I know, I'm out of control... ;-)

Don't you hold your breath
Because I'm not coming down
The battlefields have left me only scars
And floating in the dark
I'm swimming in the sound
Of voices that should have never been apart

Darker than the blood
Higher than the sun
This is not the end
You are not the only one!

With venom on their tongues
They paint it on the walls
Where justice doesn't have the strength to hold
The higher that they climb
The harder they will fall
And we will break their bones until they fold

Darker than the blood
Higher than the sun
This is not the end
You are not the only 

In the center of the silence, 
Violent thoughts are thrown through
The thick smoke and flickering lights that brighten the room
All the things that you wanted to say 
Get lost and thrown away
You debate and hesitate to speak your mind
Can't turn back once you've crossed that line
But sometimes there's someone you know who just doesn't care
And has to see you go to ever notice you were there
You've got no control over where you go
Taken down a road that you don't know
And you feel so lost that you want to hide your face
You don't recognize the place you're in
Sometimes, the sun doesn't shine your way
And sometimes, the night doesn't turn to day
And sometimes, the light's so bright it burns through the night
To keep the darkness at bay

Darker than the blood
Higher than the sun
This is not the end
You are not the only one 
Higher than the sun
This is not the end
You are not the only one!

No, I’m just taking a shot / ah
Maybe I’m just too eager / oh 
Maybe I lost the plot / ha 
I used to pity some people / I 
Said they were missing a spine / yeah 
Maybe the problem is ego / maybe the 
Maybe the problem is mine / really I’m fine
Don’t get too intimate, don’t get too curious
This is just feeling like it’s not that serious
Stare at the ceiling / feeling delirious
Fuck all your empathy I want your fury ’cause I will just
Tell you I’m better then / better then
Spit out my medicine / medicine, ay
Drunk on adrenaline / -drenaline, ay
And I don’t know why I

I know I can't make it stop
I know I'm out of control
I keep on filling it up to overflow!!

When they come for me, I'll be gone.

Oscillation of Balance [2025]

Reflectionist