Some people say suicide is cowardly. Suicide isn't cowardly. I'll tell you what is cowardly, treating people like shit to the point that they would want to end their lives.

People always judge and say your stupid if you kill your self, because you have so much to live for. But once you place your self on the other side of the gun or knife or noose, you just will never understand.

1 suicide occurs every 40 seconds.   A young lady received suicidal thoughts and wrote in a letter "These voices in my head are telling me to kill myself: suicide is not the way forward. I am so stressed, why is this happening to me?". The voices in her head were trying to overpower her; she refused to let them win. She opened to to her sister and showed her the letter, as she cried while being hugged by her sister she said "I beat the voices in my head, one year and a half and I am still fighting. I needed this hug; thank you.". The suicidal victim saved herself by believing in recovery; suicide is 100% preventable. The girl is willing to still het professional help so she can beat her five illnesses; depression, bulimia nervosa, anxiety, mood swing disorders and insomnia; that girl is me.

how is it all gonna change one day if I'm slowly killing myself...

I have tow voices in my head and one tells me to go die and the other voices say i still have things to live for and I have a hard time believing in it all the stuff I had been holding on I should have let it go I damaged my heart and my mind I can hardly thing what I was back then I was so happy but now i'm nobody i'm just a ghost everyone see through me i'm smart I tried to die but the voices holds me bake and I can't do it I keep trying but I can't do it people says i'm weak I think there right i'm a ghost and i'm weak and nobody my life is just shit for me.

LATE BIRTHDAY demo

produced by haruhi
with lil happy lil sad

lie to me (with lil happy lil sad)

@lilhappylilsad @poppytears @kuroimetsuyu
yt: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oPqGaMUym5U

i wake up every morning
with a feelin that im drowning
in my visions i make money
in the present i have nothing

thats the reason im still grinding
im addicted to the rhyming
i make music when im dying
so the musics never stopping

wanna die when shes cutting
i cant stand when shes bloody
im in love with the body
that my girl treat so badly

wanna die when shes cutting
i cant stand when shes bloody
im in love with the body
that my girl treat so badly

when shes cutting w/ poppy tears (prod. kuroime)

Still stuck in my emo phase
Lyrics:


I've got the whole world on my back

Yeah, cause I'm 5'9, 165 
Established 1995 
Living like I'm not getting out alive 
Ima take a second just to tell you why 

I had thoughts since 6th grade 
That this world was not made for the sake 
of the people like me 
who can't see past their mistakes, and  misdeeds 

And I bleed the same blood you bleed
So why are you tryna cut me? 
Why's there always something you want from me?
Why can't you be happy for me?

That I'm not that kid on the phone screaming fuck this world I'm leaving? 
Like when I was sixteen and,  it still feels like I'm dreaming
When I call your phone and realize I forgot to breath in 
Forgot the grave that he's in 
I hope you know I mean it 

When I say I'm only here today cause this music keeps me breathing 
It's my only healing

I'm not alone if you can feel it

I'm not alone, if you know the bliss 
When i  heard that girl don't slit her wrists no more
From that time I reminisced at my show 
Told her there's reasons to stay don't go 

Don't push your family away I know 
They don't understand all the pain you hold 
Im just as sad know you're not alone 
Don't let your story go untold 





 I know you're here in spirit, put on deja entendu 
The only time I'm sad now is when I think of you
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only help one of them then I did it for all you 
I don't know how she's doing, no we haven't stayed in touch 
But I helped her put the knife down and that means so fucking much
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only helped one of them then I did it, I did it for you

I Hope You Know I Mean It

@lilhappylilsad @kuroimetsuyu

yt: https://youtu.be/SLIKZXjkIu8

i thought that i had told myself
not to fucking fall in love
now i fucking find myself
singing to you in my songs

im sure im gonna hurt you girl
so you better stay away
know that youre at loss for words
i just dont know what else to say

i dont wanna be
the reason that you bleed
girl you better leave
yeah im trynna make you see

youre better off alone
at least youll still be free
while im smoking weed
for the scars im trynna heal
x2

while i find myself x3
ill never find myself

find myself (prod. kuroime)

prod @notmorgn

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gd_Xqqx_St8

whats wrong or whats right
im bouta take a flight like should i say goodbye 
fuck that imma hold onto my pride
momma raised a soldier so i can't afford to cry
lookin back i see the knife in my back now
lookin at life wishing i was in the background 
lookin back i see my future in the past now
90 in the whip like should i crash now

im so sick of this im so sick of shit nobody listening 
demons all around diamonds wet just like a christening 
wait why you always high when you call me
why'd u ask what's wrong when you saw me (X2)

chemicals running through my veins i just wanna sleep 
feelings bleeding out my brain but right now i can't feel a thing 
woke up late time to waste away
my favorite days are the rainy days
let it soak in then i throw it all away
i try my best but this feeling always stays
you know i try but you gotta gimme space
and i dont wanna hurt you if you get in my way

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

im so sick of this

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lyrics: 

I been looking for a light that doesn't fade 
I been cooling in the night with my blade

she asked me what I'm doing said I'm tryna hold the weight
I said I'm here now but she said its too late
all the fucking time that I went and put to waste
never knew it happened no I never left a trace

cause it's all gotta change one day 
but for now it stays the same
I've been slowing down my heart rate
and numbing out the aches  

cause it's all gotta change one day 
but for now its all the same
I've been slowing down my heart rate
I been numbing out my aches

lil happy lil sad:

baby girl i feel alone
i been thinkin bout u when im low
i feel like ive lost everything
i feel like i am dead within

baby girl i feel alone
i make it worse when i am smoking dope
i feel like ive lost everything
im crying with lil sedative tn8

girl i never feel at home
im acting strong but i just cant go on
i wish that i could make u see
i wish that you could make me feel again

oooo
i feel so lonely
oooo
i feel alone

spotify

looking for a light that doesn't fade w/ lil happy lil sad (prod. offline x 1800entity)

@lilhappylilsad @lonnellsuave

yt: https://youtu.be/OpDcCbe2WEA

spent a couple nights in the bathtub
just starin at my wrist
shiny silver blade in my right hand
should I slit and watch it drip
x2

spent a couple nights in the bathtub
just starin at my wrist
shiny silver blade in my right hand
should I slit and watch it drip

high all fucking night in a bathtub
what is this life i live
shiny silver blade in my right hand
i lay it on my wrist

just tell urself its fine
i tell myself im fine

all u mother fuckers got the best of me
cant believe u fuckin did this when u know im weak
since it hit me ive been tryin but i just cant sleep
since it hit me all the memories r on repeat

tryna figure out a way to breathe
couple ounces gone im off the weed
if u fuckin knew how bad ive been
wish u fuckin knew the pain im in

blood on me and i scream
drugs on me im a fiend
girl help me tryna deal
girl help me hit delete

no matter what they do
i will love u boo
just tell yourself its fine

no matter what i do
know i love u boo
i tell myself im fine

just tell urself its fine
i tell myself im fine

spent a couple nights in the bathtub
just starin at my wrist
shiny silver blade in my right hand
should I slit and watch it drip

high all fucking night in a bathtub
what is this life i live
shiny silver blade in my right hand
i lay it on my wrist

iTunes

bathtub (prod. lonnell suave)

fats'e - apathy (ft. guccihighwaters)

Yesterday - Burden Boy (prod. Br//Oken)

Teenage Rage

TEENAGE RAGE

Medicine Music



                                          


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looking for a light that doesn't fade w/ lil happy lil sad (prod. offline x 1800entity)

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