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I’m scared of you, Walking away, and looking back to see my broken body
 Walking away, and watching you leave me from a distance
Like I’m scared of the sunset, knowing that it’s not true
And this happy ending, that might be the start of it all…
“Keep calm, keep calm, no cause for an alarm.”
The cutest girl next to me is wrapped up in my arm.
And I think I’m shaking, my heart is bursting, I think I’m dying
God, I think I’m dying
And I’ll make some promises I know I’ll never keep
Like my promise regarding smoking, (which I promise I’ll stop)
At least til hour or two after you leave
And I’m back by the window...
Smoking like chimney, hoping the world burns down
Cause every second without you, is every second I am wasting.
CAuse every second without you, is every second I’m wasting.
I’m tired of waiting…
Cause when we’re walking alone by the park, on the path that leads to your house
There is this feeling in my heart, filled with fear and hope and butterflies
I don’t no, I don’t want to see you see me walking home
I don’t no, I don’t want to see you see me walking home
I don’t no, I don’t want to see you see me as a whole
I don’t no, I don’t.

Fear, and Hope, and Butterflies

first time ever playing the harmonica, wrote this about the worst week of my life

wake up
too late
i stayed up too early
dreamt of
your face
but all it did was hurt me
i'm still not too clear
about where we stand
you said you need time to think
but i don't understand that
we were fine yesterday
i thought we were fine yesterday

you don't know if you love me
anymore
well i know i do
so get the fuck out of my doorway
and you'll crash
your car
before you get too far
you could never do this the right way
but this time i
won't be there
to save you
i owe nothing to you

i wish that i could hold you
and tell you i forgive you
but the truth is that i'm bleeding
you're the drug i'm needing
when you called me
i didn't answer the first time
because well i'm sorry
but it's my turn to need time
we were gone yesterday
i thought we were gone yesterday

you don't know if you love me
anymore
well i know i do
so get the fuck out of my doorway
and you'll crash
your car
before you get too far
you could never do this the right way
but this time i
won't be there
to save you
i owe nothing to you

wake up
too late
i stayed up too early

like actually though what the hell is happening right now (donut demo)

i need you
like i need disease
it makes my body stronger
but until then it kills me
it's hard to know when it's too much
when coughs turn to blood
and you cringe at my touch

but i'll be fine
i'll be alright
it's gonna take some time
but i'll be alright

i need you
like the smoke that i breath
keep you safe in my pocket
though you beat down and choke me
i know it's getting too much
when words are said less
the "i love you's" and such

but i'll be fine
i'll be alright
it's gonna take some time
but i'll be alright

and you know that this is the end
i tell you i'm sorry
i just lost my best friend

but you'll be fine
you'll be alright
it's gonna take some time
but you'll be alright

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you're my worst habit

is anybody else this bored?
probably
also i have no money
i thought might grow out of that by now
but i haven't
and it isn't funny
i don't even know how to drive
from my house 
to a CVS
so if I ever get real real sick
i'll die on the streets
without a penny in my vest

i'm moving too quickly

maybe i should just
sit back and relax
enjoy the moment
i start paying taxes the moment that
i turn eighteen
the cost of living free
some kid from my highschool
threatened to kill me
he thinks it makes him cool
but really it doesn't mean a thing
not to him
not to me

sometimes i feel like I am a catfish
swimming around 
with no point
and i can only remember the 
past three seconds
after i finish a joint
i'm supposed to read death of salesman
spoiler alert:
he dies
the girl sitting next to me got real sad
while i thought "who the fuck cares"
she cried

things are moving too quickly
i'm afraid of missing out
but i won't admit that now

maybe i should just
sit back and relax
enjoy the moment
i start paying taxes the moment that
i turn eighteen
the cost of living free
some kid from my highschool
threatened to kill me
he thinks it makes him cool
but really it doesn't mean a thing
not to him
not to me

what a year

catfish

Killing Me Slowly

so high, gonna die

spjorf demo finally done

Deep Thoughts from an idiot. I’ll be the idiot you be the listener. This one is much better than number 4 but not as good as number 6 which is out so you’ll have to listen to that too but enjoy this one now. Not now when I wrote this, the now of you reading this.

Deep Thoughts From An Idiot  #5

Deep Thoughts From An Idiot #6

What can a description really tell you? How would you describe utter nonsense? Is chaos my ally? Leave me a comment telling me what you would call this and i'll reply with a rating of 1-11 or maybe I won't. I've said too much.

DEEP THOUGHTS FROM AN IDIOT #7

Lyrics:

When you’re w me can’t seem to find the
Right words to say
Count me lucky if I’m at the right place,
On the right time
And I’ve got all my friends’ name on the door
They wanna hear me sing about my problems 
Like the way I did before

It’s not about a girl w a boyfriend
Or a boy with a girlfriend
Let’s sing about the end of the word
As we know it
The trees burning up should’ve been a warning
And I don’t know what the fuck this government is doing
World War 3 is coming up as I’m coming down
Drugs are getting expensive in this town

This town, this town,
This town that you and I both desperately wanna leave

So it’s time, to rise up and get our power back
I’m sick of lying around and having panic attacks
Conversations all the same, they’ll lie to us anyway
We’ll find out when they make it to mars

But the dead planet knows where the blood river flows
My secrets are known to those who are close
We’ll make it outside when this plague blows over
And make this world a little bit better
We’ll make this world a little bit better

Deep Thoughts From An Idiot #6

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