day 760 waiting 4 redize to use my face as  cover 💔

ft @lovecupid1
deleted @yukisasayaki song
dm cnaw discord for takedown
why did it blew up after 2 months

=== lyrics ===
[yuki]
i walk in, everybody laughing
blood on my wrist, i knew this would happen
don't even tell me that you care a single bit
cuz i know you're a liar and stupid fucking bitch
avoiding every gym class, just to hide my slits
yeah it's getting way too much, i just wanna call it quits
but you're sitting here beside me
i need you to like you give two shits
so stay another day
cause i love you girl to bits

[lovecupid]
i think that I like you a lot
i'm so plugged up on my phone
all i do is think about you
i don't know what to do
constantly
on my mind, think about you all the time
i just wanna talk to you, i dont know what to do
that's all on my wrist, talking here in this class
so you're talking to a different guy, why would you do that?
you said I'm the only one, why would you do that?
i think i'm obsessed with you, i think that's all I can do

[yuki]
i walk in, everybody laughing
blood on my wrist, i knew this would happen
don't even tell me that you care a single bit
cuz i know you're a liar and stupid fucking bitch
i walk in, everybody laughing
blood on my wrist, i knew this would happen
don't even tell me that you care a single bit
cuz i know you're a liar and stupid fucking bitch
avoiding every gym class, just to hide my slits
yeah it's getting way too much, i just wanna call it quits
but you're sitting here beside me
i need you to like you give two shits
so stay another day
cause i love you girl to bits

call it quits

everything by me
ft: @homesick2005

i dont wanna waste ur time
but u think that im ugly
and im a waste of time
so dont waste ur life
bc the girl ur waiting on will never arrive
how many times will you lie again
and ill lie awake
is it all in my head
i don't wanna pretend
why do u think its fine
when we're never alright
fill my head with ur lies
and leave me out to die

hate the way uu speak but ur always on my mind
hate the way i cry i feel like ill go blind
and all the words u say girl youve never been so kind
and you always act like ur just such a ray of sunshine
n now ur telling me i whine
girl ill never be fine cuz i wasted all that time for you
and now we're done and we are through

i hope that ur fine and that u've been okay since we've been gone from each other
i saw u on ur phone
yet u left me on delivered
why dont u go
and leave me alone

waste away w/ homesick2005

https://open.spotify.com/track/1NCucKNiA95f9yxt28FqpH?si=90441ae34bbe46b5
prod. deathsuppressant
lyrics:

you hate me
i dont know why
ive asked you like 1000 times
i just dont wanna be despised
and attacked for the things i like </3

i will be dead
alone inside of my bed
youll never see me again 
and it makes me so happy happy!
im so upset
because you want me dead
your hatred needs some rest
i dont know what i did
but im so sorry
im so alone
nobody hits my phone
your love is a hoax
it doesn't make me happy happy :<
i will be dead
alone inside of my bed
youll never see me again
and it makes me so happy happy!

i really miss your touch
is it love or lust?
every time my name is brought up you have a fuss
you tell your friends im dumb
when you see me you throw up
and i dont know how that is
cause we used to be in love!

like what the fuck did i do?
you said you love me 
thats a fluke
your a batshit crazy bitch
what the fuck did i get into?

no friends i need some buddies
when you notice me
i feel lucky

i just want a simple hi.
talk one time then say goodbye
i just want another life
dont bother me when im with my knife

cut ,cut, cut

i feel like im not enough.

i know you wanna spill my blood :/

so do it slowly

i will be dead
alone inside of my bed
youll never see me again
and it makes me so happy happy!
im so upset
because you want me dead
your hatred needs some rest
i dont know what i did
but im so sorry
im so alone
nobody hits my phone
your love is a hoax
it doesn't make me happy happy :<
i will be dead
alone inside of my bed
youll never see me again
and it makes me so happy happy!

why arent i happy happy? (p. deathsuppressant)

prod by me.

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/7wbR0GUy87PX2ujRKdFAWk?si=Oac_OlLBSMuAQ4XueFJF4g

heres some things that i hate about myself
like my name but some others find it tuff though
wish my mom just had us go find help
cause she said that she’s never letting us go
i never know what day it is
when i smile its meaningless
empty bottles and promises
kinda corny just deal with it

brown eyes black hair
they never said lifes fair
one leaves one cares 
now they're tryna get me outta here
I always go for the pretty girls
but bring them into my shitty world

an invite to nothing at all

prod by. me

Hey, I'm sorry
About what I said that night
I couldn’t stop you from running 
At your party
We might get some closure now
So can we just get to talking

I tried to get you back 
I'm drowning in your green text
And I'm just so upset

Party Foul

party foul

Face to the grindstone
my dry ass iPhone
you will never see me again

I wont forget every word you said
they were all so shallow

Face to the grindstone
my dry ass iPhone
you will never see me again

I wont forget every word you said
they were all so shallow

Ill shoot it
ill kill it
Im in my room reelin
cuz i have a noose thats hanging off my ceiling

a stupor
a boozer
A god damned loser
a disgusting gooner
who wants to abuse her

American dream white trash and two kids.
Your eldest son has slits on his wrists.
American dream white trash and two kids.
Your eldest son has slits on his wrists.

Face to the grindstone
my dry ass iPhone
you will never see me again

I wont forget every word you said
they were all so shallow

Face to the grindstone
my dry ass iPhone
you will never see me again

I wont forget every word you said
they were all so shallow

Face to the grindstone

sorry if im not enough
i try my best but i still suck
am i made to be a mistake?
im so useless

standing around looking for clues
cause i dont know what to do
im so stupid im missing screws
i messed it up its nothing new

life feels like a mission
and i dont wanna finish it
i live inside loops
because i cant learn nothing new
why am i such a mistake
wish i wasnt this way
even when i try my hardest
nothing ever turns out great

life supposed to be amazing
but i feel like suffocating
im so stuck just like glue
i suck at everything i do

its every time ive failed so many times
i give up i dont wanna try

am i made to be a mistake?

produced by @bloodsekai

i just rewatched ReLIFE and omg i love it so much i had to make a song about it 

lyrics:

im a stupid loser neet
from my problems i fleet
why the fuck did she end it?
shes the one i wish id be

ooouuooouuugghhhhhh
ouuooughh
ooouuooouuugghhhhhh
x2

ill restart my life!!
never forget about my times
ill restart my life!!
those memories will never diee
ill restart my life!!
i cant wait to do it
because i am a nuisance

im so glad rio asked me to ReLIFE
but im so sad that you had to fucking die
x2

im a stupid loser neet
from my problems i fleet
why the fuck did she end it?
shes the one i wish id be
x2

ooouuooouuugghhhhhh
ouuooughh
ooouuooouuugghhhhhh
x2

ill restart my life!!
never forget about my times
ill restart my life!!
those memories will never diee
ill restart my life!!
i cant wait to do it
because i am a nuisance

I'll restart my life!! || ReLIFE (p. bloodsekai)

[INTRO]
I feel it in my blood, running deep like a river
A shadow from the past, a weight I can’t deliver
Every step I take, every choice I make
Feels like a ghost is guiding me, forcing me to break

[VERSE 1]
My father’s eyes warned me, his silence spoke loud
Every generation before me, bowed under the shroud
I try to fight it, but the chains are unseen
I’m born with this burden, caught in what has been

[PRE-CHORUS]
I scream to the heavens, I cry to the night
Why am I chosen to bear this fight?
It’s not my sin, it’s not my crime
Yet I carry it heavy, all the damn time

[CHORUS]
I’m carrying an ancestral curse, stitched into my bones
A fire in my veins, I’m haunted, I’m alone
Every heartbeat reminds me of the debt I can’t reverse
I’m carrying an ancestral curse, can’t escape this hearse

[VERSE 2]
I’ve seen the faces of those who came before
Their laughter cut short, their dreams no more
I feel their whispers when the night gets cold
Telling me their stories, secrets left untold

[PRE-CHORUS]
I run, I fight, I fall, I rise
But this curse clings tight, it never dies
I’m a son of the past, chained to their fate
Trying to find my own life before it’s too late

[CHORUS]
I’m carrying an ancestral curse, stitched into my bones
A fire in my veins, I’m haunted, I’m alone
Every heartbeat reminds me of the debt I can’t reverse
I’m carrying an ancestral curse, can’t escape this hearse

[BRIDGE]
But maybe I can break it, maybe I can bend
Take the pain of the past, and turn it to my friend
I’ll light my own fire, carve my own name
Rise above the shadows, break free from the shame

[FINAL CHORUS]
I’m carrying an ancestral curse, but I won’t fall
I’ll take this burden, and I’ll stand tall
Every heartbeat fuels me, every tear makes me strong
I’m carrying an ancestral curse, but I’ll rewrite the song

[OUTRO]
I hear the ancestors whisper, but now I understand
I’ll honor their struggles, but I’ll walk my own land
The curse is in my blood, but so is the fire
I carry it with pride, I carry it higher

Carrying an Ancestral Curse

me

i'm so stupid
i just wish that you would notice me
i crashed my car off of a bridge
so that you'd see me on tv
i know that u don't care at all
i hate myself i wanna end it all

i wish i meant something to u
i love u but u don't have a clue
killing myself so that you'd see me 
in a dark place ur all that i need


camp

i hate it all and it's my fault
i thought u did me all so wrong
i thought u needed me but i needed to hold on
where did it go wrong
i stay in bed and i sing these songs
"i hope u die" that's what i sent her
it's one more message left delivered
u took my skin away
i rot alone for one more day
i'm not the person i used to be
why do u waste your time on me?





i wish that you would notice me ft spawncamped

instrumental: @bloodsekai
vocalists: @bloodsekai + @vedbend + @/yukisasayaki

halloween inspired song from last month, please enjoy to your desire. (sorry for the lack of uploads, i've been making too much music and not finishing any of it...)

--- lyrics: ---

i spent several days
talking to myself
when'd i get this way?
how do i get out of this dream?

empty syringe, my room swaps places
eyes move around, i'm too stimulated
look in the mirror, my heart starts racing
don't recognize my face, i'm a monster now
i spent several days
talking to myself
when'd i get this way?
how do i get out of this dream?

was it always this difficult to think?
what's different now, is it me or the mirror?
i imagine the greys and blacks within
turned me into a freak, a monster that just cries and weeps

empty syringe, my room swaps places
eyes move around, i'm too stimulated
look in the mirror, my heart starts racing
don't recognize my face, i'm a monster now

(i spent several days
talking to myself
when'd i get this way?
how do i get out of this dream?

+ layered with vedbends part)

i try to run away
i couldn't move at any pace
as tears fall down my face
my teeth are falling out
i guess i'll drown inside my doubts
i always cry and pout 

empty syringe, my room swaps places
eyes move around, i'm too stimulated
look in the mirror, my heart starts racing
don't recognize my face, i'm a monster now
i spent several days
talking to myself
when'd i get this way?
how do i get out of this dream?

carve out my eyeballs treat me like a pumpkin
rip my guts out baby i feel nothing
u wanna put me on display i guess thats something
i'm a puppet baby put me on your strings
ur always in my head like the axe in my skull
but u always want me dead i'm so fucking tired
baby pass the pliers
i'll dismember my body n ill put it onto wires

empty syringe, my room swaps places
eyes move around, i'm too stimulated
look in the mirror, my heart starts racing
don't recognize my face, i'm a monster now
i spent several days
talking to myself
when'd i get this way?
how do i get out of this dream?

an invite to nothing at all

redize

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