redhorse

chamber pop +@1cambio

stream:
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/redhorse1/pathetic-feat-cambiowastaken

song will always have a special place in my heart
abt this girl giving me mixed signals LMAO

yuh
all these days go by
can't help but think of u
i jus wanna open up
maybe u don’t want the truth
staring at the sky
wishing upon a star
wanna be close but i sense the distance
have i gone too far?

take a second every time that u reply
i think u hate me
all these thoughts growing in my mind
drives me fuckin crazy
tear myself apart
why am i so pathetic
too scared to tell anyone
they'll never get it
SING IT W ME NOW

leng feature from 'asian man':
everytime i dont reply
dont think u get it
ur talkin 2me bout someone 
jus givin me a headache
i could give a fuckin shit 
of what u will be
ur callin me pathetic baby
idk the reason BBRRUUHH (NOT my idea
way 2late n i'm gettin hella messed up
down a whole bottle till im feeling rly fucked up
stumbling across my room
dont know what 2fuckin do
ur treatin me jus like trash
so i left u in the past

back2chorus

dont sleep on them flute trills tho

stream the mf song

pathetic, +norden rapta

uk garage my drilla

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idk what all this lyrical personal shit means go ask an english teacher or something-

verse 1
i just wanna have a talk
about how selfish i am
about how little of a man i’ve become
and you say there’s no rules
tell that to my mum and dad
cos their answers won’t be just for fun

prechorus
why can't i care about the big things in life
the words just drift all over my mind
a bubble i can't burst
could this ever get any worse
i tell them i’m fine

chorus
i put my headphones in
drown out all the bad shit
the fear of rejections getting ever so big
when the culture runs deep
claustrophobia kicks in
and i’m left tryna break this fucking ceiling

postchorus
i wanna tell them i care
but this pain i can’t bear
already tearing up as i write this song
i guess i’ll just man up for once
i’ve had more than enough for too long

verse 2
now i see myself decaying
why am i relishing in it though
i guess routines have their way around me
i feel these emotions fading
cut ties with everyone i know
can’t keep a convo cos noone feels real

verse 3
((rappity raprap))
eyes on my back i keep watching
they all wanna see me lose but i keep winning
do this shit solo don’t need nobody’s help
if u ain’t fuck w me i can only wish u well
say i ain’t normal when they wish they were weirdos
why i needa follow rules i ain’t got nothing to fear for
maybe this ego’s why i’m here tho

prechorus
why can't i care about the big things in life
the words just drift all over my mind
a bubble i can't burst
could this ever get any worse
i tell them i’m fine

chorus
i put my headphones in
drown out all the bad shit
the fear of rejections getting ever so big
when the culture runs deep
claustrophobia kicks in
and i’m left tryna break this fucking ceiling

postchorus
i wanna tell them i care
but this pain i can’t bear
already tearing up as i write this song
i guess i’ll just man up for once
i’ve had more than enough for too long

outro

if u reading dis comment something

headphones

ukg 2.0

stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/redhorse1/complicated

this song SUPER underrated
in an alt universe i'd be making this stuff by default

prechorus
it’s the worst when i run out of things to say
while i’m around u (awwww)
and i can’t bear hearing the ‘no’s or maybes
just say that i’m a weirdo (thats cutee)
go round in all these circles that i go crazy
thinking bout u (woooo)
and i’m fearful
that i’m nothing more than a talking point to u                          -----damn thats kinda deep :((

chorus
and i’m supposed to brush it off (YAS)
finding bigger fish in the sea (QUEEN)
but they don’t know that being me is a rather thankless job (SLAY)
i’m overdramatic (u bet)
shedding all these pointless tears -----> crybaby pussy ass
if only they were here and find out that they’ll never manage -yea bruh they cant be me

verse
well i’m not one to talk
but i might show forth
all my dark thoughts and inhibitions
desensitised
to this brick wall of mine
why can't things be complicated £+#)£what is this poetic shit ew
x2

back to the top xxx

'midwest emo on crack riff' by yvette young

complicated

cottagecore

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https://www.instagram.com/redhxrse

stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/redhorse1/peakdistrict

countryside type beat, aesthetic so cool dk if i could pull it off again tbh

verse:
all these long walks n self reflection (so tiringgg
a couple thousand miles but the air feels the same (does it? {¥©{
ik what i’m doing but why am i still afraid? (stfu pussy
let go of the need to control what ain’t mine
maybe you can show me what it means to feel time
cos every day i jus wanna rush to the end of life (ok dude

prechorus:
these country towns don’t welcome me
cos i don’t have what it takes to be
the ripped out donny on the cover of their magazine (chad?)
well, fuck em!

chorus:
cos u ain't peaked until u reach the district
it’s the place to think w no room 4 misfits
pessimist b4 but now things r a little brighter (brighter brighter brighter)
no-ones peaked until u reach the district
all these lovely mountains make ur world feel tilted
the gardens they all breathe 4 u 
they all breathe

break
saxman solo (city leaves, they’re oh so wilted x3)

prechorus:
these country towns don’t welcome me
cos i don’t have what it takes to be
the ripped out donny on the cover of their magazine (ahhhh#+#
well... fuck em!!!!! (THE BUILDUP BRO

chorus:
cos u ain't peaked until u reach the district
it's the place to think w no room 4 misfits
pessimist b4 but now things r a little brighter (brighter brighter brighter)
no-ones peaked until u reach the district
all these lovely mountains make ur world feel tilted
the gardens they all breathe 4 u 

i think i exist now. (so... what tf this mean

peakdistrict

'jazz' 2 +@whyhaze

stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/redhorse1/exhausting-feat-whyhaze

was sick when i made dis bruh, most underrated beat tbh

s/o villagers @rywrrd @1spoder @oroahh n goblin @spaadexd 4 adlibs in trumpet solo

v:
restrained emotion 
but i slowly let it out -_+_+ deep shit bro
my life is a travesty 
they just wanna keep me down ///sadd
get someone to murder me          &#'#'not suicidal dw£++£
cant bear to do it myself
i'm longing for ur touch
longing for the thought of us (redhorse pro producer tag omg)
let my mind bleed all over these walls
crying in the cubicle for way too damn long
the evil grows n it's so pervasive ))Big Words Bro((
can’t justify it this time maybe i'm rly goin crazy

c:
a-a-all these bitches
all these hoes (Yuh)
so exhausting
keeping low
never once have i ever thought of killing myself
b-but damn does it sound better than a life in this hell
all these bitches
all these hoes
so exhausting
keeping low
never once have i ever thought of killing myself
but DAMN does it sound better than a life in this hell

waiiiiiiiiiiiii hayyyyyyyyyze (s/o 00)

@whyhaze verse:
all these bitches all these hoes (songwriting moment)
hit my phone, but i don't respond 
cuz i still think you're the one
tell me if i'm right or i'm wrong
if i'm mistaken 
then who am i talking abt in these songs????
c'mon baby just grab my hand (NOT MY ASS SHUSH)
let's escape together to another land (YESsirr)
the only one in my mind is you, and you deserve that
baby, you make me feel cool
you lift all my curses! FAX

c:
all these bitches
all these hoes (holy moly
so exhausting
keeping low
never once have i ever thought of killing myself
b-but damn does it sound better than a life in this hell
all these bitches
all these hoes
so exhausting
keeping low
never once have i ever thought of killing myself
but DAMN does it sound better than a life in this hell!!!

trumpet solo init (w adlibs)

@whyhaze returns in the outro

exhausting

exhausting, +whyhaze

mv: https://youtu.be/qqQnSx04Rp8

@ccottrill
lil sc-only ting

feb 9 2022

between the gaps, i was swimming laps, got close to some epiphany. i'll convince a friend to join deep ends, have your toes touch the lack of cement... gather to one corner of the woods, echo chambers inside a neighborhood. in centerfold, humility shown, you're not as good as what your mama's sewn.

aren't you glad that you reside in a hell and in disguise? nobody yet everything, a pool to shed your memory. could you say you even tried? you haven't called your family twice! i can hope tonight goes differently; but i show up to the party just to-
.
.
leave...

https://soundcloud.com/ccottrill/amoeba

amoeba

'jazz' +@1spoder

stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/redhorse1/numb-feat-spoder

written circa nov2020 before redhorse was a thing,
back when i was still in school - still the saddest song i've written, limina may overtake tho-

lookin in the mirror, i don’t look too happy,
my room smells like shit, and i've got no money!
another one of those days, dead in my bed,
escape thru my phone, ignore what’s downstairs...
this time it seemed worse, what’s gotten into her,
i wish i had her energy, not being a sitting duck,
are my problems that bad? they tell me i’m too awkward,
sometimes i wish they’d expel me, then i might just be bothered
i know i say no, actually i want you here,
being a burden just hurts, but i need someone to see my tears
only downhill from here, i don’t wanna grow up
shoulda took a few pictures, i’d have shit to look back on
but no i’m a loser 
foggy path up ahead
maybe it’s time to wake up, 
talk to her instead.

solo

feeling audacious, might leave my bedroom
been the first time since i saw the full moon
they ask me why, i’m just following the rules
but i know inside i ain’t got anyone to talk to
bittersweet taste, brought it all on myself
just want the attention not the love, it makes me unwell
past few months i been sitting like a shell
sitting like an empty vessel drifting away into the ocean
island of my own, embrace the palm trees
escape from reality, i just wanna be me
move with the currents, fed up of self-control
hopeless for the future, got me feeling freezing cold
life has no winners, 
live a planless paradise,
sleeping in this limbo, 
no concept of time.

switch up

@1spoder verse, go get ur money up n follow him

had enough, i'm running out of patience
i'm sorry
can't figure out another way to say this
i really hope you don't keep me waiting here
i really hope you don't trap my mind with fear
i don't like who you are
cause i don't know where to start with you
i could travel so far
but i'll end up coming back to you
and i hate it
but i don't have the guts just to say it
walk without a head, think i'm brainless
you want my damn heart then go take it
i'll be here waiting
and it's all my fault
that i took it this far
guess i had it all wrong
and you are who you are.

2-5-1s am i right

numb

numb, +spoder

house-pop + fellow villager @lizablaise

stream limina album already: ffm.to/limina
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final lunge

maybe this life ain’t for me,
when i’m too used to scraping the barrel.
imposter in myself, it seeps,
every clique makes me the resident sparrow.
tried and tested method,
to be with them up there,
but i guess it’s not just me to save,
for the ones back home it don’t seem fair.

the shivers i get every time i feel pain,
are the only thing grounding this body of mine.
and i feel this burning in my eyes,
bright sensations of the sunlight,
it seems like a way out,
but i fall for it every time...

what have i gotta do to get me out of this shit?
it’s been five whole years n not a thing has changed!
feels like i've got too many eyes on me but no-ones watching at the same time...
what have i gotta do to get back my happiness?
i'm so sick n tired of listening to what she says!
is there a saving grace, one, where i don’t have to die?

@lizablaise limina queen slayed:
sure you knew everything, 
left all your troubles at home all alone in a box
you really think that's all that you got?
tried to explain to my mom and my pops 
but i'm late again for work so clearly it's all my problem
place all your bets on my chance of success
lace up my shoes put me through it again
the less you're letting me know
i'll carve the space out my own
and yeah, it's all cause of you
the reason i gotta prove

your expectations drove me down to the floor
i've tried but you ask for more
stuck sitting silently
i'm starting to believe you've got no way of remorse
burn through my time abroad
touchdown but still i find it odd
'cause who needs me here when the weather's much better up north?
done what i could to find what i find
all out of sight and all out of mind
a century of push and shove
tethered to the sky above
i don't want your sympathy
just remember me when the weight has caught up
soon or just eventually, we'll be back in place when the pain has washed off

what have i gotta do to get me out of this shit?
it’s been five whole years n not a thing has changed!
feels like i've got too many eyes on me but no-ones watching at the same time...
what have i gotta do to get back my happiness?
i'm so sick n tired of listening to what she says!
is there a saving grace, one, where i don’t have to die?

last breath...

limina

sparrow

sparrow, +liza blaise

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folk +@seannnfranco, @jdjd52

acapella intro:

maybe u don't see
how i can be
worse for u than i am for me
all these eyes they stare
when was life ever fair
lost cause? i'm the poster child right there
but i carry on?
but i carry on...

pithy phrases all i hear
buying paracetamols in bulk
just got to get past all the old folk
nirvanas ever so near
hope it’s as good as i’ve been told
do i carry on
do i carry on

go a country mile in these fucked up shoes of mine
spend a minute w me n you've lost all sense of time
playing w fire oh the situations dire
does the boy just ever stop
oh no 
he just carries on
as long as he never takes a look at his watch

@seannnfranco
road trips just to breathe 
a different kind of air
i'm not less guilty about using in the first place
i've been frolicking around in these stupid fields
guess i'll need everyone n everything to help me feel
do i go
or do i stay...
it’s a level up every time
was bogged down with the screens
now i'm higher up than i've ever been
problems only get smaller
no more needles in the heavenly hay
do i go?
or do i stay?

go a country mile in these fucked up shoes of mine!
spend a minute w me n you've lost all sense of time
playing w fire oh the situations dire
does the boy just ever stop
oh no 
he just carries on
as long as he never takes a look at his watch...

part 2

go a country mile in these fucked up shoes of mine
spend a minute w me n you've lost all sense of time

@jdjd52
.
i took a walk i need a breather 
calming down i wanna see her
shoes are tattered
car don't work 
i'm in the snow and i’m anaemic
here's my soul i dont need it
here's my change i don't need it
stuck in mud that looks quite like my ways
n i’m way too far gone
to be who u need
take ur fifth away from me
goddamn
.
go a country mile in these fucked up shoes of mine
spend a minute w me n you've lost all sense of time

outro

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countrymile

stream the mf album

countrymile, +sean franco, jd

wintry synth-pop

go stream the album: ffm.to/limina
my ig: instagram.com/redhxrse

'in medias res'

introooo

.

the news dropped, and i’m blocked from the inside.
sitting in pitch black just waiting for myself to cry-
why does it feel too easy putting on a smile?
it ain’t like the movies - no sad music, just pure silence now.

it’s like i split in two and they see one of me!
how selfish i am to share the load...
gone too soon, an utmost tragedy.
it’s better if nobody knows, i’ll deal the fatal blow.
don’t let them see or i’ll weep the whole world over,
cos maybe then they’ll let me fucking breathe.

i need to see what’s wrong with me.
my hearts slow, but i’m breathing too fast
the world’s in the wrong place, feeling no type of way
can't help but keep losing my trust, and i’ll leave myself in the dust
yeah, we’ll put it all down to fate - surely i’ll see better days...

call myself an actor, they say it’s nothing to cry about.
now i seem way more mild-mannered, the smile is lost but not yet found.
it’s like i skip two steps then go back three, normal emotions aren’t my thing, you see :(
anything i’d do to get out! get me out!
it’s a fucking ghost town, the busiest around...
these thoughts that run past meeee, can’t help but let them keep me down.
 
it’s like i split in two and they see one of me!
how selfish i am to share the load...
gone too soon, an utmost tragedy.
it’s better if nobody knows, i’ll deal the fatal blow.
don’t let them see or i’ll weep the whole world over,
cos maybe then they’ll let me FUCKING BREATHE AHHHH-

dwell in the silence and it's crippling
dwell in the silence and it's crippling
dwell in the silence and it's crippling

i need to see what’s wrong with me.
my hearts slow, but i’m breathing too fast
the world’s in the wrong place, feeling no type of way
can't help but keep losing my trust, and i’ll leave myself in the dust
yeah, we’ll put it all down to fate - surely i’ll see better days...

written a while ago, but it hits harder now.

silence

cloud rap whitearmor type beat

stream album 🤭: ffm.to/limina
s/o @bugs for helping w dis a while back

the long hilled climb
it stands like time
can't get my wheels to work but i still try

“the words don’t faze”
sent from the veil
in these london streets, hear them talk about the shell

i’m a wreck 
infatuation with the blue light
makin excuses that it’s just like the sky
take a stand
and the easel breaks
reality’s fabrics, they all reshape

is this what u wanted now?
reduce me to a puppet show
the birds, you let them do their thing
but it’s different when it’s all on me
appeal to all their wants and needs
higher ups keep sowing all the seeds
reach my hand out the rabbit hole
the cult just keeps their grasp on me

the seraph’s here
wipes all my tears
takes me away, the stars feel ever so close

the smile wavers
and i infer
the fallen wings look like the ones i know

i’m a wreck 
infatuation with the blue light
makin excuses that it’s just like the sky
take a stand (take a STAND )
and the easel breaks (oh no)
reality’s fabrics, they all reshape

is this what u wanted now?
reduce me to a puppet show
the birds, you let them do their thing
but it’s different when it’s all on me
appeal to all their wants and needs
higher ups keep sowing all the seeds
reach my hand out the rabbit hole
the cult just keeps their grasp on me
repeat! ( ◜‿◝ )♡

get a grip

mould

lofi outsider

stream the album here: ffm.to/limina

a surreal final goodbye
a liminal space was crossed
felt too physical
broke down from the inside
terrors of sitting still
then it all sinks in

stockholm syndrome
yearn for the ropes that tied my hands
had enough of the consequences
man i think i'm going mad
running from the thoughts
of shedding layers of my former self
secluded, curtains closed
open to noone else

this heart of mine is on a motorway to hell
and ik i'm of ill health, 
but if i can't save myself then who can
and all my senses separate
mindlessly celebrate with novocaine
and all of me is stained
make me a new man

heart of mine's on a motorway to hell
and ik i'm of ill health, 
but if i can't save myself then who can
and all my senses separate
mindlessly celebrate with novocaine
and all of me is stained
make me a new man

do do do do
make me a new man,
do do do do
make me a new maaaaan!
maaaaaan......

ecdysis

interlude

run up my album limina on streaming: ffm.to/limina 
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my bones
magnetised to this bed
it's perfect timing 
all my friends, they all left
but it's all okay
it's just my nature
all my life
never been nobody's favourite

tryna find my way thru this mental mud
n i say i'm fine when i know i'm fucked
by now i've gotten used to the eyes
when they turn to see n it's only cos they hate me
repeat !

i been reaching i been grasping
at these social straws for way too long
laying every thought out in these documents
this ain't a song
they keep saying that i'm losing sleep
n getting wrinkles but it's more than that
give a fuck about my sanity
can't ever relax

cos i keep burning all these bridges
stopped replying to a message
it's a fucking full circle moment
you're the ones in shambles
maybe the voice inside was right
since they left me right by the wayside
n it hurts talking to ppl
live a 24-hour bedtime 

my bones
magnetised to this bed
it's perfect timing 
all my friends, they all left
but it's all okay
it's just my nature
all my life
never been nobody's favourite

tryna find my way thru this mental mud
n i say i'm fine when i know i'm fucked
by now i've gotten used to the eyes
when they turn to see n it's only cos they hate me
repeat.

am i clean?

confessions

'90s videogame soundtrack
+fellow villagers @oroahh, @scrufff
+additional guitars from @billsburyjoeboi

stream on all platforms: https://ffm.to/charmerr

song abt extroverts n small-talk enthusiasts - i still dk how tf they do that socialising shit

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INTRO.

roah's verse 0:
who are these ghosts in my room?
they don't even care bout you...
they don't even-

talk…
i have to do this now! (nownow)
i can’t get out free this time,
imma leave with a sliver of doubt... (doubt doubt)
start talking till your brain gets fried! (｡ŏ﹏ŏ)
(run)
but nobody listens to you, (run?)
broke bones, then you left me beat and bruised! (run!)
bled out, split my heart in two... (RUN!)
now i'm just another ghost inside my room.

now run away
can't even stop
don't even speak here, we cant get along
now stay awake,
ya i'm not that strong.
i know that i can't live like this,
can't stall...

run- run- way-
can't even sto-
(you split my heart)
don't even speak here we cant get along -long
(im bleeding out)
now stay awake
ya i'm not that strong
(i can’t even talk noo)
i know that i can't live like this
can't stall
(they werent even listening from the start)

red's bridge:
and it's too late now,
it's way too late...
it's the last straw now,
i can't be saved.
if only u were here?
i'd be okay.
if only i had your charm?
i'd be okay........

.

MAIN.

crazyass refrain:
“know by now i'm not a ppls’ man”
repeat

(ayo cut the bs)

verse 1:
paradox when i think about u
just wanna get violent when i think about u
rude to stare but i don't rly care
ur the cause of my problems but now i’m the fool? (wtf)

chorus:
the days when we were wavelength surfing
refreshed n euphoric i was nervous
eased up well n the book started opening
was a mile away, couldn't see the subservience
it was crazy that u couldn’t have time w/o me
awfully clingy n bitchy but could never speak up
all they know is the weirdo they see
longed to be a charmer, the things i’d do to be one

refrain:
"know by now i'm not a ppls’ man" now w scruff harmonically moaning WWWWWW

scruff's verse 2 (HE FUCKING KILLED IT UGHHHH):
so, understand that i'm on again
say imma make him do the runnin' man
imma make sure that i win again
but i might just be onto something, new
i just wanna be something to you
pitchforks when i'm outside
i want a clean morgue when i die
i wanna see more with my eyes

verse 3 (back2me):
hate the thought of talking to someone like me
and i tell the therapist its more than anxiety !'?*'never taken therapy lmao
always the one to make the second moves
boutta run out of self-worth real soon
rely on me to always fuck it up
god i'm so done this life shit just ain't no fun
never hesitate to wait till its way too late
something wrong w me but i know i’ll just run

*redhorse pro producer tag omg*

chorus:
the days when we were wavelength surfing #)£!?* nah dis is deep istg
refreshed n euphoric i was nervous
eased up well n the book started opening
was a mile away, couldn't see the subservience
it was crazy that u couldn’t have time w/o me
awfully clingy n bitchy but could never speak up (=`{ literally me fr
all they know is the weirdo they see
longed to be a charmer, the things i’d do to be one

refrain:
"know by now i'm not a ppls’ man"
repeat

https://bulbapedia.bulbagarden.net/wiki/Charm_(move)

charmer

charmer, +roah, scruff

impressionistic ballad
influenced by francis poulenc's piano nocturne no.3

stream the mf album: ffm.to/limina

it's sad to know our souls are slowly drifting apart
is it something that we can help?
we're both adults, no use crying
i think we're supposed to be in hell
plethoras of mindsets i don't know who to believe
they say this n they say that, i'll just go n take my leave
the construct don't seem too bad, all i do is follow trends
i'm in love with the comfort zone, so what if i lose my friends? oh

let the rain pour
no use fighting
let the sands of the shore
go from my hand flying
flap my wings n let me soar
but ofc i feel it melting
with some elegance i fall
is there any point in trying?

i know that we ain't what we used to be
one year does a lot, doesn't it?
oh we're too similar, see thru each other's masks
me n mirrors, it's all too troubling
i know that we ain't what we used to be
one year does a lot, doesn't it?
oh we're too similar, see thru each other's masks
me n mirrors, it's all too troubling

about time, i hear it all crumbling

it's hard to accept that we no longer like the same things
confuses me to my core
oh so strange, oh so implausible, work of divinity?
all these prayers, they're in cahoots with my flaws

but i'll let the rain pour
no use fighting
let the sands of the shore
go from my hand flying
flap my wings n let me soar
but ofc i feel it melting
with some elegance i fall
is there any point in trying?

i know that we aint what we used to be
one year does a lot, doesn't it?
we're too similar, see thru each other's masks
me n mirrors, it's all too troubling
i know that we aint what we used to be
one year does a lot, doesn't it?
we're too similar, see thru each other's masks
me n mirrors, it's all too troubling
about time, i hear it all crumbling

shit just won't resolve

masks

stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/redhorse1/politely

everything by me

words

1, 2- uh,
i'm gonna interrupt
let u know i have all this medicine
n i'm not afraid to use it (woah)
yeah, doing all of this for fun
my patience is wearing thin
oh how was i so foolish

i see it now
i see it so clearly
sticky to the touch, ur hatred is deadly
battle w my mind 
we fight sincerely
polite but i win, what's next for me?

take a gander
see me for what i truly am
kiss me harder
it's the worst week i've ever had
running out from the hotel lobby
at my wit's end don't know what went thru me
repeat!

gotta realise
the extent that we’ve reached 
the windows were shattered but the door was unlocked
it’s not overnight
just don't say a word please
left it this long, now i'm singing this song

i see it now
i see it so clearly
sticky to the touch, ur hatred is deadly
battle w my mind 
we fight sincerely
polite but i win, what's next for me?

take a gander
see me for what i truly am
kiss me harder
it's the worst week i've ever had
running out from the hotel lobby
at my wit's end don't know what went thru me
repeat as usual

outro (fav part tbh)
stop calling my name
you feel so strange now
i'm going insane
you look so fake
how will i be okay
when all else fails
polite prevails
and i'll see myself out

politely

got botted, rly appreciate the listen, will help fix the algo lmao

comeback szn
+goats @ri4h and @boyromusic

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6H7fbCwleCPnvMHrVGhvdE?si=oSASDw-FQJaqyZLe7XyJCw&utm_source=copy-link

ig: instagram.com/redhxrse

fav drums i made

words:

sampled grigori from dragons dogma, all-time fav game:
"the rantings of an upjumped zealot make for tedious listening; his ilk serves no role in what is to come..."

verse
stare into each others eyes
cant find no surprises 
always sad when it's summertime
u left me in the water
i can feel my body drowning
u say its all my fault
ur a flicking light switch 
change sides all the time so

crazy chorus
i see all ur pieces
now ur tryna break me too
u took all of my feelings
now ur asking me to free u
making no damn sense
shit is so far gone
changing all my numbers
dont u call my phone 
yeah broken into pieces
now i gotta save me too

riah killed dis verse:
i cant focus on u
new scar like a new tattoo
i swear love is so overdue
since i met u
dont wanna do this shit again
i cant pretend
so why did u gimme ur heart
i never knew u would love this hard
but the feelings are so far gone
why couldnt u be the

one

another red verse
yuh
take all the chances i can get
uve been bruising me and fooling me 
no longer feel ur pain
now im seeing u so differently
how did i see right through 
drowning in ur mind games 
telling me ill see u soon
never gonna be your fool
ur love was never true
just another tool to be used now

crazy chorus returns
i see all ur pieces
now ur tryna break me too
u took all of my feelings
now ur asking me to free u
making no damn sense 
shit is so far gone
changing all my numbers 
dont u call my phone 
yeah broken into pieces
now i gotta save me too

insane outro from boyro:
babe wont u tell me that u need me
im in florida sellin demons
six speed im goin easy
i been searchin for no reasons
wasnt enough 
u still in luv
dont call my bluff
dont hit me up
im swimmin in ur curse when u look my way
doubtin every word when u say my name

pieces

stream da mf song

pieces, +ri4h, boyro

stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/redhorse1/presence

religious lament

sometimes i wish i never saw u
cos u make it too easy to fall down
shaking up all of my fabrics
ur antics got me stuck in the lost and found

dont even know what the story is
so much to tell but so little to say
and i keep running round in circles
i do so much just to keep me sane

i miss those days sitting by my piano
where i just played
n didnt cry myself to sleep 
or the simpler times
having a best friend in the sky
n now we can't even greet
but ur presence, it felt so timely
felt my body opening up
same questions asked
but they're not just for fun
anymore

take a trip to the waters
looking for a true reflection
and i know im not so loving
when it comes to living it begs the question

so much pressure to keep the peace
the things i say just to save my face
and i keep running round in circles
i do so much just to keep me sane

i miss those days sitting by my piano
where i just played
n didnt cry myself to sleep 
or the simpler times
having a best friend in the sky
n now we can't even greet
but ur presence, it felt so timely
felt my body opening up
same questions asked
but they're not just for fun
anymore

break

i miss those days sitting by my piano
where i just played
n didnt cry myself to sleep 
or the simpler times
having a best friend in the sky
n now we can't even greet
but ur presence, it felt so timely
felt my body opening up
same questions asked
but they're not just for fun

anymore

sometimes i wish i never saw u
cos u make it too easy to fall down
shaking up all of my fabrics
ur antics got me stuck in the lost and found
repeat

presence

end the year right

all plats: ffm.to/redhorse-anecdote

words:

felt like yesterday
that i had all these fucking words to say
i was free and all alone
no one was gettin in my way
keep on punching thru these walls
the clock keeps getting louder
bloody hands all up my face 
jus wanna tell u that im down there

n im wasting my time
putting those thoughts in my head
n i was reading ur texts 
try n feel some typa way
u know ur home to me
but i always pull the plug
from my reality
let you know now

that im way too fucking done
get me out this rut 
am i just another anecdote
another bit of fun
standing out here in the cold
stood me up with all them missed calls
they all look at me weird now
what am i here for   

break

no eye contact jus mind my business
mantras like dat were drilled into me
not enough for the cool ones like u
not soft enough for the nerds and geeks
odd one out, was a way of life
too hard to make friends thru struggle n strife
sat by the keys practicing bee thoven
before i couldnt say it right
every day i stare down the clock and dread the time ticking
mum tells me that im just being silly
cry on her shoulder im too scared to die
see pitch black it’s the last day of my life
like what would i do then
anything to get out this system
9 to 5 nightmare situation 
n now u fucked me up lets face it
lets face it

what is life 
when we're drifting apart
what is purpose 
when i cant fall in ur arms
asking all the questions 
what is all your rush
oh u distress meeeee

and im going insane!
having those thoughts in my head
thought u loved me in those texts
feeling all these kinda ways
u know ur home to mee
but i always pull the plug
from my reality
let you know now

that im way too fucking DONE
get me out this rut 
am i just another anecdote
another bit of fun
standing out here in the cold
stood me up with all them missed calls
they all look at me weird now
what am i here for
repeat

ty 4 listening, love all of u
also did sum actual non-midi guitar on dis 🫢

anecdote

2024lovesong (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡

all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/redhorse1/miracle

words:
show me ur pain 
i'll make u okay
wish u the best things in the world
make all ur knots go away

your glow's undeniable
appeared like a miracle
i grew up so lost with disdain
and then i met you

you make me care

you make me care

you make me wanna share

its almost unfair
x2

i was rude to all my friends
never made a single effort
bottled up all of this anger
went and lost all my resemblance
went and saw the grass be greener
i could never see it through
thought i couldn't lose myself more
all of a sudden i saw you

now i care

u did the truth i did the dare

i breathed again

pushed ahead 

but this time i took a break instead 

show me ur pain 
i'll make u okay
wish u the best things in the world
make all ur knots go away

your glow's undeniable
appeared like a miracle
i grew up so lost with disdain
and then i met you

you make me care

you make me care

you make me wanna share

its almost unfair
x2

outro

miracle

disco

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/redhorse1/expiry

am i different
do i seem the same as before
the clouds fall over and look down on me
i thought i drifted 
found greener pastures of my own
but i do the same things i always thought were weak

can't even look at you 
as if id deserve that pleasure
quieter than usual but im screaming inside forever 
that this love wont break by me
as long as u accept, im free

so many apologies
so afraid of their expiry
im a record beyond broken 
just wanna make u try n see
another day ive tied this knot
and u know ur all ive got
lost my voice
all these words im spoilt for choice
really have lost the plot

i know i did u way too wrong
what are u still w me for
close my curtains im not worth it
self-loathing is my calling
cant stop brick walling
now u think im distant
just wanna prove im intimate when i

can't even look at you 
as if id deserve that pleasure
quieter than usual but im screaming inside forever 
that this love wont break by me
as long as u accept, im free

so many apologies
so afraid of their expiry
im a record beyond broken 
just wanna make u try n see
another day ive tied this knot
and u know ur all ive got
lost my voice
all these words im spoilt for choice
really have lost the plot

expiry

stream on spotify

sep 2023 - absolute lowest, still healing

deep into the sky
as i live and breathe i just can't cry
the things in front of me i can't destroy
the people outside i cant say
cant control the things that ain't mine
when i cant even approach what's inside
its ready to flow, on the edge of my throat
like i'm back to where i was three fucking years ago
like i took two steps back and i'm at square one
the old mechanisms don't work anymore
the structure is gone and i don't see light
these words right here are what's holding me tight

from

that thing

that i shouldn't do

cos ppl 'love' me so i'd be the damn fool
and it burns
it keeps burning
watching whatever i can so i stop concerning

cos whenever i do its the most worst thing
and the glue all melts, the clean-up's so tiring
has it gone to shit, nothings started yet
just wanna leave this earth, find another place
where there's no pressure, nothing in stone is set
cos even moving this body's just a band-aid effect

it's the same same words
and the same same thoughts
that i keep thinking
and they say to console
that its all just wrong
and i'm better than that
but am i really tho

am i really tho

was i ever worth more than the sum of my goals
and its all about what am i achieving next
whether i've done this yet or i'm gonna do that
or i need more sun or i need more friends
and i keep confessing and letting it out
but i've been numb for longer than i've lived in this town

began as an abstract, but pervasive now
its in every object every facet of me now
had plans for today but they're derailed now
must be nice to be happy, to look down on me now

facet

welcome

stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/redhorse1/heavyweights-feat-spoder--cambi0

written by us 3, 
produced by me, 
mixed by me n spo

words:
heavy weights
messy days
there's no place to let this go
walls get closer, trapped at home 
crowded streets
now it's me
to find my own way out
to like my own self now

i see the trees all going by
the things i'd do to grow as much
i think to myself: "why can't i try?"
could i relieve my burden, grow w u
long for your hand, my humble abode
to leave with u than live alone

@1spoder
i walked into a corner store
the boy he worked, and worked some more
i had a twenty in my pocket
gave it cause his legs were sore
said, "do you want this for your life?"
he told me, "i'm just passing time."
i took the gum and walked right out
i knew he knew my hands were tied
he faked every moment
he loved you, i know
in the heat of the moment
those heavy weights crushed down on him
 
"i loved you, i'm sorry,
i hated my body,
i'll fix my whole life... yet i'm treated like a zombie."

these heavy weights, they're killing me
wash me away, wash me away
x2

@1cambio
jump before i look
i hesitate to fall
i keep on going faster 
as everyone else stalls
everybody’s crying
but i know we’ll be alright 
if everything was worth it
why second-guess your might 

skin the moment bare
i'll put it in a locket 
to hold when i'm not there
wish that i could stop it
feeling is a burden 
i sense it every time
they speak, but i done heard it
i'll end it with a line

i'll end it with a line

redhorse

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