prod switch & guala beats 
lyrics:
this shit is hard i cant get rid of my past
this shit is harder i cant turn to the ash
but ill be gone when im 18
daydream
fuck you if you hate me 
i been on the same thing, tryna get my lane paved
i been on the same thing, tryna get my lane paved
whyd you gotta break my heart? oh no no
i dont wanna save it
take my pride away from me love
i came from above 
and i just wanna see what ur made of
so whyd you gotta hurt me so bad
i dont understand 
thought we had a plan but you dont want me as your man
*mindless fucking stuttering i dont feel like typing out*
so tell me what your afraid of 
i aint ever found that out
no 
wait i know what your afraid of
its a fucking word
hoe
i know
all your dirty little secrets
i know

spotify

past

might add lyrics here later probably not love u

bestfriends (hallow + ryo) unfinished demo ~ feb/march 2021

obsessed w/ ulovely (p. johnnyfriend)

I knew it (johnny friend)

prescription pills

i'll admit it, i'll admit it, i'll admit it

prod. me
art by @vmdarius @xzehl

GORESET

(sudbath)
it's obvious, no?
we got nowhere to go
we could jus drive all night
til the sunrise

stay in touch, thank u much
ima jus do my thing while u

run around town with ur options
baby i swear u could put me inside a coffin
i guess that's why i'm dead to u, i tried tellin u
but u always brush me off so it's to hell w u

one too many summers spent without u
looks like u been doin shit ur own way n i guess that's cool
but i still can't shake the feeling, i'm tired of healing
jus take me back, so i can focus on myself without u

(4cf)
u said u don't love no one
i was halfway outta ur door trippin over myself
then u call me up, been a couple of months
small talkin but u hope that i'm well now

really a problem
u tellin me to come over like i ain't feelin a way over u
u wanna take me out to sunset
i'm comin over, don't even got the funds yet

(sudbath)
i'll admit it, i'll admit it, i'll admit it
i'm a fool for u, but this ain't nothin new
so what u tryna do, i ain't got shit to prove
i'm a fool for u, i'm a fool for u

(4cf)
what the f- f- f- fuck
ah shit what the fuck

i'm wishin i was dead, now this shit got me stuck
that feelin in my head... why this shit got me up??
who dat chillin on the toetag, bitch what the fuck??
got that feelin in my head, why this shit got me up

n i don't wanna chase it
i'm runnin shit outta luck
and every time u call me
jus keep telling where's the love

(sudbath)
wait up, it's a little unfair
how was i supposed to think when u were right there?? (if u could just)
stay in touch, thank u much
ima jus do my thing while u

run around town with ur options
baby i swear u could put me inside a coffin
i guess that's why i'm dead to u, i tried tellin u
but u always brush me off so it's to hell w u

one too many summers spent without u
looks like u been doin shit ur own way n i guess that's cool
but i still can't shake the feeling, i'm tired of healing
jus take me back, so i can focus on myself without u

toetag w/ 4cf

THANK U FOR 100K ON PLAY PRETEND I LOV EU ALL. 

produced by 31sentinel + simon m 

AWOWAOEIAIEA AWOOOGA AWOOGA WOEOAIE cybertraash

SOS w/ reef (31sentinel + simon m)

w/ @t1gerstar
cover art by @aithuia
prod: me & @aithuia

lyrics:
(polar)
you think im perfect, im not perfect
you think it hurts, but on the surface
its not bad

try and lie and say its worth it
close your doors do i deserve this
its not bad

you love to play
you love to play
and i can tell that
you hate the way
you hate the way
you recognize my
every mistake that i make
its amplified by every word that you say
and im feeling the weight

its not bad

(tigerstar)
tell me all the things you want and i'll try to be that
get rid of and scrap the shit that has no meaning
promise im alright
i'll be good for awhile
until i become someone who you would wanna
save a seat and space for and more cus u want me here
everybody wants that one person they know they can't have
but its really not bad
its just that i made it up in my head and you dont see it

even if the surface says a different thing
if i was really suffering i'd suck it up and say
it's not bad

Im trying not to freak out even though its the worst pain
I can hold your hand and bleed out and i would still say its not bad

surface w/ tigerstar

Ft. @reefuh
@poisonedcheeto

Lyrics:
[kurtis]
But she been fuckin wit my health
Takin fluoxetine to help 
Im a shadow of a person 
that I once knew pretty well

Shes a figure of my mind
Fuck that bitch dont got the time
Cause I dont wanna care about you
But im still deep in decline

Bitch shut the fuck up let me talk
Dont check the clock
Im losing hours everyday 
Im sinkin deeper than I thought

Cause I got drugs up in my pocket
You gotta stop it
Now im getting angry everyday
Could tell you didnt wanna save it

[reef]
save it, left my heart out on the pavement
yeaaa 50% of my luv was the payment
thinking u could be w me, girl ur off ur medication
stuck in the past, shriveled me up and threw me in the grass
like how u move on so fast, spent forever tryna get like that
so dont pat me down, maybe u had me then but u dont have me now
so just shut me out, and don't act like that cuz u know how
(i give up)
im drowning in this bot- in this bottle
lost my peace of mind to all these thirsty models
like bitch who you think you are?
if your a shooting star then ima shoot the stars
fake shit rlly dont get far
wanna match better raise the bar
dont race me boy race a car
i been in and out of love i swear im trying hard
oh, ohh, ohh ohhh, oh ohh, oh ohh

[kurtis]
But she been fuckin wit my health
Takin fluoxetine to help 
Im a shadow of a person 
that I once knew pretty well

Shes a figure of my mind
Fuck that bitch dont got the time
Cause I dont wanna care about you
But im still deep in decline

Bitch shut the fuck up let me talk
Dont check the clock
Im losing hours everyday 
Im sinkin deeper than I thought

Cause I got drugs up in my pocket
You gotta stop it
Now im getting angry everyday
Could tell you didnt wanna save it

SPOTIFY

let me talk ft. reef (simon m)

prod mix master written by me

stream everywhere else too


Lyrics:
Ooo, ooo
Oh just watch me fall apart
Oh just watch me
Ooh oh

I feel wrung out
Ive run outta energy
It was too loud
Gotta Take a step back
Embrace the fallout
Oh its probably my fault but I dont care
Anymore, mm

And i’m not tired I’m just out of it
Ive been spending most my time tryna get a grip
And I’m just worried that my parents gettin sick of it
How the fuck can I go on now?

I give up
Don’t try to fix me
My brains gone numb
You try to touch me but your kiss just kinda stung
I understand you but I feel so dumb
(I feel so fucking dumb)

So bite your tongue
I know you’ll miss me but i’m too far (gone)
Misunderstand me saying “you’re so fuckin tough!”
but I’ve already given up

I cut my teeth over my intentions I 
(Got) no sleep over my whole weekend cause you
Watch me fall apart at the seams
Is this a dream?

(What’s happening?)

(I cannot) hold myself too high
(Feel something) eating me from the insides
(Why do I?) always seem to play the bad guy
You make me the enemy just to cope in your mind

(Watchu say?)

And i’m not tired I’m just out of it
Ive been spending most my time tryna get a grip
And I’m just worried that my parents gettin sick of it
How the fuck can I go on now?

I give up
Don’t try to fix me
My brains gone numb
You try to touch me but your kiss just kinda stung
I understand you but I feel so dumb
(I feel so fucking dumb)

So bite your tongue
I know you’ll miss me but i’m too far gone
Misunderstand me saying “you’re so fuckin tough!”
but I’ve already given up

Ooo, ooo
Oh just watch me fall apart
Oh just watch me
Ooh oh
Mm

i give up lmao

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/cope 

prod KBL
mastered by anem0s

lyrics:

Think you’re right (think you’re right)
People change, feelings fade given time
But I don’t mind
Change my name, take a break, give the wrong advice

Scrape my face on the pavement
Not playing it safe when
I feel so complacent
There just ain’t no way that
I got replaced and
My heart’s still vacant
What the fuck am I saying?

Pay no mind 
To the way that I cope when I’m falling behind
Fake my life
All the weight on my shoulders is gone when I die
Least I tried

Guess if this was your plan then you fucked it up
Was it not enough for you to hold that shit over my head?
Ain’t no place that I’d rather be than reality
No new mentality (still wish I were dead)
Pulled you out like a cavity and I felt the gravity
That I’m just a coward that’s all that I (wish I had said)
There’s no place for neutrality, A new felt duality
When I got nobody to blame but myself

Pay no mind 
To the way that I cope when I’m falling behind
Fake my life
All the weight on my shoulders is gone when I died
Least I tried
Pay no mind (ain't no place that I’d rather be)
To the way that I cope (than reality, no new mentality)
When I’m falling behind
Fake my life
All the weight on my shoulders is gone when I died
Least I tried

Heard you tried to say you’re sorry I
Tried to ignore you
Like something that’s not important
So maybe I’m holding onto a grudge
That I shouldn’t but I will
I couldn’t swallow your pill
There’s no assurance in hell
So if you tell me you’re down for the count let it all go
No missing out, running ‘round in a circle
Can’t hold me down, run your mouth, jump a hurdle
Get out of town, headed south, because it was
Always you