sep 2023 - absolute lowest, still healing

deep into the sky
as i live and breathe i just can't cry
the things in front of me i can't destroy
the people outside i cant say
cant control the things that ain't mine
when i cant even approach what's inside
its ready to flow, on the edge of my throat
like i'm back to where i was three fucking years ago
like i took two steps back and i'm at square one
the old mechanisms don't work anymore
the structure is gone and i don't see light
these words right here are what's holding me tight

from

that thing

that i shouldn't do

cos ppl 'love' me so i'd be the damn fool
and it burns
it keeps burning
watching whatever i can so i stop concerning

cos whenever i do its the most worst thing
and the glue all melts, the clean-up's so tiring
has it gone to shit, nothings started yet
just wanna leave this earth, find another place
where there's no pressure, nothing in stone is set
cos even moving this body's just a band-aid effect

it's the same same words
and the same same thoughts
that i keep thinking
and they say to console
that its all just wrong
and i'm better than that
but am i really tho

am i really tho

was i ever worth more than the sum of my goals
and its all about what am i achieving next
whether i've done this yet or i'm gonna do that
or i need more sun or i need more friends
and i keep confessing and letting it out
but i've been numb for longer than i've lived in this town

began as an abstract, but pervasive now
its in every object every facet of me now
had plans for today but they're derailed now
must be nice to be happy, to look down on me now

facet

Someone Like You ft Kurtains

written & produced by valetical

lyrics:

(fuck)

i know it's hard, i know it is
i played my part, i lost my grip
until next year, i'm off that shit
want something new, i'm bored of this
and if you find the answer to my question
then let me know, i'm tired of living life unsafe inside my home

mom told me i'm a waste, and everyone tells me the same
yeah, maybe there's a reason why they left me
my biggest enemy is someone i don't know
i'm fighting for you back, don't think about me

now this is a story i don't wanna tell
it's like the end of a movie i haven't seen before
i've always lived for attention, why can't you see that?
i'm on my knees, begging for more

i know it's hard, i know it is
i played my part, i lost my grip
until next year, i'm off that shit
want something new, i'm bored of this
and if you find the answer to my question
then let me know, i'm tired of living life unsafe inside my home

mom told me i'm a waste, and everyone tells me the same
yeah, maybe there's a reason why they left me
(was it something i did?)
my biggest enemy is someone i don't know
i'm fighting for you back, don't think about me

(195.569)

war within

one of my last emoplugg songs for a while, a little old, but I really like this song.
r.i.p violet 💜
NOW on Spotify!: https://open.spotify.com/track/0DQADI98P7vjg3WO6nTWHS?si=6iq_rX3iTDODGhNri89TtA

vox for remix's n stuff!: https://drive.google.com/file/d/10MWsk1XA3Aegvh1LBOluNeM_Q7pxcvAW/view?usp=sharing (key: d minor -35cents, 142bpm)

Thank you guys so much for 70 likes!! ❤️ Shout out Niztopia!! 🙏❤️ Thank you guys all so much for real, it means a lot seriously!

prod. @decago x @makemeapromise
@luvvoko

lyrics:
I'm getting tired off it
I don't wanna fight
just leave me alive
I'm getting sick of it
you know that I'm right- want me to die
you showed signs of it
all the times loving
nothing to show for it
leaving all the love you gave for me. 2x

@luvvoko:
got nothing to show for yeah
ive got nothing to prove
you say that im so far gone
2 bands on my shoe
i say whats on my mind
you cant do what i do
i say that ill be fine
im looking for you
what did i do to you (𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙙𝙞𝙙 𝙄 𝙙𝙤 𝙩𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪?)
is there somebody new (𝙞𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙗𝙤𝙙𝙮 𝙣𝙚𝙬?)
what have i got to lose (𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙞 𝙜𝙤𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙚?)
move on to someone new (𝙢𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙤𝙣 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙣𝙚𝙬)

leaves w/ oko (decago & surgeon)

keepsake

[Chorus]
Girl, I call you when I finish up at work
And I promise to you that I'll make it worth it
And I'm sorry that I couldn't make it work when
You needed me the most and I was hopeless
Girl, I can make it up to you, I swear
And I can tell you find it hard
But I just wanna show you that I care
And I didn't mean to hurt you

[Verse]
I made it out the rough
I'll make it out again
This time I know my stuff
I said, "This time I think I'll win"
My mind was in the dump
My thoughts went to the bin
They told me something crazy, now
I know I just can't quit
And I know I made it tough
I know it wasn't fair
That I wasn't 'round for you
And I acted without care
I brought it up in reefer
I hope you understand
That I wrote it down for you
And I told you how I feel

[Chorus]
So I'll call you when I finish up at work
And I promise to you that I'll make it worth it
And I'm sorry that I couldn't make it work when
You needed me the most and I was hopeless
Girl, I can make it up to you, I swear
And I can tell you find it hard
But I just wanna show you that I care
And I didn't mean to hurt you

night at work

punk prod feardorian chlorinemist

fall apart

prod. kidhoodiee + anh + vnoahh + me

lyrics soon idk where there are

having fun + playing

prod me 
feat @omgemags @staggyucrazy
trap acai bowl the album soon

(emags)
you and me no we aint leaving each other
id be sick enough to see you with any sucker
you can go ahead and do it
if you tryna play me you will never see me lose it
if you tryna play me youll be in the club clueless
walked in that bitch, uh, already knew it
im burnt out , like shooting
girl you must know you messed up this time

(sloan)
tell me is it safe for me to go
its killing me i got to know
what we got there's no fixing it
cuz im not no affectionate
swear theres something in the way that you go about it
i dont wana kill the - wait i dont care about it
swear theres somethin in the way you uhh uhh
got the blue maybach that bitch a uh huh

(staggy)
come with me girl you fucking wit a chump
what are we? i dont know but we can fuck
on the E now we fucking up the club
dust off yo fuck me pumps
on the block witcho gucci bag crew
sniffing on the white tryna figure out the move
looking at the clock ima be there very soon
so dust off yo fuck me pumps

(sloan)
attract the change like magneto
im in the cut right with my dogs im not talking no fido
roll the blunt like a burritooo
took yo bitch on a scenic route im not talking no smino
i rock the viv like a jesus piece
boy you better stop that glazing like a meet and greet
i been on my shit like i been eating beans
they gon study me like a new disease

if you know me you know whats up
i pour too much up in my cup
cant be happy cuz winters up
and you know i dont like the sun (its too hot here)
im coast to coast man having fun
im breaking necks like 1 on 1s
all the shit i do is just for fun
so dust off yo fuck me pumps

FMPumps! (feat. Emags, Staggy)

@heyscirpy
@hiseph

lyrics:
you're fucking crazy don't you know?
that everyone is always watching when i say they don't
you tell me that im nothing but i tell you that i'm not
i'll wait for the bad omen to come circle back around
it's waiting just come look inside

i just wanna be something
eyes on me when i walk into the function
one call and the whole team rushin
no i'm not bluffin

i watch the blood drip off the fucking counter
when i'm screaming say it louder
i just wanna see you go

my mind is open but you'll never change
i'm so sick and tired of playing these games
i would play along but i know that you'll tattle
don't hurt me i'm fragile
what you said doesn't matter

my mind is open but you'll never change
i'm so sick and tired of playing these games
i would play along but i know that you'll tattle
don't hurt me i'm fragile
is this really reality?

@hiseph:
my broken heart recycled
i don't feel anything
i've been through everything
they talk like it don't matter
picking up what you shattered
my hands all filled with blood
but you don't give a fuck
it's like you never noticed

feelings crawl through my skin
and i know that it's wrong
but i'm just tryna dance in the moment
throw my heart in the bin
you won't see it again
try my best
and you make it so hopeless
oh bby, nooo
is this really reality?

facet

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