I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH INSANE INSANE INSAANE

POV: it’s the end of the world

@heylog
produced by @herskylin

(vil)
i stay in the moment i’m lost in
time fractures and i’m exhausted
serpent biting all on the cartridge
perfecting everything in my way
and it sucks to suck
in your world
i mean nothing to you, you say it sucks to be you
(cut me loose)

cut me loose from the ties i’m
holding on despite the
ruckus you’ve caused
i should abandon you but what would that fix
…nothing at all
this confrontation is just breaking us apart
i cant even find the start
and so i

break down (x4)
can’t find a way, need an escape
i’m left for dead blood spewin out
my pores are closing
i’m decomposing
show me what it’s like to be controlling

(heylog)
my life's so concerning
wait too long i need to hurry
my stomach's churning
decide if i need to worry
what am i here for
what is my goal
oh my god i'm so worn from climbing out this hole
abuse my body oh it's hurting
i'm so lost think that i'm worthless
pretty sure i don't have a purpose
make mistakes constantly learning
what not to do next time
too lazy to reply
but i don't even try
desert phone, it's so dry

(vil)
i’m bleeding out from my wrist
and i’m choked up, let me say my final wish
you act like what we had never existed
so i’m blaming you until death

spotify

serpent +heylog (skylin ✧)

produced by me & Naveih

lyrics:
I blocked your number last night
Will you hang up the phone you’ve dug too deep 
I’m not your call me back guy 
When you’re wasted and lonely go to sleep

Cause You get on my nerves yeah I can’t stand you 
I’m on Do not disturb and I won’t answer
Tell me does it hurt cause I feel better 
without you

Now you know the feeling and it burns, burns, burns
Now you won’t forget it let it burn, burn, burn
Now you’re in your feelings and it burns, burns, burns
Now do you regret it let it burn, burn, burn

now i feel like hell but i pray for the best
you been on my mind trynna lay you to rest
and i called your name a thousand times
i guess you dont do the same with mine

now i know the feeling and it burns burns
i sit here overthinking all your words words words 
woah
you left me now im drowning in the dirt dirt
counting down the seconds as the world turns round
yea as the world burns down

You get on my nerves yeah I can’t stand you 
I’m on Do not disturb and I won’t answer
Tell me does it hurt cause I feel better 
without you

Now you know the feeling and it burns, burns, burns
Now you won’t forget it let it burn, burn, burn
Now you’re in your feelings and it burns, burns, burns
Now do you regret it let it burn, burn, burn

burns

burns (feat. Yorgan)

and i dont know what i care for anymore
every single person turn tail and they ignore
all the time and dedication that we swore
that shit sent me burning flames straight into my core

and all those pretty lies
i get
that my time's compromised
i walk
towards the purple lights
bleached hair
and my life's a landmine

time keeps tickin away
dont stall just cut right to the chase
cold dead eyes on a pretty face
got me out gunned an arms race

and im wasting every day
i dont really fuckin know
what im doing anyway
so (i dont know)
i stay up to 3 am
melatonin in my head
cuz i just cant go to bed

and i cant
just be myself
but i hate
that someone else
in my head
is always somewhere
fighting
against my conscious

landmine

♪♪ cuz i've been thinking, lately ♪♪

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vocals (in order of appearance)
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https://soundcloud.com/juiceboxcaviar
https://soundcloud.com/atwood
https://soundcloud.com/noeldac

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production
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https://soundcloud.com/geo_1022

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artwork
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https://soundcloud.com/wetdaytimetable

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mixing&mastering
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https://soundcloud.com/atwood

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daydreams

produced by xona <3

[impersonation, to belong, panorama]

-lyrics-

I wouldn’t like me too
my aspirations for you
oh no, oh no, oh no
oh I couldn’t be you…

oh I couldn’t be you, oh I couldn’t be you
oh I couldn’t be you, oh I couldn’t be you (2x)

~

do you see the silhouettes?
as they carve your head
no phantom, no puede ser 
no, oh my god
hold on 
I’m trying to help but you seem lost 

it’s a beauty that you take in
but I’m so reckless Ima break it 
yeah 
fall down, I embrace this
as everything looks painted 

~

"I feel so sick when you test my patience."
okay but I’ve been desolated, wonder why you’d take it?
the time I’m weak, I’ll let it leak
for more I’d tear through all your means
for me, it’s for me 


oh I couldn’t be you, oh I couldn’t be you
oh I couldn’t be you, oh I couldn’t be you (x2)

epigone

wrote a song about a weird world i created in my head lol.

lyrics

Just check in on your cell phone 
Youll be home by curfew 
We dont have that much time 
Should be getting dark soon 
You can raise a blind eye 
Tell em that its not you 
But they know 
Yeah they know 
Yeah they always know 

And the soldiers they march with their guns 
In a place that is harsh and its void of the sun 
Now your scared that you cant go outside 
So you run 
But theres nowhere to go
Yeah theres nowhere to go 

Just check in on your cell phone 
Youll be home by curfew 
We dont have that much time 
Should be getting dark soon 
You can raise a blind eye 
Tell em that its not you 
But they know 
Yeah they know 
Yeah they always know 

And im scared to say
That ive run out of options and theres no one to save me 
So wont you stay 
I just hope that you dont become one of the ones that blame me 

Yeah cuz right now im just confused wether i should turn the lights out
Or if i should keep on going its not nice out 
I dont like what i see
Wish that i could have a better world but that shit aint free

Yeah and now i wonder
What this world has come to
And every summer i just wanna know who you run to 

Whered you go 
I dont know 
Hope that they dont get you soon 
Had so many fucking dreams
Coulda took us to the moon
And now i know that your gone 
Fucking hate the month of june 
Thats the time that i lost you

Just check in on your cell phone 
Youll be home by curfew 
We dont have that much time 
Should be getting dark soon 
You can raise a blind eye 
Tell em that its not you 
But they know 
Yeah they know 
Yeah they always know

dystopia (johnnyfriend)

produced by xona, ruevi, & oc

big thank you to all individuals who helped make this song possible <3

@ruevi @prod-oc
@heylog
@hiraethsry
@sleepywater
@sinxi
@caspywaspy
@vilsynth
@valerii
@deadfishh

the lyrics were over 4000 characters and that's the limit for soundcloud ♥

-lyrics-
https://genius.com/Xona-avoid-ii-lyrics

xona

avoid II w/ ruevi, heylog, hiraeth, sleepwater, sinxi, casperrr, vil, valerii & deadfish

w @heylog
produced by sleepwater and leftquiet

lyrics:
ive been to heaven hell and she wanted it
she wanna ham my neck till im on it
switching positions i feel like im in night time
i don't feel the sun no more i dont like sunshine
quicker my heart declines
more that i find myself
shut my windows and blinds
more that i hate myself
i dislike everything
but dislike you the most
my lifes full of sin
cos i dont know where to go

stood outside im seeing flies
im outside you know my time
wait for this im on a climb
fuck my psyche its pain until i die
gaining more likes am i doing something right
its gone up in spikes have i gone up in my life
maybe you should listen to me once in a while
surely you would be different if you werent in denial
EVERY THOUGHT SHES EVER HAD STARTS TO FUCKING PILE
OH I WISH I NEVER HAD SHES FUCKING VILE
depression getting really bad you can crack a smile
you can barely leave your bed stop acting like a child
how did you get rid of your sweat did you run it off
do something w ur life and make it worthwile

heylog:
she's so psychotic, i knew when i saw
speaking so toxic ur just like ur mom
everything i do she gets really pissed
so why does it feel like it's always my fault
god ur chaotic, quit starting a fight
i ain't one to argue, it's a waste of time
she purposely trying to spark up a flame
and now all of this is getting out of line
oh baby
ur so cold
ur making this easy
give more
oh baby
we're off course
she said she want more she said she want more
innocence
don't exist
she'll find ways to get your head
she's offended again
exaggerate things i say
oh my dear
you're in fear
block it out with a few beers
everyone she's ever cursed is in a pile
everyone she's ever hurt calls her vile
and everyone she's done the worst gets away
am i the only one who's learned from her pain
now the whole place burnt down
and i can see it in her eyes she's happy
i hope you know u look like a clown
cus only you would act a little trashy

𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘺 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨

pile w/heylog

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i hate to say i forced myself thinking that you were sweet
but ur a monster, didn't know that you were a freak
lock me out from you and throw away the keys
i won't let you get any closer to me
put my hand on her leg and feel the ridges and scars
i feel afraid you might bury my body under tarp
so dig a grave for 2 people and make sure it is large
you're coming with, i won't die alone or we could restart

i'm not gonna bother you anymore
pulling my collar, pulling out thorns
it was an honor climbing aboard
somebody watch her out on the floor
i'm not gonna bother you ever again
pulling my collar right back where it is
i tried my hardest to help you get fixed
wasn't for long until you relapsed

say does your father know you been out
if i was him you'd have curfew, no doubt
i just want you safe getting back to the house
cause nowadays it's brutal all around
don't hold on 
to my hand
just let go now
find a man
don't look back
not a glance
as i'm crushed by
an avalanche
don't know why you'd say that
you're gonna get pay back
looking at a photo could you possibly get phased at
drinking at a club
i thought you were done
she said, "i stayed away"
but bro it's been a month
i don't wanna hate
i just never drink
you could say i'm boring all you want but i'm not phased
i don't make excuses
i simply do not do it
don't wanna see my life fall into a ruin

i'm not gonna bother you anymore
pulling my collar, pulling out thorns
it was an honor climbing aboard
somebody watch her out on the floor
i'm not gonna bother you ever again
pulling my collar right back where it is
i tried my hardest to help you get fixed
wasn't for long until you relapsed

repeat

produced by xona

@heylog

-lyrics-
deep within my own skin
i stay low until my breath
runs out and i hold my neck
cause deep down i need to rest
the only thing i need is you
a little late, i ain’t got to lose
anything to get us through
but I’ll stay like back then too

well, it’s awful to think
you’re on my mind and can’t let it deplete
sit in my room then write the lyrics to sing
but I’m discarding this energy to bring back the old me
its a tragic that i let it go
i couldn’t tell if you need me close 
well it’s too late for that now
so i can’t keep you around 
don’t need to make another sound

baby i know you love it when you see me overthink
got me pushing buttons tryna get this thing to play
never thought a girl would challenge me to use my brain
think outside the box using my logic against her game

i know you love it when you see me overthink
baby please
tell me what it means
these other guys try to steal you from me
they're enemies
break em to their knees
cut the rope
let the river flow
one at a time
kill em, let em know
baby go
get inside the boat
it's business for me to kill all them very slow

hazel

hazel w/ heylog

produced by xona
piano by oc

cover by xona and heylog

@heylog
@sleepywater
@prod-oc

-lyrics-
yeah
want me back, want me back?
yeah, yeah

want me ‘back’ back?
i think you got wrong man
yeah
you need a 'hand’ hand?
i threw myself into the past
for you
so what you on with me?
we ain’t close so you can’t bother me
7k to reach so I don’t care if you needed me

~

i just wanted to say
that i hope you're doing okay
her skin is why i'm alive
i hope to feel it someday
getting on top of me
and giving the look, i see
her soul makes me resume life
and build up my legacy
her mind is taking a beating
so far it hasn't been easy
i could just tell from your arm
baby should i be alarmed
should i be scared when i hear about your past
i slowly wear, it's just hard to..
grasp

stop again
ill stop and glare
who am i now i don’t know him there
way i feel when im flowing w her
if i get on w u hold my hair
shut the fuck up ur someone i avoid
it wasnt worth it cos now im destroyed

want me ‘back’ back?
i think you got wrong man
yeah
you need a 'hand’ hand?
i threw myself into the past
for you
so what you on with me?
we ain’t close so you can’t bother me
7k to reach so I don’t care if you needed me

lend

lend w/ heylog & sleepwater

prod logan

lyrics:
hearing conversations that i don't know what they're talkin bout
give a little lip and bet you know that i'll be walking out
holding up the line like seriously what are you on about
stepping up to fight, do you think i'm afraid to knock u out
gloves up, round one
i can't wait to pounce ya
blood bath, get smacked
come on, can you hit back
no chance, throw hands
punch him in his throat glands
your boy is a pussy and i'd like to throw w you next

your excuse is blaming her being a hoe
if that was new to me i'd kill you on the low
but i was stupid then and brushed it off
i'm in the trees and my bow is drawn

it doesn't matter
i'm moving like better than ever
it's all been captured
you notice how there is a pattern
i take a weapon and turn it into an aesthetic
i take aggression out all on myself & accept it
she looks so fine
i won't let her know why
"i like your hair and your pretty blue eyes"
i'm a disaster, oh baby i'm a disaster
and does that matter
oh baby does that really matter

𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳

POSTED OUTSIDE
WAR IS COMPLETE
I FOUGHT FOR MY LIFE
IT GOT DEADLY
BLOOD ON MY FACE
STOP HOLDING ME
DODGING A M-
BUT I DON'T RETREAT
don't you ever talk a-
wake up & i'm winning
how does second feel when i'm first
my life might be lame-
least that i'm not lamer
cry
i gotta get going and i hope to see you never

disaster

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

i know i'll find another way
to feel like a whole person
i need a thousand extra days
to conjure some encouragement
size me up for now
i think i'm fiending for some sentiment
could you show me how
to make good impressions so no one forgets?

you don't wanna see me when i can't get the words out
i push away the people that i care the most about
i don't even mean the shit that comes out of my mouth
i can't help but feel like everyone is out to get me
wreck me
people love to test me
acting like i'm not worth the dog shit that they stepped in
i really hate all the people who never listen
the ones that talk a lot of shit then just act like a victim
you think i'm flirting, i'm not
i got a head full of thoughts
i'm sweating bullets and i'm starting to develop a cough
i waste away in my room
bite at my skin 'cause of you
i'm better now, but honestly, that shit was just fucking rude
how could you leave it like that?
no care for who you attract
you oughta thank your false god that these teeth can retract
i'll sink them into your knee
destroy support underneath
because i'm going for the jugular, i'm never at ease

i'm never at ease...

stop
wait 'til i'm gone
i know you're aching for something you've lost
preaching to some
get through to none
what is the point of explaining myself
when everyone listens to somebody else?
wasting my breath on the anger you held
it's all my fault and i reap what i sow
you fooled me once now that's twice in a row

knee

prod by me
thank you to @chalyre for some backing vocals <33

- lyrics -
I've been tryna get some rest but my room feels really warm
struggling to sleep cause outside i hear a storm
keeps me pacing in my head when it lingers for way to long
barely see the sun when i write all of these songs
put my hands up to my face getting ready to stand guard
oh my vision's getting blurry i can hear the ring its hard
if i never trusted words would i be in such a mess
if i never trusted words would there be any progress

i feel my lifespan getting thin
might just take it on the chin
now im trying just to win
cause i feel it in my skin

look around see a setting of a home
you see the butterfly see em when they roam'
i see you blister see the brightness in ur eyes
why you smiling when you jsut saw it all die
does the vision never bother you from hope
many blurry lines that you never sought
what is life where you coming from 
what's the time
not you and i

overheard who is spoken to
"just a friend" doesn't sound so new
never honest just as i knew
brought it up and ur cover blew
what's the name of the guy that you knew
asking for closure its due
feeling dread to the guy you boozed
maybe he would like the news

hold out your hands maybe i wont be that upset
see a pattern baby ima need a cigarette
who you think you are talking like you know us
keep on lying baby maybe us wont turn to dust
keep in mind you never fought for us
see a body dead strung just a shell a husk
sing or hum do whatever that's gon comfort you
can't deny whatever will come for you
-----------------------------------------

flower petals ✾

epigone

xona

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