surrender ft. perfectly dismantled

i thought i was over it.wav FT. MATTHIAS

part one, of ‘still love.’ — a sonic documentary about the journey and effects of marriage, infidelity, separation, and divorce. through my mind’s eye and my heart’s bottom.

“everybody knows about you, Ra. my family. i talk about you all the time. am i crazy?”

mmmmmm

wedlock got ü tongue tied
up, tossed, tangled and tussling with mine
parting your thighs like comb to scalp
glossing between
the comb my gat
lemme braid your hair, gurl
le le legally u his
but regally we know
the stars aligned for this
again
i knew u before
i said, i, i, i, i, i knew u before
this love feels like we repeating it
like u was my wife in another life
and i wonder if on me you’d cheated then
don’t matter
let me braid your hair, woman
you my moon
eclipse me
cause i do, i love you

now the skies could fall, fall, f a l l

open to discussions about what this piece brings up for you. share thoughts and feelings in the comments. let’s dig deeper and open up wider for collective healing ✍🏾✨

filmed by NineKai
directed, edited, sound engineered, written, vocalised, and performed by me, RA YUKAWA

theyukawa.com — to share more about this project.

@ nothingforeign — to share on Instagram.

@ LordRasquiat — to share on Twitter.

@ rayukawa — to share on TikTok.

and i thank you.

still love.

sanaa of essex forest

sanaa of essex forest (no convo)

part one, of ‘still love.’ — a sonic documentary about the journey and effects of marriage, infidelity, separation, and divorce. through my mind’s eye and my heart’s bottom.

“everybody knows about you, Ra. my family. i talk about you all the time. am i crazy?”

mmmmmm

wedlock got ü tongue tied
up, tossed, tangled and tussling with mine
parting your thighs like comb to scalp
glossing between
the comb my gat
lemme braid your hair, gurl
le le legally u his
but regally we know
the stars aligned for this
again
i knew u before
i said, i, i, i, i, i knew u before
this love feels like we repeating it
like u was my wife in another life
and i wonder if on me you’d cheated then
don’t matter
let me braid your hair, woman
you my moon
eclipse me
cause i do, i love you

now the skies could fall, fall, f a l l

open to discussions about what this piece brings up for you. share thoughts and feelings in the comments. let’s dig deeper and open up wider for collective healing ✍🏾✨

filmed by NineKai
directed, edited, sound engineered, written, vocalised, and performed by me, RA YUKAWA

theyukawa.com — for more about this project.

@ nothingforeign — to share on Instagram.

@ LordRasquiat — to share on Twitter.

@ rayukawa — to share on TikTok.

and i thank you.

sanaa of essex forest (with convo)

Looking In (Mastered)

A summertime fling being obsessively led into autumn cuffs, “You too? Even you? (2020 Brut de Noirs)” is a palpable temptation of sexy, spicy danger. A mysterious match of passion struck. Masked intensity steaming from above devilish flames. An unspoken need-to-know and a rebellion of the unknown known. All of this, with deeply underlying distrust and the impending doom of betrayal. Distrust due to related trauma. Betrayal because of a deep need for communication within the romantic connection. It’s a muleta of emotions that make you wanna dance the matador of your heart to bloody death.

Part of my inspiration was Bachata, The Bay, and LA. Recently, I got into Anthony Santos and was moved by “Corazón Culpable”. It set my heart ablaze. I had the instrumental for “You too? Even you?” since 2020, unsure what to do with it, until I heard Anthony. I realised a need for expression of cloaked, brewing passion.

Lyrics / Letras:

Mami! (Ay, morena)
Simplicidad proporciona una fina línea entre elocuencia y llanura, ah?
I'ma need for you to say something, baby (Cuéntame)
I'ma need for, I'ma need for you to
I'ma need for you to (Cuéntame)
I'ma need for you to tell me all your secrets, for real (Háblame, dámelo)
I'ma need for you to
Yeah, I'ma need for you to

Sea lo que hagas (No sé)
Me mata el alma (Te escondes)
No, no me hablas (Traicionándome)
Y tú (Y tú, y tú, y tú)

Sea lo que hagas (No sé)
Me mata el alma (Te escondes)
No, no me hablas (Traicionándome)
No tú (No tú, no)
No tú, no tú, no tú

It's two ways, road paved, like so
Two-faced, masked up, could you take them masks off?
Two plays, double C's, too cool for the both
Eyes shady, blocking me like UV, but it snow
And it rain, cold water, ice suede
Too smooth for my love, so I see, so why change?
On the rocks, easy over, I don't know why I stay
You the avocado toast brunch to my OJ with champagne
But this ain't sunny California and mimosas give me aches
Like my heart when I think too much about the love we've made
In poetic tandem
You a very bad one
Sneaky, sneaky, love then leave me - what I do for that, huh?
Greedy, greedy, want to eat me like a meal or snack, huh?
Then spit me out for being too much of what you really want
Ain't that crazy? Or am I crazy?
Cause none of this done happened, but I'm thinking maybe, maybe

Sea lo que hagas (No sé)
Me mata el alma (Te escondes)
No, no me hablas (Traicionándome)
No tú (No tú, no tú, no tú, no tú)

Sea lo que hagas (No sé)
Me mata el alma (Te escondes)
No, no me hablas (Traicionándome)
Y tú
Y tú, y tú, y tú

I'ma need for you to say something, baby
I'ma need for, I'ma need for you to
I'ma need for you to
I'ma need for you to tell me all your secrets, for real
I'ma need for you to
I'ma need for you to

Tell me what you feeling when you feeling bout me
Tell me what you wanting, if you wanting something at all
And you could
Tell me what you thinking when you thinking bout me
Tell me what you fiending, if you needing nothing at all
I mean I
I popped a bottle, just to have a conversation
Opened up the glass, to open up your heart, for a start
Then I might
Swim in your soul, take a dip through your aura
Learn the shores of from which your true waves depart
Work of art, I said I
Love everything about your diamond mind
I find that I should show you how I feel with my hands
Understand, if we could
Release the inhibitions, I'll paint this world
Where you're my lady, and I'm fully your man
Pero perdóname

Sea lo que hagas (No sé)
Me mata el alma (Te escondes)
No, no me hablas (Traicionándome, yeah)
Y tú (Mm, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no)

Sea lo que hagas (No sé)
Me mata el alma (Te escondes)
No, no me hablas (Traicionándome)
Y tú, y tú, y tú, y tú, y

I'ma need for you to say something, baby (I'ma need to)
Tell me what you wanting, if you wanting something at all (I'ma need for you to)
And I'ma need for you to tell me all your secrets, for real
Tell me what you fiending, if you needing nothing at all, I mean I!
Mami!
Rasquiat, you know it

You too? Even you? (2020 Brut de Noirs)

You Too? Even You? (2020 Brut De Noirs)

Home

Looking In

Peace.
Uh...
It’s me.
I know it’s not cute to be a martyr...
So… I won’t be…

Smelling like this old house, until we’re moving.
Apple and maple bourbon mixed into it.
Patchouli and amber undertones.
DampRid can’t kill the time alone,
so I’ll burn this candle and an incense.
Cashmere essence on my clothes.
Crack windows and put my oils on.
Myrrh my pores, pulling all day long
until the nighttime comes…

Like sun to dawn,
kissing my cheeks.
This mirror’s blue.
Bubbles we blew —
yours grey, mines green.

Broken bulbs symbolise the darkness.
Cracks in walls, dirt on the frames.
These doors don’t close here like they used to.
Hell, some won’t lock or move all the way.

That deck out back! It’s falling apart.
Step out with caution, the wood is shaky.
Them damn termites and water bugs!
Nesting so sweetly, eating our foundation.

We got no shutters anymore.
The shed feels haunted.
And you wanna take a tour?!
Unofficial remodels —
clutching dust bunnies, giving wallets core…
And getting nothing, but we

smelling like this old house, until we’re moving.
Apple and maple bourbon mixed into it.
Patchouli and amber undertones.
DampRid can’t kill the time alone,
so I’ll burn this candle and an incense.
Cashmere essence on my clothes.
Crack windows and put my oils on.
Myrrh my pores, pulling all day long…

When the nighttime comes,
I hope I smell like you
and your home so built from the ground and new.
When the nighttime comes,
I hope I smell like you
and your car so clean and twenty twenty-two.
When the nighttime falls,
just put it all on me!
My house is old and my car is too!
When the good times roll,
just give me everything,
and I’ll pretend to live in sweet dreams with you…

I know you gotta go…

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Production — idly blare
Sound Engineering — RA YUKAWA
Vocals — RA YUKAWA
Songwriting — RA YUKAWA

sanaa of essex forest (with convo)

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