'music' i made

this is my personal playlist that i've been listening to everyday since 2022 .
songs rotate through based on preference , so if you want to see all the songs that were in the playlist check likes .
should always be ~6 hours long . if its not you might want to check up on me .
i kept the playlist private for years out of paranoia , which seems kind of stupid i know but it really got to me back then . thankfully my mental has improved since then , so i don't mind letting others see what i've been listening to . this spans over 3 years of my music tastes , so if you see something that seems weird , it was probably me when i was 14 . 

*****my eyes are burning and i feel so weak ....

gatekept for your safety

☢︎𓆩†✞☣︎✞†𓆪☢︎

drawing/stupid songs i like

Danny 12

25 apr

random dnb/breakcore 7

cyriak, you're my hero.  seriously.  mutated cat-maggotcreatures FTW.

remixed/covered in 2012 with permission; originally posted on my old account @dhorakilo, where apparently it blew the fuck up without my knowledge.  lmao.
the original song can be found here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jX3iLfcMDCw

Cyriak Remix - Welcome to Kitty City [Remixed by Theo Wren]

og: https://soundcloud.com/stvvvn/stvn-crying-ft-xerifyy

cryin

be scared be angry

og: https://soundcloud.com/fvckyoumate/mvvself

survive

even angels can cry

og: https://soundcloud.com/tokyopill/ethereal

ethereal

everything will be fine

og: https://soundcloud.com/wmdmusic98/ficus

ficus

time flies too fast, i wish it didn't

og: https://soundcloud.com/hogslop/the-time-is-11pm

time

This track was made in 2008, and then sat on my computer for a year and a half waiting for an animation to join it. 

Meow

This song was made on and off throughout 2011. It took a great deal of walking away from and coming back to before it sounded right. The accompanying video features my then recently deceased cat, who I felt deserved some measure of immortality on the internet.

Welcome to Kitty City

reuploaded from GABBA KADABRRA on youtube

original upload date: 28/8/22
(DD/MM/YY)



Hana Kitsune ー エコー (UNHINGED EP)

https://open.spotify.com/album/1yDZTO6s5dDgFyHuxepydj?si=JMLlu8-dRLSqXR0LlZqt7Q
Remixing stuff is cool and all, but if I had infinite time I'd only make songs like this. 

thank you to @dokxid for listening to a million WIPs of this song.
thank you to andy pls, healspirit1, and buddywudd for being huge influences behind this track. check them out!
and as always, thank you for listening :]

https://archive.org/details/yemdamage

Free DL

Damage

if only it were easy to be truly happy

cassette

OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS!
vocals by @cadeclair
produced by @durpo1x

WATCH MY STEP ✧.* +cade clair

BREAK THIS YOU MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!
https://open.spotify.com/album/16FeCIv1FbLTAZJUs3vI2h?si=nA65KaulQqG1rWkPLPUF-w

FEMTANYL - AND I'M GONE (BUNGEX! REMIX) OUT NOW IN SPOTIFY!!!

BORN 2 BE BEHEADED NIGHTCORE

Copyright 2024. All rights reserved.
An original fighting game composition.
Changes to the original: https://youtu.be/AQm9UmDVes8

ᵃˡᵗᵉʳⁿᵃᵗᵉ ᵐⁱˣ VIII·ii·VIII

offline

bandcamp

don't leave me

༼ つ ╹ ╹ ༽つ💚️💚️💚️💚️💚️💚️
ok go follow them plz!!!!
https://soundcloud.com/erdrsalter

erdrs alter - you shouldn't be here (scarmaid remix)

where have you been all my life?

WE ATE 💋

KENTENSHI - https://soundcloud.com/ken-tenshi-849546445
florent!a - https://soundcloud.com/fizzy0

Character Designs - https://www.instagram.com/yap1co/

WITHOUT U TONIGHT

MUSIC VIDEO

WITHOUT U TONIGHT (w/ KENTENSHI & florent!a)

In the depths of something's mind

Had a jacket hadn't put on in a long time.
Seam stuck out and headed down the wrong line
To a pocket where I knew that I had got mine
Once the sun's eye blotted out the thoughtcrime.

I found a lighter in the depts of the jacket pocket.
A soul delivered in the mask of a plastic object.
Had to bask in the terror of the drastic project
Of forgetting all the brass I saw within your logic.

But I remember this lighter and the cigarette
When you tried to quit.
You're always trying to quit. 
But this final dart, would be the end of it.

Next day I saw you hack a few on Queen Street.
Walked up with my stupid little mean streak.
You looked sheepish and you asked "Do you hate me?"
I laughed a trace and I said "not lately."

I asked you if you want your lighter for your pleasure burden.
You said "it's a gift. you need it bitch. I know you're hurtin"
We stood in silence in the frigid cold death weather.
Then I bummed another dart and we smoked together.

I think that must have been three four years ago,
The time I knew you for a microcosmic miracle.
Echoic seering my mind of the serial
Tapestry scraps scrolling past as your burial.

Saw your body embalmed in a small space.
Saw your mug made up like a doll's face.
It made me nauseous and nostalgic in the wrong ways.
I had to con myself calm into a false grace.

Your parents asked if I thought that you had really suffered.
I said "I didn't know enough about your lovely daughter."
And I don't know if there's an afterlife or kindly God or
Sign that e can point to that - and then I stuttered.

I saw the answer I was giving them was devastating.
So I said 'No," but this answer wasn't placating.
Three seconds felt eons as I kept them waiting.
For reassurance they succeeded in their child-raising.

And in a panic, blurted out that she would always get
A bit erratic but emphatically get over it.
This just made your crying mother more upset.
She said "guess she didn't love us more than she loved death."

Three millisecond trek into something cosmic.
Had a beautiful life, but then I went and lost it.
Memory bank starved for fresh deposits.
Put the old jacket back in the death closet.

Samples:
1. Angels and Demons at Play, Sun Ra, Angels and Demons at Play (1965)
2. The Big Sleep, (1946)
3. That's How I Feel, Sun Ra, Lanquidity (1978)
4. Klankbeeld, Medium local traffic 02 161003_1004.wav, Freesound (2016)
5. Frank Sinatra, It Was a Very Good Year, September of my Years (1965)
6. Hedonfire, River, birds, distant loon, Freesound (2022)

I Don't Hate You

all the things you said

bandcamp: https://femtanyl.bandcamp.com/track/mix-02-bothered

original: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OZ04Q6nfLMg&ab_channel=Femtanyl

message/comment me if you'd like this taken down noelle, this is just temporary until it's uploaded to soundcloud

MIX. 02 - BOTHERED!

some trash that was rotting on my hard drive for months

not great

kyun~kyun daze!

these were meant to go on (another shitty) dancecore album (6 tracks til now) but i abandoned that project over a year ago. so here you go, all tracks combined into one; biitsu 3.

by the way fuck you to those guys who wanted a few of these tracks to go on their comps and then just never make a comp in the first place, you nasty shitfaces - people make tracks for your compilation and then you decide to abandon it.. fuck. you.

biitsu 3

MUSIC FOR PANTHERS
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https://x.com/Nanoraydx
https://nanoray.bandcamp.com

PANTHER ZOO

New Release!!!
Gimmedanger Compilation Album
「Cyber Chrysalis」

https://gimmedanger.bandcamp.com/album/cyber-chrysalis

Artwork By さなまる http://x.com/sanaunko4
Catalog Number :GD-008

404 // Heart Not Found [「Cyber Chrysalis」Compilation Album]

its the end of world and i sent it to you
with a messenger bird

don't cry, don't cry

this is my fault i shouldn't have been so concerned
at the end of hallway there's a matchbox that reads
everything that i loved was never taken from me
i just never had anything to begin with 
that's the reason why these stories always end on my wrists

i feel so viciously deathly that the lines are now blurred
between my personality and the people of the world
i keep on shaking and waking up six times in the night
praying to something that ill someday get a breathe of respite

i wanna try to relax deep breaths i'll calm down
id rather let the ones around me feel like they can be found
because my soul is a cage and i can never escape 
im fucking panicking and i cant get these thoughts out my brain

no matter what i do, no matter where i move
all i can think is that its time to give in, nothing were you
no matter who i choose, no matter what I prove
ill never feel like I have anything to lose

I just took an unsurvivable dose of desoxyn

𝟼𝟿 𝟼𝙴 𝟼𝟼 𝟼𝙲 𝟼𝟿 𝟼𝟹 𝟽𝟺 𝟼𝟻
𝟼𝟺 𝟸𝟶 𝟽𝟻 𝟽𝟶 𝟼𝙵 𝟼𝙴 𝟸𝟶 𝟼𝙳
𝟽𝟿 𝟽𝟹 𝟼𝟻 𝟼𝙲 𝟼𝟼 𝟸𝟶 𝟼𝟷 𝟼𝙴
𝟼𝟺 𝟸𝟶 𝟼𝟷 𝟼𝙴 𝟼𝙵 𝟽𝟺 𝟼𝟾 𝟼𝟻
𝟽𝟸 𝟶𝙰 𝟶𝙰 𝟼𝙲 𝟼𝙵 𝟽𝟼 𝟼𝟻 𝟸𝟶
𝟼𝟿 𝟼𝙴 𝟽𝟺 𝟼𝙵 𝟸𝟶 𝟼𝟾 𝟼𝟷 𝟽𝟺
𝟽𝟸 𝟼𝟻 𝟼𝟺 𝟶𝙰 𝟶𝙰 𝟼𝟷 𝟼𝙲 𝟼𝙵
𝟼𝙴 𝟼𝟻 𝟸𝙲 𝟸𝟶 𝟼𝟿 𝟸𝟶 𝟽𝟹 𝟽𝟻
𝟼𝟼 𝟼𝟼 𝟼𝟻 𝟽𝟸 𝟶𝟶 𝟶𝟶 𝟶𝟶 𝟶𝟶

abandonment and letting go

im going to delete all of my songs forever

i eat paint

#iDONTNEEDit.

2024 MPC 1000 rework of 'too young to love' from 2015

(still) too young

The music for my rabbit video. I made this track a couple of years ago but it had to wait patiently for an appropriate visual idea to go with it.

7 Billion

Another remix for the mega dance party on youtube, this time for "Welcome to Kitty City"

abandonment and letting go

nacho