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i know this song seems out of nowhere but it's primarily just a vent tbh and sorry if this is rambly.

i'm in one of those ruts again where i want to be left alone yet fear it
i know that my mind telling me to isolate myself is to be self-destructive but i can't help but desire the concept of just vanishing from existence as a whole and to have never existed.

i can't do that though, it would hurt people and i'm aware. a lot has gone into making me who i am, such as the training that med school has given me so far, or Parable, or my friends and close ones who i love with all my heart. it would all go to waste.

i can't help but feel this pressure of having to be the most energetic and excitable. i feel like i always have to be entertaining and keep people happy, and that i cannot get burned out, yet it's happening, and it's happening fast.

i don't know how to piece my thoughts or get across what i'm trying to say and frankly, this is a complete mental dump here. i'm aware many other people are going through the same thing, but every single day feels like a repeat of itself, and i'm watching people close to me also decline mentally and slowly fall into the rut i'm in, and it crushes me.

seeing once lively and energetic loved ones slowly succumb to the mental torture that we have to endure due to current circumstances globally hurts. i feel useless and helpless. i know it's not my battle and theirs but god i wish i could do something to help. i wish i knew a way to get them out of it and remind them of the good things life holds, yet i can't even tell myself that.

this song is a prelude to the next album im planning on releasing, or selection of songs. "only good for giving" will encompass all of the things i have felt over the last few years and how much it has shaped me, because frankly the last couple years have been hell and have completely changed who i am as an individual, thankfully making me better and more self-aware, but not in an ideal way.

i apologise for this mental dump and just want to reassure that i know i can get through this and that i'm using the help and support available, such as my friends and therapy. i just felt sharing it and telling the story behind this song was something nice to do.

if you are going through anything at all and feel like you're trapped or lost, you have me. although everything i said above sounds incredibly pessimistic, all of these things will end soon, and we'll be working our way towards better futures

nothing special

please leave me alone

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HYPERTRANCE VOL. 1 compilation album: https://volantmusic.bandcamp.com/album/hypertrance-vol-1 //// https://volant.space/

huge shoutout @nuphory for the mixing and mastering ♥

feel free to [repost] ↻ to support my stuff so others can listen!!!

video: https://youtu.be/XYMd5WRfuB8
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lyrics:
[sampled from SCP: Secret Laboratory]

mobile Task Force Unit Epsilon-11
designated: ????-05 -- has entered the facility

all remaining personnel are advised
to proceed with standard evacuation protocols
until an MTF squad reaches your destination

substantial threat to safety remains within the facility
--exercise caution

Shifted [HYPERTRANCE VOL. 1]

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𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒛𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒗𝒐𝒊𝒅. 𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒑𝒖𝒓𝒑𝒐𝒔𝒆. 𝒂 𝒔𝒖𝒃𝒕𝒍𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒘𝒆𝒓. 𝒂𝒏 𝒖𝒏𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒍𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕.

Imprint for Charity is an electronic music compilation album organized by Kiana Li, Adrian Wrobel & Oliver Varga. The latter two were involved in previous various artist projects, of which this compilation is a spiritual successor. Sourcing musical and graphic design talent from their corner of the electronic music scene, a roster was developed with an emphasis on properly representing LGBTQ voices. We aimed to curate an understated and no-frills collection of underground electronic sounds, ranging from ambient to dark drum & bass.

The charity compilation is in support of Mermaids, a UK charity and advocacy organization that supports gender-diverse and transgender youth. All proceeds from the album will be directed to Mermaids. From the team at Imprint, we hope you will support the album & our cause.

Find out more about Mermaids here!
http://mermaidsuk.org.uk/

— 𝒑𝒖𝒓𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒔𝒆.

「  unending light  —  luna lenta x nuphory 」𝒂 𝒔𝒖𝒃𝒕𝒍𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒘𝒆𝒓.

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SIRIUS - oleander

Hello, we are PHONO MUSIC.

The year 2022 is coming to an end, and PHONO MUSIC will also welcome our second album. I believe that 2022 will be an extraordinary year for everyone. Some words that will be written into history fall into reality, and we are suddenly pulled and washed by the turbulent current of the times, unable to open our eyes, and our steps become faltering.

People like to look for the feeling of flying in their dreams when they are attracted by heavy gravity and cannot fly. Dream is the key to unlock the chains of life and the plum used by the free soul to quench thirst. We use dreams to depict and record some paintings that will not change with the flow of time, carve the melody beyond the dimension on the soft and erratic memory, and write a song that looms in everyone's mind.

——

Visual design：陈泽钧/GBXIN
Release Label：PHONO MUSIC
2022 ALL RIGHTS
RESERVED

DREAMLAND

格里特 - Mirabell Garden

rockin chrome hearts i put ts on prod killniq nd settlexx / insta @knesantana

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Listen to the Sequel "Finding Dawn Beyond The Mistfall" : https://soundcloud.com/jpebro/finding-dawn-beyond-the-mistfall

Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/3SHxsFurNwKcnrAgQUVgl8

The Dream Team: @dreamteamofficial
@felimos / @officialcodly / @jpebro / @aethoro / @glassemusic / @unit333

Artwork by @aethoro

We made this in 24 hours for @artbyform's "All Nighter 5" event. Unfortunately, it didn't make the cut :(

I had a lot of fun making this and it was a huge honor working with every single one of these guys. They are all so individually talented, please go check them out!!

Originally, we all met during glasse's orchestral set for Andromeda set @shimotsukiclub. Out of nowhere, we started role-playing going on adventures and pretending to fight a dragon named Zucchini lmao (RIP I hope they're alright ;-;)

~

Order of Appearance / Credits

Intro (0:00 - 1:33): Aethoro + unit333’s vocals + glasse’s drums + Felimos sfx
Piano/Orchestral section (1:33 - 2:43): Felimos + unit333's vocals
Drop 1 (2:43 - 3:28): Felimos + Codly's Violin
Bridge(3:28 - 4:16): Codly + Felimos's Additional Piano 
Drop 2 (4:16 - 4:56): JPEBRO + Codly's Additional Bass
Outro (4:56 - 5:41): Felimos

~

Lyrics:

(unit333)
Spending your days
Lost in the darkness

Searching for all 
The right answers

You're all that you need
You're all that you need
You're all that you need

(JPEBRO)
Dream Team

Check my style and flow
Bring along the dope

And that’s not all
‘Cause I’m about to go

~

Final Mixing & Mastering by JPEBRO

Song title by Felimos

Felimos, Codly, JPEBRO, Aethoro, glasse & unit333 - A Distant Village On The Eastside

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the back to back that throws the bass in ya face!

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nothing special.
a beautiful, yet hurtful life.

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please leave me alone

Revenant

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