featured artist @ihatebixby
guitar @lunamatic
additional production @prodelxnce

fakeout

deep end

(plays are botted)

prod.me

i move, i move flawless
talk down to my brothers 
we gon' pop shit
telling me to shut up
i ain't toxic 
yea, find the key to shit
but i ain't lock it 
up ...
i don't move back
they know that i'm done
why you so mad? 
why you so sad? 
did you think i'm dumb?
if you doubt yourself ...
guess i already won 

i could NEVER fail
do this shit twice
i don't need help
yea, you see me goin up 
don't know how to feel
yea the message still stands
HOPE YOU GET WELL

cuz i move i move flawless
cuz i move i move flawless
cuz i move i move flawless
i move. 

[-50]

flawless

cover photo by @zzoos
samples works by @vaultofsecrets854
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(where are you, where are you)
oh i cant say i feel the same as you
what do you want
its irrational, a place not meant for two
what are you on

i guess lets make the most, of this
the little time you have left
oh, will you fade away
lets make the most
before youre gone

will you think of me?
oh, i hope not
i pull the petals off, loves me not

love me, love me not
i dont care when im in your thoughts
and as i watch you rot and decay, i feel invincible
oh its all that i want

i guess lets make the most, of this
the little time you have left
oh, will you fade away
lets make the most
before youre gone

i guess lets make the most, of this
the little time you have left
oh, will you fade away
please dont come back
lets make the most
before youre gone

ill die all over again

love me, love me not

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1JAV46oTdV7Z05cJZIF0ac?si=67e499cfa1f6436c

lyrics:
i know your starving in heaven 
i know your starving in heaven
are we all meant to die (die)
are we all meant to

stop!
are you a fan of a person you dont like
if you cant stand closing the curtains when its night 
and i cant tell if im doing this all right 
and i cant tell if you're doin alright 

(stop) i got 24 missed calls inside my inbox
too many gamma rays around me need to detox
you got me trapped inside your springlocks (springlocks)

(stop) cus im so constantly worried like "what do they think about me" "am i not interesting" 
its getting harder to sleep without you
you said its only me but why am i counting two

i know you're different when there's no one in sight 
you cant help but bring me to life
(bring me to life)
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life

well what do you think 
why you so bad
you've done terrible things
you ain't the one to change cus you've never been

i know you're different when there's no one in sight 
you cant help but bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life

(i cant believe you, i cant believe)
(i cant believe you, i cant believe)
(i cant believe you, i cant believe)

bring me to life

https://ffm.to/windwatcher

cover art by me

with her wings to the sea, she voyages onward
_____________________

touching the ground
you fell pretty hard, didn't you?
fjording the sound
kindle my claws and i'll come with you
brushing the bound
whistled in burlap it's sowing through
and no-one's in rounds
thistled in furrows i'm folding through

windwatcher, harvest the breadth from the rines
windwatcher, carving your stead in some time
windwatcher, caught all the arrows and climbed 
windwatcher, don't harken to them you'll be fine
windwatcher, cherish the callows in twine
windwatcher, spread both your wings and you'll fly

haunches and hallocks
had lost all the follage 
in bolstering burgeons 
had hauled out the hallage
surfeited solace
i'll foster the foundage
i know it all too well
staves aching but you're holding still

touching the ground
you fell pretty hard didn't you
fjording the sound
kindle my claws and i'll come with you
mooring the crown 
when you had harbored no solitude 
in laurels lain down
i'm done trying hard not to look at you
i know it all too well
staves aching but you're holding still 
unroven catching silt
caudal curled up, exalt shouldered will 
i know it all too well
staves aching but you're holding still
unroven catching silt
caudal curled up, exalt shouldered will

windwatcher, harvest the breadth from the rines
windwatcher, carving your stead in some time
windwatcher, caught all the arrows and climbed 
windwatcher, don't harken to them you'll be fine
windwatcher, cherish the callows in twine
windwatcher, spread both your wings and you'll fly

windwatcher

hypnotized
if you come down to the garden we could verbalize
for the hollow of your mother
you could chase the time
and turn it into something else
all the things you did to me are poisoned
with immaculate intelligence that i feel
whoever told you that You can turn it down at godspeed

its ok now
but all i wanted was a feeling

one free fall
shutdown
rising me from the above
smacking me into the ground
if i could
i would let you know the truth
but all i see is staring at and waiting for me
cant let it decieve

all the morning routes
and the night sky
we're just falling out
in a new time
line the feeling
open my eyes
break the ceiling
as the wall cries
about meanings
no regarding
only live it
in the timelapse
and believe it
like do magic
like the kids we used to be

one free fall
shutdown
rising me from the above
smacking me into the ground
all i see is burning colors
i dont wanna see the light

Break the pen
I dont wanna play nor pretend
That we could be something that would work
Only if we break all the amends
I dont wanna have you as a friend and i dont wanna hear from you again
Everything thats been on your mouth
You can let it have some air
I fall through the pieces of the glass
Always on my phone but left on read
I dont wanna feel like im a mess
But i really think that im a mess
I dont wanna have you as a friend and i dont wanna hear from you again
Everything thats been on your mouth

https://www.instagram.com/p/C-99kt1MsWI/

soft

ID *VIP

damn, it's been a while since i logged on here, sorry about that.

found this one digging through his old hard drive, there's a bunch of songs i want to upload from there at some point. Never even knew he made this until recently though, makes me wonder how much other music of his remained unfinished or lost.

anyway, from the lyrics i can kind of piece together the circumstances being written about here, but i think it would be better kept a personal matter. I will say that it's something me and him both had to deal with, and it was probably significantly harder on him. That kid went through an amount of hardship that would break most people.

come to think of it 2011 was just a bad year in general for us. Mom was really struggling to make ends meet, dad's health was getting worse, and we'd basically been forced to sell the couple acres that our grandpa gave us in his will. Good news though was our older sister had moved back from out of state, so she was supporting us in any way she could.

Zion had also lost a close friend that year unfortunately. Everyone had said it was a vehicle accident, but i learned later he'd been fucking around with inhalants, and that was that. Can't even imagine how hard it must've been on his parents. Sadder part is it wasn't even that uncommon, around that area at least. Even the most unassuming blue collar neighborhoods can be hiding really deplorable shit. I do hope that wherever Zion is now though, he has better friends. Because he deserved them.

i saw a seraph on the street today. he was laughing and crying, cause nobody knew his name

i saw the devil on the promenade. bundled in flagstone, writing checks that I can’t pay

and I’m watching the couples huddle up
and I wonder how much is not enough
but if you’d answer that question for me baby
i might not wonder if I’ll ever be loved

carriage, brim your bones

i saw my father on the news today. he was tracing his prayer beads, as the red and blue took him away

bevel the whipsaw for the cavalcade. I’m eating your bullets, with a spoon made out of clay

and I am a lamb wrapped up in thermogen. shear off all the stope you take

keep her there, failing throne

and I’m watching the couples huddle up
and I wonder how much is not enough
but if you’d answer that question for me baby
i might not wonder if I’ll ever be loved

i know you're starting to get scared of me
the more i try, the worse it gets
and i can't stand the way they stare at me
but i'll try to live with my regrets

flagstone𐂂𐂂𐂂nov2010.wav

art: @xaev 
prod.me 

she said it's cold but i wanna 
hear the wind outside, and i'll 
act like it's my birthday but
i'm not alright

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

she said it's cold but i wanna 
hear the wind outside, and i'll 
act like it's my birthday but
i'm not alright

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

i don't wanna die
it's only sometimes
she says that i'm fine
it's all in my mind
i don't wanna die
i don't wanna die
it's only sometimes 

close my eyes and i'll see

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

JUST TAKE WHAT YOU WANT
I HATE GAIN AND LOSS 
I'VE LOST THE WHOLE PLOT!!!!!!!!!!

close my eyes and i'll see.

gain & loss

7 months of no creativity and i finally finished this

WILL BE ON SPOTIFY SOON IM SO ANNOYED AND SORRY