POV: it’s the end of the world

produced by xona

@valerii

-lyrics-
more than I can take, this shit has been killing me inside
nothing in my way I make it sure I live it fine
and I don’t care if I’m out of time
no nothing can show these signs

and I don’t need a lot of time
cause I rather be here for you
and I don’t think I could decide
so I drown in my own truth
and I just wanna have you by
takes a toll on me to defy
I just don’t want to cry 
bet you wonder where I’ve lied

you can see me on the field tho
they still dont know what i been thru
and it sucks yeah i get that
and they tryna test me bitch i been bad
i just sit there and wait
bitch im counting the days
till i see ur face

so fuck u 
ion want my talk to u
i hate myself just as much as u do
i know i know what ur tryna do
i sit inside i love the view 
so fuck u 
ion want my talk to u
i hate myself just as much as u do
i know i know what ur tryna do
i sit inside i love the view

spotify

rue w/ valerii

@heylog
produced by @herskylin

(vil)
i stay in the moment i’m lost in
time fractures and i’m exhausted
serpent biting all on the cartridge
perfecting everything in my way
and it sucks to suck
in your world
i mean nothing to you, you say it sucks to be you
(cut me loose)

cut me loose from the ties i’m
holding on despite the
ruckus you’ve caused
i should abandon you but what would that fix
…nothing at all
this confrontation is just breaking us apart
i cant even find the start
and so i

break down (x4)
can’t find a way, need an escape
i’m left for dead blood spewin out
my pores are closing
i’m decomposing
show me what it’s like to be controlling

(heylog)
my life's so concerning
wait too long i need to hurry
my stomach's churning
decide if i need to worry
what am i here for
what is my goal
oh my god i'm so worn from climbing out this hole
abuse my body oh it's hurting
i'm so lost think that i'm worthless
pretty sure i don't have a purpose
make mistakes constantly learning
what not to do next time
too lazy to reply
but i don't even try
desert phone, it's so dry

(vil)
i’m bleeding out from my wrist
and i’m choked up, let me say my final wish
you act like what we had never existed
so i’m blaming you until death

serpent +heylog (skylin ✧)

cover art: https://www.deviantart.com/batsu-nozuchi/gallery

Mona (Cathunder)

produced by me & Naveih

lyrics:
I blocked your number last night
Will you hang up the phone you’ve dug too deep 
I’m not your call me back guy 
When you’re wasted and lonely go to sleep

Cause You get on my nerves yeah I can’t stand you 
I’m on Do not disturb and I won’t answer
Tell me does it hurt cause I feel better 
without you

Now you know the feeling and it burns, burns, burns
Now you won’t forget it let it burn, burn, burn
Now you’re in your feelings and it burns, burns, burns
Now do you regret it let it burn, burn, burn

now i feel like hell but i pray for the best
you been on my mind trynna lay you to rest
and i called your name a thousand times
i guess you dont do the same with mine

now i know the feeling and it burns burns
i sit here overthinking all your words words words 
woah
you left me now im drowning in the dirt dirt
counting down the seconds as the world turns round
yea as the world burns down

You get on my nerves yeah I can’t stand you 
I’m on Do not disturb and I won’t answer
Tell me does it hurt cause I feel better 
without you

Now you know the feeling and it burns, burns, burns
Now you won’t forget it let it burn, burn, burn
Now you’re in your feelings and it burns, burns, burns
Now do you regret it let it burn, burn, burn

burns

burns (feat. Yorgan)

and i dont know what i care for anymore
every single person turn tail and they ignore
all the time and dedication that we swore
that shit sent me burning flames straight into my core

and all those pretty lies
i get
that my time's compromised
i walk
towards the purple lights
bleached hair
and my life's a landmine

time keeps tickin away
dont stall just cut right to the chase
cold dead eyes on a pretty face
got me out gunned an arms race

and im wasting every day
i dont really fuckin know
what im doing anyway
so (i dont know)
i stay up to 3 am
melatonin in my head
cuz i just cant go to bed

and i cant
just be myself
but i hate
that someone else
in my head
is always somewhere
fighting
against my conscious

landmine

produced by xona

@caspywaspy

-lyrics-

I hate when you crash, I’m sorry you have felt like that
you idolize everything I am 
but you don’t care where I’ve been -at-
I hate who I am
you don’t seem to understand 
do you see me just like that?
but do you know that I just can’t..?

fighting against myself until the party ends
it’s not good for my health but it makes me understand 
tell me am I dying? cause I don’t feel alive 
baby I’ve been gone and I’ve been working 9-5
crying in my bedroom I don’t wanna lose my life but I keep wasting it away and it’s going by so fast

I hate when you crash, I’m sorry you have felt like that
you idolize everything I am 
but you don’t care where I’ve been -at-
I hate who I am
you don’t seem to understand 
do you see me just like that?
but do you know that I just can’t..?

take any more of this 
a new season and a new best friend 
I feel so bad, I don’t want to lose this
cause I’m in love with who she is
I’ll push everything that grew
on my chest and let you through 
and no i don’t feel deja vu
when I know I love you

forever w/ casperrr

♪♪ cuz i've been thinking, lately ♪♪

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vocals (in order of appearance)
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https://soundcloud.com/juiceboxcaviar
https://soundcloud.com/atwood
https://soundcloud.com/noeldac

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production
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https://soundcloud.com/geo_1022

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artwork
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https://soundcloud.com/wetdaytimetable

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mixing&mastering
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https://soundcloud.com/atwood

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daydreams

infatuation (prod. polar & 31sentinel)

produced by xona <3

[impersonation, to belong, panorama]

-lyrics-

I wouldn’t like me too
my aspirations for you
oh no, oh no, oh no
oh I couldn’t be you…

oh I couldn’t be you, oh I couldn’t be you
oh I couldn’t be you, oh I couldn’t be you (2x)

~

do you see the silhouettes?
as they carve your head
no phantom, no puede ser 
no, oh my god
hold on 
I’m trying to help but you seem lost 

it’s a beauty that you take in
but I’m so reckless Ima break it 
yeah 
fall down, I embrace this
as everything looks painted 

~

"I feel so sick when you test my patience."
okay but I’ve been desolated, wonder why you’d take it?
the time I’m weak, I’ll let it leak
for more I’d tear through all your means
for me, it’s for me 


oh I couldn’t be you, oh I couldn’t be you
oh I couldn’t be you, oh I couldn’t be you (x2)

epigone

wrote a song about a weird world i created in my head lol.

lyrics

Just check in on your cell phone 
Youll be home by curfew 
We dont have that much time 
Should be getting dark soon 
You can raise a blind eye 
Tell em that its not you 
But they know 
Yeah they know 
Yeah they always know 

And the soldiers they march with their guns 
In a place that is harsh and its void of the sun 
Now your scared that you cant go outside 
So you run 
But theres nowhere to go
Yeah theres nowhere to go 

Just check in on your cell phone 
Youll be home by curfew 
We dont have that much time 
Should be getting dark soon 
You can raise a blind eye 
Tell em that its not you 
But they know 
Yeah they know 
Yeah they always know 

And im scared to say
That ive run out of options and theres no one to save me 
So wont you stay 
I just hope that you dont become one of the ones that blame me 

Yeah cuz right now im just confused wether i should turn the lights out
Or if i should keep on going its not nice out 
I dont like what i see
Wish that i could have a better world but that shit aint free

Yeah and now i wonder
What this world has come to
And every summer i just wanna know who you run to 

Whered you go 
I dont know 
Hope that they dont get you soon 
Had so many fucking dreams
Coulda took us to the moon
And now i know that your gone 
Fucking hate the month of june 
Thats the time that i lost you

Just check in on your cell phone 
Youll be home by curfew 
We dont have that much time 
Should be getting dark soon 
You can raise a blind eye 
Tell em that its not you 
But they know 
Yeah they know 
Yeah they always know

dystopia (johnnyfriend)

produced + featuring @xona

i won’t tell the truth
it’s getting too much to watch this shit all follow through
cuz we fight, and fuss, all night long
float just like a feather, winds are strong
i wouldn’t have to pay the homage if i didn’t see it through…

why couldn’t i just be you? (x5)

[xona]
who do I choose knowing the truth
cause I couldn’t be you and I didn’t want to lose

and I can’t wait for you down on the south side
I’m more than different, I decide to watch it go by
stop, I despise all the talks we had a like
-
why couldn't i just be you? (x5)

extol ft. xona [xona]

Big thanks to @chriad for mix/master as always 
one of my fav songs

Pre-save: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/srrygate/chapters-end-feat-latency


Take a look at your hair
It looks different than the last time we talked
Take a look over there 
I remember you said it's my fault 
But you're wrong, and it really wouldn't be the first time
I wrote a song
I would have been way better off without 
I guess I'm really all alone

First day 
All those things that you said yea the first date 
I guess things change
I guess I didn't know you
But does it really matter
Things break, shatter
Hearts get broken
Change the chapter
Cause I've tried flipping pages 
And I should just embrace it
And if I could id face it
And is it really true
And can't take it anymore (more)

7 nights that I stayed over but I had enough
Like 6 stories that you told me it's not adding up
Take 5, I can't stand to stare into your blank eyes
4 times, that you fake cried just to change sides 
Fuck off got me so confused, black and blue
And I'm up all night thinking about what I could have done wrong 
So long, I'm so sick of writing all these love songs
And I throw up any time I think about the old us
Lockdown I don't make no sound but breathing
Clocked out, fuck it you just gave another reason
Gone south I don't have a choice but bitch I'm leaving
Talk down, cut into my heart and leave me bleeding

First day 
All those things that you said yea the first date 
I guess things change
I guess I didn't know you
But does it really matter
Things break, shatter
Hearts get broken
Change the chapter
Cause I've tried flipping pages 
And I should just embrace it
And if I could id face it
And is it really true
And can't take it anymore (more)

Outro

Chapter's End

Chapter's End w/Leyton (Priv)

Single from my upcoming album, dropping soon

Cover art by https://www.instagram.com/tilde.jpeg/ <3

Lyrics:
Over the sky, there's a way for us to fly
It's falling apart, open your eyes and start to cry

The cellings evolving, thus I'm going to strike, our friends they told me how
Get out off the street there's no place we can hide
When the spotlights aiming down

Cause i just feel this whole ass conversation
Is up to only me, fuck this operation 
I'm fine with only two of us surviving until dawn

Believe me when I say that I am sorry
For me it's only you who matters darlin
The clock is ticking faster let's just go and carry on 

Watchu thinking about, is it me in your mind 
Replay everyones life in a split second time
When we all look around are there people alive, that can think for themselves without you spilling lies

I feel like we are wasting time again
I feel like there is no need to pretend
I feel like we could move ourselves around just to help ourselves
The brighter the sun the hotter it gets, and this you know, cause you're 1 procent
You're one to tell
You're one to tell

Get out off the street there's no place we can hide
When the spotlights aiming down

And you're one to tell?
Yeah you're one to tell!

Cause i just feel this whole ass conversation
Is up to only me, fuck this operation 
I'm fine with only two of us surviving until dawn

Believe me when I say that I am sorry
For me it's only you who matters darlin
the clock is ticking faster let's just go and carry on

carry on

MIXED MESSAGES

produced xona
guitar by oc

@b_murph

-lyrics-
you swore to be the one i could trust
but things don’t end up that way
where i fall for you again 
i just wanted to see
whatever you wanted to bring
cause i’m happy when i’m with you
and you saw that in me and knew

you would tear it apart
so do you want to harm and ignore the start that connects my heart?
it doesn’t matter to you
i’m just blind to the truth
i guess it’s too much to handle
when alone in this room

so the harm is done
can’t open my arms
she watched me rot
and i gave it up

yeah, i put all my trust in you
guessing that was a mistake
and i cant get away from you 
you're just stuck in my head these days
tell me what you're going through
yeh, you know i'd be there for you
just don't tell me the truth
bout what you're bout to do
picture perfect when i look at your face
yeah, i can't seem to look away
no i can't look away from you

but could you just lie to me, lie to me, lie to me
'cause i don't want you to leave
no i don't want you to leave me
uh
so could you just stay with me, stay with me, stay with me
'cause i never wanna see you go
this is our home

i was over it
to bury within all the foliage
i couldn’t stop to think that i would catch no sleep holding-
so you brag and hold my hand
keep touch and make a path
to stay close without a past
so please don’t forget that

picture perfect

picture perfect w/ bmurph

buttercup

[prod. deafly]

I texted myself today
because I was bored
and I haven’t felt this way
since the day before
your emptiness swelled the pain
that I couldn’t afford
you said that your ex was depraved
and now, I’m the one asking for more

I know that you’re leaving me
as soon as you find someone else
so I’ll just enjoy our time together
cause I can’t stand myself

I know I’ll see you again
and I will have to pretend
I’ll keep it together 'cause
my friends are friends with your friends

I texted myself today
because I was bored
and I haven’t felt this way
since the day before
your emptiness swelled the pain
that I couldn’t afford
I used to be so depraved
and now I am even more

depraved

prod mix master written by me

stream everywhere else too


Lyrics:
Ooo, ooo
Oh just watch me fall apart
Oh just watch me
Ooh oh

I feel wrung out
Ive run outta energy
It was too loud
Gotta Take a step back
Embrace the fallout
Oh its probably my fault but I dont care
Anymore, mm

And i’m not tired I’m just out of it
Ive been spending most my time tryna get a grip
And I’m just worried that my parents gettin sick of it
How the fuck can I go on now?

I give up
Don’t try to fix me
My brains gone numb
You try to touch me but your kiss just kinda stung
I understand you but I feel so dumb
(I feel so fucking dumb)

So bite your tongue
I know you’ll miss me but i’m too far (gone)
Misunderstand me saying “you’re so fuckin tough!”
but I’ve already given up

I cut my teeth over my intentions I 
(Got) no sleep over my whole weekend cause you
Watch me fall apart at the seams
Is this a dream?

(What’s happening?)

(I cannot) hold myself too high
(Feel something) eating me from the insides
(Why do I?) always seem to play the bad guy
You make me the enemy just to cope in your mind

(Watchu say?)

And i’m not tired I’m just out of it
Ive been spending most my time tryna get a grip
And I’m just worried that my parents gettin sick of it
How the fuck can I go on now?

I give up
Don’t try to fix me
My brains gone numb
You try to touch me but your kiss just kinda stung
I understand you but I feel so dumb
(I feel so fucking dumb)

So bite your tongue
I know you’ll miss me but i’m too far gone
Misunderstand me saying “you’re so fuckin tough!”
but I’ve already given up

Ooo, ooo
Oh just watch me fall apart
Oh just watch me
Ooh oh
Mm

i give up lmao

additional guitar by Marquis-Francois

lyrics:

one time for the soul
growing up with a dream
said you wanna be like me
you dont wanna be like me
i'll go hide away
every time that I bleed
imagine all the things i see
you dont wanna be like me
 
yeah i can tell you I seen better days
its not like i can see the
bigger picture anyways
so i just wanna lay my
head by the fire place
and wait around till the
day that I'm in the grave
I got some really dumb regrets
that have been going thru my head
i wanna be content
but im unsatisfied instead
so I just keep a couple playlists
bumping in my headphones
hang out with the demons
underneath the bed ay
you couldnt tell me
that I'm not forever feeling lonely
i just wanna know if you can feel me
wanna blame somebody but its all me
maybe i just wish that
I was someone else
once in a while
i can sell myself
but i know im not enough
so I just give up
maybe i could try
but its too much
yeah its too much

one time for the soul
growing up with a dream
said you wanna be like me
you dont wanna be like me
i'll go hide away
every time that I bleed
imagine all the things i see
you dont wanna be like me

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POV: it’s the end of the world

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