prod @ddertbag

lyrics

i lost again ig u just live and learn
i'll play pretend while everything will just burn
but everytime i try it doesn't go so well
so i just gotta hide (it's hard to reach for some help)

do i really have to know wanna stay where im at
can't reach where i wanna go ig im always last
nothing else to do so im wasting all my time 
i can't let it go cannot get it off my mind

scared of what's to come so i just sit back in the background 
scared of messing up so it just almost never works out
does it really matter, nothing feels the same
still i can't remember, can't recall my name

i've been stuck don't feel like going outside my comfort
i have no one else there is no help yea to be offered
slowly losing to myself im having these delusions
it just felt so real yea i fell for the illusion

#LiveAndLearn (ddertbag)

arid - for U (skunc + nesa) #us

you put the colour into my skin, now i'll take it away once and for all
https://soundcloud.com/jonsve
https://soundcloud.com/owtiss
prod. https://soundcloud.com/lovefelt + https://soundcloud.com/y4ndere

and i cry in the mirror, hide in the rain
dry my eyes, see it clearer, mind is a pain
and i talk to the image, talk to my brain
and i walk 'til i'm with her, walk to my grave

look me in the eyes, i don't wanna see you crying!
used to fantasize, thought about how i'd be dying
it's this flaw of mine, don't think it was worthless trying
i don't have the time, never had it, nevermind it [x2]

[ https://soundcloud.com/owtiss ]
i'm a liar, suicider
i go through this all the time
her eyes locked to mine
wish you were a little kinder
this fight isn't mine so why should i fight her?
look me in the eye, i don't wanna be a liar
it's ok, i know that i'll be fine
i go through this all the time
please don't ever cry
try my best to read between the lines
am i the one you like?
i can't help sate your desires

look me in the eyes, i don't wanna see you crying!
used to fantasize, thought about how i'd be dying
it's this flaw of mine, don't think it was worthless trying
i don't have the time, never had it, nevermind it [x2]

eyes w/ owtiss (lovefelt/yandere)

@mental

(in the abyss, the darkness x2)

trynna fall into a dream
but i cnt close my eyes ><
wht does it rlly mean
when i just wanna cry?
cn i cry inside ur arms?
it makes me feel alright...
cn u hold me in ur arms
until i feel alright?

maybe i jus think
abt it way too long :/
chewing all these pills
till my jaw hurts all night long
nd do i make a difference?
i cant tell at all
will i make it thru
when i was meant to fall?

in the abyss, the darkness...
where i was meant to fall, where i was meant to fall
in the abyss, the darkness...
with my back against the wall, theres no where else to fall
in the abyss, the darkness...
maybe its where i belong, its where i belong
in the abyss, the darkness...
nd ill still remember everything, even when im gone

(in the abyss, the darkness)
(cn u hear me on this song?
hear me on this song?)
(in the abyss, the darkness)
(ive been crying all night long,
crying all night long)

x2

still thinking (mental)

@victxrw @reincarnatesociety

last time i loved i think i learned the truth
and i watch as the vow that i made leaves with you
i dont wanna start over again but i have to 
move along the way without you 
and now its back to the smalltalk and the butterflies
why would i get butterflies if they all just die
no matter how hard i try, youre just unsatisfied 
theres no more tears you can wipe, cause all my tears are all dry --

nabi ft. victxrw

2024-5-27
"I'll keep on pushing forward until I find the answer."

https://open.spotify.com/album/2yd9CL8xj25CCtJRkClo8j?si=ihZaJ2KFRamUles_ZFilZw

tysm to @loveismisery for the crazy beat!

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losing my patience
take a step back, heart racing
hold me in your arms, i can't face it
oh oh
running out of time, i can make it
pushing it aside, then we'll take it back

how'd i get this far out of track
hold me close, don't hold me back
and i don't really like that
but i can't change my heart again

i was scared to lose a friend
holding my heart in your hands
and i don't wanna fight back
oh, so just do it all again

(i do it all again)
(turn our hearts to make amends)
(i'm so scared to let this end)
(so i'll do it all again)

so i'll do it all again
(so i do it all again)
i don't wanna fall again
(hold me in your arms, please don't let me go)

hold me down, it's swarming in my head
argue all you want, curse the words i never said, "i love you"
hold on to the tears i couldn't shed
tell them that i'm fine, but it's all up in my head

(lost touch, turned my heart into stone)
(hold me close, don't let me go)
(lately i've felt so alone)
(watching time fly, eyes closed, i've been on my own)

but i can't change my heart again
i was scared to lose a friend
holding my heart in your hands
and i don't wanna fight back
oh, so just do it all again

curse the words i never said
paint a picture on my head
still, i don't want to fight back
oh, so we'll do it all again

again, again, again, again

patience (kyoa)

@owtiss
prod @owtiss again!!!

this song is based on the trauma a really good friend of mine went through recently so this song means a lot to the 2 of us. i hope you like it! :)

everything u said u never meant
idk where the truth begins and the lies end
do what you want and u play with my heart
and i think im enough
but it feels like im not
and everything u said u never meant
idk where the truth begins and the lies end
do what you want and u play with my heart
and i think im enough
but it feels like im not

it was never ur decision to make
u just wanted to leave while ur ahead
and now my head is a mess
and i just dont understand
whats going on in ur head?
u never cared in the end...

and now my bed is so quiet
and im so pissed
i cant be perfect
ive been so nautious
i know u know this
why dont u own it?
u were just posing
and u cant be honest

i dont wna hear ur piss poor excuses
had an opportunity to bruise me, u used it
its always more trauma waiting when i break thru it
i gave everything and all i am to u is "amusing"
ive had enough..

made this song in 4 hours from 4am to 8am on 9/15/2024
also the end bit sounds like castle crashers and i thought it was funny lol

quiet (me)

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!
@resolve1k

@victxrw
would you take it back if you had another chance 
"would you be upset if i found another man"
did you do it all to hurt me?
was that the plan?
cuz i feel like you cursed me
and in my head 
staring a the ceiling, something has to change
something has to move, need to rearrange 
dont know what's the difference between love and pain
maybe its no different its just all the same

@arid
i dont wanna change for you 
leave it all behind
over again its corrupting my mind
tell me im insane
then ill lose my brain
do it everytime you would call my name 
i know everytime that i wasnt aware
i know everytime you would look and stare 
in my face, i dont wanna talk like it wasn't erased
i dont want to stop i keep losing my place

@k4rson
i know you hate me, i know its all my fault
i swear im changing, you didnt change at all
when i dont see you, i go through withdrawls
just to get another chance, you know i would risk it all
i would do it all again, howd we let it fall?
girl im a fucking mess, you dont wanna see me at all
just get out of my head, miss those nights when we would call
was it something that i said?
i know its all my fault, i know its all my fault.

another chance - victxrw + arid + karson (inno)

@kyoakyo @jonsve #remedy

having doubts
u bring me down
im hearing sounds
they're getting loud
i never wanted to end but u tune me out
again
i tried for u
it doesn't matter
i hate me too
at one point i had her
i hate 2 lose
my mind is shattered
fuck all the cards
so ill play them better

hurts me 2 cry
i cant sleep at night
u cared, no
so ill tie the ropes
u take the knife
n u take my life
im tired of u 
but ill make it thru
get me outtt
ima drownn
is it over? im falling downn
give me closure, i want it noww

@jonsve
you shot a bullet through my heart
it left a hole
through which love for you departs
and forms a pool
at the bottom of my mattress, i die
i mean, how could i forget this goodbye?

you planned the ending from the start
you're the burning in my soul 
i don't know when to play my cards
should i play the cards at all?
i need closure to restart
i need closure to be whole
i need closure to be, whole
i don't need anything to help the pain to fall
i like hurting when it's you that caused it all
you make me feel so small, i need your voice on a call
i need your chapter to close, so please make sense of it all

hurts me 2 cry
i cant sleep at night
u cared, no
so ill tie the ropes
u take the knife
n u take my life
im tired of u
but ill make it thru
get me outtt
ima drownn
is it over? im falling downn
give me closure, i want it noww

closure +jons (kyoa)

i got a spotify now!!

prod. @bothhappyandsad @seoulisms 
ty wallflower for awsom beat :D

send biteki some love for the amv

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you say you dont mind
baby, if i fuck it up
(you) gotta promise you wont hate me 
till tomorrow, tell me love
i dont need anything else
cos you’re already who i love
dont let me stay by myself
cos ive been all outta luck

yeah im whispering my heart out
you dont know all that i go through
to reach you till i black out
and i come back to my senses
see these fucking faces
they welcome back my self doubt again

why wont i make sense
now ur tryna frame me
i wont take the blame baby
you js lit a flame yeah
girl what do you mean yeah 
what are we to be 
if we aint one and the same

love (wallflower, seoul)

GISELLE - Dopamine (WESLEY OU remix)

we go our separate ways in this frozen wasteland 

@1aprilshowers @afterstoryx
@kess0kuband @lovecrysis

and reunite in the blooming meadows of spring.


*building the world i wanted to give to you*

patience (kyoa)

Remilia