Some people say suicide is cowardly. Suicide isn't cowardly. I'll tell you what is cowardly, treating people like shit to the point that they would want to end their lives.

People always judge and say your stupid if you kill your self, because you have so much to live for. But once you place your self on the other side of the gun or knife or noose, you just will never understand.

1 suicide occurs every 40 seconds.   A young lady received suicidal thoughts and wrote in a letter "These voices in my head are telling me to kill myself: suicide is not the way forward. I am so stressed, why is this happening to me?". The voices in her head were trying to overpower her; she refused to let them win. She opened to to her sister and showed her the letter, as she cried while being hugged by her sister she said "I beat the voices in my head, one year and a half and I am still fighting. I needed this hug; thank you.". The suicidal victim saved herself by believing in recovery; suicide is 100% preventable. The girl is willing to still het professional help so she can beat her five illnesses; depression, bulimia nervosa, anxiety, mood swing disorders and insomnia; that girl is me.

how is it all gonna change one day if I'm slowly killing myself...

I have tow voices in my head and one tells me to go die and the other voices say i still have things to live for and I have a hard time believing in it all the stuff I had been holding on I should have let it go I damaged my heart and my mind I can hardly thing what I was back then I was so happy but now i'm nobody i'm just a ghost everyone see through me i'm smart I tried to die but the voices holds me bake and I can't do it I keep trying but I can't do it people says i'm weak I think there right i'm a ghost and i'm weak and nobody my life is just shit for me.

Forever

@lilhappylilsad

i know i did before but i dont fuckin love you no more
you made me hate myself girl did you love me at all
i tried to kill myself girl you wouldnt pick up my calls
i know you knew what i was doin but u wanted me gone

i dont care cause someone else is fuckin waiting for me
she got everything you dont she is all that i need
see me smile see me rollin see me smoking my weed
cant believe i wasted time cause now im starting to heal

ever since u fuckin left ive been moving my ways
makin music everyday helps me handle the pain
makin music everyday is a highway to fame
i dont chase but i want it girl remember my name

ill be one of them
youll never see me girl again
if i dont kill myself
the scene is mine girl my revenge

my revenge (prod. lilhappylilsad)

I love you all! please go check out Lux and Guardin!!
@lux_45
@guardinmusic

LYRICS-

Yung van:
Call me back I need you right now
On the ground as the rain pours down
Where'd you go when i needed you 
Where'd you go when I needed you
Call me back as the rain pours down
On the ground I need you right now 
Where'd you go when I needed you
Where'd you go when I needed you 
I called you but I can't speak
But I can hear you breathing
I'm wide awake cause I can't sleep
and I can only think of you

guardin:
think too much, i'm so lost, where my head go?
 trippin' now, blankin' out to the echo
all i fears finally here, movin' mad slow 
pacing now, trace your frown when i let go 
falling back into the depths of my own mind
 i'd be lying to you baby if i said that i was fine 
i've been rearranging furniture & finding stuff inside 
like the crystals in my pockets that you probably left behind 
i don't wanna be without you 
baby i am not okay without you

FOLLOW MY MAN LUX!!!

you were my best friend w/ guardin (Prod. Lux45)

https://soundcloud.com/lilhappylilsad
https://soundcloud.com/1800entity
https://soundcloud.com/coffin/tracks

open.spotify.com/artist/6NFHn7VH6…vwS1i2nZ6pF5RJjA
www.instagram.com/poppytears_/?hl=en
twitter.com/poppyxtears
itunes.apple.com/nz/artist/poppy-tears/1268266116


lyrics: 

I been looking for a light that doesn't fade 
I been cooling in the night with my blade

she asked me what I'm doing said I'm tryna hold the weight
I said I'm here now but she said its too late
all the fucking time that I went and put to waste
never knew it happened no I never left a trace

cause it's all gotta change one day 
but for now it stays the same
I've been slowing down my heart rate
and numbing out the aches  

cause it's all gotta change one day 
but for now its all the same
I've been slowing down my heart rate
I been numbing out my aches

lil happy lil sad:

baby girl i feel alone
i been thinkin bout u when im low
i feel like ive lost everything
i feel like i am dead within

baby girl i feel alone
i make it worse when i am smoking dope
i feel like ive lost everything
im crying with lil sedative tn8

girl i never feel at home
im acting strong but i just cant go on
i wish that i could make u see
i wish that you could make me feel again

oooo
i feel so lonely
oooo
i feel alone

spotify

looking for a light that doesn't fade w/ lil happy lil sad (prod. offline x 1800entity)

@guccihighwaters
@killedmyself

lyrics:
check the clock, 2 am and i cant sleep
scrollin down our photo album just to see our last week
ghosts up in my bed like you were laying in them last week
counting faces in my head like what you said is on repeat
i hope you feel the same in the morning

she said its over like it couldnt be
who knew itd end so cowardly
cant look me in the eyes
guess my stare is so damn heavenly
her kisses on my neck used to show my love so publicly
i miss her on my chest
like my heart, thats where it used to be
ive sown it on my vest
crawls away just like a centipede
i always tried my best
even that just wasnt good enough
she came through to confess
locked her up and threw away the key
depression will infest
hang me up just like a center piece
eroding at my brain
like she try and put the blame on me
but i never claimed to be
the one you wanted me to be
going through the motions
but i feel fucking emotionless
a minute to get mad, then ill get back to destruction
my head is blowing up just like a volcanic erruption
im always fucking up like an nes corruption
blowing down the ounces like i blow away my brain
i get out to escape from whats causing all this pain
friends and substance i abuse
in hopes to keep me all together
cuz without them i would fucking die
nobody lasts forever

i hope you feel the same in the morning
cus i don’t feel the same way any more bitch
im a ghost watch the rain while its pouring
2am i need u but you’re snoring
i need rest prefer a death bed
i need a hollow tip to penetrate my chest
i need to leave maybe then you’d be impressed
too far gone imma sleep on the grass
i stay lone and i hate it
i hate it
but your lips 
still taste still taste them
like come back ill buy u a gucci bag
u can play ur games if u let me hold your hand
please dont 
(please dont break my heart) 
ohh please dont
well is this not enough of destruction 
my body is sick of convulsing

Follow me <3

i hope you feel the same in the morning (ft. guccihighwaters) [prod. killedmyself]

producer. @lightbodyent
guitar written by @Tylerburkhart
https://soundcloud.com/tylerburkhart/i-want-to-drown-in-snow

i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
inside
i don’t want to live
but ill stay alive
i don’t want to leave
so ill make time
you don’t tell the truth
so you make lies
i cried
i cried again
last night flowers in my bed
last night i lost my best friend 
last nights flowers torn to shreds
last night our love wound up dead
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
inside
our love subsides i don’t feel right
pin me down you eat my insides
like a spider pull me in
kiss my neck make my blood thin
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
your pain inside

FREE DOWNLOAD

Last Nights Flowers - (prod. lightbody)

produced and mixed by @lilhappylilsad

lyrics: 
I'm way too fucked to stay awake
I drink some more to handle all the pain 
I watch my life go down the drain 
getting high all the time I don't feel no shame

Shame (prod. lil happy lil sad)

it still hurts, forgetting you

featuring my friend @ihateshinigami

blackheartemoji
an album from @prodbybrody and thebreathingbackwards

lyrics: https://genius.com/thebreathingbackwards-too-long-lyrics

blackheartemoji

too long (ft. shinigami)

feat. @softhert
prod. @softhert & @notmorgn

(guccihighwaters)
i got toxins running through my veins
keeping me alive but also eating at my brain
maybe i’m the one that fucked it up but girl you changed 
and i’m looking down the barrel when you aim

this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

(Ȿoftheart)
you a keepsake
imma keep you safe
imma hold on
till my bones break
i stay by my lonely 
most my homies out of state
i saw one the other day 
gotta say shit aint the same
dont know what you did to me
only hurts more when she tell me 
that she misses me
im just hers to you 
and your just his to me
save me pull me up and out my misery

(guccihighwaters)
we can’t fight forever
one of us is gonna fall
i’ll make sure it’s not you
keep you safe at all cost
i’ll make it all up
i’ll throw up my guts
if it means i’ll get a touch
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)

(Ȿoftheart)
dont wanna hide anymore
dont wanna lie anymore
so sick of fighting
i don't wanna try anymore
so two faced
so double sided i swallow my pride every time that we talk
then send me off
you left a void in my life
and this music the only way i can fill up 
all the silence inside of my room
okay i'm gone
get what you want ill play dead
wont stop until ive made it
same shit
inside im screaming for help outside i dont say shit
save it
wish i could erase it
couldn't face it
uncomplacent

(guccihighwaters & Ȿoftheart)
this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face

(guccihighwaters)
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

all my fault (feat. Softheart)

enjoy. 

prod. (@hkfiftyone2, @traviks, @cxldblxxd)

Lyrics

[HkFiftyOne]

Had too much to say I'll take it in the booth
Spittin flame you know I only speak the truth
Really fuckin hate it when you feelin blue
Used to make me smile but now youre frowning too

Feeling like I'm Oli switch like Majin Buu
Switch it up on beats i rock with Traviks too
I'm still laying bars you know its what I do
Tryna find myself I'm tryna get a clue

I dont wanna know if youre dead or alive
I just wanna get up and move on with my life
Blacking out on pills i sink into the floor
Yeah you said you hate me but i hate you more

[Esxovar]

I don't wanna know if your dead or alive 
I just wanna make my bands, catch you off my surprise
Look into my face, baby into my eyes 
Tell me that what you said was all just lies, yeah

Smoking all this dope on the daily 
Still in love with you that's a maybe
Still care about you, that's a maybe 
Do I still want you, that's a hell nah

I dont fuckin want you, anymore
Took you off the contacts of both my phone 
Poppin all these hydros, I lose control yeah 
I used to be sick you were my antidote 

Said youd never leave, but you left me
Scared of broke hearts, but your breaked me
Now I really hoping that you hate me
Hope the thought of me drives you cazy

Posting all these pics, it don't phaze me 
Blocked you off the gram, I don't wanna see your face b
Used me attention that's your craving
Said it wasint true, but you're faking

I've been really fuckin feeling empty lately
Snorting up the coke to forget you baby
I been doing all these drugs to forget you baby

ihateyoumore w/ hkfiftyone (@travikskun)

lyrics

working 4 a chance, let me be your man
sunset holding hands, let us walk away in sand, foreign lands 
soon i’ll own my life, money, land & wife, 
now i’m cold at night, but i know itll come around, for us

i don’t got a gang, used to always go and hang
but i left them chasing dreams, i don’t drift i got a plan
i smoked hella weed, now i’m clean like cillit bang
if i got you on my team, means you occupy my yang

i can’t hang around u if u leeching off my shit
watch me play my life with wit, stay 100 for my bitch
i just want a bag so i got no time to sit
shorty wanna suck my dick don’t got time but she insist
i just wanna hunt, catch, kill till i get rich
so i step up to the mic and i tell you how it is
i was here but had to leave, had some big waitin for me
yeah i had to pause my dream, to get the message that he teach, now im

working 4 a chance, let me be your man
sunset holding hands, let us walk away in sand, foreign lands
soon i’ll own my life, money, land & wife, 
now i’m cold at night, but i know itll come around, for us

i don’t got a gang, used to always go and hang
but i left them chasing dreams, i don’t drift i got a plan
i smoked hella weed, now i’m clean like cillit bang
if i got you on my team, means you occupy my yang

now i’m w u, it’s forever 
i don’t leave i just work to improve make it better
and i work for your pleasure and shelter
been in hell wanna take you to heaven
if this music stop bringing me blessings
i don’t know where i’ll go where i’m headed
i’m just happy to be in your presence
and this life could be over in seconds
so i don’t count on my losses, mentality strong lining up with the bosses, 
i see god but no goddess, they think they all that but these bitches be godless
and i don’t pretend to be knowing it all
but my truth be told and to you my truth raw
but my life been rough won’t forget what i saw, it’s time that i ball, so i am

red sand

red sand (prod. lil happy lil sad)

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