CALLING YOU BACK
I'M STUCK WITH MEMORIES I WON'T FORGET
(forget)
WITH ALL THIS WEIGHT I CARRY ON MY BACK 
YOU DID THIS TO ME AND I HATE YOU FOR THAT

you
oh
i hate you
with
every little gut in my body

i wont forget

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i won't forget w/ heylog

PPL ALWAYS MAKE SHT FKN WORSE

PPL ALWAYS MAKE SHT FKN WORSE (feat. Days to Waste)

@jolst
me and vaeo tapped this in while jackie rolled blunts in LA it was vv fun


Fallin' quicker for you than I thought I could
Haven't slept in weeks yea I know I should
Buried under trees, yea just leave me in the woods
Fallin' quicker for you than I thought I could
Haven't slept in weeks yea I know I should
Buried under trees, yea just leave me in the woods

Picking up the pieces stay falling apart when your not here
Looming in the distance i'm watching your shadow disappear
Forget myself, no helping hands out
Get left on the shelf, would go but I can't now

Back to the wall breaking down I don't know what you want
Picking at my skin you acting like I do it for fun
Seperate my mind from my body
Know you coming down too if you wanna try me

I'm a hostage to you just another captive
Under spells feeling better than I have been
Locked away in your gaze, so gently falling
Kick me down again until I come back crawling

See your shadows moving up and down the hallway
Always felt so plastic I thought you never saw me
Whole time wondering why I stuck around now
Stranded in the forest, no one looking for me

Out on a limb and outta options, walls caving in on a broken coffin
Dragged on the concrete in the chains i'm Locked in
It's almost hurts less than being forgotten

Fallin' quicker for you than I thought I could
Haven't slept in weeks yea I know I should
Buried under trees, yea just leave me in the woods
Falling quicker for you than I thought I could
Haven't slept in weeks yea I know I should
Buried under trees, yea just leave me in the woods

porcelain

spotify link<3

luminesence w/ vaeo (jolst)

prod logan

lyrics:
fall slowly
all the debt it cost me
run, charge me
oh the pains so lovely
burn to ash
watch all unfold
safe before i crash
u were too hard to hold

it was too hard to hold
i had to let go
why won't the problems stay away
i swear this shits just getting old

fall slowly
all the debt it cost me
run, charge me
oh the pains so lovely
ur wasting so much time
but it's all apart of your plan
throw my soul in fire
as u wash me off your hands

so lovely

produced by xona

[war, imperfection]

-lyrics-
my walls cave in and you might be
the one to change the worst of me
I walk with the scent of ash and the dirt between my hands
it’s a waste that I stand, I’m on my way I need plan for you

I’m meant to live my own life
but I’m stuck within ruts with you
bitter hatred made it show
colors moving like they were before
am I really not worth?
I’m just like you and everyone else 
filament to what I hold
yet, I felt the guilt of your help

wonder why I stare? I said I wouldn’t even care
if I die, I think it’s fair 
if i don’t talk then they’re right there 

~

you think I’ll dive right back but I don’t live like that
I'm on a voyage that last, way more than the past

relinquir

w/ @t1gerstar
cover art by @aithuia
prod: me & @aithuia

lyrics:
(polar)
you think im perfect, im not perfect
you think it hurts, but on the surface
its not bad

try and lie and say its worth it
close your doors do i deserve this
its not bad

you love to play
you love to play
and i can tell that
you hate the way
you hate the way
you recognize my
every mistake that i make
its amplified by every word that you say
and im feeling the weight

its not bad

(tigerstar)
tell me all the things you want and i'll try to be that
get rid of and scrap the shit that has no meaning
promise im alright
i'll be good for awhile
until i become someone who you would wanna
save a seat and space for and more cus u want me here
everybody wants that one person they know they can't have
but its really not bad
its just that i made it up in my head and you dont see it

even if the surface says a different thing
if i was really suffering i'd suck it up and say
it's not bad

Im trying not to freak out even though its the worst pain
I can hold your hand and bleed out and i would still say its not bad

surface w/ tigerstar

prod logan

lyrics:
hearing conversations that i don't know what they're talkin bout
give a little lip and bet you know that i'll be walking out
holding up the line like seriously what are you on about
stepping up to fight, do you think i'm afraid to knock u out
gloves up, round one
i can't wait to pounce ya
blood bath, get smacked
come on, can you hit back
no chance, throw hands
punch him in his throat glands
your boy is a pussy and i'd like to throw w you next

your excuse is blaming her being a hoe
if that was new to me i'd kill you on the low
but i was stupid then and brushed it off
i'm in the trees and my bow is drawn

it doesn't matter
i'm moving like better than ever
it's all been captured
you notice how there is a pattern
i take a weapon and turn it into an aesthetic
i take aggression out all on myself & accept it
she looks so fine
i won't let her know why
"i like your hair and your pretty blue eyes"
i'm a disaster, oh baby i'm a disaster
and does that matter
oh baby does that really matter

𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳

POSTED OUTSIDE
WAR IS COMPLETE
I FOUGHT FOR MY LIFE
IT GOT DEADLY
BLOOD ON MY FACE
STOP HOLDING ME
DODGING A M-
BUT I DON'T RETREAT
don't you ever talk a-
wake up & i'm winning
how does second feel when i'm first
my life might be lame-
least that i'm not lamer
cry
i gotta get going and i hope to see you never

disaster

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Hold You Down

Hold you down [prod. what_is_lucas]

OHH NVM - Since Day One (prod. Smxkey stunna)

producer: @deadfishpoland

featured artist: https://soundcloud.com/goodbyewilson

lyrics:

'another suicide attempt, why would you do that'
my family concerned, why they didn't knew that
all you have is talk with us, that's what we're here for
no one knows it isn't easy, when you're sucidal

feeling like a burden, do you know the feeling
Won't talk with nobody, rather stare at the ceiling
Don't want to be a problem, that's what I'm thinking
try to change my point of view with "just get a grip kid"

Depression, you're always sad?
Just don't think about that
You're seeing things and you're scared
You know there's nothing there
Panic attacks, you can't breath?
Just calm down and you'll see
You can't get out of your bed?
Just pull yourself together

"YOU'RE DEPRESSED? HOLY SHIT I DIDN'T KNOW THAT"
WHY DO EVERYBODY THINKS, IT'S EASY TO JUST SAY THAT
PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER AND JUST TALK WITH US ABOUT IT
I FEEL LIKE I MUST PRETEND THAT I'M ALWAYS HAPPY
X2

Nothings ever easy when your suicidal
Catch me on the floor broken bottle poisoned vitals
Move on with the day because the pressure hasn’t killed me
End it with a bang because the pleasure what I’m feeling

You have no idea how bad that I wish that I could tell you
If only it would work and you could save me with your help soon
Cuz time is running out n I don’t think your gonna make it
But I’ll hold out my hand in hopes that you are gonna take it

Can’t you see that it’s tearing me up
While these thoughts keep on breaking me down
I just wish I could turn this around
But Not more than I wish I was underground

"YOU'RE DEPRESSED? HOLY SHIT I DIDN'T KNOW THAT"
WHY DO EVERYBODY THINKS, IT'S EASY TO JUST SAY THAT
PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER AND JUST TALK WITH US ABOUT IT
I FEEL LIKE I MUST PRETEND THAT I'M ALWAYS HAPPY
X2

Mental Illness

spotify/iTunes etc

Mental Illness (feat. goodbyewilson)

[produced by dj khaled's son]
[mixed and mastered by neek and convolk]

lyrics:

i swear to god that it's all in the making
i swear to god imma fall if i fake it 
i swear to god in my mind gotta trace it 
i swear to god, swear to god
i swear to god rather die than disgrace it 
i swear to god imma try not to chase it 
i swear to god if i try imma make it 
i swear to god, swear to god

stuck here
in the same place
everyone fake 
they all wanna save face
my heart chokes
intimate notes 
everyone wrote
when i lost my way

you don't know what i been through 
i don't show what happened to 
me back when i wasn't cool
me back when i was a fool

feel like i'm kanye back in 06
feeling like what i say, people notice 
colder than an ice age cracking both fists
colder than an ice age heart is frozen 
x2

i swear to god that it's all in the making
i swear to god imma fall if i fake it 
i swear to god in my mind gotta trace it 
i swear to god, swear to god
i swear to god rather die than disgrace it 
i swear to god imma try not to chase it 
i swear to god if i try imma make it 
i swear to god, swear to god

swear to god

Meaningless lyrics, did this to experiment and have fun.
Outside of my normal style, but I hope you guys enjoy :)

so take it slow
just ripped the soul
just let me go
the center folds
it takes it toll
nowhere to go
you say its cold
you're staying low
you're breaking bones
empty soul the grave is all
you've ever known

taking 2 steps you're backing
i see your footsteps im tracking
I see emotion you're lacking
I see you fall away

drawing blood with a knife
I'll start by taking your life
gripping to death in the night
I see you fall away

Come snapping bones I can show that
low blow to the chest I can strike back
pull up to the show with a full pack
you dont know when I blow you'll be stabbed back
say you reap what you sown but
I can see that you aint going nowhere
make like a fool when you run back
sliping down in a pool of your blood, ha

gripping the grasp of a soul
you better know, 
I'll be taking it all
hit a new low
this path that I chose
it aint for me anymore

slippery slope
down to the floor
im taking it all
with me to fall
you aint anymore
ayy 

so take it slow
just ripped the soul
just let me go
the centre folds
it takes it toll
nowhere to go
you say its cold
you're staying low
you're breaking bones
empty soul the grave is all
you've ever known

Grasp of a soul [prod. goodwill]

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i don't have anything
to offer while he sell himself
imma tie him down with rope
and somebody duct tape his mouth
god u must be tweaking
you've done nothing to deserve a crown
deep down he struggles envy
he blocks it with the words he shouts

no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
it's contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it
no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
it's contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it

now i'm growing
let the pistol talk
guarantee it'll make him frozen
i think i'm convincing myself i'm going mental
you may have me if you promise to be gentle
my heart may be dark but i promise you it's fragile
yeah i promise you it's fragile
she was saying she relates
but i don't think you do though
no i don't think you do bro
caught them both off guard
yeah i'm lurking in the shadows
finna put him on a gallow
i just opened up to her
sentimental
basic literature
uneventful
now people think they're gods writing poems
just because u take notes
don't make you a poet
if u ever need help
you know i got your back
cause i been through hell
don't want u to go through that
don't know how u felt
good or were u trashed
continue wasting herself
a girl who is down bad

no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
its contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it
no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
it's contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it

you were all i got
so sad you had to leave
i still have your stuff
but i keep it out of reach
baby it was tough
i gave u everything
don't know if it was wrong
but i don't regret a thing
i don't wanna know
how you been lately
cause i already know
you gotta new baby
didn't want u to go
sacrifice for your dreams
lost contact on my phone
u wont hear from me

(so sad u had to leave)
(i keep it out of reach)
(gave u everything)
(i don't regret a thing)
(how u been lately)
(gotta new baby)
(sacrifice for your dreams)
(u wont hear from me)

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