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life (prod. drip-133)

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BAD LUCK - Love Song

TOMBSTONES PT. 3713

New Alhambra

sing me something sweet to sleep to

teenage breakup song - dandelion hands

this is my first song i've ever made and there's more to come. thanks for listening <3
prod. by the outset 
lyrics:

hold me tight dont let me fall
you once told me we wont get old
now im sitting staring at my phone
waiting for the day i have one missed call

Thinking of the day we were all alone
laying in the grass and staring at the stars

now im all alone with a broken heart
i never expected things to fall apart

I wish I could press restart
and try something new to keep your heart
but the way you are makes it 10 times hard

just feel me 
please kill me
i know this might sound silly
i know how im feeling
im not really feeling

hold me tight dont let me fall
you once told me we wont get old
now im sitting staring at my phone
waiting for the day i have one missed call

dont let me fall (prod. the outset)

Andrew Jackson Jihad - Big Bird

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VyMz-LiCySE&feature=youtu.be&ab_channel=yesterday

prod: @whatevenisreal

my shawty think i drink too much
my homies know i think too much
i crack a 40
roll a dutch
pop ambien to sleep
i pour some out for all my team
i wear my heart out on my sleeves
a burden boy until i die
i hope it ends tonight

ohhhhh
you do not know what the fuck that ive been thru
ohhhhh
writin these songs just to vent bout my issues
ohhhhh
you can tell by all the lyrics that i fuckin miss you
fuck all these feelings
id rather not deal
pull up in the whip
put my head to the steel

ohhhhh
im sorry if you found out
ohhhh
i wonder how youre doing
put the past right out my brain
i never will address a thing
slowly decay by 21
my soul will lead me to my grave
my hair is blonde
my heart is black
these bitches never hit me back
my headphones on
as i walk alone
thru places
used to call my home
i just wanna drink my life away
with hopes that i wont wake today
i hate how people give a shit
just let me rest in peace

Follow me <3

burden boy (prod. br//oken)

I Love You

My socials <3
IG- @dolefuldarlin
YT- Madi Marie
Twitter- @dolefuldarlin

Sid Whites socials <3
IG- @ggallinsforehead
YT- Sid White 
Soundcloud- @sidwhiteisdead
LYRICS:
do you u know my fears? (know my fears)
 do you even care ?
I don't wanna be here. 
living in my nightmare 
are you even there ? 

and I don't wanna fight 
not again tonight
I just need u in my arms tonight 
to feel alright
by my side x2

do you even care ?
are you even there ?

do you u know my fears? (know my fears)
do you even care ?
I don't wanna be here. 
living in my nightmare 
are you even there ? 

and I don't wanna fight 
not again tonight
I just need u in my arms tonight 
to feel alright
by my side x2

do you know my fears ?
living in my nightmare 
living in my nightmare (are you even there )
living in my nightmare 


Mixed & Mastered by @madimarieabel
Produced by @sidwhiteisdead

living in my nightmare

living in my nightmare (prod. Sid White)

fallen leaves (prod. halberd)

@splashgvng
@barrenwaste

premiered/hosted by sad chill
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBF9w0jchUM

dont you hate the part
when we start to fall into pieces?
and its a work of art
the way you walk into my room
and how u keep me awake
even when ur not around
she always puts me to shame
its such a lame relation
ill take all the blame as long as it helps you sleep at night
i hope to haunt your life

maybe someday we’ll get past it all
but for right now you can watch me ball
got your front seat on the sidelines
and i dont give a fuck if u start to cry

yeah u sow what u reap baby
ive slept in all damn week baby
im still waitin for u to come back to me

lost it all again
but ill get back up every time til i win
lost it all again
if u loved me once, u can do it again

i loved you once but thats the last time itll ever be
ill be fuckin damned if u ever again make a fool of me
wastin all my money on the drugs that keep me lonely
anxiety ridden phony
let the 9 cock back and blow me
out of this planet
and ill b damned if
any of u fuckers take the one thing that i need; its singin a song
for all u singin along
tried to love u once but now u know im done

like melo, baby (ft. barren) [prod. splashgvng]

@mewsyc
@producedbyaidan
@guccihighwaters

yeah im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i'll keep it to myself now
got me feelin left out
u talk a lot shit like u dont got a lot to hide

numb to the core
yeah, i kill that pain
with a bottle of liqoure
feel it runnin thru my veins
when im not high
or preoccupied
i got thorns in my heart
and a storm roarin in my mind

whats inside my cup
blindsides my brain
so i hide my face
in an act of shame
and hope to dissapear
in a perminant way
u watch me fade to black
u'd love to watch my pain

and u know
who to call
ill b there
after all
and i know
when i fall
u wont care
afterall,

yeah im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i'll keep it to myself now
got me feelin left out
u talk a lot shit like u dont got a lot to hide

numb to the core
yeah, i kill that pain
with a bottle of liqoure
feel it runnin thru my veins
when im not high
or preoccupied
i got thorns in my heart
and a storm roarin in my mind

yeah, im just a waste
i dont got that much to offer
im selfish and conceeded 
but always put my all
into everyone and everything
then watch it as it falls
let it crumble to my feet
just like everything ive ever loved

yeah, im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i always knew the truth
u aint even gotta lie
ur the best thing
but im just another guy

im ur puppet and u play me like a game
text from my ex, yeah she never felt the same
use me on a rainy day
abuse me til i cant even think
that picuture that we took
i always kept it safe
id put it in my pocket just so i could see ur face
when i was out of town
u always kept me with u
never told u bout all the times when i would miss u

yeah, im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i always knew the truth
u aint even gotta lie
ur the best thing
but im just another guy

boy toy (ft. guccihighwaters) [prod. mewsyc & aidan]

sometimes things just dont work out,
if you wanted me to stay you should know now,
you can tell me anything that you dont doubt,
Park Jefferson in the air while we roll out

cool breeze in her hair got my heart warm,
orange leaves in the air got me lovelorn,
cold fights on the phone make a big storm,
guess ill leave, wanna stay, got my heart torn

when i wake up my bed too big,
sleep in the hole in the grave i dig,
i walk away like i know you did,
turned my back the same time that you hid

some day when we're both alone and lonely,
some day when i want you back to hold me,
think back on all of the things you told me,
miss you feeling like you were my only

Im sorry i ran away
Im sorry i couldnt stay
Im breaking down every day
I know its better this way

can you feel this pain inside
broke inside got me out of my mind
all these days pass by i cry
wanna go back, do it right this time

i been down im so broken
cant stand my hearts been stolen
the way our lives been woven
just makes me sad im frozen

i tried to sleep away my feelings im still sad
i tried to get all of this weight up off my back
i tried to numb all the emotions that i had
i cried and laid in bed for weeks i still feel bad

Im sorry i ran away
Im sorry i couldnt stay
Im breaking down every day
I know its better this way

runaway (prod adjustisac)

available on all platforms: https://song.link/us/i/1456734832

artwork: @levistrauck

MUSIC VIDEO: https://youtu.be/WXTedaF9_Jw

kiss me <3 feat. Swing High, Swing Low (prod. 4evr)

3 7 13 - A Beautiful Accident

Let Down

I'll Never Let Them Hurt You

Corpse of a junkie (deleted track) prod. triplesixdelete

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