prod @fallenang3lx
mix and master @g0re4ngel & @cutsleepy

(lyrics)
@g0re4ngel
i luv this feeling ik u hate me
im takin drugs now babe i’m going crazy 
i fucked my life up ya i’m popping fake beans
i would do like anything 4 u bb
(x2)

i just want to touch on u
i was head over heals i thought u loved me 2
could never lie 2 me cause ik the truth
fuckin broke my heart split my shit into 2

see u walking around the halls ya when we’re at school
oh i’m so obsessed babe u look so cool
never been so in luv ya ik i need her
i just wanna fuck u right behind the bleachers

i luv this feeling ik u hate me
im takin drugs now babe i’m going crazy 
i fucked my life up ya i’m popping fake beans
i would do like anything 4 u bb
(x2)

@cutsleepy
stalking my page and ur going crazy
oh ya baby can you call me maybe
idk what to do u drive me crazy

oh ya you know idk what to do when im all alone
hello kitty bitches yea they all up on me
idk what to feel u said u would call me 

everytime you see me baby you know im alone
anytime i see ur text pop up i drop my phone
i crave ur name inside my wrist i hope you know
everytime you say u love me bae i feel alone

i cant get enough of ur body i touch on you
i was over heels i thought you loved me too
i was so dumb because i said i love you too
baby can you text me back when u feel the mood

luvthisfeeling :3 (cutsleepy)

old indie pop bedroom pop song i did on bandlab a year ago, i rly like the lyrics
i cant make good scenecore rn or really good anything i feel bc i wish i cld do more in fl studio and have a desire to make things sound a certain way with certain effects ughhh

dead dove: do not eat (grayskies)

prod. downtownsuicide + 555kenichi + xy1va

i'll be gone soon

prod @harui
rec preset, improvised melody etc, just a demo
i may make a new account or something, dunno, some days i feel like i can live and some are like i'm already dead but i could finally bring myself to write and sing again
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whats the point of having a voice
when you feel you don’t have a choice
when you want to find new words to say

i just wanna be free
(slight pitch error my bad..) let go of every single thing
but when i look inside
the future seems so dim

i’ve dreamed to change the world
on every single birthday
blowing out my candles
knowing i can’t intervene

when i closed my eyes
i wished and dreamed
a world, one sweet as cream

i’ll never save myself, i know this much is true

the heights i reached, when i look down, the depths i could fall to
there’s nowhere safe
but if i may,
there’s something lovely 
‘bout the way
i ask myself, what did i do, i tried to be good, but it all fell through
i wished to make up for mistakes i made by being born
each breath i held, so afraid to waste another word
in this world, do i belong? don’t think i’ll ever feel so
the “selfless” act, its selfish that, i can’t feel real if no one knows
i want to be an angel high, to save or just to run away?

i seek forgiveness, hoping it shows
i never wished to be like this
if you all love me still, as flawed as i am, then i know for sure
i’m not the only one who can be
i still feel like i’m nobody even if you disagree
but i know that that just means we’re all deserving to be seen
deserving to be—

i know these moments disappear but while they’re here please stay!
i wonder, somewhere in the world, does someone hear my voice?
their heart, their mind, a low hummed tune, it drowning out the noise..?
if you still hear me, i hear you, humans all that we can be
even aching in my chest
i’m glad you’re here 
may we be free

may we be free

untitled (demo) (prod. @harui)

p. x0.HellA 
yeah u oh u 
where do u think ur going
bitch u stole my heart
u left me in the dark
u think u can escape me
bby ill tear u limb from limb
until u hate me
hate me 

u dont need nobody else
its u and i against the world
if it was me and some1 else
id kms
we r meant for eachother
it makes sm sense
yk how this has to be
im obssessed w u
ur not obsessed w me 
id set u free
but its a risk for us
dw my luv we will 
last forever <3

lastforever<3

disoc8 - FAT BITCHES AND MOLLY (2023)

i think myca asked for the instrumental, here you goooo!
i don't really enjoy making music or doing anything i liked that much anymore, i find that there is increasingly smaller amount of things that make me feel like living, it's also worth noting that there seems to be no real safe place in the world as much as we'd like there to be. i'd like an imaginary friend so they would not let me down, thats why i like to be sort of imaginary in my music persona because i can't be a letdown in that way, it's nice to feel less alone, i think? without music i don't really have much value to offer, so i'm not sure what to do. i can't quit forever but ... i guess i'm just not sure. i know bad things happen to everyone, but jeez it'd be nice to catch a little break... i think the hard part is how things resemble past hurts. the length people will go to just to break your trust and use you and steal something valuable and pure from you even knowing the cost is so saddening to me. yesterday i learned something i knew already, that something in person, seeing someones actions, that is not something that will protect you or keep you safe either. something i already knew. my body is not mine right? it's not so bad. it happens to everyone, i know this, and i'm grateful things aren't worse. i guess i'm too weak for the realities of the world, i find it all too grotesque and i don't know how others live without seeing it...

also i thought it was worth noting for those who cannot tell yet, but the majority of my songs are auto-biographical...

was it really fun though - instrumental

sampling hansel by sodikken .. i like sodikken

shitty bandlab vocals recorded with my shitty laptop mic! ^_^

“And now here is my secret, a very simple secret: It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.” - the little prince, antoine de saint-exupéry

i said its too late 
you already know it 
my bloods on your hands
you’re stained with all the red

i wish you loved me 
now i’m dead
do you find me in your head?
can i live on in your mind?
can i live on, just this time?

i swear i wont try no more
i wont be good, i wont do things
that i know have never worked
ill put me first
before dirt

so since its too late
love me now
and sing my praises

now that i’ve thrown the white cloth in
ive been thinking…
you know, all i wanted
was— 
…something that you can’t see. c:

something that u cant see (prod. pupsies)

When I Look At You

Butterfly

Streetlights buzz like broken halos
Shadows stretch long tired
A pint glass winks back cold and hollow

Oh the last call glow it burns
Flickers slow it churns
Takes your breath away
Takes your breath away

Pavement cracks like whispered secrets
Boots scuff out the sound
Tales untold in cigarette regrets

Was it real or just a phase
Nights like these a blurry haze

Oh the last call glow it burns
Flickers slow it churns
Takes your breath away
Takes your breath away

Spill the truth under neon moons
Falling fast the night's in ruins
But we keep spinning, spinning, spinning
Spinning!

Was it real or just a phase
Nights like these a blurry haze

Oh the last call glow it burns
Flickers slow it churns
Takes your breath away
Takes your breath away

Was it real or just a phase
Nights like these a blurry haze

Oh the last call glow it burns
Flickers slow it churns
Takes your breath away
Takes your breath away

Sofia Romano - The Last Call (Unplugged @ The Music Locker)

sorry for being emo! :p you guys r so nice i changed my mind