i miss old days 😔😔 I miss my grandma I miss when I was Baby 💔💔💔

I am crying rn thinking about everything I did and life even when I try to be happy i can't and my friend said he's gonna commit suicide 😭

this song makes me break down because I think about my best friend who committed suicide right beside me. Rip Blaine Aug 12 2009 - February 24th 2025 I miss you bro, I fucking love you

produced by raspo
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I took down my guard
And gave you my heart
Just to end up depressed
You tore me to pieces
And now that I’m bleeding
You still won’t confess? 
The way that you read me 
You played me so heavy
It’s like we were chess
The place that you hurt me
From being so thirsty
As deep as it gets, I mean

I just get lost in my head, I just wanted us but our lives were a mess in a bunch
So why did you tell me that I was the person you loved, if it wasn’t true 
Been writing these letters, addressed em to you
They’re written in blood but the color is blue like your face, when I’m saying this shit to your face, I’d assume 
I’m so done with you now, don’t call me or text me, it’s just too upsetting 
I don’t wanna hide in my room, in my bed, with my head under covers
I’d end up regretting it all wrong, which I don’t wanna do 
This is my soul on the page, opening up and its all on display
Hoping that someone will finally know me, and just wanna stay
And just wanna stay
I just wanna say 

I took down my guard
And gave you my heart
Just to end up depressed
You tore me to pieces
And now that I’m bleeding
You still won’t confess? 
The way that you read me 
You played me so heavy
It’s like we were chess
The place that you hurt me
From being so thirsty
As deep as it gets 

I was just thinking of you, and us
I just have no where to go, or trust 
I just keep getting no love, and fuck
Knife in my back so I always run
From issues and problems
Can never just solve em, to tell you the truth in this madness
Pushing my mind off of the edge of my canvas
Feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders like atlas
I dial my plug, fill up on gas shit, cause he always gas me
when nobody else does, been stationed here stuck on my own, in my house
I want a home, but you ain’t about it and I now I keep doubting if I’ll be enough for somebody
You’ve broken my heart, and that shit was as tough like karate
Feeling ours chops, all through my body, the picture gets spotty
I only remember the good, and forget all the bad
But that’s where I’m wrong, cause both what we had 
I only remember the good, and forget all the bad
But that’s where I’m wrong, cause both what we had 
But that’s where I’m wrong, cause both what we had 

I took down my guard
And gave you my heart
Just to end up depressed
You tore me to pieces
And now that I’m bleeding
You still won’t confess? 
The way that you read me 
You played me so heavy
It’s like we were chess
The place that you hurt me
From being so thirsty
As deep as it gets, look

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Trust Issues

Lyrics :
I’ve seen dead people in front of my eyes
Searching for a high that couldn’t provide
A lifetime of a lifetime
Now who am I?
To tell you what to do and not do
Well I’m just a guy
I’m only 19, but I’ve seen things that no one should see
Body laid out pale
Dead from an OD
Willing to die for something that’s gone be temporary
Searching for a high that’s gonna be unnecessary
Soon as it’s over
And you forget what happened
10 minutes of being sober and then you right back at it
You say you not an addict
They say I should stick to rappin
But I've seen too many people die
And I finally had it
I’m tired of seeing people I love
Getting caught up on drugs
Not knowing when to say enough is enough
I’m tired of all the pain
I’m tired of all the sorrow
I’m tired of not knowing if I’ll see people tomorrow
Or they’ll
Be gone because they want to live reckless
Thinking that the drugs are gonna make them be stressless
But when the high is over
Life becomes real again
The feelings that they had before they gonna start to feel again
So they popping on them pills again
In an attempt to never feel again
They thinking that it’s healing them
But in reality it’s killing them

I don’t want to throw my life away
I don’t want to see you die today
I don’t want to throw it all away (yeah)
I don’t want to throw my life away
I don’t want to see you die today
Don't want you to throw it all away (yeah)

Why we gotta separate so soon?
Because you thought the drugs would heal your internal wounds
Living life on the edge like your body would be immune
To all of the consequences till you ended up dead in your room
Now it’s crazy
Cuz we won’t ever talk again
I just wish I would’ve told you stop popping them
And to stop shooting up heroin deep inside your veins
But at that point I already knew that nothing would change
You were addicted
And there was nothing I could do
I can’t imagine all the pain that you were going through
You said you thought that no one loved you, I just wish you knew
How much that God honestly cared for you
You see the problem is that people think that Gods is evil
We blame God for the problems that we create as people
We've got a choice between life and death and we choose the needle
In the end
The consequences prove to be lethal

I don’t want to throw my life away
I don’t want to see you die today
Don’t want you to throw it all away (yeah)
I don’t want to throw my life away
I don’t want to see you die today
Don’t want you to throw it all away (yeah)

I’m sorry that you went out like that
You were drowning and the drugs were your life raft
You didn’t know they were pulling you down
And now I’m praying for your family, you’re no longer around
You're no longer around
You're no longer around
You're no longer around
And now I’m praying for your family, you’re no longer around

Drug Abuse

"tomorrow morning" is a deep/sad vibe about the struggles most of us face in life.

tomorrow morning (Prod. Raspo)

i hope its worth it (officialdjaaron)

Saturday 1am ft. TrinaRina

Track 8 on Torn Between Pages, Vol. I: Make It Out Alive.

Torn Between Pages, Vol I: Make It Out Alive

Moment of Silence

Moment of Silence [ft. Josh Woods]

Suicide -  Spoken Word Clayton Jennings

If I Die Tonight

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Short message:
I wrote this song over the course of the past year and half. It's the most important song I've written to date.
I know what it's like to feel like you're drowning in your own sorrow. 
And how hopeless you can feel in that. 
But I also know that there's a light at the end of the tunnel. 
And it's waiting for all of us. 
Just Hold On. 
Pain doesn't always end, but your response to it does


Song produced by Raspo Beats and 27swens
Lyrics written by Presence


Lyrics:
Just
Hold On
Don’t lose
Control
Now

Just
Hold On
Don’t lose
Your Soul
Now
x2

I know that this life gets hard sometimes/
I know that depression’s running through your mind/
I know that sometimes you just want to cry/
But nobody understands so you close your eyes

I know that sometimes you just want to die/
I know that sometimes you just wonder why/
They leave you on your own just to fight this fight/
But I promise you that you gone get through the
night/

I’ve seen it with my own eyes
I’ve felt it in my own life
I’ve seen it with my own eyes
X2.5

Just
Hold On
Don’t lose
Control
Now

Just
Hold On
That pain
Gone slow down

Just
Hold On
Don’t lose
Control
Now

Just
Hold On
Don’t lose
Your Soul
Now

I know about’ the feelings that you’re feeling deep within
And i know that sometimes all you want is the evidence

That life gone get better
And that the pain fades away
I know you’re under the weather
And wanna see brighter days
I know that you’re in a chapter you wish that you could erase
I know that life gets hard 
And you’ve been losing faith

And I know
You feel like nobody cares
And I know
You feel like nobody’s there
But I swear
That everything your going through
Is just gone make you stronger
But only if you can promise to

Just
Hold On
Don’t lose
Control
Now

Just
Hold On
Don’t lose
Your Soul
Now

Just Hold On

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Lyrics:

I wish I would’ve picked up the phone
And been there when you needed me most
I wish would’ve texted you back
And cherished all the time that we had

I wish I would’ve paid more attention
And I wish I would’ve asked more questions
I wish I woulda been there for you
Like you were there for me

I can’t go back in time
But I wish I could
All of these feelings that i’m having
I really just cannot put
Them into words
Honestly my heart feels shattered
I’m tryna keep my composure
But it’s hard
When there’s a dagger
In my heart
I can’t believe that this is real
It’s been a week since you passed and ion know what to feel
You were my best friend
My ride or die until the end
Now it’s the end and my brain just cannot comprehend
That you’re gone
This pain just keeps on hurting
I’m screaming out to God cuz I know you ain’t deserve this
I’m carrying this guilt on my shoulders
It’s a burden
If you were here I know you’d tell me just to keep on working
Through this

But it’s so difficult without you here
I’m in an ocean full of sadness filled with all my tears
I’m in the depths of mind and i just can’t see clear
And now all I really want’s to make you reappear

You were my best friend
My ride or die until the end
I can’t believe the end’s here
I’m drowning and i can’t see clear
x2


This was supposed to last longer than it did
I can’t believe that you’ll never meet my kids 
I can’t believe that it’s really all over
And i’ll never hear your voice again as i grow older
Man

This all is crazy
We just was on the phone
You hit me up about my show and said you couldn’t go
You said that earlier that day you stopped breathing
My heart sank but it wasn’t that hard to believe it

Cuz i remember when i was with you
You fainted for the first time
I look on it now
And understand that was the first sign

That yo time was coming
I should’ve understood then that your time was running 
Out 

And if i could i would go back in time
But I can’t
And that’s the reason that i lose my mind

Because I shoulda been better to you/
I showed you love but should’ve showed it better 
I can’t believe that you’re gone forever

You were my best friend
My ride or die until the end
I can’t believe the end’s here
I’m drowning and i can’t see clear X2

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