me and the moon

chroma

From The Morning

I Heard That Noise

Enything

✩I FEEL SO ALIVE✩ ꒰◍ᐡᐤᐡ◍꒱ - THE PLUG'S GONNA HEAL ME (prod. QQ εїз)

1st single off of (what I hope to be) my new album "Field Notes"
thank you everyone for your support!!

"Nothing" was written, recorded, produced, mixed, and mastered by Nolan Valero
Cover art by Nolan Valero

Nothing

i cant go out tonight

dream it all away

if i couldn’t be me, i would

I didn’t choose the cold. Not at first. It crept in slowly, like silence after an argument - unspoken but deafening. The frost doesn’t lie. It strips everything down to the bone. No warmth, no comfort - just what remains when illusion is gone.


There’s a kind of knowing that comes only in the quiet. A clarity that doesn’t shout, doesn’t explain - it just is. But to hold it, I’ve had to let go of so much.

Because every time I come close to someone, I feel it slipping. That delicate thread I’ve followed through the silence begins to unravel in the noise of being known. There’s a part of me that only survives in isolation - a fragile shape that can’t bear the weight of love, or the expectations that come with being seen.

I watch people from a distance and wonder what it would cost to stay. To share space. To let the frost melt, even if just for a while.

But I know the price. I've paid it before. That when you are with someone, you lose something else - something only solitude can give. 

So I remain here, suspended between the need to be held and the need to disappear. I do not ask for answers. Only that the silence keep speaking to me, gently, until I can bear to listen again.

And maybe, one day, I’ll step back into the world. But I will never return the same.

coldlight

Lightweight

From The Morning

quickly, quickly