BROTHER THEYRE NOT LISTENING 🗣️‼️‼️‼️

dark city

i'm tryna go up and take it far
i gotta get clean, but damn it's hard
they lean on ***** to finish bars
just be yourself, man it's not hard

your favorite doesn't think to raise the bar
they set it lower and lower without creative art
if you're not on my timing we should remain apart
working on my hands and knees my form of prayer's hard

and i don't need to steal your swag
i don't switch up for a bag
compromising for a trend seems like a drag
it sounds like you have nothing left to say
you're not digging deep enough to find your way

these days i'm paranoid of what will kill me
is it processed food or the cigs when i was 22?
whatever happens i'll just leave it all to you and my family too
i can't seem to beat it no matter what i do

but i'm tryna go up and take it far
i gotta get clean, but damn it's hard
they lean on ***** just to finish bars
just be yourself, man it's not hard

the irony,
i started
tweaking
when i tried to get sober
that part of me had started leaving by the time it's over
stop buying designer it could go away, just save
personal experience man, i take that shit to the grave

i'll take it far
i gotta get clean, but damn it's hard
they lean on ***** to finish bars
just be yourself, man it's not hard

be yourself

Too many nights of saying fuck it I’ll fix the problem tomorrow
Everyday I gamble my life but there’s no chips I could borrow
The chance to hit keeps me in but I pull the lever with sorrow
could I stop viewing it as battles Huh, I don’t know
I have no choice when I wake up but just to get up and go
no choice but to make a change when I’m Sick of the status quo
I used to live way too reckless, but I let go
Will I find reason to leave the house today, I don’t know
I chose to give my life, To you I bestow
I chose this to be my quest So long ago
I pace around in a circle, In limbo
Will I ever reach the end? I don’t know
Too many thoughts, too many tasks, I overflow
Try not to go over the edge, I tiptoe
But I’m still keeping to myself, I’m lying low
Will I end up going unnoticed, I don’t know
The hands keep on moving around, but time’s feeling slow
It lies inside what I wrote, the highs and lows
the weight that lives upon my shoulders never lightens its hold
struggle to find a new reason why I dig deeper holes
I try to climb my way out but I’m swallowed by the ground
I try to send out a message But it muffles the sound
It all goes out into the void, I just hope that I’m found
Ran out of gas in the lighter, no rescue team is inbound
But I just wanna be honest, I think my time’s overdue
I know The house always wins but it’s hard to accept the truth
the wound cut deep in my skin it doesn’t seem to close
Will I break or just bend? I don’t know

This place gives me a headache
Let’s get out of here, go home
Instead of making headway
I still grapple with unknowns
It shouldn’t bother me
But my ego breaks me down
It shouldn’t bother me
Hope i come back around
It shouldn’t bother me
It’s so hard to find a noun
It shouldn’t bother me
Constantly letting myself down
I don’t need any more
I don’t need any more
I feel so embarrassed picking myself up off the floor
In a dark room on all fours
Trying to settle the score
Underneath my feet the floorboards creak
I’m sorry I woke you up
It shouldn’t bother me
But somehow it cuts deep
In life you can’t repeat
It’s always incomplete
I can’t shake the headache 
Let’s get out of here, go home
The curse of making my own way is fighting the unknowns
It shouldn’t bother me
But my ego breaks me down
It shouldn’t bother me
Hope I come back around
It shouldn’t bother me
It’s so hard to find a noun
It shouldn’t bother me
Constantly letting myself down
I don’t need any more
I don’t need any more
My only hope is that you never walk out of the door
I took everything that held me back and locked it in a drawer
I can’t spend my life looking around for something more
This is my survival tactic I’m not doing it for sport
It would be worse than death if I was always falling short 
All I’m tryna say is that I’m getting bored
Everything’s a copy or a reboot or a port
It’s honestly a shame how Every time they cut it short
It’s honestly a shame how I still drown it in a quart
I always find myself filling the silence up with doubt
The feeling that I’m chasing seems to drift way further out
It shouldn’t burden me
But the weight is all around
I have take some action Instead of pacing about
Fuck everybody that’s hated
You just hate to see me try
Fuck everybody I’m jaded
There’s no tears I’ve left to cry
It shouldn’t bother me
There’s no option to retreat
Not giving up my seat
Just wanna make ends meet
I can’t shake the headache 
Let’s get out of here, go home
Instead of making headway
I still grapple the unknowns
It shouldn’t bother me
But my ego breaks me down
It shouldn’t bother me
Hope come back around
It shouldn’t bother me
It’s so hard to find a noun
It shouldn’t bother me
Constantly letting myself down
I don’t need any more
I don’t need any more
My only hope is that you never walk out of the door

it shouldn't bother me

Every issue with my confidence is products of fear
I can’t take these things for granted, Everything I hold dear
I’m too impatient to watch my own growth
Every night I question fame like what’s it all gonna take
Imagine conquering the ache inside As I lie awake
The tears are falling like rain
The dream goes down in the drain
I can’t keep chasing my own shadow just to prove my own name
I was selfish to try it on my own
Drop the mirror, it breaks
Some wounds you can’t mend with tape
conditions had me displaced
Collect the fragments in case
Every defeat teaches grace
Memories I can’t erase
I have no choice but to embrace Everything that caused me pain
I try to keep up the pace 
But life just isn’t a race
I still wonder how much time i have to find my own place
So sick of hiding my face
And everything I must chase
I still wonder how much time I have until I’m replaced
I’m too impatient to watch my own growth
But I still try to let it all go
Although I can’t see the end of the road
I know wherever it leads I’ll go
I was selfish to try it on my own
I would’ve curled up and died in the snow
But now I’m learning to lean on what’s close
Through every motion I’ll feel less alone

fragments

spirit: encoded in silicon (prod. chinapoet & hallow)

stream

that bad

american idol (prod. remghost + shini)

Далеко (feat. skyrunn3r)

filter

wrist loqq (flz+99+left)

http://therapy.rip

mgmt.polearm@gmail.com

it shouldn't bother me

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