life is pain cover (glaive)

im not doing very well, like at all, but fuck it we ball

I don't wanna feel anymore
I found my fucking body on the floor
it takes time just to look at all the doors
I want more, but i don't want war

there's chaos inside of my fucking head
the voice in my mind it wants me just dead
the demons inside crawl over my bed
every which side there is no defend

there is no defend
i lost all my sense
i lost everything 
to reality

tell me
tell me whats in my dreams
im caught in between
it gets hard to breath
(bro she was like my ecstasy)

i need therapy
or else i won't be here in 2 years
you never even made a thing clear
if thats how youll be 
then ill let it be

changes
they make you faceless
the shameness you hide your face in
everythings down i don't want say shit
with everything down what should i say next

took my happiness 
no, you can't replace it
done with all these lies, don't you try erase it
took my kindness for a weakness
don't mistake it
 
now I'm looking at the ceil-

I don't wanna feel anymore
I found my fucking body on the floor
it takes time just to look at all the doors
I want more, but i don't want war

there's chaos inside of my fucking head
the voice in my mind it wants me just dead
the demons inside crawl over my bed
every which side there is no defend

I Don't Wanna Feel Anymore

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/3QiamsgtxP85QNyd05zW1g?si=b3a01e6a1b9b4468

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[LYRICS]
i heard you poppin xans your new man
is a fan 
remember when you told me i wouldn’t understand 
look at you so pretty party girl city
think that you’re so witty it don’t even hit me 

cigarette ashes 
the way she look like an actress 
and all she care about is fashion 
don’t show an ounce of compassion 
i be in the whip going 95 feel the mother fucking wind 
my brothers by my side hold me down when i’m sick 
i ain’t trippin bout you no more
you love to hit me up when you’re bored 

i dont wanna play 
all these games no more 
why do you treat me like a toy 
Im not a a party boy
and the games over
don’t hit me right back 
when im on my own and im getting my bag 
hidden in the smoke off a fat zig zag 
talkin all that shit i forgot who asked 
@ily_turo:
i forgot who asked 
and imma leave you in the 
past tense 
i dont want you shawty 
imma leave you for the next man 
you asked me a question 
and i dont think i was listening 
you fucking up my mental 
and your making me use ritalin
you wanna take me in 
call it a cordial sin 
you want my body 
and my soul 
im not sure how to win 
you tried to take, take 
my soul away 
but i got solio behind my back 
we dont play games

cigarette ashes 
the way she look like an actress 
and all she care about is fashion 
don’t show an ounce of compassion 
i be in the whip going 95 feel the mother fucking wind 
my brothers by my side hold me down when i’m sick 
i ain’t trippin bout you no more
you love to hit me up when you’re bored.

thx 4 listening :3
mastered by Turo

PARTY GIRL

PARTY GIRL w/ Lxve Turo! [kimani + senoju]

tangled (bapop)

ruby

prod by me

enjoy 40 seconds of vocals and beat for the remainder

•lyrics• 
<3

I love you and i don't know what to do
(what to do)
Mental health is fvcked and it hurts you too
(hurts you too)
I dont want to be the bad for you
I just wish for us to stay true 

Bite my nails out of stress
I'm worried that you will <ǝʌɐǝ˥>
Change up your mind and say that you hate me
I dont mean any harm but i can't help me 
but i can't help-

Reaching my hand out 
But im dragging me down
Muffled voices in my head
They are getting loud
Should i even be proud
Locked up in my room
Im too scared to go out
im too scared to go out

scared

track 1/3
produced by mix
for jude
vocals inspired by sleepwater

miss you <3

lyrics:
mom say's it'll be okay, mom say's it'll be okay
she's hoping that i'll come home soon, she's hoping that i'll come home soon

i'll be home soon, i lost my friends, i'll be home soon, to make amends
i'll be home soon, shit i lost my head, soon soon, i'll be home soon , im not enough, 
i'll be home soon, its just a bluff, i'll be home soon, i fucked up life, soon soon, i'll be home soon,
home soon, i'll be home soon, home soon, i'll be home soon, home soon, soon i'll be home soon 
why'd i trust you, i'll be home soon, pine i miss you, i'll be home soon


i met a kind pine tree, oh i love you dear
you gave me strength to be myself with no fear
i freeze my tears
hold you close to my heart, so i don't intend on giving up
back to building up

i get up off my phone, i plan on coming home
im stuck inside my shell, im breaking out of hell

i'm stuck inside this shell
i'm trapped here in this shell
i can't live in this shell
i don't feel in this shell 

no i don't feel in this shell
i'm stuck inside this shell
i like it in my shell
i can't breathe in my shell

im breaking out this shell
im getting out this shell
im getting out this shell
im getting out this shell

thank you.

dedicated to sleepwater 
pine tattoo when i can
we love and miss you <3

home (interlude)

Prod. me

lyrics:
(and i try
i try my best to die
whats that look in your eye
i just can't get it right
tell me tell me why do you lie
whats the point of replies
cause i think this is good bye)

I can't 
sit around just to pass by
cause I don't want you on my mind
I don't like when you lie
how are you surprised
you do this every time
so why you change your mind
how are you picking sides

yeah hurts every day that you pass by
but i can't go without high
but your onto the next without why
yeah i just can't accept "bye"
and tell me what you want
everything I saw 
and I can't get enough
I don't know if it's lust
but its so hard to trust

i don't wanna go outside
i don't wanna go to the light
my
would you take my side
cause i can't take these lies
you just, tell me we'll survive
i can't, tell you can't lie, don't lie
those 13 reasons why
cause i can't

Waiting

pretend
produced by @bodydbl
featuring @lilskeleskrrt

lyrics:

farewell:

You can find me dead or alive
I'm looking for anything
Anyone
To tell me I'm clear
Stay to myself tryna fight the adrenaline
We're delicate, that's how we got here
Cut all the ties, it's not wise that we let em' win
But it feel better than being alone
I spend my nights in my mind tryna play pretend
Cause nothing feels better than home

skele:
Growing apart
I feel so cold
I wasn't built
To tear out my heart
And do it alone

So many times

Piece it together
Sat and wondered why
I wish you'd be next to me
I doubt that I ever still cross your mind
The thoughts so unsettling

farewell:

You can find me dead or a
I'm looking for anything
Anyone
To tell me I'm
Stay to myself tryna fight the adrenaline
We're delicate, that's how we got
Cut all the ties, it's not wise that we let em win
But it feel better than being a
I spend my nights in my mind tryna play pretend
Cause nothing feels better than home

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reasxns