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Ambient, Chill, Lofi

stream3

hyperpop

Music I find that I think is good v4

w/ @k_kon
prod me 
listen: https://open.spotify.com/track/2AL4jZW8IvLkNZJawYBhE9?si=acc6325e38374d1b

oh well w/kon

##runnin + diewdior (yungspoiler x guala beatz)

a reason why (jane)

aka the winner
modern day loser coming soon
lyrics

ive been trying to live
i just wanna get on

one day it looks so promising
the next day its off

ive been tryna hold my feelings
on for so god damn long

one day im gonna snap
then im gonna be gone

they dont like me now
they dont wanna see me up

when i show them they like how
they ask, idgaf

she said she dont like me 
cus i way too dumb and stuck up

told her bf come and fight
told em shut the fuck up

idc about ur worth
idc bout u at all

make another fifty hundred
tryna be the one u call

ive been balling sice my birth
u been stuck behind a wall

many people gonna fake fw me
until i fall

but thats just how the time goes
u been looking for some real friends
u will never find those

and i guess that this is my fault
i been looking for a new life
old friends got some light salt

but i cant change
the fuckin tides

you say you hate me
and my life

i swear ill make
it worse tonight

the harm continues
all in spite

and u will never know
what the true pain is

its an elliptical 
round and round adjacent

u dont have a life
why dont u just face it

u hide behind ur lies
tell em, good fake it 

they dont like me now
they dont wanna see me up

when i show them they like how
they ask, idgaf

she said she dont like me 
cus i way too dumb and stuck up

told her bf come and fight
told em shut the fuck up

idc about ur worth
idc bout u at all

make another fifty hundred
tryna be the one u call

ive been balling sice my birth
u been stuck behind a wall

many people gonna fake fw me
until i fall

push (reesoo)

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Produced by @prodguda

Artwork by Bleu:
https://twitter.com/fckingbleu

Lyrics:
I swear to God, I'm so paranoid with all these eyes on me
It's like everybody around me got some time for me
I swear, like, I just wanna be left all alone
All by myself inside my room is all I know

I swear to God, I'm so paranoid with all these eyes on me
It's like everybody around me got some time for me
I swear, like, I just wanna be left all alone
All by myself inside my room is all I know
'Cause I'm just sitting in my room staring at the wall
Thinking 'bout it all, thinking 'bout it all
Sitting in my room staring at the wall
Thinking 'bout it all, thinking 'bout it all

Hard decisions
If I pick either one, am I really winnin'?
I'ma be gone in an instant the second that I am finished
Will I go missing for a minute or am I trippin'? Listen
Am I really doing this all for myself?
It's the only thing that really help out with my mental health
I've been working real hard to play the cards that I was dealt right
But I swear all this working and working has never felt right
I swear to God, I'm so paranoid with all these eyes on me
It's like everybody around me got some time for me
I swear, like, I just wanna be left all alone
All by myself inside my room is all I know

I swear to God, I'm so paranoid with all these eyes on me
It's like everybody around me got some time for me
I swear, like, I just wanna be left all alone
All by myself inside my room is all I know
'Cause I'm just sitting in my room staring at the wall
Thinking 'bout it all, thinking 'bout it all
Sitting in my room staring at the wall
Thinking 'bout it all, thinking 'bout it all

Thinking-Thinking 'bout it all
Think-Think-Thinking 'bout it all
I swear to God, I'm so paranoid with all these eyes on me
It's like everybody around me got some time for me
I swear, like, I just wanna be left all alone
All by myself inside my room is all I know

I swear to God, I'm so paranoid with all these eyes on me
It's like everybody around me got some time for me
I swear, like, I just wanna be left all alone
All by myself inside my room is all I know
'Cause I'm just sitting in my room staring at the wall
Thinking 'bout it all, thinking 'bout it all
Sitting in my room staring at the wall
Thinking 'bout it all, thinking 'bout it all

paranoid (guda)

i thought that i would be okay
all on my own
guess i was wrong
oh well what isn't there to like
except the long
eternal night
don't play pretend i know what you're like
know all your quirks 
how you fantasize
but i guess it's all in my head
like how you said
it's all in my head
(x2)

now i look crazy
and that's one thing i've been feelin' like lately
but i'm okay
at least i think so
nothing's for sure but at least i am here
so
i can't be that bad
at least i think so
i might be lying to myself when i say so
but take my word for it
that's all i ask for
i think i need to ask for some help more

but don't hit me up
even if i look like i need it
cause i don't need it
i'm better off alone
even if that's not what i say so
(oh)
i tend to do that
go back on my word like screw that
i don't think i need help now
and i think that's a lie
but i've made up my mind now

yeah i made up my mind now
(x3)
and i won't look behind now
don't play pretend i know what you're like
know all your quirks 
how you fantasize
but i guess it's all in my head
like how you said
it's all in my head

i thought that i would be okay
all on my own
guess i was wrong
oh well what isn't there to like
except the long
eternal night
don't play pretend i know what you're like
know all your quirks 
how you fantasize
but i guess it's all in my head
like how you said
it's all in my head
(x2)

guess i was wrong

i'll stay on my own!
prelude to your heaven; 
project coming very soon! stay tuned :)

lyrics
Late night driving see your face in my rear view
We both changed a bit we grew
Past few years I haven't left my room
We could be friendly in the present right now, who knew?

You're taking back the stuff you said about me all those years ago
I've been waiting, it's been so damn though these things left me alone
Appreciate the offer and the hand but you can let me go
This is not the end of anything we still got room to grow

I'll stay on my own for a bit now
Bailing on everyone I gotta get out
Feeling trapped inside these walls inside of this house
Walking down a lonely road it's such a big route

Now I've been searching long I cannot find you
Maybe I should go and try to get out my room
I keep up with every single thing that I do
Cannot describe the way the fucking light glew

I've seen things you'd never want to see 
So come on, please believe me
When I say we'll flee

And it's a lot of damn people tryna tell me what's wrong or right
Never wanna see you again so get out my sight
Asking me what you did wrong okay yeah I'll bite
I already knew beforehand that that would start a fight


I would rather walk a million miles  and never see your face
You said its the life you wanna live well now i guess its fate
If thats your dream stop stomping over mine and tend to your estate
I'll be there eventaully I promise you dont have to wait

I'll stay on my own for a bit now
Bailing on everyone I gotta get out
Feeling trapped inside these walls inside of this house
Walking down a lonely road it's such a big route

Now I've been searching long I cannot find you
Maybe I should go and try to get out my room
I keep up with every single thing that I do
Cannot describe the way the fucking light glew

leave (siemspark & ayoley)

lyrics
--------
i am quickly realizing
all the problems that i'm facing
all exist inside this hatred
for myself my thoughts are racing
is there anybody out there
feeling dim, dark & depleting
what is safe cause all i fear is near
& death i'll soon be greeting
i truly wish the flickering would stop
& i could catch my breath
but this films left on repeat again
somehow you soon forget 
you've damn near downed your second bottle
drunken words in full effect
these sober thoughts have always lived here
driving by until they wreck

i'm fucking numb
(yeah)
you don't know a thing about the terror that i breathe into my lungs
and i don't know a thing about myself other than what is soon to come

i think the sky is falling
but it's my imagination
overcasting on & off again
to form a new foundation
hopefully i reconstruct myself
it might take quite a while
obsolete upon comparison
these scars all stretch for miles
i'll never find the person i was then
he's buried deep below
subterranean inhabitant
i hope he likes the snow
did the soul inside his body
ever find his way back home
am i talking in third person
yeah i guess we'll never know

i'm fucking numb
(yeah)
you don't know a thing about the terror that i breathe into my lungs
and i don't know a thing about myself other than what is soon to come

dim, dark, depleting

lyrics
--------
watch the branches fall
and the leaves ignite the path that saves us all
in the midst of all of this
i will take us home

episode 9,017
an epiphany
i don't know what the hell you mean
everything feels like it's played out on a screen
throwing stones in broken homes in hopes that it'll set me free
illustrations in my
head will be my demise
i'm sick & tired of trying something new
there's a stranger that lives
underneath all of my skin
he let's himself in again
if only you knew

watch the branches fall
and the leaves ignite the path that saves us all
in the midst of all of this
i will take us home

i will take us home

lyrics
--------
i'm getting bit up by all of the mosquitoes
blister my skin drink my blood like a needle
collect my dna in a vile
clone me again make me less suicidal
my only wish is to regain a smile
i really miss summer days as a child
six flags, suplexes, eddie guerrero
now it's just sex, some caffeine and the narrow
stairs album by the band death cab for cutie
i fear that eventually someone will shoot me
a loop of that scene from american beauty
but this ones for real it's not just from a movie
my anxietys got the worst of me lately
i don't know how the fuck you expect to save me
cause i can't save myself and honestly baby
i want you to know that i hate me
 
if you made it this far then you're probably still dreaming
listen to this when you feel like you need it
my only wish is to regain a smile
i really miss summer days as a child

mosquito

lyrics
--------
lost boy hoping i find my way home
lost sight of why i'm here & where the fuck i should go
one hundred twenty miles from my area code
spilt whiskey on my shirt inside this evergreen home
might tumble down & fall beneath the thick of the mist
a silhouette sat in the distance comes & swings with a miss
i climb trees just to save myself from what could've been
& hide high upon this mountain with a pad & a pen

the drifter lives down the road
& if he follows me home
then i'll pack everything & leave till i know
that i am safe beside my company although he's below
& then he'll gut me like a pig & leave my bones to the crows
& this time i've convinced myself that i'm gonna die
oh i don't think that it's alright but i'll just pray to the sky
i'll find a god in what i sing & sing it every night
and maybe time will tell my story i won't put up a fight

cause fear leads me towards destruction
crippled unable to function
full of unwanted assumptions
petrified by my consumptions
used to hide along the meadow
and now i practice my falsetto
i've been like this from the get-go
i don't ever wanna let go

the walls we build hide all the bodies
of everyone who lives inside me

the drifter

From the other perspective 


im a guard
dont ask what im guarding
what you hear
is not what you want
thinking is sickening
so you think with your lungs

do you even want peace for yourself
look around you theres nobody else
they're all up above
think for yourself
till it all falls apart

till it all falls apart


im a guard
dont ask what im guarding
what you hear
is not what you want
im a guard
dont ask what im guarding
what you hear
is not what you want

im a guard
dont ask what im guarding
what you hear
is not what you want

guarding, guarding, guarding , ask what im 
guarding, guarding, guarding , ask what im 
guarding, guarding, guarding , ask what im 
guarding, guarding, guarding , ask what im

think with your lungs

Starting of 2016 with an experimental track featuring @Enzalla
Our goal was to write something with a more uplifting vibe to our usual style and "Elysia's Heart" was the product of this. Incredibly fun to write and I hope you guys enjoy this one!

Artwork by Sishenfan:
http://www.pixiv.net/member.php?id=4456575
http://sishenfan.deviantart.com/

Elysia'S Heart

Elysia's Heart

Pay What You Want

Aether & Enzalla - Elysia's Heart

Follow me: 
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Vinyl → https://fentplates.co.uk/
Digital → https://fentplates.bandcamp.com/

Viraha explores the realisation of love through separation — and marks Aether's second release on Fent Plates Records.

1. Catharsis
2. Vale
3. Fade Away
4. Viraha
5. Flowerdance
6. At What Point Do I Stop Trying

Release date: 28/11/16
Released by: Fent Plates Records

Vinyl → https://fentplates.co.uk/ or https://whitepeachrecords.co.uk/
Digital → https://fentplates.bandcamp.com/

Artwork by Kasper Laier Plougmand

Viraha EP

Catharsis

Welcome to the Aetherverse.

Purchase: https://aetheraudio.bandcamp.com/album/together-by-the-spirit-tree
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/7IopTAsBGUoK09smEakxKV
Story: http://www.aetheraudio.co.uk/journal/2017/2/25/welcome-to-the-aetherverse

Artwork: Sishenfan

Thank you, forever.

Together By The Spirit Tree

Dear Lillie

Flower in Winter, title track from the latest instalment to the Aetherverse.

Purchase: https://aetheraudio.bandcamp.com/album/flower-in-winter
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/7MhzORpiZTutsp7LsUx5VT?si=WOLNvxOhSJWwh5UT8Z2Mfw

Flower in Winter

Flower In Winter

wtf im crying (prod. trill skeleton)

wtf im crying

Written and Produced by:
Jake Hope
Luca Fogale
Additional Production: SprintConnor

Reasons

100 gecs - hand crushed by a mallet [shini dnb mix]

SPOTIFY
https://open.spotify.com/track/5Xx3C7NahN8rPhyiJ5vlEK?si=Y5duZxdIT1qAXocuUPoqDw

@mkne @176s

useless (prod. maknae x waifu)

THIS MOON IS NOW YOURS (NOW ON SPOTIFY)

prod: https://soundcloud.com/93feetofsmoke
mix/master: Anxiety Attacks!

IG: www.instagram.com/ANXIETYxATTACKS/
Twitter: twitter.com/ANXIETYxATTACKS

LYRICS:
i try to bleed it out, 
you’re the one i think about 
ur doin better now 
idgaf about me 
my heads a battleground 
i try to get around
it’s hard to figure out 
but i don’t want to bring you down 

Spend another night at home
Still I’m staring at my phone 
Wonder when you’re gonna call 
are we better off alone?
i keep ur hair tie wrapped around my wrist ya 
it’s  cuz i need one, not because i miss ya
i try to tell myself that my heart turned cold 
tryna find my way before we both grow old 
is it too late now? never saw this end 
is it too late now to try it all again? 


i try to bleed it out, 
you’re the one i think about 
ur doin better now 
idgaf about me 
my heads a battle ground 
i try to get around
it’s hard to figure out 
but i don’t wanna bring you down 

i bleed for you
knees weak, can’t move
when plans fall thru
i’ll fall into
you

guess i was wrong

plugp