first teaser song off of my upcoming album <3 i love you and i sincerely hope you enjoy! i cant wait :)

maybe i should give it up
maybe i should give it up
cus it aint got me nowhere
it aint got me nowhere
care so much bout the shit 
that i cant control somewhere
one day in the past i use to eat pills 
just to feel better
but i didnt knoe that life was real
i was so better off
so better off

id rather drink my life away
cause most times it hurts just to live
i remember being happy
mom what happened to me... ?

maybe i should give it up
maybe i should give it up
cus it aint got me,
nowhere

SOMEWHERE

one day in the past i use to eat pills 
just to feel better
but i didnt knoe that life was real
i was so better off
so better off
id rather drink my life away

dont got anything to make me happy, daytime
and you took the only thing that makes me feel fine
now i dont know what to do with all my damn mind

mom what happened to me
mom what happened to me
mom what happened to me?

mom what happened to me? (okmax + saig)

im so pressed bruh i hate my body SO MUCHH

i didnt use to struggle with this
its called having you
i dont think i should have wished for this so much

boy ill always love you and i wish you all the best but im
focused on you, and i can not feel my chest :/
my tooth hurts SO bad and its my fault
im to much a pussy to do what i know i need to

neva change i think ill always be a bitch 2
if i eva make it out this place ill teach you how too💔:(
focus on you and understand your more important

i think i find some humour in you
ive been tryna change my lifes hue
that shit aint working like you do
i like feeling impressed by you
i be kinda stressed around you

made it 21 years look what im doing with it
sitting on my ass
wishing time would pass
i watched my whole life thru a glass

bitch2 (gehx + koukaisuru)

voices in my brain (prod308)

i wish i was an angel prod junglesick

maybe there's hope

guess whos back being sad?
my best friends did this to me and that just a fact
and all the things i do around them, i think i annoy them
even if they loved me i didn't have a choice man
what do i deserve anyway?
i wanna be anyone
i wanna be anything
wanna be something 
to somebody
one day
one day
yeah.... one day..

i feel like i have no other option but to cut
i feel like i have no other option but to jump
jump
jump
do you think i wanna jump, jump, jump? :(
the only thing that i want anymore is to make it to
Halloween and have some fun once more before i die 
but the way my body moving i wont make it past July 
yeah we could've had it good, watched fireworks all night
i guess you dont wanna waste your time
we use to stay up all night
now you dont even say hi

and i use to have a homie too
just to stay up every night
and lmao with him till yeah
playing games and
thats fucking distance
ion even know if i mean anything
i thought i was okay, felt that once again once again
i was so damn wrong but it didn't mean nothing to me
my best friends acted like i was supposed to die so im fulfilling it
X_X
WHY'D YOU EVER HAVE TO LIKE ME IN THE FIRST PLACE?!
I WOULDN'T HAVE FELL HEAD FIRST IF YOU DID NOT LEAD ME TO IT!

im not lonely anymore, im not lonely
im not hurting anymore
how could i be sad anymore..? 

I DONT WANNA DO ANYTHING BUT PARTY
yeahyeah anything to get me out my head
i need,
help.
IF YOU WOKE UP AND I WASN'T THERE
WOULD IT MAKE A DIFFERENCE ANYWHERE?
CL
CL
CL
CLEARLY NOT 
YOU'RE STILL GAMING,
UNAWARE
I'M SORRY THAT I COULDN'T THINK YOU, 
CARED.

i was scared :c

july prod. novachance x yiuvo

a ugly boys been feeling kinda hopeless lately
i dont think anyones gone come around to save him
he wishes he would call it quits but he cant stop caring
he couldn't tell you why except thats the reason he was placed here

IDK ANYTHING AND I WISH THAT I COULD BREATH CLEAR
ILL NEVER HAVE WHAT I NEED WHAT I WANT MY DESTINYS HERE
TAKE ME BACK TO LIKE 2010 WHEN I STILL HAD SOME DREAMS FEAR
THAT IM GON DIE TOMORROW GOD TELL ME WHY I AM STILL HERE


hoping with somebody
that we'll brave it to a place where
this pain will subside
if we dont take this shot we'll break it 
i know u want to but dont cut up on that skin, please
no i get it it feels like thats all u got
NO ITS NOT!
cause swear to GOD to me you'll know 
im 
always
here
if i didn't meet you then i wouldn't be here.
ion like nun bout him...
what am i to do?
what am i to do, when you're gone?
i guess ill be okay 
cus i have no other option
i dont got any option
cus i cant stop LIFE
sit around and die
sit around and die
sit around and die
silly boys been feeling kinda
HOPELESS LATELY
i dont think anyones gone come around to save him
he wishes he would call it quits but he cant stop caring
he couldn't tell you why except thats the reason he was placed here
im falling apart i dont think ill make it

i might as well damn park this shit
so high i just dont give it up
baby once u stop trying, shit i think its so fucked
save me
we'll just go up
we just go
getting money we get money till
cry
idk y im on this gas so long
idm idm so im gone

HOPELESS LATELY prod. koukai 後悔

hey..
idek why im typing this text
ull say idk and it hurts me yeah
i dont wanna do shit that way
let me know when to do my best

dont worry about a fucking thing
cause ull be alright
you made it 13 years of ur precious life
ull be just fine
i wouldn't mind if u listen to my songs all night
no..
what the fuck am i saying? will you think of me..?
no, no..
and after summer i hope that i feel better
but i know that i wont cause youll have friends that will be better
all i really wanted was to be ur bestie
huh.. but we was, but what happened? 

oh what happened
oh what happened
oh what happened
oh what happened 
oh what happened 
oh what 
oh. without you..?

idek why im typing this text
ull say idk and it hurts me yeah
i dont wanna do shit that way
let me know when to do my best

i still love you, i still love you

and after summer i hope that i feel better
but i know that i wont cause youll have friends that WILL.
BE.
BETTER.

♡

after summer bestie prod. cornflp

we were never destined to be anything
we were never destined to be anything
we were never destined to be anything
we were never destined to be anything
be anything
shes only six ♡

this aint your pity party i promise
promise
i.. still care
wanna know why? wanna know why?
you gave me everything i ever asked for within in a week
i swear that u cared i wouldn't do it 
now im running out my life death is nearing me 
why is life doing this to fucking me
why is life doing this to fucking me
maybe i should ask why i be slouching in the chair
i dont even know what im here for yeah 
every single day feels like a disgrace 
i dont even wanna wake up in this place
i dont even wanna wake up in this place
i dont i dont even wanna wake up in this place

this aint your pity party i promise
promise
i.. still care
wanna know why? wanna know why?
you gave me everything that i truly need in a week
then u fuckin dropped doin that like wat da fawk B
stop acting like u rly fuckin with me
i.. love you
and i.. could say something
but i couldn't count on my two hands 
how many nights ive waited for you
all ive ever done is pressure you
ohh, put some stress all over you
ohh, im really sorry b..a.. 
I CAN'T SAY THAT
I'm fucking sorry.

destiny? prod. nextrie

just for now
i been up for days
i been up four days
haven't ate a thing

just for now

you know youre not happy when youre thinking bout her
so why the living hell are you thinking bout her?
well its cause i miss what we had when we had an hour
im gon be writing about you till the next meteor shower
im not with you 
im not with me
guess thats fine cause i dont know who to be
girl or boy does it really matter? 
no it doesn't cause no ones gonna put a ring around you
im just being for real~
~ "i hope that i end up in your familys will"
- "what??? XD"
wish i was writing bout someone 
wish i was writing bout someone SPECIAL :(
wish i knew why i was here, why im fighting this damn battle
wish my chest didn't hurt and i wish that i wasn't scared
that my lung gon collapse before i make this song here
imma hope youre happy on your own
if it wasn't capping id rapping

tryna see the long road what happened?
when my lung collapses i will ask god 
"what happened..."
i know imma die yeah
i know imma die yeah
maybe im not right 
but i never forgot to die yeah
shes only six
do you know how life feels
to be counting down your seconds while youre breathing still 
every breath i take hurts
so its gon be labor
to record these songs
but i dont know what ill do no more

i just got mad deja vu
does that mean im special too?
im gon die 21 in this chair in my room
am i really happy when i feel so much pain?
physically i dont really know my name :(

pneumothorax prod. 2ukko × six

u dont gotta play it off
i know ur folding at the words that im saying
are u seriously telling me the best thing u could come up with
is just repeating what i said? you little fucking phony bitch 
u always on some corny shit 
u dont deserve no trophy bitch
u dont even deserve a constellation prize you phony bitch
whats the price tag to my pain?
300 dollars on me
i cut my leg off
then its gonna be like 600 oh
i cut my head off
then its gonna be like 10,000
i get the Valkyrie 
then its gonna be a million with some O's 
ADURITE KING ON MY HEAD
i believe in flexing until youre dead
ask yourself, is this what u wanna do?
all im getting at, i think i dont want it too 
i miss i miss friends but i didn't have no crew
i miss everything about what we had and its true
what the fuck 

hate to break it to u but nobodys ever gonna give a shit about u
u could be dying in front of them and theyd be laughing at ya
they dont spare no money but theyll spare it on they fit
who the fuck is laughing now that im rocking designer fits
day trading crypto gambling is fine as it gets
i put zero on the mines and i hit max fucking win
win win win
all my items are exclusive in every game that im in
in in in

ADURITE KING prod. highsoulja x gfelds

its not really hard to be nice
but everyone struggles and idk why
maybe its because they never got loved in they fucking life
but you not special no
cus no one ever knew
the path and pain i went thru
im on the path to dying 
i dont know what to do
why is life not permanent? 
why do people die and shit?
if i tell you who i am would it make you mad?
maybe this is my true voice and thats just who i am
i feel like im six
haven't learned a bit
i haven't learned shit
i gotta try again
again
i gotta try again
again
i gotta try again

its not really hard to be nice
but everyone struggles and idk why
maybe its because they never got loved in they fucking life
but you not special no
cus no one ever knew
the path and pain i went thru
im on the path to dying 
i dont know what to do
why is life not permanent? 
why do people die and shit?
if i tell you who i am would it make you mad?
maybe this is my true voice and thats just who i am
i feel like im six
haven't learned a bit
i haven't learned shit
i gotta try again

i think its pointless
i swear i wanna die and i do not get it 
i thought bout why my mom was so sad and i shed a tear
that dog was the only thing she ever had, surreal.
and i bet she cried on his back so many years
and oh my god i called my dad so many things i didn't mean
huh, should i die tomorrow? maybe yeah, hopefully
am i even grateful for the things that they've been giving me?
having put a finger on the things they put under the tree ;(
i think that ill die before i hit the big twenty three
cant get what i want
cant get what i need
the life that i need
is so out of reach
I DONT KNOW HOW TO HAVE FUN ANYMORE
SO I WONT SO I WONT
IM SO BORED I DONT THINK THAT I CAN DO THIS
I KNOW MY DEATH IS COMING 
IM JUST TRYNA ENJOY ALL THE DAYS LEFT
I HOPE MY GUARDIAN ANGELS GOT MY BACK TILL IM DEAD YEAH
it'll end up: no one taking care of my soul
its not that fucking hard to be nice you little bitch
at this point ill lose my shit at like anything quick

IDK HOW TO HAVE FUN ANYMORE (sleepy)

do i think that this shit is okay?
no i dont and i dont wanna die today
i gotta make this song before i cant
my bodys tryna kill me every chance that it gets
i dont wanna breathe for one more second no im tired
i dont wanna talk cus i know ill end up lying
i dont wanna talk cus i know ill end up CRYING 
why do you wanna see my face that bad?
i know im not who you think i am
it dont even matter who you think i am
cus ill be gone so soon
ill never leave my room
no matter what i do
ill always miss u
but enough about you 
idk why i ever really cared about you 
oh wait its because you were all that i had
but look at where i got and look at who i am

do i think that this shit is okay?
no i dont and i dont wanna die today
i gotta make this song before i cant
my bodys tryna kill me every chance that it gets
i dont wanna breathe one more second yeah im tired
going, ill show everything im there
GOING, I'LL SHOW EVERYTHING IM THERE.
i know im not who you think i am
it dont even matter who you think i am
cus ill be gone so soon
ill never leave my room
no matter what i do
ill always miss u
but enough about you 
idk why i ever really cared about you 
oh wait its because you were all that i had
but look at where i got and look at who i am

what am i saying?
what am i say..
what am i doing?
what is this song about?

ill alwys miss u (sharkboy)

what am i saying? its so generic
if anybody want sum smoke i got sum war ill declare it 
this one gonna be a hit
i think i need another hit
absolutely yeah i do cus i look im tweakin bih
so much time passed i had forgot what the season is
next thing i know itll be Halloween im TWEAKING bitch
i take my blinker and forget what thinking is
i take my blinker and forget what thinking is i :3
take that blinker and forget what pain is i
i dont even really know what life is like
you put me in a cage im sure id still be happy
do that stuff without me
FORGET ALL ABOUT ME
but ill always be where you died i gotta fight it 
i feel like with my soul when i dont give a shit man
what else am i supposed to be except ignored?
haven't took a shower in like 8 months thats abhorrent 	
but i dont even know what to do except ignore it
cus my life so boring i dont really see a point in
getting out of bed
brush my teeth less
maybe i would change 
IF I TRIED 1 SEC

what am i saying? its so generic
if anybody want sum smoke i got sum war ill declare it 
this one gonna be a hit
i think i need another hit
absolutely yeah i do cus i look im tweakin bih
so much time passed i had forgot what the season is
next thing i know itll be Halloween im TWEAKING bitch

THANK GOD THANK GOD
I HOPE HE GOT MY BACK UNTIL IM GONE

im gon die and its gon be my fault yeah ;(

IF I TRIED 1 SEC (zoowee)

i said "show me where to go"
and you said "i just don't know"
why da fuck i ever ask for anything
i dont know why i eva cared about ya
issa lie, fuck
i hope that it was at least 
i know im not that gullible
i would never trust a bitch
id neva fucking trust a soul
i wanna be so better, its so over, whatever
i said i wanna be so better but its over so whatever

DONT GOT TIME TO WORRY BOUT NOTHING
DONT GOT TIME TO WORRY BOUT SOMEONE
DONT GOT TIME TO WORRY ABOUT NOTHING 
ITS SO UNIMPORTANT
SHIIII
I NEEDA GET MORE HIGH
YEAHH I NEEDA LIVE MORE LIFE
DAYUM I NEEDA REALIZE THAT I 
MIGHT MEAN SOMETHING IN THIS LIFE
DAMN.

damn.. i know nothings working
damn, i know nothings WORTH IT
IDK WHY I DESERVE THIS
i dont even think that i deserve to be ALIVE
TAKE ME OFF THIS EARTH before i do it, yeah tonight
i think tonight might be the night.. :') </3

I think everything i love is gonna make me worse
OH...
my own music gonna make my ears fucking burst
OH!
i don't think i wanna be alive, anymore.. 
oh.

IT WOULD TAKE A MYRICAL TO MAKE ME STOP OR MAKE ME CHANGE 
I WILL TURN 99 BEFORE I GET A WEDDING RING
I GUESS THAT MY HEART BREAKING SO MANY TIMES AINT WHAT IT TAKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh.
shit.
im so schizo i need WAY more fuckin' drugS
DRUGS!

i know nothings fucking working
i know nothings fucking worth it
i been asking GOD why the FUCK 
do you think i deserve this?
i dont buy much shit
maybe i learned "i think i deserve it"
im just tryna enjoy the time i have while im alive :)

GULLIBLE w/ emptychest (zoowee)

tbh idk why im here
i jus wanna disa-fucking-ppear
i dont even wanna be alive
i wanna be alive
sorry
that i had to do this to you
this to you.
and i wish i could be someone to you
so what if i rhyme "you" with "you" forever?
i know that ill never, ever, ever, get better
maybe im wrong if so im sorry

tbh idk why im here
i jus wanna disa-fucking-ppear
i dont even wanna be alive
i wanna be alive
im.. sorry..
that i had to do this to you 
and i wish i could be someone to ☆you~☆

its kinda scary how easy it is to not exist
im not tryna exaggerate it but i look in the mirror, & say:
"WHO IS THIS?!"
"I'M SO SAD."
"I'M SOOOOOO"
"SAD!"

i don't wanna be here w/ emptychest (okmax + yuko)

IM GON ROT prod. zoowee

CLUELESS! prod. sleepy

THX TO YOU prod. JETKAPONE

ill wake up tmrw deaf
here for a good time not a long one
here for a good time not a long one
here for a good time not a long one
here for a good time not a long one

SPEEDRUNNING LIFE prod. 999ines

hospital! prod @guidocaramelli

i know this a bad idea
shouldn't make another song
but i want to cus what else am i gon do bruh
rot?
nothing i can do is gonna slow this down
death coming i cant do shit but js sit and take it bro
this not fair do you think i really wanna do this bro?
why the fuck am i the person dealing with this shit?
maybe someone else has gone thru it but im just a kid
yeah im barely 21 and im calling it quits
i dont know what to do except sit and be a bitch
oh..
like i said i shouldn't do this
making myself worry and ill probably make my hearing worse
MAKE MY HEARING BURST
DONT KNOW WHAT IM WORTH
GOD PUT ME ON EARTH
SO I COULD WATCH AND LEARN
BUT I NEVER LEARN
I MAKE MYSELF WORSE
EVERYDAY IT HURTS
SHOULD I PUT IN WORK?
why am i asking anyway? not gonna do anything
ill always think i deserve my pain
BECAUSE I DO!
i start fights online just because im bored...
i call people online "poor"...

maybe i need god to strike me down
maybe i should quit my fucking streak of being a fucking clown
so many people online dont know how they tough it out
why dont they deal with what i do? im gon crash out.

i know this a bad idea
you such an idiot...
shouldn't make another song
but i want to cus what else am i gon do bruh
hypochondriac check my fucking back 
cause i think im finna stab it, myself
why the hell am i making songggggs?????
for no one to listen to em.. ?
no ones gonna be there when i die
im a DEAF SERAPH i dont know why i try
what chu sayin? you dont try.
i stay up every night
one meals enough, right??? :')
i dont feel alive
i wonder what im gonna do next to fucking cooope
for the next TEN YEARS like ive done my whole damn road
neglecting every part of my body till im BROKE
so i could watch and learn
but i never learn
i make myself worse
everyday it hurts
at this point i wanna call it quits to stop HURTING.

hypochondriac! prod @guidocaramelli

just for now
im so tired of lying
im so tired of crying
im so tired of wantin to die but not feeling like im living
god why am i here?
i dont even get it
i wont make it another year oh please end it
please?
please end it
i just wanna be okay for ONE SECOND

it sucks so much that im gonna kill myself without trying
even if i tried to save my life id end up fuckinnn dying
dont know how to brush my teeth
dont know how to clean my ears
dont know how to take a shower
that shit take a fucking hour
... im glazing it, it takes like two, takes like three
takes my whole day, takes like everything from me yeahh
i pray to god every single morning that i wake up
god please get me thru this night so i can make up..
FOR TIME LOST!
EVEN THO I WONT :')
IM GON DO THE SAME THING TILL I ROT ITS ALL MY FAULT
I COULD CRY RIGHT NOW BUT I WONT HEAR A SOUND
"DEAF" MY NAME RIGHT NOW 
SWEAR THAT I FOUND OUT 
yeah :(
IM DYING, TERMINALLY ILL, CANT DO SHIT ABOUT IT
I KNOW THAT I PROBABLY COULD BUT WONT DO SHIT ABOUT IT
LIE MY WAY AROUND IT, ILL JUST SIT AND DOUBT IT
I KNOW
THAT IM
DYING.

time lost/ik that im dying prod. wtfbennie

i dont think its fair at all
im gon rot without alcohol
dont need drugs dont need nun at all
im doing fine :)

IM DOING FINE KILLING MYSELF
IM NOT DOING FINE, I NEED HELP!
I CANT DO SHIT EXCEPT SAY "oh well"
making this WORTHLESS song for whaaat?
all this pain for wha?
BREAKING MY SPINE to make videos
dont even know who's gonna watch it except myself oh fucking well
nobody got me and thats on GOD
nobody know me and thats on JAH
THE WAY I LIVE MY LIFE ILL WAIT TILL I DROP
THE WAY I LIVE MY LIFE ILL WAIT TILL I ROT
the way i move, gonna rot in hell
i aint living life too well.
i cant do shi except kill myself.
yh
why was i given this life?
ion even know why im right here right? right.
im gon die tonight.
AND IT ALL MY FAULT, i know.
CANT DO SHIT, except rot and go.
WONT MAKE IT!
i wont make it another week but i dont think that i should :)

except KMS prod. me

im gon die i cant do shit about it
im gon die and im gon rot inside my room
maybe i was destined to be fucking doomed
SO MARK MY WORDS THATS JUST WHAT IM GON DO
its really all i can do to make this song
i know im fucking up by making this im living life so wrong
stop waiting around i dont have all the time i think i have im gon die inside my room 
(cancer)
whats the point of living if you just gon end up dying?
i know i should try but i dont think i ever will
ill let my fears consume me I dont know whats got into me
my bedrooms gonna be the hospital room

im gon die i cant do shit about it
im gon die and im gon rot inside my room
maybe i was destined to be fucking doomed
so mark my words thats just what im gon do

im making the worst mistake of my life right now
no ones gonna hear this no ones gonna care
sitting here making myself hurt yeah
sitting here making myself worse yeah
sitting here speeding up my curse yeah
dont even know why my life is worth or why im here
i hurt so much
i hurt so much
i wish i wasnt stupid wish i was a different pers-
(cancer)

whats the point of living if you just gon end up dying?
i know i should try but i dont think i ever will
ill let my fears consume me I dont know whats got into me
my bedrooms gonna be the hospital room
whats the point of living if you just gon end up dying?
i know i should try but i dont think i ever will
ill let my fears consume me I dont know whats got into me
my bedrooms gonna be the hospital room

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