this is amazing man keep up the good work

jo 0.1

original description from sometime in summer 2025: "if this is ever uploaded publicly in its demo state, it means i’m planning on taking my life, and this is the last song you may ever hear from me. going out sad i suppose lmao"

edit as of november 7th at 11:23pm: "this is being uploaded the moment i turn 22. ill be okay soon enough. this song deserves to exist. you deserve to hear it. it's yours. i'm not going anywhere"

art by cnri, my best friend. original cover art for scrapped third album

unmastered, lightly mixed. cnri also helped me write lyrics

burdenée (demo)

we would make an EP but i think we're both too impatient for that so!! :p

lyrics:
You expect more of me than I could ever meet
Everything I do is never quite complete
I know I disappoint you but I'm trying as hard as I can
You'll never care and I'll never understand
Please just give it a rest and don't expect the best
For I know you'll expect too much and I'll just let you down
I'll just let you down

I want to tell you that I need you to be proud of me
I know it's annoying and I'm sorry please don't hate me
I'm sorry
Without support, this is so hard, it's so hard
Will you believe in my vision
I need to stop wishing
It's so hard

it's so hard

your bones brittle and
your skin covered in marks
control everything
cause i wanna take my time
you're my favorite
person to talk to when i wanna die
when im high with you
all i wanna do is kiss you
sober dreaming
isnt what im feeling now
now things are different
they're always changing when you get so bored
this is the last time
ill think of wanting to call you mine
ill wait for nothing
while you wait for me to come around
he'll change his mind
like every time he did before

pic by rob
http://oldcondom.tumblr.com/

u made me so tired

from the album "we call our houses a home"
https://hospitalflowers.bandcamp.com/album/we-call-our-houses-a-home

last may (sitting by the parking lot under the yellow lights)

hi!!! another song!! wow only after a few days!?!?!?!?! CRAZY!!!! anyway

lyrics:
you're all i want
and i'm all you need 
if we ever talk
i hope you never leave

all i really want is for you to be happy
even if it doesn't involve me

every word you say will tear me apart
and every time you cry it will break my heart

i just wish that i could help you
but i am afraid i'll only make it worse for you

and when the sun comes up you'll see
everything you want you'll see in me

i wish that i could help you

smoked so much till i could feel something
the cold resided i'm erupting
cleared the dew as a drip to the ground 

take my heart and twist my tongue
rip my teeth out one by one 
squeeze my arms so i don't feel so numb

did you know i'm not great at communication, i sit alone but my mind's abrasion wears me down

did you know, i'm too scared if scaring you off so i'll just leave

being dead is still better than being me (demo)

LEFT RIGHT

affirmations/sleepinstead (w/ stellanna music)

i sampled frou frou -  a new kind of love in this song. check it out, its incredible :)

Instagram: @vierrecloud

Spotify: https://soundcloud.com/vierrecloud/breathe

@rondocheek inspired this song

moment (feat. imogen heap)

[hook]
1126 give a fuck ‘bout yo bitch
Hit the button on shawty tell her it’s a glitch
x3
I’m stacking this guap in the muh fuckin’ pent while you lacking and shit, wrapping a brick
1126 give a fuck ‘bout yo bitch
Hit the button on shawty tell her it’s a glitch
Keep it (ohana) one hunna like lilo and stitch
Yeah I’m BKTHERULA but I ain’t no crip
We in the function with do with it sticks
We don’t hesitate to send shots at yo fit
I’m stacking this guap in the muh fuckin’ pent while you lacking and shit, wrapping a brick

[verse]
Rapping in (studios) yo’s while yo bitch pour a 4
Gang fuck on her once, she want some more
Forever ten toes
This glizzy on go
I ain’t talking ‘yung’ whipping heat that gon’ blow
I gotta “shh” it rhymes with attack
Creep in the arena, slowkey in the back
Bk hold on ima look for them niggas he’s saying to me while I’m gripping the gat 
Crossing me once ima say that it’s fine
Cross a young nigga twice and now you out of line
Hollow tip bullets go straight through yo spine
I can’t trust yo niggas, slimin’ his slime
FT. BK , yeah it come with a fee
This a collective we rolling 6 deep
Niggas confusing they all pick and choosing
Got me feeling like even, who you wanna be?

[hook]
1126 give a fuck ‘bout yo bitch
Hit the button on shawty tell her it’s a glitch
Keep it (ohana) one hunna like lilo and stitch
Yeah I’m BKTHERULA but I ain’t no crip
We in the function with do with it sticks
We don’t hesitate to send shots at yo fit
I’m stacking this guap in the muh fuckin’ pent while you lacking and shit, wrapping a brick

No Crip

clara rockmore's ghost

where did you go, and what did you do
with all the time you were too scared to move
and what is it like to be by yourself
for three and a half years
for roughly three and a half years
if we could just pretend that i went to college
and that is why you, you haven’t seen me
i wanted to go, but not for this long
i over did it
why did you say that i was one in a million
because i believed it i thought i had something
that you were too scared to lose
so if we could just pretend that i went to college
or traveled abroad and did something different
anything but just sitting at home
for three and a half years
writing song after song after song
so what is it like to be by yourself
and not feel like you’ll die
around everyone else
i thought i was one in a million
well thanks for nothing
yeah thank you
thank you 

if we could just pretend

doing all the things i used to do wif ppl-cover (redo)

i drove to your house with broken headlights (just to hear your voice)

Watch the official video for Icarus here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=thZwa0FunrM"

Icarus

embarrassing

im also on spotify n apple


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i drove to your house with broken headlights (just to hear your voice)

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