angel

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tilldeathdowestart

mas gente

u lied to me and i dont rlly care if u lie to me
just tell me why ur hair makes me cry and weep
your stupid fucking eyes make me die and weak
oh so violently 

oh valarie
i'll eat your heart cus im madly
in love with valarie
tragically your my majesty
but is it so bad to want my soul back
your heart has turned black

not a rock song about hating you

in my bed hit my head cus im all fucked up
cause shes upset wants me dead and she hates my guts
like whats the deal oh for real i really think u suck
sick of it such a bitch like what the fuck

wake up in the morning
california is just such a drag
cause shes so pretty and its so shitty that im such a spaz
im so done this song sucks and im out of luck
youre everywhere and its unfair like what the fuck

what the fuck (a lose truths production)

i didnt even try

turning 18 sucks when everybodys in your way
my girlfriends such a slut but i dont like her anyway
i know that im fucked up but can you get out of my face
my lifes in such a rutt i wish i could just die today

and i wanna kill myself i wanna end my life forever
cus the way that things are looking we will never be together
and you will say you hate my friends and i will say that its whatever
cause im so obsessed with death and you just think that youre so clever

i hate myself

mari would u pls come over
i know you leave in may
but now that we're both older
ive got so much to say

mari if u could forgive me 
i know you wouldnt stay
your heart just got much colder
so i'll go away

mari we could start a family
you know id always say
that we could be forever
if youd take my last name

i see a future with you
i wanna just be with you
so come on and just be with me
i promise you'll be happy

mari

walked into a mirror now im slipping on banana peels
everything is eye food i guess im gonna die soon
smoking by the ounce i wont be alive by june
ill be on the other side of a driveby soon
i hate my family and i know that they hate me too
im a winner in reality im just a loser too

blazing it to sleep

tonight, lucar joins the hunt

im saying something you'll regret
im saying something you'll forget
and romeo wont do it yet
unless he talks to juliet
and i wont shoot the messanger 
but i think youre a better her
and my life sucks its getting worse
everyday im getting hurt

do u want to be
my valentine shorty
so hold me
so i wont be lonely
ur mine today
on valentines day

valentines day came late this year or not at all hahahahaha

all you had to say is youre madly in love with me too you stupid bitch

what you want me to think
just realize its cuz its addictive
wash my face in the sink but im sorry you cant be the victim

never say youre sorry youre not sorry if you lie
i know about being sorry i was sorry all the time
im so sorry i was lazy now you talk to other guys
but i think i need a hobby cuz youre always on my mind

sorry throwaway

when i see ur face it makes me cry
and i see my face all the time
remember when we used to feel alive
now its rare when i get to feel the drive
wanna sink deep into my eyes
now its rare when we ever seem to fight
maybe cuz i know u so well inside
maybe ur gunna tell me its alright
tell me everything i dont care if u lie
never knocked u down but u got too much pride
maybe thats why i keep it all inside
but with u i dont have to hide
maybe cuz i know u so well inside
maybe ur gunna tell me its alright

@alphieafterlife 
its alright its alright
hold my hand see you on the other side
look in my eyes in the night
let me tell you it will be alright
will it be alright i hope it is
because i told you i would never lie
will it be alright i hope it is
because i told you i would never lie
well i tried your so controlling
said you love making me cry
you said if it was so bad why
didnt you just leave
i dont know
i guess thats just love

its alright with alphie

definitely my best vocals, i wish i could've screamed for the middle bit though.

i wonder if misery will end.
pushed to the verge, i wish i had the nerve.
at this point in time,
i think i’d rather be dead than ok.

misery will drone,
i’m all on my own.
again alone.

i can only think.
left to drown and sink.
my wrists itch.

i have too much time to think

adelaide throwaway

i coul;d never count all the hours i spent just telling myself that you never existed
buzzin like a radio, my mind keeps buzzing like its never alone

like i really need a medal all the times i tried
you shouyld really get a bucket all the times youve cried
get knocked down yet i still survive



did it hurt when you fell from heaven
does a god exist

suicide etiquette

i want to die,
sooner than later
i want to die
because i have nothing here.
i have nothing here,
nothing’s here for me
fuck i hate it here.

i hate it here

meow meow meow meow meow
you are perfect,
ballad for angel.
angel.

you, you were mine;
all was fine.
what did i do to you
angel

what did i do?

[instrumental: decalius- a miserable life]

lyrics:
so could you hold me, just for tonight?
i wish you told me, that you're leaving tonight
so baby hold me, one last time
you're fading slowly away from my life
so could you hold me, safe in your arms
i'm feeling lonely, without you in my life
oh you control me, inside my mind
i wish you told me, that its ending tonight

do you miss me?
i feel your name crawling on my skin
look in your eyes
somethings not right, tell me please
i feel your name crawling on my skin

so could you hold me, just for tonight?
i wish you told me, that you're leaving tonight
so baby hold me, one last time
you're fading slowly away from my life

wrap your arms around my skin
engulf my sins
tell me how much you love me
kiss me, touch me, miss me
wanna feel your heart beat up against me
don't wanna drown in silence
please forgive, tell me could you save me?

save me cause i'm drowning
everything crumbles around me
i was sick the day you found me
now you're living life without me
baby, could you save me?
am i crazy?
oh just maybe
could you?

sins

https://open.spotify.com/track/2MKDKEc1f9wEMbzB6pqomV?si=Ws6Eh4CRTdiKucF3zYYy6Q

@six-days-after-christmas
prod me

@copics
mistakes that i've made
but i don't wanna talk about a thing
tearing me up until i can't feel pain
it's all i know so i stay insane
i think it's time you cut me off
put a bullet through my head
you can take my spot

i see the look in your eye
hold my hand and we'll be fine

let me go
let me go

@six-days-after-christmas
let me go
im tired of the same you know
was all my love in vain oh
girl im not one to blame but oh
u make me feel insane

let me go w six days after christmas

thanks jacko for the beat and verse @i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

nope your too late i died w/ jacko

https://open.spotify.com/track/5ZIIE80NheRzoIBzmo18dU?si=f78fc6c0ed884726

@melodyx_o cover
prod me

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i hate being alive
slit my wrist i wanna die
wish i wasnt such a guy
stay inside like all the time
life just feels like such a pain
i really hate everything
motivation is so drained
and i really hate my face like
oooo
been so long since i have cleaned my rooom
been so long since i have made my fucking bed
i feel so made fun of by all of my friends
and
i feel so degen
i wake myself
at 1 pm
i hate this life
i think of death
but im too scared
of nothingness
im not prepared
to leave this world
i wish i was
an average girl
instead i struggle to feel real
instead i struggle to see a life where i pay bills

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaadd my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i dont know why i try
bad decisions i just cry
see incisions on my thighs
next to prickly bumps of mine
everything is strange
why do i feel so much pain
my hair feels so disarrayed
and i cannot feel okay like
i dont have like any power
feel like my life is over
only have me to blame
throw on a skirt and
run outside again
embarrassing
myself for hours
feel ashamed my shitty mood
ive fucked my life too soon
i know i’m not doing too well
i’ll end up a jisatsu girl
if i don’t grab onto myself
if i don’t lose my fucking mind without some help

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

jisatsu girl (自殺) (cover)

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

i wish that my life was a romcom 
i wish every song was a love one 
wish my life would fall into place but
dreaming never got me out of mistakes

alone with her 
its all i need 
i wish my life 
wasnt a comedy 
and maybe dreams 
just arent that bad 
cus when i think of her
i dont feel sad

i wanna be a jack-o-lantern - i wish my life was a romcom

always one song away from quitting
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i have too much time to think

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