Metamorphosis

Flame

WICKED (prod. leto beats)

I'm Better (stripped)

suffocating cyber-nightmare of glitchcore, digital hardcore, and voidwave decay. Detuned synths stutter like corrupted prayers under layers of tape hiss and distant emergency sirens. The kick drags itself forward, crushed and half-time, as if wounded. Fractured 8-bit arps flicker and collapse, swallowed by tectonic sub-bass that rattles bone. A trip-hop beat sets the stage with lush orchestral strings and atmospheric pads, building a cinematic intro. Trap hi-hats and 808s drive a deep, punchy Memphis groove. Southern rap verses flow with orchestral stabs, while explosive, gospel-tinged choruses break into dubstep drops and choral swells. Ghostly, soulful baritone vocals command, blending the grit and intimacy of a live gospel revival with dark R&B edge, layering live crowd responses and organ runs to evoke a world-changing, electrifying experience.

#141 [single] "Giving This Up" [country]

Discarded

Novocaine

I'm not tryna die
I just I don't wanna be here right now

Woke up this morning didn't wanna be awake
Not in a dark way just needed a break
From being inside this head inside this skin
From the noise that won't stop the thoughts that won't end
I'm not on a ledge I'm just tired of my mind
Tired of pretending that I'm doing fine
I don't wanna hurt myself that's not the point
I just wanna disappear I wanna be a ghost

Not forever just for now
Need to breathe but don't know how

I don't wanna die
I'm just not here
Somewhere in between
Existing and disappeared
I don't wanna die
I just need a pause
Tired of being me
Tired of the cause
I'm not here
I'm not here
Body in the room but I
I'm not here

People say it gets better I believe that it's true
But what about the middle where you're barely getting through
When you're not in crisis but you're not okay
When you're just surviving every single day
Smile at the cashier laugh at the joke
Holding my breath til I'm ready to choke
I don't need a hotline I'm not at that place
I just need permission to not show my face

Not forever just for now
Need to breathe but don't know how

I don't wanna die
I'm just not here
Somewhere in between
Existing and disappeared
I don't wanna die
I just need a pause
Tired of being me
Tired of the cause
I'm not here
I'm not here
Body in the room but I
I'm not here

Is there a word for what I feel
Too tired to fake it too scared to heal
Not broken enough to ask for help
Just stuck inside a version of myself
That doesn't wanna do this anymore
But doesn't wanna walk out the door
Just wants to close my eyes and drift
Somewhere quiet somewhere safe
Somewhere I don't have to exist

I don't wanna die
I'm just not here
Somewhere in between
Existing and disappeared
I don't wanna die
I just need a pause
Tired of being me
Tired of the cause
I'm still here
I'm still here
Barely in the room but I'm
I'm still here

I'm still here

NOT HERE

Padded Room (Freestyle)

I know what to do
I just can't do it
My mind draws the map
My feet won't move to it
I'm giving my all
Just to watch it stall
Stuck on loading
Never moving at all
Dysfunction

DYSFUNCTION

Christian Country Soul Grunge Gospel Jesus Music Hip Hop Praise Worship contemporary R&b

I Was Stuck in Void, that I Couldn’t Avoid, written by Johnny B

Houston Texas but the pain made me. You can’t define me. I do it for the love of the game 🖤.  I have been working on and making music for over 20 years. I've put a lot of my older songs on here, but the most recent songs are new. I appreciate you and I hope my music finds you right where you are.

DYSFUNCTION

TriLL