So What

for my block [yurms + pk]

So many moments have been lost in time cause I was stoned
Ever since that I got sober, feels like I was cloned
A hallow recreation, I can feel it in my bones
Sealed, then lost in transit with my confidence enclosed
Some days I feel so much disservice I should be disowned
I guess I’ve been taking Too many things in my control
Too much of a load, I just wanna break the mold
It’s an endless cycle It's not something I condone
Sometimes it’s when I make a track I feel like I’m the one
Didn’t like the last song that I made, like what could I have done?
Always chasing greatness but it’s always on the run
I only focus on weakness it’s taking out the fun
This is just an exercise for skills I’m tryna hone
I wasted so much time overthinking, I must atone
I don’t expect to make a hit of everything I wrote
Like how Every plant I try to grow just starts to decompose
Honestly it sounds appealing doing what I’m told
I can’t live that way, I cannot be controlled
I could’ve sold myself for an amount I can’t disclose
Actually it was only like 80 thousand what a joke
Within 2 working years I would end up going broke
I guess I’ll just stay broke, not giving up my hope
I am not a product I swear I won’t break the code
I’m perfectly happy Inside the comfort of my home
I picked up the call the second you had phoned
I promise that I’m sticking To the standards I uphold
I can’t play the victim from the trauma that unfolds
It’s so hard keep my head up I still fold
So many moments have been lost in time cause I was stoned
Ever since that I got sober, feels like I was cloned
A hallow recreation, I can feel it in my bones
Sealed, then lost in transit with my confidence enclosed



control

spirit: encoded in silicon (prod. chinapoet & hallow)

I realized that for years I’ve been saying everything’s the same
When actually it changed
I consider sabotaging myself in exchange for a lyric
I deny all forms of help then wonder why they don’t hear it

I pray for this 
Day and night
Have to embrace the change with open arms
Give me a chance and I’ll tear you apart
Feels like nobody can do me no harm
It’s all in my hands and I don’t need a charm
Watch the whole world bend in tandem with my art
If I switch up on my friends then I’m just not polearm
I broke the cycle, don’t need to restart

I had to change it up for the low attention spans 
Best believe I got a plan
I made it out the county just for me to circle back
I almost got my confidence then fell back right on my ass 

Been 4 years I got the same jeans on my ass
They’ve been tweaking in my comments they should touch some grass 
Who am I to talk when I don’t even go outside
Ive been so locked in
I still live in real life

I wouldn’t change my image just to move with the times
I didn’t like these beats until I heard someone actually try
Better than everyone my age I know you cannot deny it
Everything I’m doing’s free game till you gotta apply it

I stopped working with ****** cause that shit was too cheesy
I gave you a chance to grow can’t believe that you still need me
I went to treacherous waters and it turned out to be Fiji
That shit might go over your heads but I know that you still feel me


change

I take back everything I said, tear it all to shreds
Wasn’t long ago we were still hanging by a thread
Carry my regret from promises I never kept
Still get a sense of dread for everything ahead

Until I’m stuck in rush hour traffic
And all the exits end up looking the same
I’m counting mile markers for my mistakes
It’s all a one way street I cannot retrace

It’ll take some time to complete the puzzle
I was only 20 seconds late for the shuttle
Might miss my flight 
I’m sorry but i might be walking in the door way later tonight

2019 I hopped right off the porch 20 thousand in savings I was making 6 bands a month 
Now it’s overdrafted accounts
Crazy how I went up then down
I’m tryna get it all back
Turn my whole life back around 

I think I’m built different but I have to think I’m great
Your current situation’s a product of your brain
You gotta manifest with efforts that you make 
Put in the work and you can always change your fate 

I’m standing on this til’ it all breaks
I know change will come with fame I’m aware of the stakes
I might’ve moved up in the ranks but life just cut the brakes
I can’t stop

I was watching the summer smash livestream your favorite’s set was a wreck
I know I could do better
I think Cole Bennett should book me next because I could do better
I don’t do this for a bag I speak for the real in these letters

But I take back everything I said, tear it all to shreds
Wasn’t long ago we were still hanging by a thread
Carry my regret from promises I never kept
Still get a sense of dread for everything ahead

Until I’m stuck in rush hour traffic
And all the exits end up looking the same
I’m counting mile markers for my mistakes
It’s all a one way street I cannot retrace

dredd

I felt so dead inside
You brought me back to life
Can't see no stars tonight
Only the city lights
Illuminate the sky
Take me out of my mind
Take me out of my head
Somewhere with you instead
Any place
Anywhere
Baby for you I'm there
Right or wrong
Wrong or right
Baby no I don't care
I got your back
I won't back down
No I'm not scared
If they talkin let em talk
It's just a waste of air

It's just a waste of time
Can't catch me
You gonna fall behind
Can you tell what's on my mind?
I'm trynna stack up to the sky
I don't wanna hear no lies
That shit just blow my high
Just wanna feel alive
Just want you by my side

Cause they don't feel me
Like you do
Yeah your love is true
I'd write a million songs for you
Just to get it through
Baby I like how you move
All the things you do
I froze my heart and watched it melt
All because of you

(You)
(All because of you)
(You)
(Yeah you know it's true)
(You, you, you)
(The only one I see)
(You)
(I need you like the air I breathe)

I felt so dead inside
You brought me back to life
Can't see no stars tonight
Only the city lights
Illuminate the sky
Take me out of my mind
Take me out of my head
Somewhere with you instead
Any place
Anywhere
Baby for you I'm there
Right or wrong
Wrong or right
Baby no I don't care
I got your back
I won't back down
No I'm not scared
If they talkin let em talk
It's just a waste of air

spotify

waste of air (prod. silver + methboiswag)

It's alright, go ahead
Tell me what you gotta say
Got a voice in my head
Always fucking with my brain
It don't matter where I go, I can never get away
I'ma take it to the end, I'ma take it to the grave
It's alright, go ahead
Tell me what you gotta say
Got a voice in my head
Always fucking with my brain
It don't matter where I go, I can never get away
I'ma take it to the end, I'ma take it to the grave

Walking down this road until there's nothing left of me
Looking for meaning always seem to leave me empty
Woke up this morning, I think I had an epiphany
The only one that hold me back is right in front of me
Looking in the mirror, smashing all the glass out
How you throwing stones at me from a glass house?
And why you hating when I'm down
What is that about?
Can you tell me?
I'm trying to figure it out

It's alright, go ahead
Tell me what you gotta say
Got a voice in my head
Always fucking with my brain
It don't matter where I go, I can never get away
I'ma take it to the end, I'ma take it to the grave
It's alright, go ahead
Tell me what you gotta say
Got a voice in my head
Always fucking with my brain
It don't matter where I go, I can never get away
I'ma take it to the end, I'ma take it to the grave

Keep on going
Till my motherfucking body drop
It's so confusing, does she love me or she love me not?
Think I'm delusional the way I always lose the plot
You got me walking with my hands tied, kicking rocks
It's like I'm trying to swim with concrete shoes
I don't know how it ends, or where it's going to
All I know is that I, I want you
And I hope that you know, you know it's true

never get away (prod. meutry)

Jack In The Box

FreeDL

Elevator Music 2175

BelieveIt WIP

http://therapy.rip

mgmt.polearm@gmail.com