this is an old selection from 2019 but a younger me....

wurd as spoken

I let the sun hit my fo head
gone head
tell the world ya story
got them loses on ya sleeve 
all due wit respect
for the fearful comin out
goin thru a metamorphosis
im tuned in
writin in the diary
if my redeemer
left town
that's why you never really
see'em
sum day dey gonna 
wanna be'em
when it all falls down
and we see who got the crown

but ain't no goin back
matter fact
I be gone till
ya frowns feel whack
got this spaceship
and it slap
imma profit off myself
imma profit wit sum wealth

YOU CANT STOP ME LIKE IM HELL

time made me who I am....

prod. chebba '19

Combo 20.19

LYRICS:

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Creeping up, I’m walking got a silent stride  
Not no water glide 
Cruising in the dark black ride with the headlights on once they fall on you like a spotlight going to make you blind
Fedora and Duck mask on watch the switchblade shine in the night 
Ripper has returned gonna rip her in 2
RIP her 

Going off now I’m running at you  
Suspense is stirring 
Girl, come and follow me to my ride ‘cause I look so alluring 
I can assure you you’re not the first 
Girl, I’m set on you just like a curse 
Don’t know what trap you’ve fallen into 
You have no clue 
Yeah I have problems that I know is true
But you’re looking so cute like a doll
Might just stick a needle in you make that voodoo if you reject me and cut my heart through 
Don’t try to flee because just know then it’d be the end for you 

Can’t fuck with me because now I’m back like retro rendezvous 
Yeah it's yet another shocking night of terror  Dispose of the evidence must leave no error City’s such a dump it needs to be cleansed
So I have to bend the laws 
Taunting the cops with handwritten letters What a crooked department 
If you think you’ll catch me then you’re wrong

Yes it was me the whole time 
Nathan Talbot not no masked singer 
Bitch I’m the masked killer 
Getting rid of all filth 

And I’ll just mysteriously disappear 
and then you’ll hear about me in the media again, and again

Creeping up, I’m walking got a silent stride  Not no water glide 
Cruising in the dark black ride with the headlights on once they fall on you like a spotlight going to make you blind
Fedora and Duck mask on watch the switchblade shine in the night 
Ripper has returned gonna rip her in 2
RIP her

Yeah

Southside Strider [Prod. By Just Bugatti]

does anyone know if we have to reap what we sow tomorrow

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Verse: If you want to get rid of me, you’ll have to aim at precise range

At this rate there's no point in all the hate 

I'm no alchemist 
This isn't The law of equivalent exchange 

I take life day by day 
If shit fails to work out just flip the page

A brand new day a destiny 
Won't let these thoughts get to me 

I have faith in me so I take the leap 
I won't follow the sheep 

Don't need near immortality 
I'm not Greed 
Everything comes with a cost 

Shit isn’t free
Putting our backs to both sides of the tree 

Almost as if there’s no peace bloodshed red crimson leak 

Don’t need a philosopher’s stone
Hohenheim get trapped in a dome
Only have two eyes 
Not no Pride

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If you want to get rid of me

Law of Equivalent Exchange [Prod. By Just Bugatti]

Destined to Fall ft. Knödel (Prod. rawgolthicpuer)

lyrics //

its 1am and im thinking bout you 
baby please tell me what can i do 
no one wants to die
no one wants to try
everyone wants to see me fucking cry 
making it through cuz im taking these pills
head on the pillow and im lookin at stills
wondering why i tried to fight 
broken hearts baby lets go 1 more time 

2am tears are runnin through my eye 
please talk to me i am not fine 
i just want what we had
baby but i am glad
somethin a least make learn and im making it through
drinking the left over bottles 
only way to get me through im surviving on swallows 
musical therapy craving the sound of her voice but i know all i am is a choice 

3am rain hitting hard
heart is bleeding i been stabbed by a shard
chasing my girl but so far she is gone
kissing and hugging until it reach dawn
loving is hurting but hurtin aint loving
give me a little no please keep it coming
demonstrate to anticipate we must commemorate the love we had cuz it was not fake 

4am baby and its getting harder
dont know you sleeping or wearin a garter i
mustn't confess that i will not dress breathin a heavy beat running through my chest
hearing you laughing it reaching a spot
deeper and darker it means a lot
im sorry for all my lies those times
better off by yourself you feel more alive

5 in the morning im writing bout you
drawing a picture its something to do
write you a letter ink will go through
set up a date for us make us some food
suns coming up but my hearts sinking down
why am i treating you like such a clown
my anxiety is making me drown
open up to you and i am not proud 

it is now 6 and i am still here
baby your thought just wont disappear
am i in love or am i in fear
please say you love me just one time my dear
wanted to last and not leave it so fast
now i am here cutting like grass
nighttimes without you they're not the same
the shit i put you through i am in shame

night without you (prod. bradleyjv)

@thefalseshepherd

lyrics-
revelations get me in my feelings almost every day
fantasize about my life ending in a graphic way
people in my life tell me "turn to God, turn to God"
but even when I do, the fucking asshole doesn't love me much
i've been praying for him
i've been fasting for attention
christians in my ear saying'
"you don't understand the vision, you don't get it
everything you go through is a mission
everything is hope and don't you think of nothing different"
man I hate those fucking sayings
everything is so dismissive
if it's real and heavens watching
why he lead me to a barrel?
i'm in peril, and he's smirking 
while he sends me down to hell
honestly I want someone to rip me from this spell
i don't have a problem with a god or any entity
just the idea of the ones we're taught religiously
the ones that truly love and support you through anything
the ones that supervise and really care about humanity 
thousand scars 
wrapped around my body from addiction
chest, thighs, arms, stomach looking like a victim
But I'm not, so keep your empathy cause I can't fucking stand it
ever since 12, i've been tormenting my body
praying for somebody but I guess he doesn't want me
now you're saving my abusers? yeah it's fuck you I reject the help
pride calling me like "dylan yeah I feel the same myself
that's the reason, when you feel alone I send my best to help"

i can write a million words but never come up close 
to expressing how much hate I carry coursing through my bones
i fucking hate myself so much more than anyone could know
for no reason, not at all
just a product of a broken home
growing up, alcoholic mom say she hates my guts
tell me I remind her of my father and that really cuts
cause at this point, I still loved her like a loyal son
even if I tried to get that back, man that shit is gone
sober now, family try to guilt me so I let her in
girl you had years, we will never be a fam again
what hurts the most 
is I don't even think you can remember it
blacked out, every single night while you torturing me
never told a soul I kept it on the down low
couldn't process fucking anything about that trauma
around 17, probably could of murdered if I'm honest
now I'm numb yeah she dead to me, I feel nothing about it
constant state of loneliness regardless of the situation
feel like I am stuck in the middle of disassociation
i can't feel loved, i don't feel wanted
i don't have a single friend that I don't feel i burden
feel like any partner i get, i don't deserve it
they realize that sooner or later and then they book it
fuck it, I'm forsaken i'ma vent it through my music
i go stupid, might not be the best at least this shit is ruthless

forsaken 2 (prod. venom)

cure*me & Yvng Burbs - PARANOIA! (feat. JonoJoker) (prod. cure*me)

Striding in slicence 
My steps dont make a sound
My aura gone violent 
Hands give a cold touch now 


You stepped on your chances 
I dont want to talk 
Im sick of the masses 
I could throw a punch at a crowd 

Talk to me , talk to me ,talk to me
Pleading for deaf ears 
Im much too gone to clam down 
Ive watched from the outside
Id never understand in a million years

Your so estranged , i dont know who you are 
Dont grab my hand unless you want the ugly
I could twist my smile into something so sinster 
Would you still love me ? If i broke  your arm right in front of ya ? 
Would you think me harmless if i cried 
Right in front of ya 
Something sick n twisted brewing right under the surface 
Yeah 

Twisting and turning inside of my mind 
Do i want to belong
 am i over this life? 
Should i make a new one where everybody dies?
Death in pardise i want it on ice
Death to the parasites that lurch on to life 
Stealing and weaseling off the back of my kind
Hollow is the inside of myself that i deny 
Others the access to theyre cut off by design

Thekilldemo

Arrogância by Lui Cânone + Elastic Heart Remix by Clams Casino (Vaz Mashup)

IG: @zindavich

cureme & Yvng Burbs - PARANOIA! (feat. JonoJoker) (prod. cureme)

cure*me [@prodcureme]