the thought of u is so heavy now 

lyrics🎈:

...and i still have their bed
with the little plush toys that come with it
just get out my head
like am i fucking serious?

what a fucking joke,
and to think i could've fucking opened up myself to them
but im so fucking avoidant

it’s been like 6 whole months,
and for some reason i think tomorrow that they'll hit me up
i just dont speak, i hold my tongue, when i should've spoken up 
especially when it means the most
proudly pushing everything, i shouldn't speak, i couldn't keep the peace 
and now i'm on my own

time don't wait for no one, no one
and every time i think of you i frown
yeah my eyes open wide for no one, no one
and the thought of you is so heavy now 

could've been the most
and a part of me wishes everything never happened at all
all the things left unsaid
probably pushed you away
how tf we weren't a thing when you were with me like all the time?
2 months just flying by

it's been like 6 whole months,
and for some reason i think tomorrow that they'll hit me up
i just dont speak, i hold my tongue, when i should've spoken up 
especially when it means the most
proudly pushing everything, i shouldn't speak, i couldn't keep the peace 
and now i'm on my own

yeah it's pretty cruel just slowly fading
yeah u leave me clues can't pick up baby
do u really think i wasn't this way? my mind always hates me
yeah my eyes are open wide but my heart colder than frozen

and i guess it's my fault too?
still have your plants in my living room
water them twice a week
and i tell them nice things
hope u know, despite everything
i'm wishing you well (and if you ask)
yeah im fine just as well

6 whole months,
and for some reason i think tomorrow that they'll hit me up
i just don't speak, i hold my tongue, when i should've spoken up 
especially when it means the most
proudly pushing everything, i shouldn't speak, i couldn't keep the peace 
and now i'm on my own

(...shit)
time don't wait for no one, no one
and every time i think of you i frown
yeah my eyes open wide for no one, no one
and the thought of you is so heavy now 

yeah it's pretty cruel just slowly fading
yeah u leave me clues can't pick up baby
do u really think i wasn't this way? my mind always hates me
yeah my eyes are open wide but my heart colder than frozen

haha


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hey i'm in texas, do u wanna hang/talk? (prod. soupandreas)

produced, written, recorded, by me
mixed/mastered by @soupandreas

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lyrics:
maybe ill appreciate that you left me a message
i couldn't form sentences with my words
i won't press you more on it
but i asked if we could be in each-other's lives again
and no-one really fucking knows it 

almost a year and i felt a way
u say that it's selfish to fade away
i don't even know what to say to that?
falling in love is like pirouettes
one foot, i'll fall again, 
pick me back up i'll say
yeah, the silence is killing me
…you say that you're guilty

baby i'm hurt so bad by you,
i also think about how nice it'd be
to fall in love again
i won't expect the same
but if you ask if i'm okay, 
would i lie to you?
would i lie?
sitting in the silence

i knew it wouldn't work out but especially when we start falling out 
was i just enough? (x2)

oh, how am i the one to blame? shame on me
i was supposed to let go when i finally spoke up
it took a lot to say, but i still feel like i'm to blame
i knew that shit was tough at home
but you still assume the same things of me 


almost a year and i felt a way
u say that it's selfish to fade away
i don't even know what to say to that?
falling in love is like pirouettes
one foot, i'll fall again, 
pick me back up i'll stay
sitting in the silence 
would i lie?

baby i'm hurt so bad by you,
i also think about how nice it'd be
to fall in love again
i won't expect the same
but have you asked if i'm okay?
yeah the silence is killing me
u say that you're guilty 
(please move on)

-i don't want to burden my friends with
talking bout how i'm losing will to live
things will work out, they tell me but don’t ask 
if i’m okay when reaching my hand out

it's when i don’t feel like talking
is when they think i'm not okay
and it would be nice if they checked in
i’m guessing they just feel the same-

get out! 
this house ain't fit for three
yes i forgive! but you're giving me nothing
no, i'm begging to my knees
(yeah the silence is killing me)
you say that you're guilty
(please move on) 

baby i'm hurt so bad from you,
i also think about how nice it'd be
to fall in love again
i won't expect the same
but if you ask if i'm okay, 
would i lie to you?
would i lie?

(okay one more time now!)

baby i'm hurt so bad by you,
i also think about how nice it'd be
to fall in love again
i won't expect the same
but if you ask if i'm okay, 
would i lie to you?
would i lie?

(1, 2, 3 lets go!)

baby i'm hurt so bad by you,
i also think about how nice it'd be
to fall in love again
i won't expect the same
but if you ask if i'm okay, 
yeah the silence is killing me
you say that you're guilty 
please move on

you say that you're guilty yeah

& why's it so hard moving on?

yeah the silence is killing me
you say that you're guilty

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pirouettes & the ghost of harman street (i'm not scared of the dark anymore!)

(i stare at the moon)

prod/written by me @prodmusa
additional guitars & composition by @soupandreas
mixed & mastered by me & @soupandreas

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lyrics:
oh Luna 
if you were here to see how dark it is around me you’d shine until the world went blind 
oh luna 
i’ll always think of you
and every consequence of words i said can only be defended by my actions now
(we’ll be just fine!)

it’s okay to cry oh Luna, baby
when you called me from your car parked at the lot your parents wanted you home in 5
so we kept it brief
(when I needed time!)
 
to sort through all the possibilities of moving on from a relationship that was, come to think of it, not deep
from the streets to the country
& when you came back for a week couldn’t we have talked it out by then?
i promise i am there
(i’m there!)

it’s okay to cry oh Luna baby, i’ll catch the tears right from your eyes 
yeah shit is different than it was last June, i like to romanticize 
we can take a u-haul to a park by Brooklyn Bridge and sit & waste our lives
just to end up disappointing each-other, by the time you left it was colder in July 

(i stare at the moon)

if you were here to see how dark it is around me you’d shine until the world went blind 
oh luna 
i’ll always think of you
and every consequence of words i said can only be defended

it’s okay to cry oh Luna baby, I’ll catch the tears right from your eyes 
yeah shit is different than it was last June, i like to romanticize 
we can take a u-haul to a park by Brooklyn Bridge and sit & waste our lives
just to end up disappointing each-other, by the time you left it was colder in July 

if you were here to see how dark it is around me you’d shine until the world went blind 
oh luna 
i’ll always think of you
and every consequence of words i said can only be defended by my actions now

it’s okay to cry oh Luna baby, I’ll catch the tears right from your eyes 
yeah shit is different than it was last June, i like to romanticize 
we can take a u-haul to a park by Brooklyn Bridge and sit & waste our lives
just to end up disappointing each-other, by the time you left it was colder in July 

& shit is different 
yeah I’m colder now

luna

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luna (prod. musa)

produced by musa and @t0rr
writen by musa and torr
mixed & mastered by musa 

lyrics
(torr! musa)

[musa]
dying to know,
dying to know
it's the weight i hold, and it's pulling me under 

dying to know,
dying to know
that i'm only here for a purpose


i feel like i'm walking a thin line
i don't know where i go or how i ended here
and when i feel like you are next to me i have nothing to fear
and don't cry baby you can say you meant it, and justify my tears
and you're right next to me but i'm alone yeah i'm alone 

[torr]
i saw the light, and it lead me to the corner
can you call this life, hanging right off of the border
we could travel time, and rearrange the order
but i might just die before the 2nd quarter

we'll both be close to 40 soon
what are you looking for, where to?
i think i'm running out of time to be alive
i been looking back at the question

i like, you'll do, you like me too
beyond being a part of you
i been a bastard to you too, i'm sorry

[musa]
sunlight,
i feel i'm missing, 
from my pores
feel like i need to go out more
and they say that if i do that i'll find someone 
and if i'm telling you the truth i'm always someone's lesson
i'm cynical, now
but i thought that i was wiser
no friend, person, or entity to say that you admire 


dying to know,
dying to know
it's the weight i hold, and it's pulling me under 

dying to know,
dying to know
that i'm only here for a person that won't show

[torr]
one more tattoo upon your face
you pray to god that it won't fade 
away this time
you pray your parents pay no mind
we been avoiding every hard fact
sleeping on the tarmac 
knew that it was different when you gave me my guitar back
every-time i heart back, 
you don't wanna start that
in the fast lane redacting, baby

[musa] 
jet-lag doesn't explain the fact that i'm so tired
caffeine, nicotine, oh god i'm fucking wired
pushing back to my old ways, why am i acting like i'm wiser?
no friend, person, or entity to call or to admire

dying to know,
dying to know
it's the weight i hold, and it's pulling me under 

dying to know,
dying to know
that i'm only here for a person that 
(what are you waiting for?)
won't show

.. won't change, oh

the weight i hold (with torr)

written & prod musa
mixed: soupandreas and musa
mastered: soupandreas

lyrics:
this world starts spinning and it don't stop spinning,
all i see is red when i'm falling down
and i'm scared we're just gon' make a mess
and let our words digress 
and leave no dividends


they say that i talk a lot,
but every-time I try to speak my chest locks up from the thoughts
i mean it’s part of questioning my mama said that i'm wrong 
left home at 17 I think, would she love me if I fall?
oh how i've grown very tall…
yeah & back when u asked if I had ever wondered
whether or not i was a man 
thought I was scared of who i am, heart breaks again and again
while i'm just sitting on your bed,
i don't know what the point of it is but i don't want you to stop

i'm a believer in cause & effect
a savior and causer of death
escape but i fall from the fence
home is a long way out but i'll just race until i'm calling the bets
stalling to pay off my debts
failing to keep you in mind

this world starts spinning and it don't stop spinning,
all i see is red when i'm falling down
and i'm scared we're just gon' make a mess
and let our words digress 
and leave no dividends

crashing like ocean waves
manic emotional states
faith, i give innocently
care when i'm minutes late
fight back when i know that you were right
cause the consequences of knowing everything you could've seen if you just stayed by my side
oh
baby just quit meddling 
adrenaline course through my veins, my nerves are just twisting up, in 
and then you look at me with eyes, distract me from listening
i aint seen you in a min, coping is harder than gin
& its off in a minute 
oh
they say that i talk a lot,
but every-time I try to speak my chest locks up from the thoughts
i mean it’s part of questioning my mama said that i'm wrong 
left home at 17 I think, would she love me if I fall?
oh how i've grown very tall…
yeah & back when u asked if I had ever wondered
whether or not i was a man 
thought I was scared of who i am, heart breaks again and again
while i'm just sitting on your bed,
made of boxes as your frames, and we laid there all night


this world starts spinning and it don't stop spinning,
all i see is red when i'm falling down
and i'm scared we're just gon' make a mess
and let our words digress 
and leave no dividends

written by me
prod @soupandreas
mixed/mastered @soupandreas

i'm so glad you hit me up
yeah i don't know what came over me last week 
but i felt it in the ways we talked on the phone


yeah i don't know shit 
but the way you'd assume that i done risked it
say you're feelings never changed 
please baby be realistic 
call me on the phone to tell me how it's not your business
are you fucking kidding? 
you're so pessimistic

cold by the fire, i wanted us to work so badly
i know i'm not the best person to be in a relationship with 
i don't know why i just say the meanest shit to myself
but you're in my business now
vent on the mic i'm in it now
hop out the crib with a spliff lookin like toothpicks the way its in my mouth 
i promised my mama that i'll make her proud
the spliff that i'm punchin is shootin real loud 
yeah, i'm a real boss
i got the knock on me
yeah brodie want fight i'm just turning my cheek 
i hop out the Urus i aint drive no Jeeps 
you really be copping my flows you a sheep
i fucked it all up cause i'm taking the leap

why do you think my time is so precious to you? 
i'll just tell you the truth that i don't think you should stop the message
honey you dont get it 
i just need repentance 

yeah i don't know shit 
but the way you'd assume that i done risked it
say you're feelings never changed 
please baby be realistic 
call me on the phone to tell me how it's not your business
are you fucking kidding? 
you're so pessimistic (x2)

why do you think my time is so precious to you? 
i'll just tell you the truth that i don't think you should stop the message
honey you dont get it 
i just need repentance

pessimistic

time does not wait

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the weight i hold (with torr)

Musa