I know what we were… and what we weren’t allowed to be.
Still, those stolen hours felt like home to me.
Laughing in the quiet, naming kids we’d never meet…
I lived a whole life with you between the sheets.

You’d talk about what freedom meant… I’d pretend it was near.
You’d take my hand like the choice was clear.
I wasn’t proud of wanting you the way I did…
but wanting you was the only thing that ever felt real.

I wasn’t angry…
just wishing the world had opened for us.

It’s you… in the life we almost made.
It’s you… in the plans we never changed.
It’s you… in the vows you couldn’t break.
It’s you…
it’s you…
it’s always you.

I never blamed your heart for staying where it stayed.
But God, I hoped you’d choose me anyway.
Every goodbye felt like the wrong ending…
and every return felt like a promise we couldn’t keep.

It’s you… in the future I still see.
It’s you… in the place you couldn’t leave.
It’s you… the life that slipped from me.
It’s you…
it’s you…

If wishing was enough, you’d wake up beside me.
If love rewrote the rules, you’d have stayed.
If the world was kinder with its timing…
you’d be mine.
You’d be mine.

It’s you… the door that stayed closed.
It’s you… the life I still hold.
It’s you… in every version of hope.
It’s you…
it’s you…
it’s you.

it’s you…
always you…

it's you

I’m in the car again, telling myself don’t go in.
Hands shaking, breath thin…
I say it twice, then again…
Don’t go in.
Don’t go in.

But your light moves under the door…
and something in me breaks like before.

Even then… I reach for the handle.
Even then… I lose the battle.
Every warning dies right where I stand.
Even then…
even then…

I tell myself leave, leave, leave.
But you breathe and I believe, believe, believe.
The ring on your hand, the truth in the air…
I shouldn’t go in.
But you’re there.

I hear my heartbeat in the glass…
I know this moment never lasts…

Even then… I climb the stairs.
Even then… I don’t play fair.
I walk into the fire again.
Even then…
even then…
even then…

There’s a version of me that stayed in the car.
But he’s never the one who gets this far.

Even then… I cross the line.
Even then… your hands find mine.
I know I shouldn’t…
but I step in.
Even then.

Didn’t need to be inside.
Could’ve been the truck,
or that hidden spot on the roof.
Seeing you walk into the parking garage
made it all worth it.
Even then I didn’t care what happened,
as long as we were together.

even then

I lose myself in corners of my mind…
things I knew, things I can’t find.
Your voice, a flicker in the cold…
and then I’m gone…
lost in the fold.

Nothing holds.
Nothing holds.

Days blur out like stolen light.
I chase the shapes that leave the night.
Reaching out for what I knew…
it slips away
like it always
does with you.

We’re lost in the fold where the quiet grows.
Held by the dark no one else knows.
Carrying weight we never told…
falling again,
lost in the fold.

I fade…
I fade…
and I don’t fight it anymore.

Lost in the fold where nothing stays.
Lost in the space between our days.
If there’s a way back, I’m letting go.
I fall beneath…
and sink below.

lost in the fold

The night is quiet but feels so loud
We walk alone under faded clouds
The stars are dim with no place to shine
We fall into the space we leave behind

We reach for light but it’s too far
Lost in the shadows of who we are
The quiet pulls us to the ground
And nothing we knew can now be found

In the space we leave behind
We lose ourselves and all we find
The echoes fade but still they stay
It’s in the space we drift away

We stand beneath the endless sky
The weight of time keeps drifting by
The space between us pulls apart
And leaves us with a broken heart

The stars above no longer care
We try to speak but there’s no air
The silence grows and holds us still
Lost in the space against our will

In the space we leave behind
We lose ourselves and all we find
The echoes fade but still they stay
It’s in the space we drift away

In the space we leave behind
In the space we leave
In the space we
In the space
In the space we
In the space we leave
In the space we leave behind

In the space we leave behind
In the space we leave behind

space we leave behind

I feel the cracks beneath our skin,
The quiet shift where it begins.
The weight we carry starts to fade,
And all that’s left begins to fray.

It’s slipping through our open hands,
No reasons left, no final plans.
In the shadows, we see the fall,
Breaking apart without a call.

Entropy’s calling, I feel it near,
Everything fades, everything disappears.
Pieces break down, but we stay still,
The weight is heavy, and it always will.
Everything falls, everything spins,
It’s entropy falling within.

In quiet rooms where silence reigns,
We fade away like forgotten names.
It’s always there beneath the skin,
Entropy breaking from within.

Entropy’s calling, I feel it near,
Everything fades, everything disappears.
Pieces break down, but we stay still,
The weight is heavy, and it always will.
Everything falls, everything spins,
It’s entropy falling within.

Maybe the fall is how we break,
Maybe the cracks are ours to make.
Through the void, we try to stay,
Falling apart, but it’s the only way.

Entropy’s calling, I feel it near,
Everything fades, everything disappears.
Pieces break down, but we stay still,
The weight is heavy, and it always will.
Everything falls, everything spins,
It’s entropy falling within.

entropy falling within

This is where it started for me.
Quiet courtyard. Empty seat.
You looked up once…
and everything shifted in me.

First time we sat with no one around.
First time the world stopped making sound.
Your eyes held mine like a secret vow…
I’m still living in that moment now.

I should’ve stayed still…
but my heart leaned in.

It was the first time I knew.
First time I fell into you.
Didn’t understand it, didn’t need to.
Just the first time…
the first time…
and I never got through.

Something opened in me that day.
Something I couldn’t push away.
Courtyard sunlight, your quiet face…
I swear I still stand in that place.

If I had known how far I’d fall…
I’d still walk toward you.
Every time.
Every time.

It was the first time I knew.
First time my world came unglued.
Didn’t understand it, couldn’t undo…
That first time…
that first time…
and the way I loved you.

First time…
first time…

first time

I set down two cups, still pouring for you
Morning light falling where your shadow once grew
Even the silence pulled up a chair
And just like that… you weren’t there

Just like that — your name lost its sound
Just like that — our song came unwound
I blinked and the echo was all I had
You left with a whisper…
just like that

The keys on the counter, your coat on the chair
As if you’d return from a breath of fresh air
But hours turned days, and none turned you back
The door stayed closed… just like that

Just like that — the world came undone
Just like that — we ended mid-run
The future fell silent, the stars never cracked
Love turned to silence…
just like that

There was no scream, no crash, no fire
Just breath between us… and then none
I still sleep facing your side
Hoping the night will undo the sun

Just like that — the page won’t turn
Just like that — the ache still churns
You disappeared in a single act
No goodbye, no reason…
just like that

just like that

just like that

The second you walked in, something broke in me,
A shift so quiet, I could barely breathe.
Your eyes touched mine, and the world fell wide,
Like something I’d locked down finally slipped outside.

I felt the guard I’d built start coming undone,
Walls I swore were solid turned to none.
You didn’t say a word, but I still fell through,
One moment… and I was already tied to you.

I didn’t want the fall… but it found me.

A moment unwinds… and I feel the break,
A fault line moving with every breath I take.
You stepped inside a place I guard like skin,
And everything shifted… deep, within.
Whatever strength I had before that night,
You rewrote it in one unspoken light.

I wasn’t ready for anything real,
But you tore the truth out of what I’d conceal.
A spark, a silence, the smallest sign…
And suddenly your story was tangled in mine.

I fell for you before I had the chance not to.

A moment unwinds… and I feel the break,
A fault line moving with every breath I take.
You stepped inside a place I never show,
And everything shifted… slow, so slow.

A moment unwinds… I still feel the tear,
The soft beginning of something I couldn’t bear.
You opened a door without even trying…
And I’ve been unraveling from that moment’s timing.

A moment unwinds…
and I’m still inside it.

a moment unwinds

The way you look at me… it knocks the air out.
I try to play it calm, but I’m breaking in the doubt.
You see straight through the parts I try to hide,
And I hate that you can read me from the inside.

I don’t fall easy…
but something in me slipped.

There’s a hurt in the way you look at me,
Like you’re holding back something you won’t speak.
I feel it deeper than I want to admit.
And it scares me, how much I feel in it.

I shouldn’t care this much…
but I do.
I shouldn’t care this much…
about you.

It’s like you handed me a truth I didn’t ask for,
Made me feel something I can’t ignore.
You stay just close enough to pull me in,
But far enough that I don’t know where you end.

I keep pretending
I’m not already gone.

There’s a hurt in the way you look at me,
Like you’re holding back something you won’t speak.
I feel it deeper than I want to admit.
And it scares me, how much I feel in it.

Maybe I saw more in your eyes than you meant.
Maybe I read every silence as intent.
But when you looked at me, I let my guard fall…
and now I’m the one left trying not to call.

There’s a hurt in the way you look at me,
And I’m trying not to sink where it leads.
I feel it deeper than you’ll ever know…
You opened something in me I can’t close.

I shouldn’t care this much…
but I do.
I shouldn’t care this much…
about you.

the way you look at me

I make music about inner change and quiet movement forward. My songs sit between reflection and motion, shaped by atmosphere, patience, and emotional honesty. Each release is a step through what’s unresolved, not a destination.

the way you look at me

Rodolfo Manuel

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