‎until death do us part

scenecore soon... i promise...
(i am lying.. ok no im not.. just give m time... must re record)
whats the point of having friends?
so you tell them bout your problems?
no i never did fit in 
but i know that its my fault
but i don’t really give a damn
cus u bitches weird as fuck
turn around and spread whatever that u heard about the other

use your brain
is it in there?
cus u walk weird and u talk dumb
i would make some metaphor but there’s nothing else to say
it’s as simple as can be
u don’t even really know me
if u wanna get under my skin
then maybe u should cut me

ur so sensitive 
ur mommy and ur daddy said
ur the best thing in the world
ur the best thing since sliced bread
u let it get to ur head
welcome to the real world

do you like the way it tastes
i really hope this hurts!


——

i don’t think ill ever have it the same way that they do
yea i talk shit to myself and say that they’re annoying but they have everything that i felt and that i always seemed to lack
guess its jealousy
but what i am supposed to do with that

i am see through
i get scared
if you say you like my hair
u can shut up 
i know that youre lying
dumb bitch dumb face
please stop smiling

don’t whisper around me 
and don’t laugh
don’t make a move

i’m so sick of everybody 
talking about who i am
i thought that i changed 
at night awake
i remember 
i can’t

i thought that i changed 
at night awake
i remember 
i can’t

does the past haunt you
it won’t leave me
don’t think i have a chance

can we escape from our nightmares
if we keep walking through them

 
i imagine all the things id say and all the things id do
i would stand up for myself
i would tell u hey im cool
i would laugh loud
i would take up space
id light up every room
i would make you cower
like the sun does
when facing the moon 


but at the end of the day
where am i and where are you?
i am still facing the dry wall
waiting for somebody to call

i get lonely
and i tell myself
‘i don’t wanna go back’
‘i’m just thinking of it now
…cus its just a distraction’

ok bitch then why u crying?
why you wiping at your eyes
fuck u bitch i hope you die
you’re so dumb go get a life

i am see through
i get scared
if you say you like my hair
u can shut up 
i know that youre lying
dumb bitch dumb face
please stop smiling

don’t whisper around me 
and don’t laugh
don’t make a move

i am so sick of everybody 
talking about who i am

i thought that i changed 
at night awake
i remember 
i can’t

i thought that i changed 
at night awake
i remember 
i can’t

does the past haunt you
it won’t leave me
don’t think i have a chance

can we escape from our nightmares
if we keep walking through them

i thought that i changed 
at night awake
i remember 
i can’t 


i remember 
i can’t 



distractions (di4umi x zeromandia x maryy)

@conner_michel prodded the beat :)
mix n master by me sry i tried my best i did new stuff w my vocals o(u_u;)
cover art: idk bro someone pls tell me.. i wont use it on spotify ^^; unleess i edit it and a bunch of other stuff

give me a fucking break
give me a fucking break
[glitching] give me a fucking break

give me a fucking break
u just take
when u want some

what am i really worth to you 
nothing no one 
what do i do

speak ur mind
out loud and to my face

over text, is just a waste.

ur not real
im okay

imagination makes my day!

read your words
blushing red

you’re the only one to mend
mend my broken heart

fix me - hate me - kiss my scars
apologize when its hard

and when i wanna fucking die
u leave me discarded

parted
my lips
whenever you want a kiss
shut me up
what the fuck
will it ever be enough?

shut me up
what the fuck
will it ever be enough?

just-
just-
just-

give me a fucking break
give me a fucking break
give me a fucking break
what else will it take?

what am i really worth to you
nothing no one 
what do i do

speak ur mind
out loud and to my face

over text, is just a waste.

ur not real
im okay

im okay 
im okay
im okay!
im okay

speaking in my ear
saying what i wanna hear
its so loud
in the quiet
keep it silent
so i hear your whispers
and i know you’re talking shit about me
telling me i’m fucking crazy
you don’t know me
no, bitch
you don’t know me.

ill get in your car
i don’t know 
where we’re going
take me on a ride
pop some pills
in the morning—
ill be by your side

won’t remember why
always fucking mourning
but i shouldn’t cry
cus its —

my fault!
tell me where i did it, where i went —
wrong!

give me a fucking break
u just take
when u want some

what am i really worth to you 
nothing no one 
what do i do

speak your mind
out loud and to my face

over text, is just a waste.

you’re not real
im okay

imagination makes my day!

read your words
blushing red

you’re the only one to mend
mend my broken heart

fix me hate me kiss my scars
apologize when its hard

and when i wanna fucking die
u leave me discard-ed

want some?
you just take when you want some
you just take when you want some
you just take when you want some

T4KE WHAT U W4NT

prod. @zeromandia x ‪@d2s1‬
EDIT: im fucking crying bro my lisp in this is o badi m cdying i love this song sm but the lisp bro so embarrasing </3 guys dont hate me!

you're welcome everyone its a song NOT about a relationship, applause please!
(pre-intro or sum idk)
“—and do what they THINK i want... you're not ME. you don’t KNOW what I want. i want to do what I WANT to do, not what you THINK I want.”

(intro/chorus)
you don’t gotta get it right
you don’t even know me, ight?
i can tell i’m not ur type
“don’t fuck with shit u don’t like”
type.
i can tell i’m not your type
you can't read my lips, don’t try
you don’t get my lyrics

like, “what?” 

ask me what there is to get—
——set yourself up for failure 
right then.
u don’t gotta get it right
like?
you don’t get it, kay thats fine.
you don’t get it? you’ll be fine.

(verse)
all y’all try to tell me how i’m supposed to play the game
got me looking half insane
talking to myself, i’m strained, my voice is -

drowned out in the noises
you can’t hear my frequency so i would try to lower it
what’s the point?
fuck i quit.
 
you don’t know
tell me shit
you just wanna help by doing what you think i want
you don’t care about my thoughts
you don’t care about my truth
you just care about philosophies that only fit with you
fuck ur theory
cus i lived it.

(bridge)
said the bad will make the good
but i’ve had so many bad days
maybe i misunderstood?
but it really don’t feel that way…

(pre-chorus)
i want what i want for once
wanna make myself my own path
but i know if i fuck up
y’all will say i shoulda took my chance — when you tried to give it-
sorry that i took my life, and i tried to live it!
got me fucking livid
what’s the point of living?
give me an equation, i will spend the rest of my life trying make the solution make sense.
or maybe ill just stay dense!

(chorus pt.1)
ohh-
you don’t gotta get it right
you don’t even know me, ight?
i can tell i’m not ur type.

(outro/chorus pt.2)
don’t fuck with shit u don’t like, type.
i can tell im not your type
you can’t read my lips, don’t try
you don’t get my lyrics. like..?

what. 😐

you don’t get my lyrics.

like..?

i don’t need u 2 fw me. (@zeromandia x ‪@d2s1‬)

takuori i love !!!!! i loveee!! i love i love i love!!!!
guys idk how if eel about this one tbh. lyrics i felt were ehh but there were a few parts i rly liked sooo yea how i decide to upload is like, if i think at least 1 person will like it i upload it. that' probably not the best strategy but you know... i liked at least 50% of this song and thats good enough for me but dont be afraid to tell me i should unrelease this so i know

song inspired by emil cioran my love my one and only he is literally me fr....... shhh i know its a little cringey cmon now thats how it is around here ok..
---

look me in the eyes?
could you face me when i cry?
could you do the things you do if you saw how i felt inside
if i gripped your hands and buried them inside the burning ground, if you saw the scarring congealed skin would you think twice about it—  

but it really doesn’t matter
i’m alone inside my home
im alone inside my head
every time ive tried to tell them 

doesnt matter how good ive been cus theyll always see my shadow first
 
thats why i stay in the dark
id rather never see again
then have to watch the cycle repeat
nothing ever helps me
i still go through every day
walking up, down, the same street
the same things stay on my mind
nothing new happens to me

i would rather die inside a fire
instead of being consumed
by the void that i tire of,
my conception was the moment that it was decided i would hurt

the world won’t change, you live on luck
you seek the truth
but there is none
no hope, i dont expect a thing
thinking that would keep me free

"life is insignificant"?
i want to die -- but dont 
want to put it inside of my own hands
i already feel dead because

i wake up every morning
every day its all the same
i’m retracing my path all the way from
what was yesterday. 

all love is temporary and i see for what you are
we are liars we are dirty cheats
we could never be pure
there’s no loving without suffering
without having second thoughts
there’s no loving in the world
where we are individuals separated from each other
i would rather cut myself in half
and then id have a friend
who would understand my epitaph
“i endured and i was patient” 
are they all proud of me now?
ill never see the retribution they all talked about.

epitaph (prod. takuori)

HELLO :3


Spark a joint
I'm having fun
you know I like to party
when I'm in the club
yea I'm getting drunk alrighty
wtf who are you
you're a stupid bitch
go and leave the club
go and slit your fucking wrist

feeling super epic
I got a epic face
yea im at the party
I'm such a disgrace
yea im fucking turnt up
like holy fucking shit
yea im fucking turnt up
like fucking holy shit

its a neko night party
so baby come and fucking dance
if your at the rave
come and shake some fucking ass
shawty off a whipit
yea you know she so extreme
yea i pull up in a limazine

#ACAB you cant stop the party
way to geeked up
i just popped a smarty
oink oink
your a dirty pig
your a stupid cop
i dont like feds
yuhh

Neko Night Party #ACAB *prod. NyanMan310*

lyrics
pupsies:

i know one day soon, we will fly
we could try
we could die
in each others arms
tonight

one step
take flight
its not hard baby 
dont fight it

angels weep
at our feet
its tonight
that we will sleep 

i knew one day soon, we would fly
we would die
in each others arms tonight

tnfmb:
take me away
take me away
we leave this planet no more need to stay
take me away
dont wait for the day
so in the nightlight we will shine n play
shine n play in the nightlight
will you js take me away 
away aaaway away away
telling the truth
telling me lies
I can't handle it, you gotta decide.
give me a hug
give me a kiss
there's no way back one time you started like this.
started like this

take me away w/ pupsies (ldlad x tnfmb)

i think its ass i havent made a full proper song in a while so if its bad dont kill me alive (this was first song i made in a while)

lyrics
dance all night i be in the fucking club
i just want ur love.
i think im going nuts...
cut my wrist baby cant u see the blood
i show u all my love
i wanna wake up
ya i rly hate my life omg i wanna die
im such a fucking loser im cryign evry nitgh

bitch i wanna get high
til i feel like i can fly
i got hella fucking swag
all these bitches say im fly

oh my god feel like lifes a fucking dream
im going insane suicidal stream
kill myself if thats what u fucking want
shoot my fucking brain and then ill be gone

dance in the club
n i wanna get crunk
shawty wanna get fucked
she my little scene slut
baby bounce turn around
i want u to make that sound
feel my love on ur cunt
i want u to fucking cum

omg baby can u be beside me
i just feel so awful 
can u stay right by me
i would never wanna hurt you
babygirl ur so cute
i just wanna love you
pls know ur so beautiful

i know im retarded
baby lets be honest
never wanna start shit
wanna hold u while we kiss x2

oh my god feel like lifes a fucking dream
im going insane suicidal stream
kill myself if thats what u fucking want
shoot my fucking brain and then ill be gone

suicidal stream

₊˚⊹♡𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒾 𝓀𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝓊𝓇 𝒽𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓉 𝓈𝒶𝒻𝑒 𝓃 𝓈𝑜𝓊𝓃𝒹₊˚⊹♡
ft @cholorofilm
cover & prod by @cholorofilm
#angelwave #emorap
</3

cholorofilm - kept ur heart ft. suicidica </3🤍 (prod. teeth)

everything by me

lyrics :

mostly gone, just in some other place
and if my heart keeps beating, then time won't wait
you wanna drop your cards to save your face
oh, if i let it go to plan, then who's gonna stay?

all tied up in a knot,
she kept her hair in a bow
but everything breaks into shards,
like it used to
i'll tell you, you mean nothing at all
i'll give you just what you want
i'll fix you up if you let me use you

/

kiss me, like you love me still

need you to show me why this just ain't real

and if it's all bad, push me back in the mood

say you need this, get me back into you

if you go then, don't leave a draft in the door

can you help me, i won't make you hurt anymore

hands tied, break me down, cut me loose

give it to me, let me rip into you

/

taking what you want, i give you what you need
you carve your name inside, i make you gnash your teeth
kept gnawing at the heart, and took a little piece
repeat the cycle until there's no more of me

this can wait, like all good things
cos, all good things just abandon me
when i give you hate, you give me pleads
i take what's mine, then i make you leave

/

kiss me, like you love me still

need you to show me why this just ain't real

and if it's all bad, push me back in the mood

say you need this, get me back into you

if you go then, don't leave a draft in the door

can you help me, i won't make you hurt anymore

hands tied, break me down, cut me loose

give it to me, let me rip into you

Unforgiven

Glad You Came (DOL Remix)

໒꒱ when will i ever just be happy
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