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Copy of Your Mix 3

SURF-OR-DIE

ON-THE-HUNT

Pop-Phlodge

Lyrics:

I’ve been thinking
About the things you say
Every morning when we awake

You act like he’s still near
You act like you need here
I wish you would make it clear
told me he disappeared 
I just can’t trust you dear
my eyes fill up with tears
You're lying to me I fear
It’s his name I hear

I’ve been thinking
About all the things you say
every morning 
About the time when we awake
I’ve been thinking 
About how it brings me pain
I’ve been thinking
About how you say his name

I woke up alone today
on the ground my cold feet weigh
take a shower, clean my face
go to work from 3 to 8
cover shifts, jim's got a date
so burnt out, and I get home late
feed the dog, and clean the plates
eat alone, then I hit the hay 

I’ve been thinking
About all the things you say
every morning 
about the time when we awake
I’ve been thinking 
About how it brings me pain
I’ve been thinking
About how you say his name (x2)

I've Been Thinking

NEET - It's Beginning To Look A Lot Like It's Over

i wanna be your girlfriend!! (taymxru)

i wanna be your boyfriend

This Is How Tomorrow Moves

Real Man

odihu - lately ive been thinking about suicide w/ bloodsekai

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prod deadyami meowwowowoaeifgsigosgiegsrioesrnigors

i was lying when i said i didn’t care at all
starting to get fucked up off this adderall
im choking (choking)
ur white dress getting soaked in all dis blood
can u stop it? ik u never gave a fuck
my bloods spoiled, i can feel it getting worse everyday. (everyday)
so ill get down and pray 4 better days (better days)
i looked into her eyes.. in that cold gaze

ill tip over in my seat
u were looking so fine, u were pretty and petite!
nothing lasts forever, u were down at his feet
ill js rot in my bed n play it all on repeat

(chorus)

bleeding

i hate u i hate u i hate u

pwnd - i hate u i hate u i hate u

https://open.spotify.com/track/5ZIIE80NheRzoIBzmo18dU?si=f78fc6c0ed884726

@melodyx_o cover
prod me

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i hate being alive
slit my wrist i wanna die
wish i wasnt such a guy
stay inside like all the time
life just feels like such a pain
i really hate everything
motivation is so drained
and i really hate my face like
oooo
been so long since i have cleaned my rooom
been so long since i have made my fucking bed
i feel so made fun of by all of my friends
and
i feel so degen
i wake myself
at 1 pm
i hate this life
i think of death
but im too scared
of nothingness
im not prepared
to leave this world
i wish i was
an average girl
instead i struggle to feel real
instead i struggle to see a life where i pay bills

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaadd my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i dont know why i try
bad decisions i just cry
see incisions on my thighs
next to prickly bumps of mine
everything is strange
why do i feel so much pain
my hair feels so disarrayed
and i cannot feel okay like
i dont have like any power
feel like my life is over
only have me to blame
throw on a skirt and
run outside again
embarrassing
myself for hours
feel ashamed my shitty mood
ive fucked my life too soon
i know i’m not doing too well
i’ll end up a jisatsu girl
if i don’t grab onto myself
if i don’t lose my fucking mind without some help

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

jisatsu girl (自殺) (cover)

https://open.spotify.com/track/7GHsBQ5oLMz6Jhq6TgzBHj?si=m6AqD8a8T5CoOFmWkkiqOA&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A4fE7fPBBe4x8t58IbcpFs4

prod me ft @kiheir

@requiem-for-you
saw u at that party last week
im so damn awkward u know i cant speak
but baby please
believe
that ur everything to me
x2

u treated me like shit
i know its not ur fault but it kinda is
i never thought that it would end like this
i never thought these words would leave my lips
but baby im cutting at my wrists
and i dont see an end to it
can someone help me
im dying
without u darling
oohhhhhh

@kiheir
and i never thought id feel this way
now that im seein u in the same damn place
or meeting u in these awkward ways
now that im seein u in the same damn place
or meeting u in these awkward ways
no one here to fill the void of my days
cuz ur gone
cuz ur gone

i needed u said ud never run away
the partys almost over i just hope that ud stay
my mind went blank ive got no words to say to u
and i doubt that u do too
ooooh i doubt that u do too
and i miss u but im glad that i met u

@requiem-for-you
saw u at that party last week
im so damn awkward u know i cant speak
but baby please
believe
that ur everything to me
x2

awkward w/ kiheir

https://open.spotify.com/track/5Nnwe5weuh5fyte28mcrJR?si=ea812a2a3b0c4e23

old (wujek) styleeeee !!!!! beat by me 

w/ @humanendeavour

[endeavour:]
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never

[sekai:]
migraine my head aches
ur phone contains my messages
u haven't read im dead
im being ignored again
yesterday i had the worst time
and today if i said im good
then thas a lie
can't get better
im stuck inside
this shitty weather
i wanna die
i said my head hurts
a thousand times
but when ur near me
i feel fine

[endeavour:]
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never

[sekai:]
can't get better
im stuck inside
this shitty weather
i wanna die
but when ur near me
i feel fine

[endeavour:]
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never
ill my blood feel it up i wanna fill it all with blood
i feel your guts i cut it up
im sorry if that is too much

together forever w/ endeavour

https://open.spotify.com/track/4Yod5zUEZ5SyNe0LTqbhVu?si=f91fced6fb2c4d31

w the boat @yukisasayaki prod me

i can't get out 
I've been feeling so fucking down
no one hears me 
when i'm clearly screaming loud
every chance i get
i mess it up without a doubt
put me in a crown
when im the worst like all around
benefit from the misery that i feel
cuz i know no one wants me around anymore
there's no mistake, i'm a waste
i'm not real
cuz that's the sense i get
i'm played with like i'm fake

im drowning in my sorrow
about tomorrow but also yesterday
i don't think i remember
it's been like this forever
I've never gotten better
at least that's on my record..
my hearts buried down
cuz no one sticks around
I've wrote my vows
to never open up
to anyone
i dont need new friends
im better off alone and dead

i cant do it
wont make it thru the day
yea ill prove it
slit my throat n decay
u want what i want
n i rlly want me dead
it mightve been from
all of the things u said
n i cant take it
the words infecting my head
i guess no one would care if i bled out in my bed
im such a loser n im always such a fucking burden
i try n socialize but i can never get a word in
n u look in my eyes n tell me that im fucking worthless
u leave me paralysed oh pls just finish me for certain

and worst of all, it's me

and worst of all, it's me (ft. yuki)

https://open.spotify.com/track/4Mkqb85Xssw7NjMCH7zDKN?si=f0939011e78b4e22

prod me w/ @yukisasayaki again yayyy

meet me on the roof after school
i fell in love n i wanna tell u
i know we don't talk but i think ur cool
n if u don't say it back, ig death will do
i-l-y, i might die
k-m-s, suicide
it's lie after lie, but this time i might try
knife in my chest twist it right close my eyes

baby i feel like im gonna die
tell me that u love me while u look me in my eyes
notice how i see u
from across the classroom
pretend to drop my pencil
and watch it roll past u
i jus wish ud notice me
a loser with no apathy 
slit my throat n watch it bleed
if u n me can never be
i swear that ill take my life
use ur silence as my knife
so come and take my hand
i wish u could be my wife 

yea be be mine
never leave my sight
we can live together in a loop
for the rest of time
no different options
no fucking pathways
ur stuck here forever we'll never part ways 

meet me on the roof after school
i fell in love n i wanna tell u
i know we don't talk but i think ur cool
n if u don't say it back, ig death will do
i-l-y, i might die
k-m-s, suicide
it's lie after lie, but this time i might try
knife in my chest twist it right close my eyes

dating sim suicide (ft. yuki)

forgot prodd
(woah-woah)

do i drive you
do i drive you
do i drive you crazy baby oh nah
do you hate me?
learn to hate me
knowin' that im gonna drive you crazy

i know its so hard 2 manage when ur fkn fkn around
dont wanna talk 
but i guess you wont
its so hard to back up, well i dont know (well i dont know, baby oh fuck)
i dont know, i dont know, oh well i dont know

i dont know
just go and talk, but you find it so hard

aye, i cant manage baby
i hope you know
i cant stand this baby
i hope you know
i bet you dont really like how i speak
and im putting out the cigarette cause u got me weak
oh, it hurts (baby oh fuck)
i dont know how to stop my feelings (i dont know)
i bet you wanna get back on me
i cant take your company i swear
i bet you wanna get back on me
and now im done.

you got me weak.

(chorus repeat)

wake up and not talk anymore
because
i dont want to bite my tongue
ugh, show my face but maybe a little bit less
and all through out my life
i never say goodbye

and then wtv i said i dont rememberrrr

do i drive u crazy?

moon is glaring
and my retinas are burning
just from staring

steal my heart
thats what i want
i just wanna talk
just for fun

people are staring
and im never ever caring

gonna kill myself 
i'll throw myself off the top of a building
and i'll go to hell 
well i hope not cause im a christian

i wish i was ryan gilmour
i wish i was ryan gilmour
i wish i was ryan gilmour
i wish i was ryan gilmour

i'll never be as good as ditch effort and i know that
but i wish i could come closer
show you im better than isaac
cause he fucking sucks

the princess

blehh - incelcore star!

Lyrics:
[Chorus:]
(Loser64)
I'm sick of lying awake
I'm sick of lying awake at night just
thinking about you
I don't know what to do
I'm sick of falling in love
I'm sick of falling in love 'cause I know that
I'm not what you want
I can't believe I thought I could be

[Verse:]
(blehh)
I'm always overthinking every word I say to you
No matter what comes out my mouth, it's pushing me away from you
And I cant take this anymore (you know you're all I need)
Dealing with me is such a chore (and I hate to see you leave)

[Bridge:]
(blehh)
I never understood how, I was supposed to make you feel
I had another dream where you took my hand, it felt so real
its too late now to get up, I'm sleeping in another day
I hope I never wake up, I hope that I just fade away
(Loser64)
Just snap me out of this
I've never felt so bad
You're not the one for me
but you're the closest that I've had

pwnd - i hate u i hate u i hate u

r9k