with https://soundcloud.com/rouri404 prod https://soundcloud.com/prod-plxce

lyrics :)

I've been wasting a lot of time, but I'm alright
I've been running 'round in cricles, tryna catch my mind
And I can't move on, I swear I tried
And I can not see past my own eyes

I know I talk way too much
My friends tell me I'm fucking up
I know I'm thinking way too much
Can't hear what you say, I'm breaking up

I know I talk way too much
My friends tell me I'm fucking up
I know I'm thinking way too much
Can't hear what you say, I'm breaking up

Empty hallways 
Running, and you fall at night 
Catching up, Know I’m always by your side
In the mirror my reflection never bats an eye
Bloody Mary, Bloody Mary, boutta turn out the lights 
There is something in this house, and I know it’s not right
There is someone in the backseat of my ride
Hearing whispers in the attic
Cold hands on my back, sending shivers down my spine

I know I talk way too much
My friends tell me I'm fucking up
I know I'm thinking way too much
Can't hear what you say, I'm breaking up

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too much w/ rouri404 (plxce)

falling from the top floor,
wings out like a deadman
wishing that we talked more
don't get second chances
screaming til my voice is goin numb ain't that romantic
car wreck, put me in a panic

veins grow sick,
our bodies run the risk
like cut wrists,
bones break like branches in the wind
roots cave in like the ribs under my skin
chopped down leaves falling to the ground
mind clouded again

never been for conflict
shooting at the stars going cosmic
you saw my last text why u toxic
if you don't have the answer why you tlking?

growing pains hunger grip my stomach and my sides, i can't take it anymore i'm havun thoughts of suicide, i'm still walking with a chip, you talking shit i'm gonna slide, yeah these vultures leaving nest, the way these bullets gonna fly

ain't not time to waste
another second with you sounds like such a pain
and everytime i'm feeling scared i run away, got too much pressure on my head hair turning grey, it's such a waste

veins grow sick,
our bodies run the risk
like cut wrists,
bones break like branches in the wind
roots cave in like the ribs under my skin
chopped down leaves falling to the ground
mind clouded again

Growing Pains

Growing Pains (prod. Arey)

might add lyrics here later probably not love u

bestfriends (hallow + ryo) unfinished demo ~ feb/march 2021

https://li.sten.to/lotus
ig: ripavah

welcome to my life
lyrics:
Lotus, I've been getting better let me show ya
Smash an empty bottle to the dome
I've been feeling like I've grown up
Better than ever cause I'm about to blow up

I've been in my feelings lately but I hate that shit
My situation yeah its dire but I played that shit
I've been feeling like I'm crazy on a tightrope
Reminiscing things that I'll achieve my rivals cant though

I'll say fuck her, sell out shows so she knows she's wrong
Make a million off a sound so I made this song
Yeah I know my fans are coming yeah its been so long
Manifest about the future cause I stayed so strong

Lotus, you know it
I've been on a tangent for a year but I ain't ever fucking show it
I just know my fame is close but I think I've been on the wrong path
Happiness and Adderall, the two things we should all have

You ain't shit yeah you a bitch
I'ma make a jump right to the top then i'ma clinch
Shitty ass artists sign to labels then they're gifted
Imagine what would happen if my music got the same thing

Fuck the poppin sound, and fuck to who's around
I'ma make a wave of other artists with my sound
I wont fix my problems if I don't aim for the ceiling
blacked out drunk, that's a shitty fucking feeling

Fuck you to the past, I'm glad it didn't last
I'ma speed to number one or I'll just fucking crash
I'm glad I'm fucking back just for a while I've had a barrier
Sprouted like a lotus I'll just shout out to my haters

Lotus is strong, lotus is fire
Lotus is weak, lotus is crying
I've been drowning lately listen here's a happy ending
Feeling like a boss, and I'm looking like a real king

Red eyes, feel low
So high, so low
Might cry, oh no
Lotus, blossom

I ain't succeed in a minute
Love this life forever bitch you know I'm not quitting
Avah feels on fire bitch you know that I am winning
Take over my life I wasn't happy where I'm headed, oh shit

I've been in my feelings lately but I hate that shit
My situation yeah its dire but I played that shit
I've been feeling like I'm crazy on a tightrope
Reminiscing things that I'll achieve my rivals cant though

I'll say fuck her, sell out shows so she knows she's wrong
Make a million off a sound so I made this song
Yeah I know my fans are coming yeah its been so long
Manifest about the future cause I stayed so strong

avah

lotus

other platforms

lotus (dercept x ayoley)

obsessed w/ ulovely (p. johnnyfriend)

produced by (prod.@sheepy_kid x @1purplebabby)


(Stevyn)
Put a bullet in his chest
Lord give him rest
You making all these wrongs decisions 
I’m turning left
You ain’t gone yet you ain’t gone yet
Steady hurting my liver im cognac
You ain’t gone yet you ain’t gone yet 
Cannot find my self I guess I lost track 
But I ain’t gone yet(glitches) I ain’t gone yet
I’m fucking slamming the button how do I reset 

I wanna change all of my ways 
But I can’t no I can’t at all 
No I can’t no I can’t at all
No I- Fuck

(Rans0m)
I’ve been making the wrong the decisions can’t do the right
Every-time we talk it just end up in a fight
Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m losing my mind
I’ve been feeling like I’m running out of time

Runnin out of time 
I’ve been keeping to myself 
I’ve been staying out of sight
pressure makes diamonds I swear I’m the highest
Sometimes the truth hard to digest
Fuck all that shit abt feelings 
Ima go get off my ass and go get me a bag
Not gon stop till I get to the millions
Gun go pop pop we do killings
Brand new whip im moving fast
Be careful with your words cause then they might be your last

(zay)
m-m-me and stevyn got hit up to do a task, yeah
told to put all yall niggas down in a casket
my choppa gon make him dance like he michael jackson
red dot, and i be aiming right at yo back, yeah
i dont think you really know what we be on
talkin down about my bro we shoot you freely
watch you mouth if you dont then youll get yo ass beat completely
anybody in my crew will make those words be your last easy

careful what you say those words might be your la-a-a-ast
me and stevyn coming first place man fuck last
m-m-movin quiet gotta put on a ma-mask
g-g-gotta choppa ima go and atta-attack

gone yet +rans0m & zaywxlk

w/ @t1gerstar
cover art by @aithuia
prod: me & @aithuia

lyrics:
(polar)
you think im perfect, im not perfect
you think it hurts, but on the surface
its not bad

try and lie and say its worth it
close your doors do i deserve this
its not bad

you love to play
you love to play
and i can tell that
you hate the way
you hate the way
you recognize my
every mistake that i make
its amplified by every word that you say
and im feeling the weight

its not bad

(tigerstar)
tell me all the things you want and i'll try to be that
get rid of and scrap the shit that has no meaning
promise im alright
i'll be good for awhile
until i become someone who you would wanna
save a seat and space for and more cus u want me here
everybody wants that one person they know they can't have
but its really not bad
its just that i made it up in my head and you dont see it

even if the surface says a different thing
if i was really suffering i'd suck it up and say
it's not bad

Im trying not to freak out even though its the worst pain
I can hold your hand and bleed out and i would still say its not bad

surface w/ tigerstar

still don’t know what to name this

you keep speaking bout your problems, i feel bad but i feel like 
airing our calls with those friends you never liked
you know it’s bad when they’re involved
but its worse when we communicate
i’ll admit my wrongs but you can’t do the same 

save that, i don’t wanna talk boy know you ain’t a saint 
don’t tell me bout your faith in god
you going to hell
can’t forgive i ain’t forgot
don’t lie to my face bitch what you think i’m dumb

not a fan of
whoever you are
i’d put holes through your friends
then put a bullet through your heart
Can’t calm me down
someone get some xans over here
downtown
smile like a bitch got veneers

(boy i know) you must be up to something (good!)
can you indulge my vice
(but) you hate my prescence like some fetish
damn that
must be nice

blame every girl you don’t like
throw em to the dogs go without a thought twice
keep washing your hands till your skin bone white
can’t call you my friend 
matter fact i see you it’s on sight

(i don’t fuck with hypocrites
hate the sinner love the sin
if that saint come marchin in
make sure they don’t breath again
tired motherfucker old songs keeping you relevant
you ain’t check in with me boy boy you get what you get)

i ain’t heartless
when them checks bounce it get rough, huh?
a&r calls ain’t coming know you fucked up
makes you really wonder what you praying for 
fuck it baby 
call me when you think you had enough, uh 

(or just)

save that, i don’t wanna talk boy know you ain’t a saint 
don’t tell me bout your faith in god
you going to hell
can’t forgive i ain’t forgot
don’t lie to my face bitch what you think i’m dumb

not a fan of
whoever you are
i’d put holes through your friends
then put bullet through your heart
Can’t calm me down
someone get some xans over here
downtown
smile like a biiiitch got veneers

go to hell!

been a while but i finally got some new music 

my socials:
www.instagram.com/dpf.1215/
twitter.com/dpf1215
keep in touch with me <3

now im on a flight from boston
bad lil bitch make me move with caution
overthinking got me nauseous
expensive shit all on my garments though
expensive shit all on my garments,
my body wrapped around in diamonds
like this shit a fucking harness, im the hardest
fuck charting im a niche artist
i been staying true to myself regardless
of all these fucking comments
i been living in my head
this shit gone drive me crazy
but im living the life i wanted
feel like i made it

i been throwing fits, no tantrums
bad things she do on camera
now she gone play all innocent
she a freaky lil hoe from atlanta
fell in love with the lights and the glamour
cant believe i seen my life change
she said im acting different
i live my life my own way
now i got designer clothes,
designer hoes,
whatever you name it
been tryna find my flow
and build me a team that gone help me make it
fake bitches tryna rock with the clique im with
cause they fell in love with my fragrance
im stressed,
constant headaches throwing up all on the pavement

@aftrrs
i know im a mess
problems that i thought put to rest
drama, never really asked for the context
thought i really could give my best
effort
didnt really know whats better for me
throw it all away, its whatever to me
numb my pain, whatever will take me (away)
dont save me
i dont wanna talk, dont care if u hate me
give me an answer, not just 'maybe'
where my mind goes, there is no safety
no no way
didnt think you'd treat me that way
who wouldve thought oh all these thoughts im going insane
i wish my heart would just fade

stream everywhere!

garments w/ aftrr (joeboi + typhoon)

@9blare
https://open.spotify.com/album/5Xc17PORdWAnbEfeTKDjzE?si=6G4uWeffSa66Sgqs-bX16w