Originally was a @katiekross song titled 'assisted suicide' then I realized how corny that sounds

When the time comes around
Will you still want me for who I am
When the day gets cold and boring
Will you still want me for who I am

A fantasy where I went missing
I daydream about it
Thank you God for abandoning me
I got what I wanted

I forget how old I really am
And I use that as an excuse to be stupid

Daydream

prod @lyn_u
cover art @trustt

@lyn_u
i got 2 racks on my body i got 2 racks for my twin
i cant switch up on nobody thats a mf sin
i feel like im chosen bitch all i do is win
dropped a bag on these jeans then i do that shit again
i just walked right out the bank boy i dont gotta play pretend
i got money coming fast bitch i cant even count to 10
i just walked right out the bank boy i dont gotta play pretend
bitch dont hit me up again boy im not ur fucking friend

@trustt
if i cut you off throw you out and you still complain
this is why i dropped you little bitch  don't taint my name
showing my true colors i hope god decide my fate
breaking through the canvas when i spray em i see paint
i got jewels on my body and especially my waist
that percent of hating i got all of in my bank
all that time you wasting i can tell you got no play
im so done with winning i got nothing left to say 

@deepinparis
if you cant catch all this shit im saying you not listening
how am i supposed to count these racks when i cant count to 10
i just took a break to come back better than ive ever been
ive been going too damn hard i need to ease it up a bit
i got so damn rich remember the day it clicked
you said you think its out of reach i know it never is
maybe you wouldnt sound so bad if you put effort in
when i get up on the mic im leaving an impression bitch

2023 
ifykyk

@7akkiro @trustt @orochimara @3six03six03six0

lyrics
[@me]
im a real mf i wont code switch
they like trin you the mf chosen
cut that boy off if he talkin bout an open
im with @trustt on the block and we posted

yea, i dont give no fuck, riding wit my team
bitch im outta blunts, bitch i need sum weed
talkin bout a gun, bitch i tote that beam
bitch im #1 , that's why you just copy me

bitch you want my swag, so you bite it
walk around the store ima buy it if i like it
everything is punch in, ion ever gotta write shi
cut off stupid bitches, cause they changing like the climate

[@7akkiro]
u aint fw us 
bitch get out the way
we got new money
i put all my old shit in the safe
all these- all these ppl switch up
mane they all sum fakes
know i said i couldnt do it
i got too much on my plate yea
i been smoking double dutch 
with my brodie yea we clutch
say they wanna be me
im on top its js my fuckin luck
i dont really get it 
pockets full of all the spinach
i js do ts for fun
who woulda thought i was the one yea


[@me]
woahhhh 
do not call my phone
i be on sumn drill shi do not tell a soul 
coke inside my nose
balenci my clothes
she said dat its not fair
cause i keep these hoes

im off drugs, yuh
glocky tucked
diamonds in my blunt
that shi give a rush, yuh
make em run
i got hella funds
tab up on my tongue
i dont give a fuck

yea, i dont give no fuck, riding wit my team
bitch im outta blunts, bitch i need sum weed
talkin bout a gun, bitch i tote that beam
bitch im #1 , that's why you just copy me

bitch you want my swag, so you bite it
walk around the store ima buy it if i like it
everything is punch in, ion ever gotta write shi
cut off stupid bitches, cause they changing like the climate

[@trustt]
bitch dont come around
i just wanna have fun
im not shy to take some drugs
tabs under my tongue
we're just having fun
bitch we're number one
we just have begun
pay attention

if im pissed off
all my brothers got me
all my sisters, all my brothers
yeah they got me
even from afar
bitch they're still my day ones
if i die today, throw a party
and then pop one

i dont tend to switch up, dont do that again
i dont tend to switch up, dont do that again
i dont tend to switch up, dont do that again
i could never switch up, up, on my friends

still won't switch ft akkiro & trustt (mcb)

project file https://payhip.com/b/oK2GL

prod @lyn_u @2rel
featuring @cruseyyyy

lyrics
[@me]
ima keep on runnin
yea my bank is filled wit hunnids
new friends ya they keep on frontin
i take drugs becuz i love it
cut that btc off i aint cuffin
i dont rlly do that love shi
ima need another substance 
shoot shi like im andre drummond

yuh
rolling a wood, taking that shi to the face
cloning me boy you is copy n paste
i got a pole n its tucked in my waist
cartier spent a rack on these frames
old friends keep saying i changed
fuck that i just cut off the fakes
whole lotta guap and its coming my way
free my twin out the cell
unlimited money don't tell
she wann a tell me she love me (love me)
i said btc, oh well
i cant kiss and tell
wipe my tears w half a mill
i got lean i crack the seal
shoutout twin we in the field

free lil mikey out the slam
you want a feat thats gon cost you a band
8 figs ya we counting up m's
broke boys tryna get on the trend
posted w twin in the benz
fuckin that btc and she bringin her friends
do what i want, and you do what you can
hitting a lick than im hopping the fence

[@cruseyyyy]
i just made a bag im goin state 2 state
me n trin up on the block we ballin in the paint
i wont do yo verse boy dat shit just a waste
yea im goin mia they all know my fucking face
yea no complaints no i can not relate
ur stuck up in my brain u still act like ur a saint
i try to runaway shoulda know i cant escape
i want a cleaner slate dont know how much more i can take

[@me]
free lil mikey out the slam
you want a feat thats gon cost you a band
8 figs ya we counting up m's
broke boys tryna get on the trend
posted w twin in the benz
fuckin that btc and she bringin her friends
do what i want, and you do what you can
hitting a lick than im hopping the fence x 2

love it ft crusey (lyn_u & 2rel)

prod me
s/o advxrse the goat and alt0 the goat

lyrics:
ball up takin pics with a zip
i ain never goin switch up for a bih unless we click
vetement on my cover yeah ill see you on my kicks
shootin like im Curry in the paint, I never miss 

oh im missing out
your words, your stupid sounds
my heart just filled with doubt
no i can make it out (x2)

keep the music going, i aint tryna hear myself tonight
askin when we starting, tryna get there early for the night
im just hoping all pieces fall right down
im jst hoping that we could work this out

girl you threw away the keys to my heart
your words hit the spot just like a bullseye to the dart
if you wanna restart we could always fall apart again

makeitout

prod me

you took it all and left
no baby i'm so tired of the way you make me feel
my life has been hella boring
look at me i'm a fucking mess
i lost all capabilities of making something right
i'm starting to think the worst
i know it's not healthy but this feeling is a curse
i liked when we talked about the shit that made you laugh
now i'm stuck on the little things i'll wait until i crash
who will take the blame?
if i look back in two years am i the same?
yeah i love my life because i treat it like a game
everyone that I've ever encountered is insane (but who am i to-)
at the end of the night
i miss how you liked
i know its not right but it keeps me up all the time

took it all

fun song for fun times
original https://soundcloud.com/lyn_u/deathwish
produced by me

lyrics:
im longing for the end, i dont wanna breathe ur air
and if i have to make a sacrifice dont sit & stare

when the bands all back together i wanna see them 1 more time
i got problems with attention always reading past the signs
i keep telling myself everythings alright but its a lie
if u hate urself so much why dont u end it all tonight
fucking up my body cause im never satisfied
im a psychopath when i walk in im carrying a knife
dont get influenced they told me but i never even tried
if u hate urself so much why dont u end it all tonight

u kept ur friends and stayed the same i wonder what its like
i been holding onto nothing i just wanna feel alive
screaming at myself he wont answer when i cry
if u hate urself so much why dont u end ur fucking life

i know what u want, i know what u
i know what u want, i know what u
i know what u want, i know what u
i know what u want, i know what u
fucking up my body cause im never satisfied
im a psychopath when i walk in im carrying a knife
dont get influenced they told me but i never even tried
if u hate urself so much why dont u end ur fucking life

i dont need a reason bitch i been moving reckless
everyday i wake up with a target on my chest
they tell me its just a phase they tell me that ill regret this
i dont need a reason move like i got a deathwish
i look in the mirror i see a stranger
if i lost control of myself would it even change ya
eyes blacked out i got too used to the danger
if i tap out would they just write off my anger

when the bands all back together i wanna see them 1 more time
i got problems with attention always reading past the signs
i keep telling myself everythings alright but its a lie
if u hate urself so much why dont u end it all tonight
fucking up my body cause im never satisfied
im a psychopath when i walk in im carrying a knife
dont get influenced they told me but i never even tried
if u hate urself so much why dont u end ur fucking life

deathwish /​fun mix​\

april 2025

when i was younger, everybody seemed much older to me
now life is changing and i don’t believe anything i see
farewell, i always knew that you would make it out
i’m still going but as time goes on, the silence gets loud

are you glad that you met me now that we’re friends?
i always pictured myself with you until the end
i put my whole life at risk ‘cause i tried to fit in
family taught me what i know, they taught me everything
i end up starving myself, breaking my fucking hands
they never taught me to stop being codependent

i put down the guitar
sing to myself in my bed as i’m sinking in
i never thought it’d be hard
and when he passed, i had tried to breathe it in
who knew that life would be like this?
my old friends told me i’m psycho, and i didn’t like it
and i try so hard, i’m always trying to fight it

are you glad that you met me now that we’re friends?
i always pictured myself with you until the end
i’d rather kill my best friend than take my fucking meds
family taught me what i know, they taught me everything
if only i would’ve told them i’m a fucking mess
i could’ve learned how to stop being codependent

Codependent

shoutout twin @1kayro

lowkey emerald herald sucks my favourite firekeeper is maiden in black... for normal reasons...

words:

not again, asked 100 times
can u get this shit out my sight
i dont really want it, i dont want advice
but i dont really wanna cry

im bleedin out
u cant see me now
i cant be without you
i cant be without you
i cant be without-

yeah i need it bad
this the typa shit i dream about
when im not with you
when im not with you

know i shouldnt ask
but would it hurt so bad
if you took your time
just dont take whats mine

im bleedin out
u cant see me now
i cant be without you
i cant be without you
i cant be without-

majula [p. kayro]

prod @qlein

am i an idiot
can you say it to my face
am i stupid
im sorry if im late

everybody else seemed to know before me
you dont have to worry youre not doing it for me 

why are you still holding that grudge
baby are we doing too much
i cant help but think that you dont wanna talk
can you promise to me that youll prove me wrong

do you know if im running out of luck
tell me you dont wanna talk fair enough
can you stay for a little i dont ask for much

---

can you tell me where to go from here
im lost im afraid i cant act from fear
dont dogs act weird when the end is near
how do i react to your tantrums

fuck
i dont wanna go home
cant keep up god i feel so slow
no it's not that bad, im overreacting
it's that bad its the right reaction

am i an idiot
can you say it to my face
am i stupid
im sorry if im late

everybody else seemed to know before me
you dont have to worry youre not doing it for me 

wtf am i doing 
2 minute song fuck the mind that im losing 
youre a hypocrite telling me these lies and im sick of it
i needa take a break cause ill never hear the end of it

Codependent

red letter diary